Gently tapping the table, a red wine appeared from the void, filling the empty goblet in front of Zheng Shuanglong, looking at the wine glass dyed burgundy by red wine, Zheng Shuanglong said with a smile: "Wake up to the power of the world, drunk and lying on the knees of beauties, isn't it just for such a day that a man has struggled all his life, even if it is an illusory world, he is drunk." ”

Zheng Shuanglong was smiling, but the smile was really bitter. Yes, drunk, not drunk by the red wine in front of you, but by this power, by this power that controls the lives of others. Even Zheng Shuanglong, the true god, is very difficult when faced with such a choice. After all, it was Zheng Shuanglong who wanted to convince himself. And oneself is often the most difficult existence to convince. Because I really know myself too well.

A trip to the main world made Zheng Shuanglong understand a lot, the time difference between the main world and the river of fantasy, the health of giving birth to his parents, and the suppression of the unreal by the main world. And most importantly, when I returned to the main world, I was one of the thousands of dicks that returned. Strength, power, beauty, wealth all have to start all over again.

From scratch, this kind of thing is not something that anyone can do, it is very difficult to decorate in early spring, and Zheng Shuanglong also feels that this choice is really difficult and unreasonable.

On the one hand, there is the great power that controls thousands of worlds and trillions of living beings, money, power, beauty, and power, eating the best food, drinking the best wine, living in the best palace, hugging the most beautiful woman, and basically everything that can be enjoyed in the world can be enjoyed.

On the one hand, it's an ordinary dick silk life.,Every month, it's very difficult to get a salary that doesn't starve to death and doesn't want to go to the restaurant often.、Save some money.。 It's difficult to get out of the group, and the blind date N has been unsuccessful many times, not because I'm not a civil servant, I don't have my own house, I don't have my own car, and I'm not handsome or funny enough. It's just that there is no future and money, it's a house, no good living habits, no good social circle, no ...... Anyway, it's all kinds of suspicions.

What's more, the choice is real, the risk is very high, and the success rate of such a thing as exalting the Kingdom of God is really not high enough, even if Zheng Shuanglong improves the miracle magic array. The risk of falling is also too great.

Glory and wealth, the handsome and rich days of power in the world and the ordinary life of dicks who fight for their lives. This kind of choice is really difficult and easy, many people can make a choice in an instant, even if it is a dream, even if it is a fantasy, this kind of beautiful day is really impossible to dream.

However, this choice. For Zheng Shuanglong, it was really difficult. Even if you really don't want to fight in your heart, you don't want to take the risk of starting all over again.

However, a trip to the Overworld. Zheng Shuanglong has no other choice, and his parents are not far away.

Now, Zheng Shuanglong wants to use various methods to strengthen his beliefs and make himself like when he fell to the truth. Be firm in your beliefs. Because, Zheng Shuanglong really had a feeling of regret in his heart, regretting that he had chosen the path of exalting the Kingdom of God.

It's very bad. Without firm conviction and a feeling of regret in one's heart, it is impossible to successfully exalt the kingdom of God, which is too dangerous. Zheng Shuanglong understood this, so once again the clear mind, once again sweeping away the dust, and once again the baptism of the soul, began.

Picking up the goblet on the table, Zheng Shuanglong gently shook the goblet in his hand, looking at the red wine in the cup forming a whirlpool, a blood-colored whirlpool, looking at his bitter smile reflected on the cup, and said lightly: "When there is nothing, you can fight, you can fight for your life, because, except for that life, there is really nothing." ”

"However, with such a lot of power in my hands, controlling the life and death of hundreds of millions of living beings in thousands of worlds, this feeling of the world in my heart will really make people addicted and dare not work hard, because I already have too many things, and there are too many enjoyments waiting for me. Without this life, aren't these enjoyments just cheaper for others? It's really sad that people die and the money is not spent. Zheng Shuanglong, who drank the red wine in the wine glass in one gulp, smiled bitterly and said.

"The most painful thing is that this kind of life is fighting, but what is spelled out is the life of Dick Si, this kind of desperate effort is really unexciting, but I have to fight. There are reasons why you have to fight. Zheng Shuanglong, who was full of red wine here, said a little angrily.

"Should you complain about the impermanence of life, or should you go to crusade against the heavens, or, should you scold yourself for being a cheap bone, put aside the current happy and happy days, but you have to fight for a dick life with your life, there is really enough speechlessness. But this is life, the life of impermanence, my life. Zheng Shuanglong, who killed the red wine, said with a wry smile.

