On a summer day, the sun shines through the window. One ward, two people.

On the chair next to the bed, a decadent young man has no sound. On the hospital bed, a cute girl who can light up the whole room. There is no first tone.

Otono Hatsune: "Is my brother happy at school?" ”

Otomu Yuzuru: "I'm not happy at all, I didn't go at all." ”

Otono Hatsune: "If you go, you might be happy." ”

Otonazuru: "If I was smart enough, I might be happy, but I'm a fool, and school is a place where there are no bad students. ”

Otono Hatsune: "Aren't you happy about studying?" ”

Otono Yuzuru: "How can you be happy, that's learning." ”

Otono Hatsune: "Friends, play with friends!" ”

"It's much happier to watch TV and play games alone, and I'm tired of forcing myself to go along with other people's interests and squeeze out a smile even if it's not funny. ”

"yes, I'm looking forward to studying, and I'm looking forward to making friends." Tone said expectantly. Unlike Oto-no-no-tsuru's tiredness of life, Oto-no-hatsune has a longing for life.

"Ah, yes!" Looking at Hatsune, Otono Yuzuru, who remembered something, smiled and pulled out a manga magazine from his side and handed it to Hatsune. "Here's for you."

Looking at the comic magazine handed over by Otomu Yuzuru, Otomu Hatsune on the hospital bed smiled happily and said, "Ah, thank you, brother." ”

A big smile, a "thank you." "It makes the wards seem to light up. Light......

[I don't know why I live, I don't know what the meaning of survival is, I have no interest in others, it's much easier to live without being tied to anyone, I've been working to maintain the bottom line of my life, this kind of life is enough. Even so, I have been taking care of my sister and using what little money I have left to buy comic magazines for her. I've always bought a book at the bookstore and left.,I didn't even pay attention to whether it was the same magazine every time I bought.,Maybe I'm not buying the same magazine.,Maybe the story on it is incoherent.,But ......]

"Thank you, brother! My sister would have said so, and she was very happy with whatever it was. 】

[My sister, unlike me, has hope for life and will definitely find a reason to survive, but she has not been able to be discharged from the hospital for the past two years. She's so pitiful, it's good to change all this, and I, who don't have any hope and don't know the meaning of existence, their thoughts make me come and go here. 】

Winter. The weather cooled down. The leaves on the side of the road have fallen off.

[It's the same in the summer, but it's even harder to work in the winter, and if your hands are frozen, they're about to crack. But in order to survive, I persevered. 】

[Live? Why? I can't think about it anymore, if I think about it. I can't even do a part-time job, so I work a little bit like this, fill my stomach, and buy some gifts for my sister. 】

Night. It's snowing, and Itonari, sitting on a chair on the side of the road for people to relax, looks at the snow falling from the sky, and thinks of my sister Otono Hatsune, who I've been taking care of. A little excited, but also a little abruptly said: "By the way, talk to the doctor at Christmas." Let her come out and play, if the snow accumulates, the wheelchair won't work. Then I'll carry her, if she's alone, no matter how far she walks, and then go to her favorite store to buy something she likes, if you can, I want her to go to a better store to taste a delicious cake, so you have to earn more. ”

Dim sky, not too bright wards.

Looking at the weak sister Otomu Hatsune, a little abruptly, but there was no real understanding of Otomo Matsuru, and asked softly, "Where do you want to go if you can go out for Christmas." ”

Wearing a mask, Yin Wuyin said softly: "On the road to the city." ”

Otomu Yuzuru: "Just go there?" ”

"Because all the trees are decorated with lanterns, you know?" ”

Otonazuru: "No, I don't even go there for Christmas." ”

Otono Hatsune said a little wistfully, "I heard it's very beautiful, it's been like that since last year." I remember the doctor saying that. ”

Otomu Yuzuru: "Then let's go there." ”

Otono Hatsune: "Can you go?" ”

Otonarizuru: "I'll try to talk to the doctor, and if not, I'll take you secretly." ”

Otono Hatsune: "Really! ”

Otomu Yuzuru: "Really. ”

Otomu Hatsune smiled happily and said, "Great, thank you, brother!" ”

A smile, a gratitude, a thank you, made this ward seem different. The agreement was set.

[Until that time, it was the happiest thanks.] 】

[I started working part-time, and I just went home to sleep, and now I have a purpose for work, but the only thing that worries me is that her body is getting weaker day by day, and of course we were not allowed to go out, so I sneaked into the ward after the visiting time and took my sister to the city at night. 】

Christmas, night, snow, beautiful streets of the city streets, roadside trees decorated with lights.

Looking at the beautiful street with the sound of Hatsune on his back, looking at the street decorated with lights and shining, he happily said to the sound of Hatsune on his back, "It's so beautiful, hey, have you seen it, it's so beautiful!" ”

Yin Muhatsune said weakly and softly, "Well, it's really beautiful." ”

But this weak, excited Otono didn't feel it, and walked on this beautiful street with Otomu Hatsune on his back, and happily said to Otomu Hatsune: "Yes, it's so beautiful, I'm so glad I can see it, it's all thanks to you, and the next happy time is not over, first of all, it's a gift, I'll buy it for you, brother, I've saved a lot of money for today, so no matter how expensive it is, I'll buy it for you, what do you want, let's go to the store first, and the jewelry store can also be Oh, Or go to a regular department store. ”

Feeling the concern of Otono Yuzuru, he felt what Otomu Hatsune was, and said softly: "Brother, thank you..."

