Not lovers? It's not a lover, you still say such a sensual thing, and whoever looks at it will think that the relationship between the two of you is not ordinary. Hu Zongren said to Mr. Du. After Mr. Du sighed, he leaned heavily on the back of the sofa, looked up at the chandelier on the top, and said slowly, this matter is a long story.

I said to Mr. Du, we have time, you can tell us about this matter carefully, of course, there are some things that are too private that you can ignore, if you want. Mr. Du looked at me and said, "These things are told to you, will you believe them?" I replied to him, "Do you have anyone else to speak to now besides us?"

Mr. Du said that the thing is like this, a few years ago, he was studying abroad, although he had returned to China several years ago, but he had not received a graduation certificate in school, so a few years ago, he asked for leave from the unit, went back to the school for graduation defense, and then graduated. Mr. Du said, you must have seen a photo of me when I graduated in the drawer, and that was the last time I stayed abroad.

Mr. Du continued, but before that, he was already in China, and by chance wandering on the Internet, he entered a dating website in the same city, in which he chatted with many men and women he did not know responsibly, but during this period, he met a female college student, that is, Zhang Hong. Mr. Du said that Zhang Hong gave me a different feeling, she seemed to be very introverted, and she didn't talk much, when chatting with everyone in the chat room, she would always become the one who was automatically ignored by everyone, and she always felt that she had been brewing for a long time before saying something, but no one paid attention to her.

Hu Zongren asked Mr. Du, how did you start getting in touch? Mr. Du said that it was because there was a woman in the chat room that day who kept bragging about her beauty and kept sending photos, so Zhang Hong accosted her and said, "It's so beautiful, it was originally a very simple compliment, but she was instigated by the woman to let Zhang Hong also send photos." For most male netizens, it is a happy thing to have a girl exposing her photos. So everyone has been urging Zhang Hong to post photos, even including Mr. Du himself, but Zhang Hong has repeatedly postponed, which has made many other netizens feel dissatisfied, saying that she has a big shelf and that she is not sincere in making friends. Only Mr. Du didn't say that, but secretly chatted with Zhang Hong in private.

Mr. Du said, I admit that I was also selfish at that time, and thought that maybe Zhang Hong was a little embarrassed to post photos because there were too many people in the chat room, so I planned to chat privately to see if I could deceive the photos. Actually, I do this kind of thing a lot, but I never tell anyone about it. Mr. Du went on to say that because his level was relatively high, he quickly won Zhang Hong's trust, and in this process, Mr. Du also began to feel that Zhang Hong was an independent-minded and very delicate girl, and he had a good impression of such an intellectual girl. Mr. Du offered to meet at a time, but Zhang Hong refused, and Zhang Hong demanded that our friendship start with a pen pal exchange of letters.

So the two of them began to correspond with each other, and from the correspondence, Mr. Du learned some information about Zhang Hong, who was a college student from a district and county in Chongqing who had been admitted to the main city, and who usually did not go home much, and would only go back during the holidays. The university she attended is a famous university in Chongqing, which shows that she is studying well. Since Mr. Du himself is a person with a high degree of education, he naturally has a good impression of such a girl who likes to study. And he also learned that Zhang Hong's family background is actually average, although he is not rich, but his family is not bad. But between the lines, he gradually noticed that Zhang Hong had a very calm heart, she didn't seem to care about many bad words around her, but that was only on the surface, and deep down, she was inferior, very withdrawn, and had no friends.

Hu Zongren asked Mr. Du, "Have you seen her photos when you know this?" Mr. Du shook his head and said that there was no such thing as at that time. On the one hand, I feel that this way is very nostalgic, and on the other hand, because Zhang Hong talks very decently and is consistent with his own thinking circle, so there is a sense of closeness. Mr. Du said with a wry smile that sometimes it is really only imagination that is the most beautiful, if I had known that Lu Dao was like this, I would never have asked her for photos.

I know what he means, and he must have been the same as when I had a pen pal, asking for a photo, and then he died. Mr. Du said that after the correspondence reached a certain level, he felt that Zhang Hong was an old friend with the same frequency as himself, and he liked Zhang Hong very much, so he gradually began to be a little ambiguous between the lines and began to express his thoughts. And the same situation is the same on Zhang Hong's side, and the two began to be a little nervous because of some letters. But such emotions are false, so Mr. Du proposed that we either meet again, but before we meet, we need to have photos to get to know each other. In that letter, Mr. Du took the lead in mailing his photo to Zhang Hong, and the reply letter he received included the photo we found in the envelope earlier.

