Chapter 7: Love and Bitterness (2)

Jin Yan took the note, carefully rolled it into the copper tube, and hid it in the box again.

"This is what he hid in the saddle, and he thought of a strange riddle for me to guess, but he just wanted me to find this ......" Jinyan shook her head and chuckled, and there was sweetness and sourness in that smile.

"Then, why didn't my sister and him get married?" I want her two to be in love, and they are the right person, if they have the heart to tie the knot, it shouldn't be a problem.

"It's all fate, it's all fate!" Jinyan's eyebrows were entangled again, "We originally made a private appointment, and when he came back from his father's inspection of the border pass, he would come to my house to propose marriage, but who knew that it was delayed, and at this time, the queen mother summoned my grandfather and proposed to choose me as a concubine in the palace." ”

I can guess what the Queen Mother means. Jinyan's maternal ancestor Zhang Gongduo was originally a generation of famous generals of the Great Shu Kingdom, and his prestige in the court, when Baoyuan ascended the throne, the family background of the concubines in the harem was not satisfactory, and the throne has been vacant.

Speaking from the heart, although Jinyan's family background is good, the strength of the family is not enough to pose a threat to the court, and including it in the harem can deter the concubines and attract famous generals. Therefore, the Queen Mother's move must be a deliberate choice.

"At that time, I was looking forward to his early return, and I was worried that the Queen Mother would give him a marriage...... In desperation, I had to pretend to be sick. The helpless and sad expression appeared on Jinyan's face again.

"But how long can I pretend to be sick, but it makes my parents anxious about me every day. So I simply pretended to be dedicated to the Buddha, and copied the scriptures and recited the Buddha behind closed doors all day long, only hoping that God would see mercy, so that the Queen Mother dispelled the idea of choosing me to enter the palace. But I didn't expect that this would be self-defeating! Jin Yan said with a wry smile.

"And then? He ...... of the high school lieutenant, "Thinking of a handsome man like the high school lieutenant, if he learns that the woman he loves marries someone else against his will, he is afraid that he will not be able to bear it."

"On the third day I entered the palace, I heard that he had returned with my father......"

Jinyan told me that after Gao Lieyang learned that she had entered the palace as a concubine, she was drunk behind closed doors for three days, and finally drank until she vomited blood.

Jin Yan was so anxious that he had to quietly send Youlian to talk to him, saying that if he didn't cherish himself, he would hang himself and apologize. Lie Yang listened, let Youlian bring words and Jinyan - as long as you are okay for a day, I will be okay for a day. And the love riding "Yunyan" was given to Jinyan in the name of the wedding.

"Your divine horse Yunyan was originally sent by the high school lieutenant?" It dawned on me that it was no wonder that Jinyan cherished that horse very much.

"It turns out that this horse is not called Yunyan, the name was chosen by him, I understand that he wants to tell me that he has always hoped that we can be like the swallow in the clouds, free and free, and fly in both places."

"So, the high school lieutenant is reluctant to enter the court as an official, and he still travels far away for a long time?" Alas, why are there so many lovers in the world who cannot be married, why are there such torturous separations, and they miss them for life!

The Jinyan in front of her no longer had the usual detached posture, she sat quietly like that, looking at the dragon leaping pool outside the window, her eyes were foggy.

This kind of her is something I have never seen, it turns out that there is such a blazing love in the bottom of this woman's heart, like a flame under the ice, without temperature but trying all her "life".

"Sister" Jinyan called me softly, and said: "When I entered the palace, I resented and hated, in order not to sleep, I often shut up in the room all day under the pretext of closing the practice, and the queen mother was already dedicated to the Buddha, so it was inconvenient to be too harsh." And the emperor was a woman who married me at my behest and had many gentle concubines around him, so he never cared about me from beginning to end. "Jinyan and Baoyuan, I have seen it in the past two years, they seem to be two people who have nothing to do with each other, politely and keep a distance.

"Sister, are you going to live your life like this?" The red face of the flower is so lonely and old, how can people not feel pity.

"That's the best for me." Jinyan smiled softly, her eyes like a shallow willow silk dragging down the water, "How I hope that with the pious prayers and the blessings of cultivation in this life, my beloved will be well, and I can cultivate an afterlife for myself and him." ”

"Sister...... "I don't feel choked.

"Fool!" She wiped my tears and said with a smile: "Don't worry about me, but you and the emperor, you have to cherish it." I can see that you are in love. Rui'er, do you understand that my sister can't think of such a blessing like you, and she can't hope for it! ”

"However, he is not alone with me, even though I know that he has me in his heart, but he still has so many women, and there may be more in the future."

"But, the emperor's heart is with you! Don't you understand? Everyone has their own helplessness, their own last resort, he is the emperor and he has no choice. It is a great blessing for you to love each other and stay together, but don't let down the love of God. ”

"Sister, let me ask you, if you can marry a high school lieutenant, but he has three wives and four concubines, then you really don't feel sad and sad?" I'm not convinced.

"I think it's inevitable to be sad and sad, but I will still choose to believe that he loves him, after all, loving someone is not just to monopolize him, but to see him good and happy!"

