Chapter 112: A Sense of Crisis

As I know, man is a habitual animal, as long as he is used to anything, he can easily complete it, Chen Xin gradually got used to close-quarters fighting, now his movements are smooth and accurate, the bloody and unpleasant smell has no effect on him, I have also changed from the beginning of the nervous to the current leisurely, I leaned on the motorcycle and lit a cigarette for myself and watched my little apprentice cut three zombies to the ground.

"Tired or not?" Chen Xin killed three zombies and ran back to me, I helped him wipe the blood splashed on his face, and asked with a smile.

"Not tired." Chen Xin shook her head very hard, and her childish face was a little red because of excitement.

"Liliang comes from the heart, you have to learn to control your heart, don't let the pleasure of killing occupy your heart, otherwise you will become a devil who only knows how to kill, then you will be no different from those zombies." I teach my students with care, just as Xiang Ye taught me at the beginning.

"Heart?" Chen Xin touched the position of her heart and asked a little puzzled: "Isn't the heart used to circulate blood?" How does liliang come about? ”

I thought for a moment and said: "The term heart is very general, it does not refer to an organ but a feeling, I didn't know much about it when Xiang Ye told me, but now I have some opinions of my own." "I didn't pretend to be unfathomable in front of my own students.

"Can you tell me what your understanding is?" Chen Xin asked eagerly.

I smiled and touched his head and said: "My understanding of the heart is something called 'guarding', I want to protect you Aunt Wen, Lele, you and everyone, so I have to keep improving myself, when I see everyone safe and happy, that warmth will melt my heart that has become cold because of killing, so my heart is guarding, as for whether you can find your own heart depends on your efforts and my teaching." ”

Chen Xin lowered her little head and thought for a while: "I want to become stronger because I want to protect Hao Lele and my friends, and I also want to lead them to become stronger together and survive on this shijie together, so I want to become stronger." Chen Xin clenched her fists and looked unusually firm.

"Relax Chen Xin, you have to learn to relax your heart, my duty is not only to give you the skills to survive, but more importantly, I want you to know what the meaning of life is, don't put too much pressure on yourself, that will only make you more tired, to zuihou This pressure is not completely crushing you, or pushing you to the other extreme, so you must learn to be neutral and peaceful, you must be clear about one thing, your friends do not belong to you, they are just your partners, you have to lead them but not control them, Got it? I pressed Chen Xin's shoulder and looked into his eyes and said solemnly, I don't want him to become a self-centered person in the future, that will only ruin him.

Chen Xin didn't seem to understand my words very well, but he still thought about it seriously, and after a while, he raised his head and looked at me and said, "Is it just like you and Uncle Luo, they listen to you but you never order them." ”

I smiled and said: "Actually, I should admit my mistakes to you, it's me who put too much pressure on you, many times I will forget that you are still a child, you should have your own happy childhood, even if it is the end of Shijie as a child, you also have the right to be happy, I'm sorry Xiaoxin is my master who did not fulfill his responsibilities, from today onwards you have to learn to relax yourself, make friends like a child, and don't put any pressure on yourself, now is not the time for you to take responsibility, I just need you to live a happy life." "I suddenly found that I put too much pressure on Chen Xin, so that this twelve-year-old child took on responsibilities that should not be borne prematurely, although I did this because I had high expectations for him, but too heavy pressure is not conducive to his growth, but will cause unpredictable results.

Chen Xin blinked and looked at me a little incredulously, as if he didn't expect me to say this to him at all, but I could clearly feel that he seemed to be relieved, I rubbed his head and smiled: "Don't think too much, let's have fun when we come out today, I remember that there is a gas station in front, there should be some snacks or something, let's go get some back." ”

"Wouldn't you be found out if you brought something back? What if Aunt Wen gets angry? "The little things are very sneaky.

"Don't worry, there is a master, when the time comes, your Aunt Wen will carry it if she wants to beat or scold the master." I patted my chest and reassured that the little thing also showed a very childish smile, which is what a child should have.