Hearing Otomu Hatsune's words, Otomu Yuzuru was stunned, paused, and then continued to say with a smile: "Well, after selling things. There's a lot of fun, and dinner is next, and I don't know, but I'll take you to a good restaurant in the magazine, there are a lot of super delicious things, and haute cuisine, it's very good......"

For this day, Otono Yuzuru has been preparing for a long time, and in order to be able to let his sister Otono Hatsune spend a happy Christmas, Otono Yuzuru has made a rare effort. Otonashi Yuzuru hopes that Otono Hatsune can see his efforts.

[After that, I kept talking and walking alone......]

………………

[I found the meaning of survival and survived, the meaning of survival is around me, but I didn't notice it, I have been listening to her say "thank you" and living, she just thanked me for allowing me to live, and I was so happy at that time.

I'm stupid, and I only now realize that she is such an important being, but I have done nothing for her. She's been in the hospital reading the comic magazines I bought, just like that, just like this, is she happy?! 】

[Also.] Is my life over after losing all this, the happiness that I didn't notice, the daily life that was disrupted, and time went by in a flash. I...... There is nothing left. 】

Hatsune is gone, and on that Christmas is gone, Otono Yuzuru, who has lost the purpose of life. Walking aimlessly down the street, walking......

Hospital. Doorway.

"Thank you for your attention." The child's parents happily said to a nurse with a bright smile.

"Congratulations on being discharged!" Looking at the cute little girl in front of her, the nurse who had squatted down smiled and rubbed the little girl's hair and congratulated.

"Thank you!" Handing the flower in her arms to the nurse who had been taking care of her, the little girl said with a smile. Bright smile, sincere gratitude.

"What about the spirit!" The mother, who was also holding the flower, looked at the child who had gotten rid of the illness and was very lively, and said with a smile.

Redemption, thank you, shining with brilliance, so that Otono Yuzuru, who has lost the meaning of life and the meaning of existence, who has lost the meaning of life and has lost the meaning of existence, seems to have found something.

[Maybe I want to regain the motivation to live again, maybe I want to find the meaning of life, and for someone, my life can make a difference. 】

Otomoku who had stopped his footsteps, Otomu who had stopped the pace of his life, struggled again, studied, worked, studied, worked, and the whole person was no longer decadent.

The effort paid off, and Otonokuru's efforts allowed Otono to qualify for the central test.

Another winter, a snowy winter, Otonari Yuzuru sat on the train, ready to take the exam.

On the fast-moving train, looking at the examination qualification certificate in his hand, Otono Yuzuru smiled happily, as if his dream was already in front of him.

But... The tram was wrecked.

Except for a very small number of people, most of them died, and many of these very few people were also injured. Even no one is no exception.

There was no cell phone signal, both ends of the tunnel collapsed, and everyone was trapped in the middle of the tunnel, waiting for rescue.

After waking up, Otomu used his medical knowledge to help other survivors, but it had no effect, food, water, medical equipment, and medicine were not enough, and Otomu was also seriously injured, and it was judged that the spleen should have ruptured and the small intestine ruptured.

[Time passed slowly, and under his own appeasement, there was no commotion, but unfortunately, there was no effect. Time passed, people weakened, rescue did not appear, and the trapped people seemed to have only the fate of waiting for death. 】

[On the third day, a wounded man died, and he was unable to save him without medical supplies. It turns out that life is so fragile. Looking at the lives that have passed, I let out a cry of sorrow. 】

[Since that day, what have I been working for, from that person, from Hatsune I know the meaning of existence, but now I still watch people's lives disappear in front of my eyes, nothing has changed, I am still a useless person, since then, hasn't nothing changed, hateful, damn!! 】

[Seven days, a miraculous seven days, under his own leadership, relying on that little bit of water, some food, these trapped people actually lived in that dim tunnel for seven days. No madness, no riots, no ...... However, this is also the maximum amount of time that all the trapped people can hold on. 】

[There was no water, there was no food, there was no hope, and all the people fell. I couldn't hold on anymore, lying weakly, losing hope, having no belief in survival, no value of existence, just meaninglessly waiting for death to come. 】

[People often say that when people are about to die, they will recall their most important existence, their greatest regrets, and their ......]

[On the occasion of dying. I remembered Hatsune, I remembered Hatsune who gave me the meaning of existence and let me live. 】

Autumn, ward.

"Ahem, ahem, ahem......"

Looking at the coughing Otomu Hatsune, who was a little worried about Otomu Hatsune's body, Otomu Yuzuru, softly persuaded, "It's almost time to rest." ”

Facing his brother, who loved him, Otomu Hatsune said a little willfully: "I still want to watch it for a while." ”

"I can't help it." Looking at his lovely sister, Otomu Yuzuru gently draped his coat on Otomu Hatsune's body, and said softly and incomprehensibly, "Come." It's not good to have a cold, but why can't it get better? ”

Otomu said softly, "It would be nice if there was an organ donation." ”

"Organ donation?"

