This matter seems to have no room to turn around, after I fainted, I woke up, Mu Jingchi still didn't say that he wanted to withdraw from the marriage, I just sat there stupidly every day, didn't speak or say anything, Zhou's mother wiped her tears.

She said, isn't a woman getting married in this life? Whether it is the children of poor families or the children of rich and noble families, they will always walk this road.

She said that when she married Steward Zhou, she was younger than me, only thirteen years old, and Steward Zhou was still studying there, and she could be regarded as half a child daughter-in-law.

She comforted me and said, "Who is not married?" The warlord family of the Yuan family will definitely dominate the world in the future, then, I am the mother of the world, in the previous words, I am the queen's mother, and no number of women can ask for glory.

But is this what I want? What do I want? What is it?

I don't know, I wanted him to die before, but now?

I twisted the square handkerchief with scissors.

After that, no one cared about me anymore, and the always clean house gradually became lively, and they were all preparing for my family affairs, which was festive. Even Wang Shuyi's expressionless face is a little more vivid than usual, and she always comes to ask me what kind of wedding dress to embroider and whether I want to wear a wedding dress.

I just looked at her blankly, and when she saw that I didn't answer, she had to sigh and make a decision for me.

Several times, I have heard people talk about me behind my back, saying that no matter how much Mu Jingchi spoils me, I am someone else's family after all, and I can only go to other people's houses in the future.

Zhou's mother slapped the two maids a few times at that time.

Soon, it's the New Year, this is the first time I have spent the New Year at home in China after two years abroad, only to know that the snow is getting thicker and thicker, as if tireless, the year is not over, the treetops outside, it was crushed by the snow to break the branches.

Compared with the excitement of some time ago, this year has been extremely deserted, and the whole room is quiet, so quiet that you can hear the footsteps of the servants dragging and the crackling of the fireplace.

Zhou's mother persuaded me to go down to observe the New Year.

I hadn't been out of this door in a long time, but I didn't want to go downstairs.

Zhou's mother said: "Mr. is guarding there alone, it's strange and lonely." ”

I don't know why, I want to laugh, will he be alone? If he feels lonely now, he will be even more lonely in the future, but alas, he never felt alone.

Zhou's mother helped me downstairs, and sure enough, as Zhou's mother said, there was only Mu Jingchi in the whole hall, he was sitting on the sofa looking at the heavy snow outside, the pot of tea on the table was making a tearing sound, and the water was about to boil dry, but he didn't notice it.

I sat down beside him, picked up the pot of tea, and poured myself a cup.

He heard the sound of water, looked sideways at me, and saw that it was me, and the emotion in his eyes flickered slightly.

I took a sip of tea, then exhaled and said, "It's hard to be old." ”

He asked, "How can I give up today?" ”

I said, "Remember, I was with you in the past." ”

He smiled and didn't say anything, just said to Zhou's mother, "Bring the things." ”

After Zhou's mother sighed, she went upstairs, and quickly took a red envelope down, Mu Jingchi handed me the red envelope: "In previous years, as soon as the Chinese New Year came, you asked me for a red envelope noisily, and you refused to sleep if you didn't give you sleep." ”

I took it from him, but I didn't open it, I just stuffed it in my sleeve and said, "Now it's big, I thought you wouldn't give it anymore." ”

He smiled and said, "Give it as many years as you want." ”

I haven't spoken for a long time, and at this time, I didn't say anything for a while.

After the water in the cup bottomed out, I thought about it and asked, "The New Year has passed, and it won't be long before it is the Shangyuan Festival." ”

He snorted.

I sighed and said, "Time flies so fast." ”

I put down the teacup, got up from the couch, and made a New Year's salute to him, saying, "Kiyono wishes my brother-in-law a good New Year, a prosperous New Year, and all the best." ”

I said, "I'm a little tired, so I'll go upstairs first." ”

He nodded, and I saw that he had lost a lot of weight recently, and said, "You should also pay attention to your body." ”

He whispered back, "Okay." ”

I didn't stay any longer.

Time flies so fast, the year has passed, it is the Lantern Festival, it is imminent, the Mu family is very busy, there are lights everywhere, so many years, there has never been such a festive here, in my memory in previous years, the Mu house has always been plain white, there has never been such a happy time.

I was unusually calm in those days, but Zhou's mother was so panicked, she guarded me all the time, for fear that I wouldn't be able to think about it.

But I didn't, I just waited calmly for that day to come, women in this era are like this, the husband has not met a few times, and the kiss is about to become.

It's funny and fun.

The night before the wedding, I heard Zhou's mother hiding outside and crying secretly, I didn't know what she was crying about, I just wanted to walk over, and Xiaocui, the maid in the house, asked Zhou's mother what she was crying about.

Zhou's mother sobbed and said, "Miss is going to get married tomorrow, and it will be difficult to see her in the future." ”

Xiaocui smiled happily: "Oh, Mother Zhou, you are so old, why can't you see it better than us?" Isn't it good to get married? ”

Zhou's mother said: "That's what you said...... But in the end, I can't help it. ”

Xiaocui said, "Wipe away your tears, be careful of being heard by Miss." ”

Zhou's mother hummed.

Later, when she came in, I didn't think anything happened, and she sent her wedding dress, some Western, some Chinese.

I didn't try it on, I just let her put it there, and Mother Zhou knew that I was in a bad mood, so she didn't bother me and withdrew from my room again.

