Chapter 229: My Heart Is Getting Cold
In the He family's villa, there is a mixture of happiness and sadness.
The two elders of the He family and the four of them kept reflecting on the mistakes they had made in the exchanges, and their attitude of admitting their mistakes was unprecedentedly good.
Can it not be good? After more than 20 years, parents, daughters, and sons-in-law are actually in the same city, and as a result, they have not seen each other or communicated with each other for so many years, and the father is not the father, the daughter is not the daughter, and the mother is not the mother.
When his body was still strong, He Zuye always held his breath and couldn't swallow it, and even Dong Zhixiu was very disappointed in He Xiangxiang. But He Suixiang was heartbroken by the ruthlessness and coldness of her parents.
None of them could have imagined that more than 20 years of this insistence had passed. Occasionally, when you get news from the newspaper or other media, you still have to take a sneak look, and you have to pretend not to care.
Persevering to the end, when remorse arises, they have already wasted their lives for more than 20 years. It is the past 20 years that have paid for their stubbornness and persistence, whether they are old or young, without exception, they are physically and mentally exhausted.
In a battle with loved ones, no one side is the winner, because they are all the losers.
Unless, parental affection is no longer important in your heart!
The tears that He Xiangxiang shed in the He family that day can be the sum of the tears she has shed over the years. Her regret can be imagined how mountainous and tsunami it is.
It's just that she regrets coming too late! The moment she saw her parents with gorgeous hair and an aging appearance, regret was like a landslide that knocked her down.
She trembled her hands and stroked the old mother's silver hair, and her tears never stopped. She is an unfilial daughter! For so many years, I have missed these years of my parents' old age. Now, when they were dying, she turned around and came back to admit her mistake.
If she could figure it out earlier and come back early to admit her mistakes, maybe she wouldn't have missed so many days when she could be happy with her parents, and she wouldn't have missed their old years.
Qin Meiyu looked at her grandfather, grandmother, and mother, the regret in everyone's expressions, and the self-blame in their words, she was embarrassed, and tears rolled in her eyes. No matter at any time or in any state, family affection can't be thrown away!
She raised her hand and quietly wiped away the falling tears, quietly glanced at Qin Shumo, and then at Zhang Lixing. The two of them are her brother, and the other is her cousin. She hopes that they will always be friendly and harmonious, and that they will not repeat the mistakes of the past.
Looking at Zhang Lixing, Qin Meiyu suddenly remembered the "grievances" between her mother and He Hongsleeve. 's mother was desperate for love and left home and left everything, but in the end, all this made He Hongsleeve carry it. I think He Hongsleeve has a hatred for his mother, right?
Qin Meiyu remembered that in those days when she saw He Hongsleeve, she always looked at her with a complicated gaze. Looking back now, there is obviously hatred and pain in He Hongsleeve's eyes, as well as deep resentment. It's just that at that time, she didn't understand why a stranger always looked at her with that weird gaze.
Now that she understands, she feels that it is indeed her mother who owes He Hongsleeves. Compared with He Hongsleeve's sacrifice and fulfillment, his mother's escape for love seems to be extraordinarily selfish.
Qin Meiyu sighed softly, alas! It's all unsettled accounts! Mom can easily get forgiveness from her grandparents, but it may not be so easy with her sister He Hongsleeve. After all, He Hongsleeve sacrificed his love and happiness to complete the fate that should have belonged to He Suixiang.
Zhang Lixing, who also knew the twists and turns like Qin Meiyu, saw Qin Meiyu's expression, saw her worries, and raised his hand to rub her hair: "Don't worry about it!" It's an old story of the elders, and it has nothing to do with us. Don't worry. They have their own ways and means. ”
The sentence "It has nothing to do with us" said Zhang Lixing's heart. How he wished it had nothing to do with him! He is also Qin Meiyu's classmate and friend, just a simple classmate, without any other additional relatives. It's just that it backfired! He was destined not to be with her, to watch the flowers bloom and fall and the clouds roll up with her. He wasn't destined to be the one who could be with her for the rest of his life!
He Xiangxiang's family of four was warmly left for dinner by He Zuye's old couple.
The second elder of the He family looked at the daughter and son-in-law who loved each other, and the smile on his face was not forgotten. Looking at the polite and handsome Qin Shumo, and Qin Meiyu, who is lively and clever and does not lose everyone's beautiful demeanor, the second elder is how satisfied he is.
After dinner, when he was about to return to the aristocratic university, Zhang Lixing was naturally sent to Qin Shumo's car by the second elder of the He family, so that their cousins and cousins could get acquainted with each other.
With Zhang Lixing here, Qin Meiyu is not good to sit in the co-pilot seat again. She sat in the back seat with Zhang Lixing.
Qin Meiyu happily chatted with Zhang Lixing: "I didn't expect us to be cousins!" I can't imagine it! Alas, you said that we knew each other, was it destined in the dark? ”
The light in the car was dim, and in the dimness, Zhang Lixing allowed his emotions to leak out, did not restrain at all, and let it flood.
