Chapter 32: The Savior

I took the branch and set it on the fire.

I always thought that I was kind and soft-hearted, but when I was hurt so deeply, the anger in my heart could also make me crazy and irrational. At this time, all the moral quotes are all, I just want revenge, and Zhao Jiang has to pay the price, although it can't make me get back what I lost, but it can paralyze the wounds in my soul.

Zhao Jiang was strung on a branch and couldn't escape, screaming one after another, the voice was very small, but I knew that he was conscious, which made me feel the pleasure of revenge, and I knew that Nana was watching from the side.

I didn't want to give him a pleasure, I wanted to torture him slowly, so I burned him with the magic fire for a while, and then took it away, and when he calmed down a little, I went to burn him again, and let him suffer endless pain to cleanse him from his sins.

He helped the demon baby to hurt his classmates for his own sake; He hunted and killed innocent and kind little maids, and absorbed the skills of others; He killed innocent children and migrant workers because of hunger; He kills poor Xiaoling in order to get close to Nana; He killed the girl who jumped off the building in revenge, and eventually led to Nana's death!

The Nana I love, my first love, the one I owe it!

He wailed, he begged for mercy, but my heart was extremely hard, and now I understand why the Chinese say, 'Killing people pay for their lives, debts to pay back, it is righteous.' Because no one does something wrong without paying the price, and whoever does it will bear the consequences, no matter how long it takes, no matter how miserable it is!

I repeated the action, did not speak, Ah Zhan and Bao Datong did not make a sound, little by little watching the black gas being roasted smaller and smaller, struggling softer and lighter, until there was no sound at all, until this person who should be cut with a thousand knives finally stopped polluting the world.

I held the branch and was reluctant to throw it into the fire, because it would mean the end of the matter, and Nana would leave me forever. How I wish it wasn't dawn, but I'm so small, how can I control it!

"Ten thousand miles." Ah Zhan called me, and his voice was a little unbearable.

I stood up, not daring to look at the white mist, my heart was in turmoil, my hands trembled for a long time, and finally I threw the branch into the fire and ended my love with my own hands.

Ah Zhan, who was beside me, sighed lightly and walked away with Bao Datong, while the white mist slowly drifted over, surrounding my body, reluctant to give up. I couldn't hear her, but I knew how reluctant she was to me!

What should I do? I can't let go of my feelings, but reason makes me have to make a decision.

She's not mine anymore. If I force her to stay, she will willingly stay, but she can only become a wandering spirit, with no happiness and an afterlife, no chance to be a human again, and I can give her nothing but pain and danger. She's dead, and this isn't her place anymore.

"Let's go, Nana!" Holding back tears, I forced myself to say calmly, "If there is an afterlife, we love again, and I swear I can find you!" ”

The white mist still lingered, enveloping me in it, and I only felt the cool vapor soothing me so gently, as if kissing my face. I stretched out my hand, but I couldn't grasp anything, I couldn't touch it! Who said that men don't cry and don't flick, I really wanted to cry out loud at that moment, but I had to endure it, because I knew that my pain would make her even more reluctant.

I used all my strength to feel her last existence, communicating with each other, and forgetting myself, but the sky was still irrepressibly white, telling me that the dawn was coming!

"Let's go, Nana!" My heart ached, and every word I said was like a knife in my heart, "I swear I'll never forget you!" In my life, you will always have a place in my heart, and there will always be! No one can touch, the quietest and warmest location! ”

A gust of wind blew, but the white mist did not disperse, only a whimper came from the wind. The voice was so sad that I almost went with her. I wanted to reassure her, so I stopped talking, and watched the white mist gently linger around me, becoming transparent, and then—dissipating!

I don't even know how I got back to the hospital, I just know that I lost her completely! For many years to come, I often dreamed of her, but it was only an imagination caused by my thoughts, because she was at peace when she left, so she must have her new life!

Later, Bao Datong left, Ah Zhan and I graduated, and we never went back there. Regarding the campus case back then, because we unanimously said that we didn't know who attacked us from behind, we had no choice but to stop it.

Xiao Xia burst into tears, she never knew that Wanli's heart was so deeply hurt.

