"Since I don't know the way, then tell me in detail, Zhongyi, are you hiding some secrets?" Li Xin looked at me coldly, her eyes were so sharp that I didn't dare to look at them directly.

"I didn't, I said everything, I was just controlled by the power of the magic circle at the time, and then I came to my senses, it's as simple as that." I don't want to say more, Li Xin is too slippery, and she can easily wrap me in in a few words.

Jiao Ba suddenly said at this time, "Hearing you say this, I will know the Tao, the first magic circle power you encounter should be called greed, those gold and silver, is the proof, when human beings see wealth, they will burst out of the greed of the inner world, the power of the magic circle, will magnify this greed several times, and at the end it will make you mad, for the sake of wealth at all costs, but when you come into contact with the gold turned into those black stones, you will be killed by this greed, I also admire your righteous brother, Actually relying on your own willpower, you broke through the power of the magic circle, you are indeed very strong. ”

I said dismissively, "Tough fart, it's the power of that circle that distorts my mentality, otherwise I wouldn't have come to my senses." ”

Jiao Ba nodded and said, "Maybe, as for the amount of strength you encountered in the second place, it's a bit strange, it stands to reason that it should be happiness, but is this happiness also a human desire?" ”

"What doesn't it count? In today's materialistic society, aren't people always looking for the so-called happiness, so this happiness can be regarded as a desire, and it can even be said to be a luxury. Li Xin tilted her head and said, it seems that she also has a lot of feelings about life.

"Even if it's a desire, this desire should come from Brother Yi's own, I just don't understand, who is the woman who can make you obsessed, can make you believe that it is your home, and even make you feel happy?" Jiao Ba looked directly at me, as if he was interrogating a prisoner.

"Damn, it's good if I can come out alive, why are you asking me all this? That's an ordinary woman, maybe I've been single for too long, so it's inevitable that there will be this illusion of happiness. I made up a random remark, and I always felt that they were talking to me.

Jiao Ba chuckled, "Brother Yi, although I haven't experienced the situation at that time, but I know very well that the magic circle can only expand your desires, it shouldn't change your thinking, if it's just an ordinary woman, you will definitely not have this feeling of happiness, that woman should have a very important place in your heart, and it can even be said that you love him very much." ”

Jiao Ba's words were like a steel needle, piercing directly into my chest, making my originally calm heart begin to fluctuate again, I glanced at him and didn't speak, he is really troublesome, the matter has been analyzed to this point, why ask so much.

Li Xin suddenly said at this time, "Oh, I know, could it be that woman who has become Jenny?" That's why you're "She pointed her finger at my chest, looking lukewarm.

"Absolutely not, this has nothing to do with Jenny's eight poles, so don't you guess anymore?" I deliberately glared at Jiao Ba, if he picked up the topic, Li Xin would not ask any more.

Jiao Ba immediately understood what I meant, he pretended to cough and said, "I don't mean anything else, Brother Yi, since you can come back safely, it's good that the first two forces know the Dao, so where did you go after the last?" You said it was a place full of mirrors? ”

I thought back and said, "That's right, it's a place full of mirrors all around, no, it's supposed to be ice mirrors" I explained the situation in detail, and the feeling of fear still makes me unforgettable, and I feel chills all over my body when I think about it, but I didn't talk about my comrades, but I just said the strength of the array, and then kept driving me to kill myself.

After listening to what I said, Jiao Ba touched his chin and said, "Did you leave any important information?" ”

"Information? No, I don't. "I pretended to be innocent.

Jiao Ba pursed his lips, shook his head and said, "That's not right, according to the strength of the magic circle, it is impossible for it to control your heart and make you commit suicide, if this is the case, a few of us would have died a long time ago, it should be something in your heart that makes you blame yourself, or you have done something that makes you feel very guilty, and you can't even forgive yourself, the strength of this ancient ship will be inserted from it, otherwise, there will be no wind at all." ”

Damn, I don't know if it's because Jiao Ba's analytical ability is too strong, or if he knows too much about these evil ways, he really hit the nail on the head, even if I want to hide it intentionally, it seems that this level is not easy to get through.

I said with a cold face, "No, there's nothing that makes me blame myself, you don't have to think about it anymore, it's just that the power of the circle controls me." ”

Jiao Ba suddenly laughed and said, "Brother Yi, I don't force you to say anything, but you can't lie to us, you just need to tell me, is it the magic circle that controls your mind for no reason, or do you really have something unspeakable?" ”

I know very well in my heart that it seems impossible to fool Jiao Ba in the past, Jiao Ba doesn't dare to say how much he knows the power of this hexagonal magic circle, but he at least knows that the power of this magic circle is not trivial.

