Chapter 34: Reasons to Love and Not to Love
Lin Mei didn't care about the treasure and the jade talisman at all, and it was likely that the people in the Snake Intestine Valley had suffered a catastrophe because of these two things, so she showed some disgust and tiredness: "Whether the surname Lu is looking for it or not, he has no chance anyway." Let's go, let's go kill him! ”
I answered, walked a few steps and turned back, put away the dug up the bark and wood chips, dug up some dirt and stuffed it into the tree hole, and put the bark back in, and smoothed the gap with moss, so that there was hardly any trace of the digging. I'm going to prevent anyone else from coming to find a treasure or a jade talisman and then suspect me, although the likelihood is low, it's always haode to be careful.
After dealing with the traces, we quickly got out of the valley, my mood improved a lot, Lu Chengshan spent a lot of energy, and as a result, the treasure map and jade talisman fell into my hands, which was equivalent to giving him a hard slap, of course the mood was very refreshing.
When I walked to the horizontal plank road, I saw that the campfire in Lu Chengshan in the distance was burning very strongly, and I had a little premonition in my heart. At this time, it was already the second half of the night, and even if they hadn't slept yet, there was no reason to burn the fire so strongly, could something have happened?
Out of the pine forest and came to the location of the joint, Lao Lin and Wu Zhangya hurriedly greeted them and asked in a low voice, "How is it?" ”
"Well, no...... There is no treasure. "I said vaguely, not telling the truth, but not lying, that I had indeed not found the treasure. I didn't tell them that I didn't want to keep it alone, but that the treasure map had no clue at all, and the jade talisman was of little use to them, and letting them know would only increase the danger, in case the spread would cause a lot of trouble. If I can find treasure in the future, I will definitely give them some.
Lao Lin and Wu Zhangya didn't notice the flickering tone of my voice, but nervously told me that less than an hour after Lin Mei and I left, more than a dozen people went up the mountain, carrying large and small boxes. Lao Lin didn't dare to look too closely, but it could be seen from a distance that the newcomer was strong and vigorous, probably a special soldier, and the boxes he brought were either weapons or detection instruments.
"Then, then we can't kill the villain surnamed Lu?" Lin Mei was disappointed.
"Damn, if there were no reinforcements, we could have killed him together!" Qingqiu Ningxue was also very depressed, said in my mind.
I sighed: "If he commits too much injustice, he will kill himself, there will always be a time when he is alone and unlucky, even if we can't kill him, if he does too many immoral things, he will not end well." We'll go down the mountain when it's dawn. ”
Lin Mei is a very well-behaved girl and won't embarrass me, so although she feels uncomfortable, she doesn't say much.
In fact, I have always been a little worried, Lu Chengshan is a person with profound cultivation, his martial arts must not be bad, we may not have a chance of winning, and now I don't need to fight him immediately to the death and death, I am relieved in my heart.
We didn't dare to go down the mountain with a flashlight, so we had to wait until dawn and then quietly go down the mountain, and walked far away without alarming Lu Chengshan and them, and I was completely relieved. Let Lu Chengshan find a world upside down in the Snake Intestine Valley and be half dead, which can be regarded as a punishment, right?
Wu Zhangya's body was greatly affected by Yin Qi, and her physical strength was exhausted, so she stopped and walked along the way, and when she was resting at the foot of the mountain, Lao Lin wanted to speak several times, and finally couldn't help but ask me: "Xuanming, is it true that you said to Lu Chengshan that you can only live for a few more years?" ”
Lin Mei and Wu Zhangya immediately stared at me with a look of concern.
My heart sank, Wu Zhangya's mouth sometimes can't be closed, if he is drunk and says that his mouth is leaked and my mother knows, wouldn't it make my mother worry all the time? The thought in my heart turned sharply, I tried to pretend to be calm, and said with a smile: "No, I deceived Lu Chengshan, just to blackmail him to compensate for the loss, do you think I look like a dying person?" ”
Lin Mei is simple-minded, she believes everything I say; Wu Zhangya was originally a little "bad-hearted", and if he were replaced, I would do the same, so I also believed it. I had discussed the topic of "what if" with him before, so he didn't really believe me. However, he didn't say much, but his eyes were a little gloomy.
Looking at Lin Mei, who looked more beautiful and lovely with her complexion improved, I felt a heartache. I have always been very restrained and single-minded, and I have never been attracted to any woman, but now it is undeniable that I have fallen in love with her, and Lin Mei also has a good impression of me. If I can't succeed in continuing my life, only about seven years, then it will be a great tragedy for us to fall in love, and she will have to endure endless loneliness and pain for most of her life, how can I bear it? Lin Mei has already suffered too much, and I can't let her be hurt anymore.
I asked myself, would I have fallen in love with her in such a short time?
Her looks and temperament are the type I like, and that's one of the reasons; Her unfortunate background, thin appearance wrapped in a strong heart, let me love out of pity, which is also one of the reasons. What's more important is that I can be calm with her, I don't need to be wary, I can trust her completely, and I don't have to worry about what purpose she will have for me, I feel very relaxed and happy and satisfied when I meet her eyes, which has never been seen in any other woman. Although Xiaoxue is always in my body and can sense each other's mood, there is no such relaxation and peaceful joy.
