Bao Yuan leaned on the soft couch, next to me, and said softly: "The queen mother said that the emperor can only have a woman he likes, not a woman he loves, and he can't have a woman he loves deeply. Because when an emperor has deep love and reluctance, he loses all the power of defense. ”

I listened quietly to his whispers, and my mood was as calm as the clear water of a lake on an autumn day. I gently shook his hand back and tried to smile.

"Rui'er, do you know what I'm most afraid of? I'm most afraid of putting you in danger. For the sake of the country, I have to get rid of Zhang Ye, but to do this, I can't let them know something, let alone let others know what I'm afraid of, and I can't let people see my weaknesses. His voice was tired and hoarse, and I couldn't help but feel a pang of heartache.

I shook my head gently, I wanted to tell him in person, I understand, I understand how difficult and difficult it is to survive as an emperor in this complicated former dynasty and harem. I know it all, I understand it all!

"Rui'er, you don't know how much I hate myself when I suppressed my feelings, embarrassed you, and hurt you." There was pain in Bao Yuan's eyes, "I know that you are sad and sad, and I know that doing so will make you doubt me and hate me, but I still forced myself to do it, Rui'er, can you understand, you understand, right?" ”

He searched for answers in my eyes, and I told him with my eyes, I understand, I understand!

"Rui'er, Rui'er, I'm so stupid! I always thought that as long as the Zhang family was eliminated, as long as one day it really returned to me, I could protect you from any harm, and I could be with you as much as I wanted. However, when I saw you hovering on the edge of life and death, and heard that you were out of breathing, I realized how selfish and stupid I used to be! Bao Yuan wrapped my hand in his palm, and his head rested on my pillow.

"I ...... Bright...... White. Finally, I struggled to say those three words.

"No, you don't understand." Bao Yuan suddenly sat up, stiffened his neck like a child and said, "You don't understand, there was a time when I thought you had a bad temper and were willful, not as gentle and obedient as others, and everything followed my heart." Thinking about it now, I was so unforgivable at that time! After saying that, he looked at me cautiously like a child who had done something wrong.

"Both...... Pass...... went. I pulled my lips and laughed, and said with difficulty.

"Well, I won't be like this in the future, I won't break your heart again, and I'm not afraid that others will know that I love you." The man in front of me, his serious expression really touched me, and my mood instantly returned to the time when I first met him, back to those sweet past.

"Don't ...... Worried, I, I'll ...... Get better. After saying these words, my chest hurt violently again.

Bao Yuan saw that I frowned, so nervous that I wanted to call the imperial doctor again, I shook my head, no matter how good the imperial doctor is for me, it is not as good as him, and no matter how good the medicine is, it is not as healing as his words.

I just want him to be by my side quietly and let my heart really settle down.

In the scorching heat of July, even if you lie still, you are sweating. The wound hurts badly, I'm afraid that Bao Yuan will always grit his teeth and endure it in front of people, this is not the ancient world of Du Lengding, it really costs people's lives!

Fortunately, Bao Yuan's thoughtfulness and gentleness had a good healing effect, and he also found Ma Boiling Powder, and together with Ling Xuan and Liluo, he concocted an ointment that could relieve pain, which allowed me to sleep peacefully for a few hours a day.

Ming'er and Zhiqiu took care of me inch by inch, helped me wipe my sweat, and changed my clothes that were soaked from weakness and sweat.

I just lay in bed day after day to recuperate, but the wound was slow to recover for some reason, but fortunately it got better day by day.

After more than half a month, I was able to get up and sit down for a while, and when I could go down to the ground and walk slowly, Bao Yuan allowed me to move back to the Changchun Hall from the Furong Water Pavilion.

Because I was seriously injured, Bao Yuan forbade everyone's visitation, so the Queen Mother, Jinyan, and Jingyi never came to visit me in Furong Water Pavilion.

Today, when I returned to the Changchun Palace, I settled down, and Jingyi hurriedly came to see me, and Xuan Zhe and Feng Yi also came together.

I haven't seen each other for a long time, Xuan Zhe and Feng Yi have grown taller, and the two children have red eyes when they see me, and they are asking me long and short questions. Bao Yuan was afraid that I would be too tired, so he sent Jingyi out after a while.

Fang was lying down and talking to Bao Yuan, and suddenly heard that the Queen Mother was visiting, and I was about to get up to greet him, but I didn't want the Queen Mother to be helped into the inner room by Jinyan and Zhou Jinsu.

