"Jinyan, how is Rui'er?" Bao Yuan didn't turn back, "I heard from the people of the Shang Food Bureau that she refused to eat well these days, and I wanted to see her, but I was afraid that the queen mother would find out and be angry and even more difficult for her...... "I knelt there, listened dumbfounded, and didn't dare to make a sound."

"Get up." Bao Yuan walked over slowly and stretched out his hand to signal to me.

I lowered my head and got up, but I saw him turn around and walk to the window, Mochizuki sighed: "I heard about her punishment of Yanniang today, I guess she is annoyed, right?" Alas...... I also have no choice, if I don't be so afraid, I am afraid that the queen mother will blame her even more...... What do you say I should do? ”

After a while, he said again: "It's okay to pay it back, but Li Yanniang is unconscious, if you make any more noise...... Jinyan, why don't you speak? You're going to tell me how she's doing? His tone was worried, heart-wrenching. Does he care about me? But he still embraces others every night, I ......

"Jinyan, why don't you answer me? Are you also blaming me? Bao Yuan's tone was frustrated, "I know that you are devoted to the Buddha, and I have promised not to call you to bed, but now in this situation, I can only ask you about the situation of Rui'er...... Why don't you speak? Bao Yuan seemed a little annoyed, and brushed off the hood that covered half of my face.

"Rui'er? Rui'er! His eyes were full of surprise, and he took me in his arms, and the familiar breath surrounded me, but my heart suddenly emptied after a moment of joy, and his arms were a little strange, and I seemed to be able to smell the aroma of fat powder left by others...... I broke free, knelt down and said coldly: "The concubine bullied the king, please ask the emperor to surrender." ”

"Rui'er, what are you doing here?" Bao Yuan leaned over to pull me up. But I stubbornly knelt, I didn't know if I was fighting with him or with myself, I just felt that my heart was about to suffocate.

"You get up." He picked me up and held it firmly around my chest, and I looked away from him in my heart.

"Rui'er, my Rui'er......" his voice sounded so delightful, "I thought I missed you too much?" Bao Yuan said happily, his cheeks gently rubbing the corners of my forehead.

I was a little moved in my heart, but the resentment that came out of me forced down the moment's emotion, and I stood with a cold face and a blank expression.

"Rui'er, why don't you look at me?" Bao Yuan held my face with both hands, but I stubbornly didn't let my eyes touch him, so I froze, and finally he sighed, and his hands fell beside my face.

"Are you weird?"

"The concubine doesn't dare."

"Rui'er, I don't allow you to talk to me like this."

"The concubine is a capital offense."

"Rui'er!" Bao Yuan's hand clasped my jaw and forced me to look up at him. There was a strong anger and heartache in his eyes, I lowered my eyelids and didn't want to look at them again, these inky black eyes that have always made me miss and intoxicated, such affectionate eyes, but at this moment they seem to be sharp knives over my body and mind.

"Rui'er......" He called my name, sorry and unbearable, but I only knew that I was angry and hateful, who did I hate? Hate him? Hate the women around him? Or do you hate myself? Tears welled up in her eyes, shattering the glow of the red candle into a star.

Bao Yuan seemed to be irritated by me, he clasped my head with both hands, his lips raged like a storm on my lips, different from the warmth of the past, more longing and catharsis, my lips were painful between his lips and teeth, I struggled to beat him and wanted to push him away, but his strength was so great, I just felt that I was about to lose my breath, the pain in my heart turned into a trace of coldness, I lowered my hand, no longer resisted, let him kiss...... I only thought I was dead.

His kiss became less frenetic, as gentle as ever, but my coldness seemed to hurt him, and he suddenly stopped, and looked at me with a deep brow.

"Do you resent me like that?"

"......" I was speechless, looked back at him indifferently, and slowly knelt down.

"You are not allowed to kneel on me, I heard that there is no ......" Bao Yuan said angrily, and pulled me up, and the huge pain in my arm made me can't help but exhale softly.

"Rui'er" Bao Yuan was shocked, and the strength in his hand loosened, "Did I hurt you?" He scrambled to lift my sleeves.

"Your Majesty, please allow me to go back to Feiluan Pavilion." I choked up and begged him.

"I don't allow it, you can't go anywhere, you have to stay with me." Bao Yuan said loudly.

"I don't want to, I don't want to be in Chongguang Palace, I won't be in Chongguang Hall in the future......" Looking at the bed where I was in love with him in the past, I couldn't control myself anymore, and cried like crazy.

"Rui'er......" his eyebrows tightened, and his eyes were painful.

"If you still have a trace of love for me in your heart, don't force me to be here, I don't want it, I don't want to ......" This is no longer my love nest, there is a shadow of him loving others on that bed, I can't suppress the disgust in my heart, I just want to escape from here......

Because of my insistence, or because Bao Yuan was angry with me, he finally sent someone to send me back to Feiluan Pavilion.

Jinyan was shocked when she saw me coming back, I just felt like I was collapsed, I didn't want to say anything, I was dizzy and just wanted to sleep. Jin Yan looked at me with a complicated look in his eyes, stood for a moment, and then silently turned around and went out.