Aren't these three reasons enough to make a man fall in love with a woman? I think just one reason is enough. This love came very suddenly, unconsciously, and it may have been that the moment I unveiled her mask, her softness and strength had already touched my heartstrings. Love is something that can't be measured by time, maybe just a glance and a word can make a promise of life and death.
To truly love someone, you have to make her happy and happy, and you can't drag her into the abyss of pain! Even if I can successfully prolong my life, I only have a total of more than 20 years to live, and Lin Mei is not yet 50 years old, how can I bear to leave my lover?
My heart was in turmoil, and I suddenly thought of Master Zeshan's last words, Master Zeshan must have known that my time was running out and my heart would change greatly, so he warned on his deathbed that the purpose of sending me relics was to suppress my demonic nature, so as not to kill on a large scale. If I can unlock the secret of this jade talisman and learn the invulnerability talisman, I will have the strength beyond ordinary people and can do whatever I want......
I don't dare to think about it anymore, in short, I can't take risks, I can't let Lin Mei suffer for me, so only a quick knife to cut the mess, and it is better to cut off the love thread now than to cause more pain in the future.
"Hehe, I told you not to hold her hand a long time ago, but now it's in trouble, right? In fact, she is really not suitable for you, she doesn't understand anything, she doesn't know anything, do you want to be raised as a daughter? Besides, she is so thin, a gust of wind blows away, you should have heard the words 'eating men and women', which means that men and women are together, just like eating vegetables, to pick the ...... with meat"
"Get out!" I went berserk and roared.
Lin Mei, Lao Lin and Wu Zhangya all jumped up in fright and asked in a panic, "What's wrong?" ”
I waved my hand and suppressed my anger: "It's okay, there was a longosque ghost arguing just now, I told it to get out." ”
"Oh......" The three of them were constantly suspicious, turning around and looking around, where did the ghost come from?
I said to Xiaoxue fiercely in my heart: "Don't interfere in the affairs between me and Lin Mei in the future, let alone say bad things about her, otherwise I will definitely find a way to make you never open your mouth!" ”
"Okay, okay, I won't talk about it in the future, but you can't always think about her, you have to care about me." Xiaoxue said very aggrievedly, which made my mood sour.
I know that it is not as free and easy as it says, it can let me love others casually, in fact, it cares about me very much, I fell in love with Lin Mei and it began to be psychologically unbalanced.
I think Xiaoxue can't feel my feelings for Lin Mei, maybe it doesn't want to feel, or it may be that the emotional channel formed by every pair of people who love each other can't be seen by others, so love is so precious, so unique, and can never be replaced.
We rested for a while and continued on the road, and on the way I made a decision that even I felt a little scary: from now on, I had to hide my feelings deep in my heart, and I couldn't let Lin Mei find out that I cared about her very much, and I couldn't let Lin Mei have a good impression of me......
I began to deliberately keep my distance from Lin Mei and was a lot colder to her, but soon I found that I felt very uncomfortable doing this, the ideal is beautiful, the reality is cruel, how can you pretend to be indifferent when you really fall in love with someone?
The road is not fast, it is already dark when I return to the village, Lao Lin is a person without a home, he is at peace with what he encounters, and he has been living in Wu Zhangya's house most of the time recently. It was also inconvenient for Wu Zhangya to take Lin Mei to his house, so of course she went to my house.
My mother was astonished when she saw that I had brought back a girl dressed like a beggar with tattered clothes and long disheveled hair, and hurriedly cooked rice and boiled water to bathe her. I told what had happened in dialect, and the thrilling places were basically ignored, but I just introduced Lin Mei's situation, but my mother kept wiping tears when she heard it, and sighed again and again: "Poor child, it's not easy, living alone in the mountains for so many years!" ”
Lin Mei took a hot bath, changed into my mother's clothes, her hair was neatly combed, and she immediately seemed to be a different person, except that she was too thin, she was a big beauty, and it was the beauty of a very simple and amiable little jasper. Her unique graceful temperament is very rare in modern girls, and her thinness also makes people love and pity, and they want to care about her and protect her.
It's not that I haven't seen beautiful women, I've seen a lot of them at school before, but the girls in the city are either squeamish or arrogant; The girls in the countryside are either rustic or rough, and there are very few who are beautiful, simple, elegant, and strong. Perhaps because of this, my heartstrings were touched at the first sight of her...... Alas, there are many reasons to love her, and there is only one reason not to love her!
Human instinct can't be suppressed, the longer it is suppressed, the more terrible it will be, before this I have been restraining myself not to be tempted by anyone, and now once I open my heart, it is like a gap in a dammed lake, which can no longer be closed, so I know that I can't love Lin Mei, but how can I stop? The aiqing that has just sprouted is about to be strangled by force, how cruel is this? So I was bitter and conflicted to the extreme.
Lin Mei is very curious about everything, not to mention electric lights, fans, TVs and the like, she regarded it as a legendary magic weapon, and at first even a printed new towel made her sigh for a long time, and she hesitated for a long time and was reluctant to use it to wash her face. She has never seen all the plastic products, she cherishes and appreciates all the food and use, and she feels that it is a great happiness for people to enjoy the most ordinary things.