When the Queen Mother saw me get up, she stepped forward to hold me up, and told me not to salute, but to lean on.

After I sat down, she grabbed me with one hand, wiped the corner of her eyes with a silk handkerchief in the other hand, and sighed: "This time it is bitter Concubine Xu." In fact...... At the beginning, the mourning family also guessed a few points, although the emperor did not make it clear to the mourning family, but his heart is my mother, I ......understand it best" said, the queen mother glanced at Bao Yuan kindly, and Bao Yuan smiled and reached out to hold my hand.

The Queen Mother said: "I didn't expect the emperor to be so decisive, and Concubine Xu is so well aware of righteousness...... Although I guessed that the emperor said that you were talking about the government and grounded you, but I was hiding it, but later I had to believe that he was really punishing you and punishing the Xu family. Speaking of this, the Queen Mother smiled at Bao Yuan: "You have done this drama and even hid it from me, my mother." ”

Bao Yuan smiled a little embarrassed, and said: "Zhang Ye is a scheming man, if he doesn't do this, I'm afraid he won't be able to hide it." ”

"The emperor is right, if you want to deceive the enemy, you must deceive even your own people, otherwise you will fall short." The Queen Mother is really well versed in government politics and wisdom.

"Zhang Ye was ambushed, although there was the emperor's planning, but there was also the sacrifice of Concubine Xu." Speaking of this, the Queen Mother stood up and said to me: "This palace wants to thank you for sacrificing your life to save the emperor as a mother." "Then you will worship me.

I panicked and hurriedly helped her, and said hurriedly: "The queen mother can't help this, I can't help it." Isn't this tormenting the concubine, the emperor is the husband of the concubine, it's my God, how can I let him be hurt...... Although I am a little injured now, I am willing to do it, and the queen mother does not need to thank me. ”

In a hurry, he said in a hurry, and he couldn't help but pull the wound, and then coughed and wheezing, and his cheeks were really red.

Seeing this, the queen mother gave up, and said earnestly with tears in her eyes: "Before entering the palace, the queen mother did misunderstand you...... Rui'er, can you forgive the heart of a mother? ”

"Queen Mother~!" I let out a soft cry, and my eyes turned red. Over the years, because of my background, although the Queen Mother has not made things difficult for me, she has also treated me very unfamiliarly, but she has maintained a polite and polite performance, and she is not close at all. Just now, her voice was what I had been looking forward to for many years, and I choked up.

"Queen Mother, let the old slave kneel and thank Niangniang Dade!" Suddenly, Zhou Shanggong, who was beside the Queen Mother, knelt down and kowtowed to me.

Stunned: "Zhou Shanggong! Why are you here, please get up quickly" while hurriedly instructing Zhiqiu to help.

Zhou Shanggong raised his head, and the old tears on his face were full of tears: "The old slave is ashamed, the old slave really doesn't know how to thank Niangniang!"

"Oh, could it be that Zhou Shanggong has also received the favor of Rui'er?" Bao Yuan said curiously.

"Back to the emperor, the old slave is to thank the mother for the saving grace of Yong Wazi." Speaking of this, I remembered the last year, Zhou Shanggong dried Sun Yongwa pox poison, many ways to incure, from Zhiqiu's mouth after learning, he checked the "Materia Medica", and then got the mung bean to relieve the wind and eliminate the blood poison of the home remedies. Unexpectedly, after handing over this recipe to Ling Xuan for symptomatic treatment, it really solved Yongwa's pox poison.

It was an unintentional effort, a gesture of effort, and I didn't want Ling Xuan to say anything to her.

After hearing this, the Queen Mother laughed with tears in her eyes: "After a long time, I have solved the knot in my heart today, and I look forward to treating Rui'er as a daughter." As he spoke, he gently took me in his arms. The Queen Mother's embrace, like a grandmother, I leaned on the Queen Mother's shoulder and smiled comfortably.

Soon, Jingyi led Xuan Zhe and Feng Yi to greet the Queen Mother, and the two children called and rushed to the bed to get close to me. The Changchun Hall reverberated with long-lost laughter, and I sighed lightly in my heart: Grandma, you can see, although I have received this sword, it is good that I have received such family affection.

Later, I learned from Jingyi that after Zhang Ye was ambushed, Zhang Xianru was also abolished as a concubine, demoted to a palace slave, and entered the Forbidden Fangyuan.

I didn't have a trace of joy in my heart when I heard this, and I became more and more sad, and now her father, brother and relatives have been killed, and she herself has fallen from a favorite concubine back to an abandoned woman, and now she lives alone in the world, I am afraid that life is better than death!

