Boundless nightmares, accompanied by physical pain, gnawed at my body and mind day after day.

Yesterday, just yesterday, I met Taihua again, Sister Taihua.

I don't know if I'm awake or in a dream, I just remember the sadness in the way she looked at me, the smile on her lips that was comforting, but her eyes were full of water.

"Sister, why are you crying?"

"Rui'er, are you still greedy for this earthly world?" She asked me softly.

"I don't understand, what you mean." I looked at her in confusion, why was her eyes so compassionate, but because I had lost a child?

"Rui'er, why are you still so persistent, so you can't see it?" She sighed and walked up to me.

"Sister, you are a fairy, can you tell me, where did my child go?" My heart hurt fiercely, and I wanted to cry, but I choked on my chest.

"Don't ask again, Rui'er, cherish what you have and forget what you have lost." She tugged at the corners of her lips and smiled like a shallow blister.

"You said he would come back to reincarnation, right?" I eagerly searched her eyes for the answers I wanted, but there was nothing in those clear eyes.

"I'll have kids, right?" I asked, how I wished she could give me a positive answer.

Taihua, always smiling, her smile made my heart sad, tears in the haze, Taihua's figure became smaller and smaller, smaller and smaller, and finally became a child......

Is this my child? He's so pretty, kid, my kid......

I stretched out my hand to take the child in my arms, but I hugged it empty, the child looked at me innocently, such a focused look, a thousand words in those eyes, I could feel that he was my child, child!

Suddenly, he burst into the brightest smile and said softly to me, "Mother......"

Kids, kids......

I cried and came to my senses, and raised my eyes to meet Bao Yuan's worried gaze.

Me, am I dreaming again? But, I don't remember sleeping with me.

Even if no one tells me what's wrong with me, I know for myself that I'm sick, and very sick, because I find myself repeating the same things every day, seeing the same situations, seeing more and more complicated expressions on people's faces.

The worry on Bao Yuan's face, the panic on the face of the imperial doctor, and the fear on the face of the palace maid's inner supervisor......

Who, who's calling me? Child, is that you? Is that you?

I heard him call again, but why didn't I see where he was this time?

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, baby is not afraid, my mother is here, my mother is here." I struggled to get up, but all I saw was a gorgeous brocade tent.

"Sister, sister, are you okay? Don't scare me. Ming'er's panicked face appeared by the brocade tent.

I anxiously grabbed her and asked, "Ming'er, did you hear me?" ”

"Hear what? I didn't hear anything. ”

"Shhhh I hurriedly stopped her, and I knew that my baby was here, and he was right by my side.

"Sister, sister, don't scare me." Ming'er cried, why did she cry? It's weird.

Suddenly, I felt that my head hurt so much, so heavy, and there seemed to be a lot of people arguing and chattering in my ears. It's not okay, it's going to scare the child.

I got up from my bed and wanted to go outside the house, but why were there so many people in the house, the palace maids, the imperial doctors, the inner prisons, why were there so many people?

My head hurts, I can't remember anything.

There was a faint, very familiar sweet fragrance wafting in the air, this aroma reminded me of the pain in my body, it hurts, how can it hurt like this? The whole person, the whole person seems to be squeezed hard.

Suddenly, my eyes went dark and I lost consciousness.

With the warm and bitter soup, my consciousness gradually began to clear, and I rarely dreamed of children and those strange situations, and I never heard anyone call me mother in my ear again.

When I woke up again, I saw Jinyan sitting beside me.

Suddenly, I felt that I had a lot to say to her, and I reached out and took her hand, and her hand was so cold.

"Rui'er, do you still recognize me?" Jin Yan's question was strange.

"Of course I recognize, you are Sister Jinyan. Why did my sister ask me that? ”

"Amitabha, you can be regarded as a recognizable person." Jinyan recited the Buddha, pointed to Zhiqiu who was standing aside, and asked me, "What about her?" ”

"Sister, what's wrong with you, asking such a strange question, how can I not even recognize Zhiqiu." Suddenly I was a little annoyed, I was just sick, not stupid.