Zhiqiu and Ming'er saw that I was tired and stepped forward to serve me to change clothes and go to bed, but when they saw the large bruises on my right arm, they were frightened and couldn't help asking, I smiled sadly at the two of them, and refused to say a word after all.

Sleepless nights...... The next day, Bao Yuan summoned Jinyan to Chongguang Palace.

When Jinyan came back, her expression was a little wrong, and she wanted to say something to me several times, but she never spoke, but she just took a bottle of wound medicine to apply it to me personally, I remember this medicine, the last time I saved Fengyi's injury, Bao Yuan personally gave me this kind of medicine, and my heart suddenly hurt again......

In the evening, the court bureau came to report that Bao Yuan did not call the concubines to sleep in the Chongguang Palace, and then he did so every day, and then he took Wang Zhaoyuan and Ling Xuan out of the palace, only saying that he was going to inspect the people's situation.

It was getting hotter and hotter, and the scriptures had been copied. Sleepless in the middle of the night, I came to the side of the Zhu Fence of Feiluan Pavilion, looking at the Dragon Leaping Pond from afar, the level is like a mirror, and a curved moon hangs on the willow tops......

The breeze and leaves shake the palace Wu, and the early and autumn are cold and embroidered.

Yuyu has no one to go, and a crescent moon is on the golden pivot.

I groaned. Although it was summer and summer, this chill seemed to turn the weather into autumn coolness.

Subconsciously clasp your arms and stand up for whom you don't sleep? The corners of his lips smiled bitterly, he must be annoyed with me, thinking about how many beauties he is looking forward to throwing into his arms, but I don't care about Tianwei, so I am so angry and rush into him.

Xu he still likes me, so he didn't blame me, but what I want is not pet or love, it's love, love is exclusive, love is selfish, how can I bear it...... Baoyuan, Baoyuan...... With tears in your eyes, when will you come back?

A thin drape on his shoulders, but when he looked back, he saw Jinyan standing behind him, and after more than ten days of getting along, I gradually liked this cold woman, "Sister Jinyan, why haven't you slept yet?" ”

"Madam, why bother?"

"Sister Jinyan, you can call me Rui'er in the future, don't be Mrs. Madame, it makes people feel uncomfortable when they hear it."

"Yes, Rui'er." Jin Yan stood side by side with me, "I heard the poem you just chanted, since I am reluctant to give up, why bother?" ”

"Sister, I just wanted to get a 'one-hearted person', but I didn't expect it to be so difficult!" I said gloomily.

"A one-hearted person? Oh, this world is impermanent, but the human heart is more impermanent than this world. Jin Yan is always so calm and calm, "Since you call me sister today, then I have a few words to say to my sister." ”

"But please speak up, sister."

"Since ancient times, the word love is like the sweetness on the knife edge, you lick * carefully may not be cut, but if you get carried away because of greed, you will definitely be cut flesh and blood. What my sister asks for is not too much, but the person you ask for is the most difficult man in the world to do 'one heart', even if he has this heart, he doesn't have that life, not to mention that in this deep palace, my sister is so forced to ask for it but is just stupid and self-suffering...... "Jinyan is sincere, I know she is right, but I am still so unwilling!"

"Sister, my heart hurts so much, what do you think I should do?" I knew that Jinyan had no intention of loving the Buddha in the world, and Bao Yuan respected her as a friend because of this, so I no longer regarded her as Bao Yuan's woman and regarded her as a friend in the boudoir.

"There is such a sentence in the "Wonderful Colors King's Seeking the Dharma": 'All love will be, impermanence is rare for a long time, life is fearful, life is in danger of morning dew, from love to worry, from love to fear, if you are separated from your love, there is no fear.' Jinyan's eyes were clear, and she looked at me and spoke eloquently.

"I know in my heart that what you said is right, but I can't open it up! Although I was angry with him and annoyed with him, but now that he is not around, my heart hurts even more, I know that there are some things that cannot be blamed on him, but I just can't control my heart and my temper, and I have never been so depressed. I said mournfully.

"Rui'er, people are merciful because of love, if you really love the emperor, try to understand him and forgive him. Life is very short, and it is difficult to meet someone who is destined to love, so don't do anything that you will regret. Jin Yan took my hand and gently persuaded me.

Silently looking at the two crescent moons in the sky and in the water.

This moon seems to be a couple, but one is in the sky and the other is on the ground, just like the love between me and Baoyuan.

The moon in the sky is gone, can there still be in the water? Even if there is no moon in the water, is there no moon in the sky?

Maybe our love is like this month, there are profits and losses, even if the moon is lost, it is always better than the chaos of the moonless world......

He also remembered that when the clouds are full of clouds, there is a moon in the sky and the water cannot reflect each other, and only when there are no clouds can the water and the moon face each other, can they see each other.

I really shouldn't be angry with him...... Thinking of this, there is a trace of regret in my heart, he has always led me to be a confidant, and what about me? But he always doesn't care about his feelings because of his temperament, and he's probably disappointed!

Between the willows and the wind, the moon is speechless, and the heart is secretly bitter after tossing and turning.