Later, I heard that she was crazy, and often cried and laughed in the Forbidden Garden, wandering around, and shouting to see the emperor all day long. I couldn't bear to visit once, but when I walked outside the Forbidden Garden, I couldn't take a step anymore, and the mournful cry of a woman came from inside, which made my heart shrink.

Meng Lang's warm and slender hands are now stained with blood, and the hands that should have been used to hold the paintbrush and write songs are even more stained with the tears of the woman's dream after her dream was shattered...... I didn't dare to think about it anymore, and at this moment I realized that even though he was my husband and a man who loved me, he was even more an emperor and a ninety-five.

Behind the wealth and power, there is a fight to the death, the magnificent front dynasty and the harem, flowing with endless blood and tears of the loser.

Oh, the love I coveted in the red dust was so unbearable and helpless, what kind of road of no return I embarked on, no wonder Taihua had to leave with her at that time, she should have understood that the road of love with the emperor is a road of blood and tears intertwined between the palace, the country, and the society.

Xianru is crazy, for her, maybe it is also a relief in this bloody storm.

After Bao Yuan was injured, in addition to the last court, he stayed by my side, and in the end, all the government affairs were also moved to the Changchun Palace, often I was lying on the bed, and he reclined beside me to watch the twists and turns.

Since July Baoyuan killed Zhang Ye in Dutang Fu Zhuangshi, he issued an edict announcing his crimes, and later confiscated his family property.

At the same time, the privy envoy, the envoy of the Baoning Festival and the king of the chamberlain, was also impeached by the courtiers. The courtiers accused him of abusing his power and being greedy, betraying his official position, accepting prison bribes, accepting gifts from all over the world, and having a huge family fortune. Wang Dejun, the son of Wang Chu, is also arrogant and domineering, bullying and suppressing the subordinates.

After Zhang Ye's death, Bao Yuan remembered the past exploits and returned to the king's past, and he couldn't bear to kill him, so he ordered him to listen to his private affairs. After Wang Chu resigned in fear, Bao Yuan reduced his actual power and reappointed him as the envoy of Wude Festival and the Zhongshu Order.

Later, Bao Yuan wanted to use Gao Yanzhao, the envoy of Pufengku, and Wang Zhaoyuan, the envoy of the tea and wine library, as privy envoys, but the reputation and status of these two people have always been slight, and they were opposed by a group of old ministers such as Mu Zhao, so Bao Yuan appointed the two of them as envoys to preside over the affairs of the Privy Council.

Later, he took Hanlin Chengzhi and Shangshu Zuocheng Li Hao as his subordinates and the head of the household department and the bachelor of Hanlin, and my brother Xu Guangpu was reappointed as the head of the military department, and he was the secretary of the Chinese book and the secretary of the Ministry of Rites, and the same Ping Zhangshi.

originally thought that in this way, there would be a new atmosphere in the DPRK and China, and Bao Yuan would be able to sit in the court as he wished and show his ambitions.

However, the tree is frightened and the wind does not stop. At the end of the month, An Siqian falsely accused Zhao Tingyin, the commander of Wei Shengdu and the commander of Zhongshu, of plotting rebellion, and sent troops to surround his homestead at night. During this period, it was the Shannan West Road Festival that made Li Tingqi enter the court, and it was extremely said that Zhao Tingyin was innocent, so he was exempted. However, Zhao Tingyin said that he was ill because of this, and he asked to be relieved of his military position, but after Baoyuan's persuasion was ineffective, he was allowed to ask.

In August, Bao Yuan took Zhao Tingyin as the prince and named the king of Song.

Because when Zhang Ye and Wang returned to power, they were more and more arrogant. Therefore, in September, Baoyuan legislated to set up a "box", in order to pass the situation, and did not change the box as a letter of dedication, and opened up the way of speech.

In this way, the DPRK and China decrees are accessible and new. The old generals are gone, the new deacons, Baoyuan has been really pro-government since he ascended the throne, and he has been in high spirits for a while, and there have been many new policies to promote.

And under the careful treatment of Ling Xuan and Liluo, and the careful care of Ming'er and Zhiqiu, my complexion became more and more ruddy, my spirit was vigorous, and my body and mind were happy and happy.

It's true, the bitterness is sweet, and the rain is blue.

Since then, day by day and Bao Yuan have been accompanied in the Changchun Palace, writing poems and paintings, playing the piano and playing games, so that they are not at ease.