[Thank you Hatsune, once again, you have once again made your existence meaningful.] 】

Dim tunnels.

Lying on the ground weakly, there is no knot in the sound. Lacking food and water, Otomoshi Yuzuru, who had problems even moving, weakly asked Igarashi who was also lying beside him, "Igarashi, do you have a signature pen?" ”

"Ah......h

With great difficulty, he took the pen. Otono Yuzuru slowly took out the "National Health Insurance Card" and signed the organ donation agreement on the back, donating all the organs.

Looking at Otono Yuzuru's behavior, Igarashi was a little emotional. I was also a little moved. He whispered, "Really." ”

"What's that?" Otomu Yuzuru, who had signed the donation agreement, had nothing to worry about, and asked weakly.

Igarashi signed the donation agreement behind the back of the "National Health Insurance Card" like Otomu Yuzuru, and said softly with a smile, "If you do this, even if your life is over, you can still do something for others with this life, so that it will have the meaning of living." ”

Otono Yuzuru's actions, Igarashi's words, infected the people around him, and all the trapped people took out their national health insurance cards, drawing the most glorious scene for the lives that might have disappeared, and making their existence valuable.

Seeing this glorious scene, Igarashi couldn't help but say to Otono Yuzuru: "Na, you guy is really powerful, Otonai, look, everyone who is so desperate is now thinking about pinning hope on others, you saved everyone's lives, Otonai."

Now, Otono, are you listening? ”

Otomu couldn't hear it, and Otomu Yuzuru's last impression was the light, the light that the tunnel had been opened, the light that everyone else had been saved.

Building A, the roof of the teaching building.

Otono Yuzuru, who remembered everything, found his memory, covered his face and said with a smile: "I see, I remember it all, when I died, I was involved in a tram accident on the way to the central test, I originally wanted to be a doctor, for other people to live, to get a thank you and to live, I thought so, and studied very hard, but ah, I finally left my body through donation, my body should help someone, right, I believe that my life has no regrets! ”

Looking at the smiling and very satisfied Yin Wu Yuzuru, Zheng Shuanglong, who also watched the memory of Yin Wu Yuzuru, asked flatly: "Are you satisfied, I am really envious, a life without regrets, a perfect life, a life that has found the meaning of existence, you should be able to leave with such a life." ”

"Yes..."Otonari, who was about to say that he could leave, suddenly thought of the unfortunate life of Yuri Nakamura, and the miserable life of his companions on the world front after his death, and the words that followed could not be continued.

Otonashi wants to help them, to help the members of the World Front after death, so that they can start a new life with relief.

Moreover, the most important thing is that the existence of Zheng Shuanglong makes Yin Wu Yuzuru very uneasy, Zheng Shuanglong is a demon, and Yin Wu Yuzuru is convinced.

Looking at Yin Wu Yuzuru's face, Zheng Shuanglong, who instantly understood Yin Wu Yuzuru's worries, said lightly: "Peace of mind, I won't do anything too much to the members of the world front after death, after all, I'm a demon here, you won't rest assured, but Song is an angel, more lovely than an angel, if there is a song, I won't do anything too much, now you can leave with peace of mind." The tone is not knotted. ”

Hearing Zheng Shuanglong's words, he felt that it made sense for Otomatsuru, understood that he was definitely going to leave, and said with a smile: "Well, then, I'm leaving." ”

The words fell, the tone disappeared, and he walked away satisfied.

"Shiina, what I said today, I hope you don't say it to other people, okay?" Seeing that Yin Wu Yuzuru disappeared, Zheng Shuanglong said softly to Shiina, who had been following him.

Although Shiina did not appear just now, Shiina has always existed. The conversation between Otono Yuzuru and Zheng Shuanglong, Shiina also heard it.

Hearing Zheng Shuanglong's words, Shiina appeared, frowning, looking at Zheng Shuanglong, not knowing what to do.

"It's not a deal, it's not an order, it's not a threat, it's just a request. Don't say what I said today to anyone else, is that okay? Zheng Shuanglong said to Shiina with a gentle smile.

Looking at Zheng Shuanglong's gentle smile, Shiina blushed, nodded, and disappeared. Once again, he ducked into the shadows.

[A little envious, a life without regrets, a perfect life, a valuable life, a life without regrets, such a life is really jealous. 】

[Perhaps, the reason why I will be ruthless is also the reason for jealousy. My life is not so worth looking forward to, the value of life, the meaning of existence, the goal of life, I can't find it, I can't find it at all, it's just confused, muddy life, it's just a mess, when the truth exists, there is still so much meaning of hard work, now, I can't even find the strength of this effort, people are decadent, life without goals, false life, meaningless life, where is the value of my existence. 】

[I also want to find, find, the meaning of existence, and be able to live every day to the fullest.] It's a pity ......]

[Go all the way, the sound is not knotted. (To be continued......)

PS: Thank you for the tip of the dream demon.