“……”

The sister-in-law was a little frightened by the expression of the big, and her feet retreated slightly, her face was parted, and she lost her voice.

I stood still and didn't move, still in the posture of my father pulling my arm, and not far away, the family members who were blocking the door of the ward dispersed.

Dad pulled me to the side and gave way, it turned out that the people from the funeral home arrived, they carried a small thin rectangular coffin, like papier-mâché, and within two minutes of entering the ward, they carried the deceased out, followed by the family members of the deceased who covered their mouths and cried.

The corridor was quiet again, but my eyes followed the small coffin all the way away, is this the life of a human being?

"Good ......"

After a long time, Dad opened his mouth, his eyes were full of helplessness, and his voice was softly suppressed, "You see, your grandmother, maybe it will be in a few days...... It will also be loaded there and taken to the funeral home.

In the past ten years, her biggest wish is to take you with her, but she has diabetes, her feet are rotten, she can't walk, and she can't go to Mohe to see you, but she really misses you, and now, she is seriously ill, we all know that she is going to die, your sister-in-law, speaking is ugly, don't think about it, Dad knows, no matter what happens, it has nothing to do with you......"

I pursed the corners of my lips and didn't answer.

"Good ......"

Dad tugged at my arm, "Let's go see your grandma in the ward, okay?" In the future, we will live together as a family, which is also your grandmother's wish. ”

"Let's go."

I didn't want to say more, so I walked towards the ward with my head bored, and I couldn't say what I felt in my heart, but my sister-in-law was quiet, and she didn't say much when she was pressed by her big, but she was still angry when she looked at my face.

"Mom, the little good boy has arrived......"

Xu is gone, the ward seems empty, looking at the past, only the innermost bed in the ward lies an old man with an oxygen tube.

Dad took me over, the old man was so thin that he had no human figure, his face was black, the corners of his eyes were as deep as ravines, his eyes were closed, he opened tremblingly when he heard Dad's voice, and when he saw me, his gray eyes instantly brightened a little, "Good ......"

Don't know why...... My nose was sour right away!

"Grandma'......"

Thinking of the old man who was helping downstairs just now, when she saw her grandson, it was also this look, unadorned joy, love and pity from the inside out!

"Good ......"

She seemed to be very excited, and the heart monitor on the bedside table made a ticking alarm sound, and her father whispered to comfort, "Don't worry, the little ones have arrived, don't worry!" ”

"Good ......"

Grandma was still calling this word repeatedly, and the hand that was stretched out to me was shriveled like tree bark, "Little good, you are a little good......

"It's me."

I held her hand as if I were holding a tree branch, cool, not yet warm, "I'm coming to see you." ”

"Good, good ......"

She smiled, her voice was weak, but the liquid at the end of her eyes became more and more obvious, "Grandma misses you, misses you, but can't look at you, do you blame grandma......"

"Not to blame."

I shook my head, Xu is the old man's vitality like a candle flame at the moment touched a certain softness in my heart, the moment I held her hand, my tears were a little broken, and I didn't know what was wrong.

"Okay, grandma is fine, it's okay."

She smiled, also with tears in her eyes, "Good-looking, my eldest granddaughter is good-looking, good-looking, I said back then, women are good, I want to call Zhuhao, look, now I have grown into a big girl, how good, how good, who said that she can't live long, who said that she can't grow up...... Hit him ......"

"Mom, don't get too excited."

Dad wiped his tears from his grandmother, "Auntie, Auntie is also back, have you seen it?" ”

"Cuiyun."

When the eldest grandmother heard this, she stepped forward and looked at her grandmother's face, her eyes were red, "The child is doing well, studying well, and growing tall, you can rest assured." ”

"Hey~"

Grandma looked at the big and smiled, stretched out her other hand and held the big together, "I've worked hard for you all these years, I don't use it, I can't keep the child by my side, thanks to you, Xiao Hao'er can grow so well, so good, I'm going to go first, in the future, you have to worry about it for me......"

The big didn't reply, and the strong old lady twitched the corners of her lips, and tears rained down.

The atmosphere in the ward was heavy, and I was silently crying.

To be honest, I really don't have any relationship with my own mother, I have only seen the photos brought by my father a few times, but from the moment I saw her, my heart will be uncomfortable, and from her eyes, I really see that she misses me.

……

In the afternoon, the big grandmother followed her father and sister-in-law out after comforting her grandmother to sleep.

They didn't explain what they were going to do, but I knew that they were going to prepare old clothes for my grandmother.

I have followed the big milk to watch her deal with this kind of thing since I was a child, and many old people will find the big milk to see when they are dying, and the big milk will touch the person's feet first, and then touch the calf, and after touching the heart, you will know it.

When people want to leave, their hands and feet will be cold, because the blood is not circulating, and the coolness will start from the toes of the person concerned and go all the way retrograde......

It was as if the candle was flickering and extinguishing, and in the end, only a cold corpse remained.

I didn't touch my grandmother's feet, but I could tell from her unhot hands that her time was running out.

As soon as the door of the ward was closed, only my grandmother and I were left, and I carefully helped her sort out the quilt, but before I could think about it, my grandmother woke up again, "savage......

I was stunned and looked at my grandmother, "Who is your name?" ”

"Savage ......"

She looked at me and smiled softly, "Okay, your nickname is Barbarian." ”

"Savage?"

I don't really understand, grandma said to me in a humble voice, smiling, as if reminiscing, the old people like this, but I have too little contact with this dear grandma, and she can recall too little.

"Back then, when you were born, the third child said, what are you the reincarnation of Vermilion Bird Xingjun, take a nickname, and want to fly in the sky, I said, called Fengya, your father said cheesy, and finally, the name given to you is called Barbarian...... It's a winged bird......"

"Winged birds?"

I didn't expect that I had so many names, and I had been called Jingwei for many years, and I was quite curious to hear it coldly.

"There are birds in the mountain of Chongwu, its shape is like a dove, and one wing and one eye, each other is flying, the name is barbaric, and the world is ...... when you see it."

Grandma muttered, the light in her eyes flickering, "This winged bird, flying and pecking, not separated...... and resurrection, and in one place......"

I listened seriously, "However, the third uncle didn't tell me that I have this nickname." ”

He's always called me Jingwei.

"The problem lies here, and when I see it, the world is in ......"

Grandma looked at me, "The third child said, according to the Book of Mountains and Seas, this is so strange than the winged bird, and the appearance indicates that there will be a flood, which is a sign of blame and a bad omen, so after you are sent away, your big milk will rename you, Jingwei, is it called Jingwei......"

"Yes, Zhu Jingwei."

I responded, I don't think it's bad than the winged bird, isn't there that poem, in the sky is willing to be the winged bird, in the earth is willing to be the branch.

Well, fly with wings.