Mr. Du smiled bitterly and said, to tell the truth, I am also an ordinary person, so my sentiments are not very noble, and when I saw Zhang Hong's photo, I did feel very disappointed. But I also understand that a person's appearance and conduct have nothing to do with it, but because of the relationship between photos, when I think of Zhang Hong, my appearance becomes very specific, and because of this, I can no longer find the appearance of Zhang Hong that I once fantasized about in my mind, and I can't even remember it at all. This feeling made Mr. Du a little frustrated, and he had some thoughts of retreating.

Mr. Du said, you have also seen the first letter I wrote, that letter, my heart is very conflicted, on the one hand, I do not want to admit that I am a person who judges people by their appearance, on the other hand, I think that if I cut off contact with Zhang Hong because of this, it will hurt the hearts of others. So I wrote to Zhang Hong according to my habits, but I never sent the letter out again. I asked Mr. Du, then I see that in your subsequent letters, it seems that you are still continuing to enlighten and encourage Zhang Hong, since you didn't send it, then how do you know what problems she encountered. Mr. Du sighed and said that it was actually because he had not replied to the letter for a long time, so Zhang Hong called himself and asked if it was because he had not received the letter. At that time, Mr. Du lied and replied to Zhang Hong that he had actually received it, but he was too busy with his recent work and did not have time to reply to the letter. Mr. Du said that in fact, every time she called me, she pretended that nothing was wrong, but I understood that she actually knew that the main reason why I didn't reply was because I saw her photo, and she had been discriminated against and looked at differently countless times because of her appearance over the years, and I couldn't hide it from her at all. Mr. Du continued, but we still pretended on the phone that it hadn't happened, but that feeling had changed after all.

Mr. Du went on to say that because of the habit he had developed for a long time, he still wrote down some words that were not said on the phone but felt that they should be said after hanging up the phone every time, but he understood that if he continued to reply to the letter, then he would give Zhang Hong a kind of hope, which was very luxurious, and he could not give it to her at all. In order not to make her feel that she had changed, he also lied that he had asked someone from abroad to bring her a beautiful dress, and planned to send it to him when he had the opportunity. In fact, what he thought in his heart was that he just found a time to buy a dress and prevaricate. I asked Mr. Du, did you buy it? Mr. Du asked me what I bought. I said clothes. Mr. Du shook his head and said, I didn't buy it, I haven't bought it so far.

I also sighed and said, I now understand why Zhang Hong's ghost will be in your closet.

After saying this, everyone fell silent.

After a while, Mr. Du continued, but then we exchanged phone calls most of the time, occasionally texting. And Zhang Hong also took the initiative to invite himself out to meet for dinner, but he chose to prevaricate in various ways and did not go to the appointment. Mr. Du said that after writing the last letter to her, I felt that it was time to make a break, but I couldn't hurt her too much, so he sealed the letter that was written, connected to the photo sent by Zhang Hong, and began not to answer the phone or reply to text messages, he thought that he did this, and Zhang Hong understood what he meant after a little longer, even if he was sad and sad, it was only a temporary thing, and the days still had to go on. More than a year ago, Zhang Hong sent a message to himself for the last time, and the content of the message was, let's do it, see you again.

After speaking, Mr. Du flipped out his mobile phone and found the message to show us. But that's all we see, and he explains that all but this one has been deleted by himself. Take it as a commemoration, after all, we got acquainted.

After listening to Mr. Du's words, I began to realize that in fact, he is a good person, and he hopes to give a girl with low self-esteem in his own way a little encouragement, but he has no choice but to develop his feelings a little beyond his control. And this is not just Mr. Du's problem, as Zhang Hong, for a long time by others to look at him differently, Mr. Du's appearance is undoubtedly like a savior, can understand himself, understand himself, to a certain extent, Mr. Du is Zhang Hong in addition to his own family, a very important way of spiritual sustenance, regardless of whether he eventually becomes a lover or a friend, Mr. Du's existence is very special for Zhang Hong. Coupled with Zhang Hong's last text message that seemed to be goodbye, although it was not revealed, it was obvious that he was actually disappointed and blamed for Mr. Du.

So I said to Mr. Du, since this is the case, I probably know what to do. However, since you only learned about Zhang Hong's death today, and we didn't know this person beforehand, we need to understand the cause of her death, and hope that she didn't commit suicide because of your disappointment.

Mr. Du didn't speak, but hung his head a little reproachfully.