Jinyan's words are like a slap in the face, yes, I have forgotten my original intention when I entered the palace, and I decided to enter the palace in order to love Baoyuan well. He is the emperor, he is destined not to be the only woman I am, but what does it matter, at least our love only belongs to each other, hehehe, I'm so stupid!

Think about Zhang Jizhao's resentful expression because he "asked but couldn't", think about Li Yunying's unspeakable love and forbearance, and Jinyan's helpless "love parting", I am really happy, at least the person I love, he is by my side, and I know that he also loves me!

The knot opened in an instant, and I thought I knew what to do with him in the days to come.

When I walked out of Feiluan Pavilion, my mood was unusually calm, and the palace in my eyes seemed to have changed. In the distance, there are young concubines walking forward.

I looked at those women with tricks, and a trace of relief suddenly rose in my heart, I was a lonely soul from the world, I don't know what kind of cause and cause I came, and I don't know when I will leave, if I leave, Bao Yuan, Bao Yuan......

If that were the day, I'd rather he have more people around him to comfort him, or at least that way I'll leave with less concern.

The following days were calm and beautiful, and the relationship between me and Baoyuan seemed to be due to the change of my state of mind, as if I had suddenly returned to the days of my wedding.

It's just that......

At the end of June, the Tai Hospital performed that Shen Yuefu was pregnant, just two months old. Taking advantage of Shen Yuefu's pregnancy, Bao Yuan issued an edict to give Xinghua Water Pavilion, and Yuefu moved out of Changchun Hall within a few months. Later, Shen Yuefu changed the Xinghua Water Pavilion to Tingfeng Xuan.

Yuefu's departure didn't have much impact on me, but Jingyi seemed to be greatly relieved, but then she began to worry about the outcome of Yuefu's birth. Every time I talk about it, I am repeatedly urged to take care of my body quickly so that I can get pregnant as soon as possible.

Kid, yes, kid! I don't know when I'll be able to have a baby!

Since Yuefu became pregnant, the Queen Mother has a lot of pity for her, and Bao Yuan often goes to accompany her, I think she should be very happy!

On that day, when Bao Yuan and I were dining in the Changchun Hall with Jingyi, I actually asked with great interest about the situation of women's happiness, and at first I only said that he was curious, but I never thought that he would actually study the medicine and diet to alleviate the happiness disease.

On that day, I saw more than 30 neat prescriptions written by him in the Chongguang Temple...... Later, in the trivial matters of the concubines' parents on weekdays, I heard that the imperial dining room sent the food and drink personally ordered by Bao Yuan to Tingfeng Xuan every day.

He is really attentive to Yuefu!

Jingyi and the other concubines all said that this was because the palace had not raised dragon descendants for a long time, so Bao Yuan inevitably cared too much about Yuefu's fetus.

Only I understand that he is not just for the children. After all, Shen Yuefu is affectionate to him, not to mention that a woman like her is so touching!

In his eyes, he felt pity for others, and I thought I was relieved, but the sourness in my chest could not be dissipated for a long time.

It turns out that affection is not good, as if the more affectionate, the more bitter the fruit. This is true of Jinyan, and so is mine, I wish I could love less, so that I would not care so much.

Jinyan has gradually recovered to her original state, but I like to stay with her more and more in the Feiluan Pavilion, we often sit quietly together, thinking about our own thoughts, and not saying a word for a long time.

In August, Shen Yuefu was pregnant for three months, and Bao Yuan issued an order to promote Baoxiang. And several of the concubines in the harem also had to be promoted on the same day, and Zhang Xianru entered Baofang from Baoxiang. Xuan Yu is getting older, and his mother's position is too low, which is not conducive to the growth of the prince.

The concubines are on the throne, and the harem is full of jubilation, and the competition for favor is even more open and secret, I know that the result of such a happy is actually Bao Yuan is spending his heart to maintain Yuefu.

What can I complain about? He is still the most favored woman in the harem!

In the Changchun Palace, under the hibiscus tree in the autumn night, the love is charming, time flies, this is exactly that:

Leaving the palace courtyard around the palace city, the gold plate taps the phoenix sheng.

At the bottom of the moonlit flower tree at night, there is a long singing voice in the pond.

I'm supposed to be satisfied, right? Should I really be satisfied?!

In November, Han Baozhen, the deputy envoy of the Privy Council, wrote a letter to admonish: "Playthings lose their minds, and playthings lose their morality." On the emperor's birthday, please pardon the palace people. The whole country celebrates together, and it is called Dide. "Bao Yuan heard the advice and gave Bao Zhen a few catties of gold.

Baoyuan's attendants on the left and right said that Han Baozhen's words were too straightforward, and asked the emperor to confess him.

Bao Yuan replied: "At the beginning of the reign of Taizong of the Tang Dynasty, the jailer Sun Fujia wrote to Taizong to stop hunting. ”

In the month, the palace people were amnesty and allowed to leave the palace and return home.

Bao Yuan's move, the whole dynasty praised, the queen mother sighed at the loyalty of the Han family, and gave a special gift to reward Jingyi. All of a sudden, the concubines of the harem were equally divided, and everyone was satisfied, and there was nothing more than the so-called checks and balances.