"The existence in the river of illusions yearns for life in the Overworld, for being real, for evolution. However, how much of their existence knows, true does not mean happiness, does not mean happiness, does not mean comfort. On the contrary, it is the illusory that makes people intoxicated, happy, happy, and reluctant to give up. Putting the wine glass down, Zheng Shuanglong directly took out a bottle of liquor with a high degree of liquor, and just took a sip without paying attention to etiquette. Anyway, for Zheng Shuanglong, as long as he is unwilling to get drunk, no matter what kind of wine he has, it will have no effect.

Then, on the contrary, if Zheng Shuanglong really wants to get drunk, he will also be drunk with wine. Now Zheng Shuanglong really wants to get drunk. Use alcohol to wash away the reluctance in your heart.

"'I know it's fake, but when I eat it, my stomach tells me that the meat is delicious and juicy.' I really want to be like the guy in the Matrix who said such words, to get drunk, to get drunk, but I have to wake up, even if I don't want to, I have to choose that dick life, because home is there, and my parents are waiting for me to come home. Zheng Shuanglong, who took out a vat of Du Kang wine and blew it like this, showed a determined expression in his intoxicated eyes.

Just like Zheng Shuanglong said, where is home, where are your parents, then, where can you go. Go home, it's a must.

My parents have raised me for so many years, and I haven't repaid the kindness of my parents, how can I enjoy this illusory life happily like this.

Zheng Shuanglong's heart has not been confused by this illusory beautiful day, Zheng Shuanglong's heart has always been a pure land. The great kindness is greater than the nurturing grace of the parents. For the sake of this kindness of his parents who do not ask for anything in return, Zheng Shuanglong must also go back. Even if he has to risk the ordeal of nine deaths and a lifetime, Zheng Shuanglong will definitely climb back. Crawl back alive.

Zheng Shuanglong, who found the goal, believes that he can do it and must do it.

With a light touch of his hand, Zheng Shuanglong, who dismantled the empty wine vat of Du Kang wine, looked ahead with clear eyes, as if through Liu Yi's house, penetrated the void land, penetrated the river of illusions, and cast this clear gaze on his home in the main world, the small but very warm home, the home with a nagging mother, a serious but caring father.

"It's a little unproductive, it's just to strengthen your beliefs, but you must use the power of wine, with the help of the power of parting, it seems that I really don't have the strength I imagined, the decisiveness in my imagination, it's just an illusory dream, why not give it up, as for such a mother-in-law's. People always have to live in the truth, live in their own reality. Although the two-dimensional world is beautiful, this is not my home, not my home, I have never been a member of the two-dimensional, even if I am really an otaku. Zheng Shuanglong, who stood up from the chair, cleared the confusion in his heart, and completed the enlightened Zheng Shuanglong, put the goblet on the table, filled the goblet with red wine, and then left this Liu Yi's home.

Just like Zheng Shuanglong said, this is not his home, not his own home. I'm going to leave someday.

This is not only true of Liu Yi's home, but also of the River of Fantasy. Originally, Zheng Shuanglong was not a creature in the river of fantasy, but a human being in the main world with a real soul.

No matter how good a place is, it's not your own home, and in the end, there's nothing to be nostalgic for. After more than 100 years of travel in the River of Fantasy, the only ones that can move Zheng Shuanglong are probably Athena, Liliana, Qingqiuyuan Ena, Luo Cuilian, Lihua Song, Leticia, Shandora, Pest, Takiju Lihou, Yuan Hua Shion and other girls.

The others are very beloved by Zheng Shuanglong, Fit? Taystarosa, Euryle Wood? Whether it is Helset, Astarut and Icarus, who can be said to be Zheng Shuanglong's belongings, or Yuki Nagato, Yukina Hime, and Tomoyo Sakagami, who can be said to be new loves, or the beauty of the heavenly courtyard and the bee-eater who finally keep the clouds open and see the moon. Their status in Zheng Shuanglong's heart is completely incomparable to that of girls such as Athena, Liliana, and Lihua.

is also a lover, but also different, did not experience ordinary days together, did not go through the days of suffering together, did not enter Zheng Shuanglong's heart before Zheng Shuanglong became a true god, and their status is completely different.

Even if Zheng Shuanglong likes Fit very much now, if he has a conflict with Taki, even if Zheng Shuanglong doesn't speak, he will be biased towards Taki-Huli in his heart. This is the feeling that comes with shared suffering, and this is the status that comes with shared suffering. It's really hard to understand if you haven't experienced it together.

Although it seems that Zheng Shuanglong loves and spoils Fit, surpassing Takiju, Yuanhua Aster, and even Shandora and Pest, Zheng Shuanglong remembers everything they have experienced with Sandora, Pester, Takiju Lihou, and Yuanhua Aster.

"Although Liang Yuan is good, it's not my family, Liu Yi, go all the way." The room was calm again, like countless peaceful daily routines. There is no life at all. (To be continued......)