"Mother, you're awake."

"Sister, you can be regarded as a recognizable person." Zhiqiu and Ming'er said in unison with expressions full of surprise.

"Sister, what's wrong with me? Did something happen? "I don't remember anything I've done, but I vaguely feel like I've had a miscarriage for a few days, and it's only been about ten days.

"Rui'er, you know what? You really scared everyone out the other day. Jin Yan suddenly choked up, and said slowly: "You have been delirious for nearly a month, crying in the palace every day, insisting that there are children calling mothers, except for the emperor and Ming'er, you can't recognize anyone......"

Is it? Is that really the case? I wasn't impressed! I forced myself to try to remember, but there were only vague impressions in my mind, and my head suddenly became dizzy and swollen.

"Alright, alright, Rui'er, don't think about it." Jin Yan gently stopped me and said: "You have been stimulated so much, it is reasonable for you to lose your nature for a while, in fact, those painful memories, it is a good thing not to remember." ”

"Hmm" I nodded obediently, why didn't I see Bao Yuan, I looked around, and my heart became anxious. Xiang Ming'er said: "What about the emperor? ”

"The emperor went out of the palace yesterday and has not returned yet." Ming'er said.

Bao Yuan went out of the palace? Could it be that something else can't happen? There was a panic in his heart for no reason, and he grabbed Jinyan and said urgently: "Sister, didn't something happen again?" ”

"No, nothing...... Sister, you've just come to your senses, don't be cranky. Although Jinyan persuaded her like this, the expression on her face was extremely unnatural.

I know that I can't ask anything at the moment, but at this time, there must be a reason for Bao Yuan to leave the palace, otherwise......

Jinyan sat for a while, watched me take the medicine, and told me a lot before leaving, saying that he would come to see me tomorrow.

Zhiqiu and Ming'er asked me to lie down and sleep again, but when I wanted to get up and sit down, she couldn't help it, so she helped me to the soft couch in front of the window.

It was raining outside the window, gray and misty, and there was a prosperous carbon fire in the hall, which was as warm as spring, and the carved flowers under the window were small, and a few "green calyxes" in the white jade flower bottle were blooming luxuriantly.

I looked at the flower blankly, the cold aroma in the air pricked every nerve in my body, called Ming'er, asked her to take the flower away, I don't want to see this flower again, I don't want to smell the smell of this flower again, this smell always makes me think of the life that has been with me for four months......

I was stunned, and I was out of my mind for a while, but my thoughts involuntarily turned to what happened that day!

Why was Zhang Xianru able to leave the Forbidden Garden? She was delirious and acted like crazy, and I saw it with my own eyes that day, and it stands to reason that she could not have escaped on her own, could it be that someone was trying to harm me?

However, who would be so painstaking and elaborate to harm me? How could she have calculated that I would be alone in the plum garden, it was all too coincidental.

I summoned Zhiqiu to ask how I was doing after I fell unconscious.

Zhiqiu only said that after Zhang Xianru was put on death row, he died the next day, saying that the emperor gave him poisoned wine.

Did Bao Yuan kill Zhang Xianru? No, Bao Yuan couldn't have killed her so quickly, didn't he suspect that someone had borrowed Zhang Xianru's hand to murder me?

Just when I was suspicious, Zhiqiu whispered to me: "Niangniang, there is something that the slave maid thinks is so strange. ”

"What?"

"I heard that after Zhang Xianru's death, the Internal Service Bureau inquired about the inner prison who gave poisoned wine in the prison, but they couldn't find that person. Later, the body of an inner prisoner was found in the outer flow canal of Longyue Pond, which was strangled to death. ”

"Which palace's inner eunuch?" I was horrified and asked anxiously.

Zhiqiu shook his head and was silent.

This is clearly to kill people and kill people. Who can act like this in the palace, and there are few who can do it, is it Zhang Ye's remnants, or which palace's concubines?

The head began to ache sharply again.