Our harvest at the gas station is still good, although half a year has passed, but the damn puffed food and carbonated drinks have not expired, so after cleaning up the zombies there, we packed several bags in small bags, only to find that when it was time to leave, we found that the two of us couldn't take so many things to ride a motorcycle, Zuihou had no choice but to give up some, even so Chen Xin was carrying a silk bag in one hand, and there were two silk bags trapped together behind him. In any case, this is a full load.

But when we returned to the dam, we found that the pony they came back earlier than us, the dam was a lively welcome party, Chen Xin and I rode a motorcycle from the outside to come back so abrupt, but fortunately, no one noticed us for the time being, I cautiously rode a motorcycle out of the crowd sneakily from the side of the crowd to mix, at least not to be caught, it is possible to get through the blind, it was still very smooth, but it was ruined by Qi Yuhang's blind bastard.

As soon as he saw me, he pulled Liu Xu to run to me with an embarrassed face and shouted loudly: "Brother Fei, you're back, don't you know, Brother Xu is really good, we basically didn't do much, those zombies were killed by Brother Xu alone." The people who were making noise on the dam gradually quieted down, Qi Yuhang also found that something was wrong, and his voice gradually became smaller, and his little eyes looked around, and Liu Xu rubbed his forehead helplessly.

"As soon as the two of them go out, it's a little day, isn't it fun to play?" Wen Na came out of the crowd, and although her voice was as soft as ever, her expression was as cold as the cold wind.

I could only laugh and say: "Isn't this Xiaoxin going out to exercise, I can't help it, anyway, I am also his master, and it is my duty to teach him." "Forget it, let's put the responsibility on Xiaoxin, it's not that the master is not righteous, it's really the master who can't bear it.

"Xiaoxin is a sensible child, if you don't agree, he will insist on going out? I think it's you, the master, who is running away with the child without a serious business, what if something happens? "Venna harshly and irresponsibly placed the blame on me.

"We just walked around the neighborhood, and we didn't go far at all, didn't anything happen to this, and brought back a lot of delicious food, Xiaoxin will show you Aunt Wen what to eat." Seeing that Wen Na was running towards me with full firepower, she hurriedly threw Chen Xin out as a shield, so that at least she could disperse the firepower.

But there was no movement behind him, why is this kid so bearish, people are so scared that they don't even dare to speak, seeing Wen Na squinting her eyes and a cold light shooting towards me, I hurriedly urged: "Xiaoxin, what are you doing?" Hurry up and show you the delicious food to Aunt Wen, Xiaoxin! There was still no movement behind me, my heart jerked, and I grabbed Chen Xin and jumped off the motorcycle.

Holding Chen Xin in his arms, this kid had his eyes closed, his face was slightly red, his breathing was even, he had evolved at this critical moment, the stinky boy was so inauthentic, he actually played coma Dafa, now he was relieved, I was going to be unlucky, at this time, Wen Na, who found that something was wrong, quickly rushed up to check Chen Xin's situation and said: "Yuhang sent Chen Xin to the infirmary and handed it to Paulin." Qi Yuhang hurriedly picked up Chen Xin from my arms and walked away quickly, and when he left, this bastard boy looked at me sympathetically.

"Then I'll go too......." I was just about to take the opportunity to escape, when Wen Na's cold voice suddenly sounded: "No need, with Paulin here, Xiaoxin will not have a problem." "I could only stand there awkwardly waiting to be criticized.

"As the supreme leader, you took the lead in violating the rules and leaving the dam without permission, what kind of behavior do you say?" Wen Na said unceremoniously: "If everyone treats the rules as nothing as you do, then what's the point of us working hard to make those rules and maintaining those rules?" ”

"I was wrong and willing to accept punishment." Under Wen Na's righteous and awe-inspiring duty, I can only bow down and confess my guilt.