I think that when he left an impression on her, it was when he went out to send her love letters, right? At that time, she had been with her classmates for nearly a month, and she had no impression of him. And he just watched her quietly for nearly a month.
At that time, Qin Meiyu was relatively closed, and she was almost alone in what she did, coming and going in a hurry. It's as if she's just a passer-by in this world, and she doesn't care about anyone or anything, and she doesn't care.
He could see the faint alienation between her eyebrows at that time, just like he had before, and had to keep his distance from everyone for physical reasons.
When he first saw her, he was amazed that there was someone who looked very much like him before. But when I looked closely, I found that there was always a faint and almost imperceptible sadness between her eyebrows, like clouds and mist, always lingering between her eyebrows.
He was curious about her and couldn't help but take a few more looks. But looking at it, I just saw her in my heart. She can also laugh, like a heartless child when she laughs, but it naturally brings out everyone's beautiful reserve. It's contradictory, but she doesn't feel any contradiction in her.
When she laughed, her eyes sparkled, not like a child without any thoughts. But her every move always reveals her good qualities. This shows that her home education must be very, very good. Otherwise, how can you maintain innocence while still having a high level of quality in advance and retreat?
Qin Meiyu is really a special existence among the few girls Zhang Lixing has seen. His heart, which was silent and only silently waiting for the judgment of death, suddenly began to beat and became full of vitality and hope for life.
He didn't know if it was good or bad for him. If his life is only a few short years, then he hopes to be able to love well in these few years. Even if the other party doesn't love him at all! Even if he stood by her side as a friend, it didn't matter. Even if he is humbled in love, he doesn't care. All he had to do was see her happy!
He has struggled, hesitated, withdrawn, and longed. He is not a reckless man who has no scruples, and certainly does not think only about his own feelings.
When he finally mustered up the courage to confess to her, she would not even pay attention to the content of the love letter he wrote, only to his words!
Zhang Lixing smiled helplessly in the dark, maybe the process of their acquaintance was destined for him to usher in a tragedy. From the beginning to the end, there was no hope for him, whether he was brave or not.
Now, he is even less qualified and unqualified to say that word to her.
Indeed, they are indeed destined to know each other, but they are just cousins!
Zhang Lixing pulled the corners of his mouth, smiled bitterly, raised his hand and rubbed Qin Meiyu's hair: "It's so noisy, let me rest for a while!" ”
When he turned his head, two tears slipped down without a trace, reflecting the neon outside the car window in the darkness, flashing so fast that it was impossible to read.
There was silence in the carriage, and Qin Meiyu fell asleep boringly.
In the darkness, a pair of eyes hid in the shadows, greedily watching her sleeping face.
After Qin Meiyu returned to the dormitory, she was caught by Liu Yafang and a few people to teach her a lesson.
She was so stunned by the three of them that she didn't know what was going on, and looked at the three of them strangely: "What's wrong?" Why are you so excited all of a sudden? ”
Liu Yafang took her mobile phone, and Bala handed the mobile phone to Qin Meiyu to see: "Look at it, Jiang Wenhao and Liang Jihong openly appeared in front of the media together!" What does it mean for two people to be together? Don't tell me you don't know! ”
Qin Meiyu looked at the report on her phone in a daze: "When did this happen?" ”
"It's afternoon to evening." Zhang Xiaoyun pouted and told Qin Meiyu.
"Oh! That's it! Qin Meiyu just glanced at the title and returned the phone to Liu Yafang. As for what the report is, she doesn't have the strength to read it anymore.
For so many days, Jiang Wenhao said that he had work to deal with, so he really didn't come to school, and even since then, he hasn't called her.
She blindly saw reports about Jiang Wenhao and Liang Jihong from newspapers, media, and TV. Once or twice, she can make excuses to comfort herself, but it is just a coincidence, it is all wrong reports by the entertainment media, and it cannot be taken seriously.
But gradually more and more, she had to believe that maybe there was really "love" between them. And this "love" is something she can't get into.
Clearly aware of this, Qin Meiyu's heart gradually became cold.
Looking at Qin Meiyu like this, Liu Yafang and Li Juanxiu glanced at each other, and it was not good to say any more words of exhortation that they had discussed and prepared to say before, but silently returned to their beds and prepared to go to bed early.
Zhang Xiaoyun opened her mouth and wanted to say something, but was glared at by Li Juanxiu, and turned around and walked into the bathroom stupidly.
Early the next morning, Qin Meiyu and Liu Yafang were going to the restaurant for breakfast with a smile on their faces as usual.
From the moment she walked out of the dormitory, there were always girls who kept looking at her, and pointed their fingers from time to time.
Qin Meiyu tilted her head strangely, was there something that she didn't know about happening?
Occasionally, the girls' words drifted into her ears.
“…… That's her, right? You see......"
"That's right, it's her ......"
“…… I can't imagine ......."
“…… The man ......"