I was the only one left in the room, and I took out the handkerchief hidden in my sleeve, and this time the green bamboo on the handkerchief was a lot more regular, but it looked like it.

At ten o'clock in the evening, I got up and walked out of the room, walking towards Mu Jingchi's study, where the lights had not been extinguished, and I was about to go in, when there was his coughing sound inside, and Wang Shuyi's hands were in a hurry, it seemed that the medicine had fallen.

Wang Shuyi under the light said with a worried face: "Do you want to send a doctor over?" ”

Mu Jingchi covered his lips with a handkerchief and said in a hoarse voice: "The day of great joy is unlucky. ”

Wang Shuyi was a little unaware, she said, "But-"

Mu Jingchi coughed, leaned back in the chair and gasped for breath tiredly, his face was pale, the corners of his lips were faintly oozing blood, he looked at the dim glass lamp on the desk with confused eyes and asked, "You say, am I wrong?" ”

His eyes were empty, empty and blank.

Wang Shuyi knew what he was asking, she cleaned up the desk and said, "Miss is going to marry after all, can you stay for the rest of your life?" ”

Mu Jingchi smiled, his smile was vague and weak, and he said, "Yes." ”

Wang Shuyi put the bowl on the table right and said, "Do you remember the temple fair that day?" The eight-character man said that you and Miss were restrained by each other, and I reminded you again and again that there was a reason for it. Miss can't let go of the previous hatred, and you force you to stay by your side, just torturing each other. ”

Mu Jingchi closed his eyes tiredly, Wang Shuyi covered him with a blanket and said: "Your greatest wish is to marry her into an ordinary family, but in this troubled world, how can an ordinary family ever be better, it is better to marry into the Yuan family, and in the future, the mother will be the world, at least she can make her own decisions." ”

He seemed to have a headache, so he rubbed his eyebrows with his hand and mumbled.

Then he said in a hoarse voice, "Turn off the lights." ”

Wang Shuyi replied: "Yes." Then the lights went out in the house, and the room was dark.

I stood there for a long time, but at last I did not enter the room again, and turned back to my room.

Zhou's mother probably saw that I was gone, and ran towards me in a little panic, and she breathed a sigh of relief when she saw that I was standing there safely.

The night passed very quickly, before dawn, Zhou's mother dressed me up, and there were firecrackers outside, so it was not lively.

Zhou's mother had red eyes, and while combing it for me, she read in her mouth: "One comb to the end, two combs to the eyebrows, two combs to the eyebrows, three combs to the children and grandchildren, full of ......"

He was standing right behind me, his eyes following Zhou's mother's hand on my makeup, from my eyebrows to my lips. I waited for him to say something, but he didn't say a word like an old monk.

It wasn't until Zhou's mother took two hairpins and didn't know how to choose that he got up and walked over.

The black shadow was behind me, he took a chic hairpin from Zhou's mother's hand, slowly inserted it into my hair, his eyes fell on the mirror, looking at my makeup, I don't know if it was out of the gods for a while or what, a servant came over with a red handkerchief, stood beside him, and whispered: "Sir." He didn't react until the servant whispered again, and then he smiled into the mirror, took the red hijab from the servant's hand, and slowly put it over my head.

Soon my vision was red.

I couldn't see everything in front of me, I just felt that after Mother Zhou helped me up, she held back her crying beside me and said, "Miss, Mother Zhou won't send you away." ”

The sound of firecrackers outside is getting louder and louder, and the gongs and drums are beating very deafeningly, I know that the Yuan family has come to pick up relatives.

Mu Jing slowly squatted in front of me, before this, Zhou's mother told me that the bride was married by the male elders of the family who carried her downstairs.

I stood there, looking at his broad back and didn't move for a long time, Zhou's mother patted me gently, and I reacted and covered his back.

He held me firmly, I couldn't see the road underground, and my body slid down a little, but eventually I wrapped my hand around his neck.

We were so close at this point that I was so close that I was stained with his scent.

When I lay on his back and was carried down by him layer by layer, I inexplicably remembered that there was a year of Shangyuan Festival, which was very lively, and there were lights everywhere.

He took me by the hand and watched the fireworks on the bridge.

That night, very bright and colorful, occupied most of the sky, but his eyes were full of loneliness, so many colors, as if they could not enter his eyes.

There was a bride's palanquin passing by the bridge, and I had never seen such a beautiful palanquin, and I was arguing with him to sit on it.

He picked me up and told me with a smile that I couldn't sit.

I asked him why.

He said, "Only the bride can sit." ”

I hugged him around his neck and asked, "Then I'm grown up, can I sit?" ”

He smiled and touched my head and said, "Yes." ”

I said, "Can I marry you?" ”

He looked at me again, smiled and replied casually, "Yes." ”

After that, somehow, he fell asleep on his back again.

The twenty-eighth floor was soon down, and in the process, as if awakened from a big dream, I opened my eyes to find that we had reached the hall.

Outside the hall, there were many people, and countless people were scurrying about there.

As he carried me and was about to step through the door, my hand around his neck tightened, and his steps stopped.

At that moment, I didn't know what he was thinking, he stood still for about four or five seconds, and Wang Shuyi reminded him softly beside him: "Sir, the auspicious time has come." ”

He just hummed.

I let go of the hand around his neck, and when he crossed the door with my back on my back, I buried my face deep in his neck and said in a hoarse voice, "Mu Jingchi, I hate you." ”

I felt a tear slip from the end of my eye, silently sinking into his neck.