And he is also the only one among us who knows the Hexagonal Circle of the Dao except for Chang Shan, but I always feel that among our people, there must be people who know the existence of the Circle of the Dao, especially Mai Lao and Jenny, I can't understand them more and more.

I sighed and said, "Even if you're right, I do have a very self-blaming thing in my heart, but it's been many years, I haven't mentioned it to anyone, I've been holding it in my heart, I didn't expect this thing to be used, but I don't understand, is this also a kind of desire?" ”

"To be able to get rid of this inner torment must be your personal desire, what do you say?" Li Xin glanced at me and asked softly.

"I don't know what to do." I really don't know if it's or not, but over the past few years, this incident has always lingered in my mind, and I can't forget it.

Jiao Ba patted me on the shoulder at this time and said, "This kind of strength should come from the self-blame from the heart, the magic circle will expand your self-blame and guilt several times, if you can't bear this pressure, you will naturally go to the extreme of suicide." ”

I nodded and said, "yes, I almost shot myself, it was a kind of torture, and it seemed like I could only be relieved of my guilt if I died." ”

"I said Brother Yi, what the hell is going on? Can it make you blame yourself for years? Jiao Ba turned his head to look at me and asked.

"I don't want to say, you'd better not ask." My face was ugly, and I didn't want to think about that time again.

"Aren't you afraid that it will always weigh on your heart? Once the strength of the ancient ship increases again, I am afraid you will not be able to bear it, Brother Yi, this is a knot in your heart, if you want to untie this knot, you have to do it yourself. Jiao Ba said earnestly.

I thought about it carefully, if I always pressed it in my heart, it was indeed a thing, once it broke out, I was afraid that I would go insane, I was so crazy that it didn't matter, it was a big deal to die to solve a thousand sorrows, but if it affected everyone, then I would really be a sinner for thousands of years.

"It happened five years ago, because of a mission failure, I killed my comrades"

I recalled the situation at the time, word by word to tell the story of the story, but when I talked about his death in my arms, I was already crying, tears like broken pearls, along my face began to scatter silently, the feeling of heartache hit again, we used to be like brothers, but watching him die, I was in pain, every time I thought about it, it stimulated my fragile body and mind.

"Eighth child, I am guilty, if it weren't for my selfishness, how could he die? It's all my fault, I killed him, it's me. I grabbed Jiao Ba's shoulder and said with tears in my eyes.

Jiao Ba grabbed my arm with both hands, "You listen to me Brother Yi, you can't be completely blamed for this, it's been so many years, you should be relieved, you can't always let this matter press on your heart, people have to look forward, you can't always stay in the memories." ”

"Although you have an unshirkable responsibility back then, but you don't want this kind of thing to happen, I know that his death is a big blow to you, but you have also been condemned in your heart because of this, the inner torture of the past few years is enough, if your comrades-in-arms know that you are still living in self-blame, he will not be happy, let go of all this, let it become a thing of the past, and go with the wind."

Li Xin also supported me beside me, his eyes were a little red and said, "Yes, loyalty, let it go, as long as you want to let go, you will definitely be able to do it, I really didn't expect you to have such a big depression in your heart, people can't always live in the past, he will definitely forgive you, and you must forgive yourself." ”

"Can I forgive myself? May I? I looked at them and asked with teary eyes.

Over the years, I have been trying to find an excuse, or a reason, to unload this heavy burden, but every time, I have to continue to carry it, because I really can't find any reason to unload this burden, and would rather it weigh heavily on me.

"Of course you can, you should forgive yourself, we can all understand you, Brother Yi, as a brother for many years, I don't know that there is such a big thing hidden in your heart, just say it, there is nothing wrong, you don't have to carry it alone in the future, we can all share it for you, in the past, let him pass." Jiao Ba's words made me feel a lot more comfortable, and it seemed that the pressure in my heart was not so great.

Li Xin smiled and said, "Yes, you still have us, the loyalty that has nothing to do is over, a big man, don't cry." ”

She makes me feel very warm, it's really a bit like a wife comforting her husband, unconsciously, my relationship with Li Xin seems to be closer, but it may also be my own one-sided feeling, what people think in their hearts, I don't know what to say.