"It's only one centimeter away!" Wanli is still immersed in memories, "If I had been one second faster, she wouldn't have died!" Whether or not our love succeeds in the end, at least she doesn't have to die! She's so young and so cute—just a centimeter away! Just a little bit—"

"Don't blame yourself, it's not your fault!" At this moment, Wanli looked so fragile that Xiao Xia's heart twisted. Because Wanli was sitting, she stepped forward and leaned over to hug him, trying to comfort him, "It's all God's bad, it's his fault that he wants to make such a mistake to torture you, it's not your fault!" ”

"No, I didn't think it through." Wanli said stubbornly, as if blaming himself would ease the pain, "At that time, I was so complacent, I thought that I could easily solve everything, I didn't think about how complicated and difficult the world was!" ”

"It's not your fault, you were so young at that time, how could you have imagined!" Xiao Xia hugged Wanli's neck and hit him hard, feeling sorry for his self-punishment, "Besides, you also fulfilled your promise, never forgot her, and ruined your marriage for this matter." I think she will be happy if she knows underground. It's rare to be remembered by a man like you! ”

She never regretted it that much!

Why do you want to inquire about him and Bao Datong? Why do you have to uncover the wounds that have healed and let him be bloody again? She hated herself very much, not only because she reminded Wanli of the unbearable past, but also because of everyone's attitude towards Wanli.

Everyone will vent and confide in him when they have troubles and uneasiness, especially her, as if he should help everyone relieve psychological pressure, as if he was born to be everyone's guardian. No one ever thought that he was also a human being, he also lived a hard and tired life in a bustling city, and he also had his own sorrows and pains, but who cared about the scars of his soul? Just because he is gentle and understanding, just because he laughs at Mimi every day, won't he hurt when he is hurt?

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! ”

"Why do you say you're sorry?" Her tears dripped down his neck, making him tingle, "It's not your fault, silly girl!" ”

"I'm sorry anyway." Xiao Xia said that he felt that everyone was too much for Wanli.

The people around him regard him as a good friend, but who really cares about him? He always helps others, but when he licks his wounds alone, has anyone ever given him gentle comfort? Or Ruan Zhan has, but she hasn't. How selfish she is!

Wan Li smiled bitterly and didn't argue any further, "Don't cry, others will think I'm bullying you." He patted her on the back and continued, "Now you know why I always leave first every time I break up with you, right? Because I can't stand watching someone leave, it's my heart disease, and I'm afraid that person won't come back. I'm a doctor, but I can't solve my problems. ”

"Everyone has a mental illness, and it's not normal to not have a disease. You said. Xiao Xia replied vaguely, but her heart was still hurting for Wanli.

"Yes, I have a lot of questions, such as my attitude towards Bao Datong." Wanli sighed, "He didn't do anything wrong, in fact he has been helping us." But I subconsciously want to find a medium to transfer my pain, so I will anger him. I blame their father and son for not taking Zhao Jiang back then, I blame him for not pushing Nana to me by an extra centimeter, and I even blame him for not foreseeing the rain, ha, how unreasonable. ”

"He seems to know this, and he is very cooperative with you!"

"yes, or maybe he has some guilt too! The three of us didn't even save a delicate girl. ”

"Maybe he'll feel better that way."

"That's right, I think Ah Zhan is the same."

Ruan Zhan's name made Xiao Xia's body tremble slightly, and she didn't know why she had such a big reaction when she mentioned him. Wan Li keenly felt this, and his heart was sour.

"Do you know why Ah Zhan was willing to help you at the beginning?" Wanli ignored the new pain in his heart, "Because I said you were like Nana." ”

"Am I like?" Xiao Xia was a little surprised and let go of Wanli.

"I ought to say - no, except for the situation in which you were haunted by fierce ghosts, there is nothing like Nana's imagination. She doesn't look like her, her personality is even different, she is very delicate, which will make men feel distressed unconsciously, you are an impatient character, usually very docile, but when people are in a hurry, they are full of tenacity, it can be said that they are jealous and hateful! ”

"Sounds like a compliment to me." Xiao Xia saw that Wanli gradually calmed down, and his distress eased slightly, "But-just because I was like Nana, I mean I was in a situation like Nana at the time, did Ruan Zhan help me?" He--still loves Nana? ”

"It's not because of that." Wanli saw that Xiao Xia was very concerned about this matter, so he told the truth, "He didn't love Nana very deeply, or he never loved any woman very deeply." ”

Of course, if you don't count it - thousands of miles make up in your heart.