"According to our rules, you should be confined for three days, and the food supply will be halved during the confinement." Seeing that I confessed, Wen Na's sentence also followed.

"Pony, you are in charge of the defense of the dam during Wu Fei's confinement, now take Wu Fei to the confinement room." Wen Na said to Ma Junteng with tears in her eyes, that makes me feel no resentment, and I only blame myself in my heart.

Fortunately, these guys still have a little conscience, and they took turns to bring me food during the confinement, although it was food that was halved according to the regulations, but they also had a heart, Qi Yuhang sent me some extra food, but I refused, as a leader, I made the rules, then I should be the most staunch defender of this rule, and the next day's dinner was personally delivered by Wen Na, she handed the dinner into the confinement room and whispered: "Will you blame me?" ”

I smiled and said, "Yes, you are so cruel that I can't see you for three days, so I will miss you." ”

"You're all locked up and poor, you really don't blame me?" Wen Na turned her worries into joy.

"How can I blame you? You're all for my good, and if I can break the rules at will, then everyone else will have a reason to break the rules, and you're doing a good job, xiexie. "I'm sincere.

"If you can understand, I'm afraid you'll blame me." Wen Na's tone was much more relaxed.

"Anyway, it's a rest here, by the way, how is Xiaoxin's situation?" I just wanted to go to that stinky boy, and quickly asked.

"Xiaoxin is fine, she has woken up this morning, and Rocky and Xiao Lu have all woken up, but Pauline asked them to rest again, otherwise they will come to see you." Wen Na laughed.

"Xiao Lu? Lu Fengqiu also evolved? I asked in amazement, how did this kid evolve with his silence?

"Xiao Lu has reached the edge of evolution, but he has never had a chance, yesterday he and the pony went out and suddenly evolved while cleaning up zombies."

"Oh, that's similar to Xiaoxin's situation, this kid should be satisfied now." Lu Fengqiu has always been worried about his inability to evolve, in fact, he can't be blamed, before I, Rocky and Pony basically wrapped up all the dangerous work, so they lost the opportunity to exercise, now it seems that it is time to let go.

Since you can't visit casually during the confinement, Wen Na and I chatted for a few words and left in a hurry, and then Rocky, Chen Xin, and Lu Fengqiu all came to see me, and each of them fulfilled their wishes, and they seemed extremely happy, but they were limited to the regulations that they couldn't talk to me for too long, so the main theme of the confinement period was still darkness and loneliness, but fortunately, the by-product of these two things was a long time, which allowed me to fully analyze the current situation and think about the way out in the future.

I'm strong, my partners are strong, and we have what it takes to survive in this horrible time.

Are we really strong? Can we really survive on this shijie full of dangers?

No, we're not strong enough, like before I thought I could control everything, but in reality I'm nothing.

What now? Still, my partner and I are still weak in front of the whole shijie, and we have to work harder to strengthen ourselves.

Yes, you are not strong, one can even say very weak, you are just a swarm of lucky ants that sneak up and survive in a corner.

Since you are so weak weishenme, are you still sleeping? Do you want to just wait here to die? Get up! Get up!

A rotten face suddenly appeared in front of me, shouting at me with a big mouth of minced meat, I sat up all of a sudden, but in front of me was Qi Yuhang's little face that was stupid.

"What are you doing, kid? Want to scare people to death? I patted him on the head in frustration, and I didn't even notice anyone coming in.

"Today is your release from prison, and I have come to celebrate for you." Qi Yuhang rubbed his head and said aggrievedly.

"Fart's release from prison, you're here alone?" I wiped my face and looked out the door, but it didn't seem to be anyone.

"They are all busy and don't have time to come, Sister Na asked me to tell you to go directly to her lab after you go out, she said that you have to start working right away after you have rested long enough." After speaking, rubbing his head with one hand and putting the other in his trouser pocket, he dragged away.

"The bear kid still knows how to pretend to be cool." I muttered, grabbed my jacket and walked outside.