"So, he's just as guilty about it?" Xiao Xia said, "I thought he was helping me for your sake, or because he was afraid that I would reveal his secret." ”

"How could he be afraid of that!" Wan Li let out a sigh, "You haven't seen his previous indifference, he can watch an innocent person die in front of him, and he will only step over that person without even lifting his eyelids." He will manipulate other people's memories, is he afraid that you will say it? You're right, he's just guilty and wants to find a way to relieve it, so he's going to help you. As for the future, it is your eldest lady's first-class kung fu, and he can't help it when he is entangled by you. ”

Xiao Xia didn't speak, and suddenly had a strange feeling in her heart. Ruan Zhan will manipulate other people's memories, so did he do this to himself? Otherwise, why is she always having a confused memory lately, always feeling that something has happened, but she can't remember it?

But no, wouldn't it? She still remembers that in the Li Jingming incident, he promised himself that he would never manipulate her, what he promised, with his personality, he would definitely do what he said, it shouldn't be!

It must be her own crankiness!

Xiao Xia shook his head, trying to shake off this thought, but because of excessive exertion, his physical condition has been poor recently, and he suddenly became dizzy and fell forward after a flick. Wanli was startled, and reached out to hug her, "Be careful!" ”

Xiao Xia sat on Wanli's lap and slowed down for a while before coming back to his senses.

"I—" She tried to say something of thanks, but when she looked up, she saw a man standing in front of the door.

That man was what she thought about day and night, and at this moment he suddenly appeared, making her feel like in a dream, and she didn't react for a while, just stared at him blankly.

"Ah Zhan!" Or Wanli reacted first, "You're back!" ”

Ruan Zhan took his eyes off Xiao Xia, pointed at Bao Datong, and walked into the room.

When Xiao Xia saw him move, he realized that he was still sitting on Wan Li, and quickly stood up, "Have you eaten?" ”

"Not yet."

"Shall I prepare a little for you?"

"Okay." Ruan Zhan replied briefly.

Hearing his affirmative reply, Xiao Xia hurriedly ran out of the door and dared to breathe when he walked to the staircase. What's the matter, why did I see him, my heart almost jumped out, and I wanted to rush over and hug him. If she doesn't leave soon, maybe she'll really do something to him! When did you become so colorful? No, you have to divert your attention, you have to help him get something to eat first, he looks so tired!

Thinking about it, she ran downstairs to get Ruan Zhan something to eat, but the atmosphere between the two men upstairs was a little awkward.

"Things are going well, right?" Wanli broke the silence.

"It's okay." Ruan Zhan walked to Bao Datong, who was lying quietly on the bed, "The people in Xitou are very simple, although they didn't dare to say anything because they were afraid at the beginning, as long as they can help them and are sincere, they are still willing to reciprocate." ”

"Have you found out the origin of 'Zhang Jialin'?"

Ruan Zhan nodded, "I know a rough idea, although there are still mysteries, but some clues can be deduced." ”

"How did you get back? And with your space-time warp? Wanli sighed, "It's not okay for you to use that often, or is it better to choose a normal physical method?" ”

"I know that too." Ruan Zhan frowned habitually, "But I'm afraid he won't be able to wait." He checked the aura of Bao Datong's body, and saw that his condition was not too bad, and his heart was a little relieved.

"Yes, you're a savior. Last time, you sensed my danger and rushed back early, but this time you sensed that he was in danger. ”

"Last time?"

"The time Nana had an accident." Wanli's voice lowered, but he immediately adjusted his emotions, "I was telling Xiao Xia about that just now, but she cried so much that she was sadder than me." ”

"You shouldn't tell her about that, she'll be upset for a long time,"

"Maybe you're right." Wan Li thought for a while, "But there is too much sadness in this world, if you want her to be protected from a little erosion, and there are happy things around her, you must first save your own life." ”

"You should know—"

"I know." Wan Li interrupted Ruan Zhan, "But you can't treat fate so quietly, even if it's for Xiao Xia." Didn't you just see her in my arms, aren't you jealous? ”