"Jingwei Jingwei"

I don't know what's wrong, I can't stand!

Turning his face to look at Luo Luobei, who was supporting me, "What does he need from me?" Finger? Medication induction? ”

Auditory hallucinations!

I'm not hallucinating!

"Jingwei"

Luo Luobei frowned, "You calm down, don't yet"

"I'm asking you!"

I looked weird, and my hands grabbed Luo Luobei's coat hard, "Did you hear that?" What does Lian Jun want from me? Did I hear me wrong, huh? You, what is the most suitable for him and me? What is it? ”

"Yes"

Luo Luobei was dragged by me and didn't move, looking at me with a complicated expression, "Medicine leads." ”

"Medicine, lead?"

The corners of my lips twitched and I laughed, "My six fingers are medicine guides, right?" ”

"Hmm."

Luo Luobei's cheeks also tensed, and he turned his head to look at Kun Cheng, "Where is Lian Jun, which room is he in." ”

"Study."

Kun Cheng looked at me helplessly, "Sister Zhu, this is what the old lady wants you to know, the truth, I think it is clear at a glance now, do you want to continue to read." ”

What to see!

My mind was blank, and I glanced at Lian Jun's back in the surveillance screen, and looked directly at Kun Cheng, "I want to see Lian Jun." ”

"Are you sure you want to see you?"

Kun Cheng hesitated, "I think that if you see Ye, then the face-to-face will hurt you even more, Mr. Luo!" Where are you going! ”

"Lian Jun!!"

Luo Luobei has already rushed out!

"Mr. Luo!!"

Kun Cheng couldn't care about me, and chased after Luo Luobei's back, "You calm down!" If you want to accompany Sister Zhu, you want to take care of her! You don't be impulsive!! ”

Don't be impulsive?

I felt like I had lost my soul, and I was still in a daze looking at the surveillance footage in the house

Luo Luobei's footsteps were still in the corridor outside the door, it seemed to be all the way in, and then, the door of the study in the picture was kicked open, and even grandma looked at Luo Luobei who rushed in in surprise, "How did you get in?" Kun Cheng? ”

"Lian Jun!!"

Luo Luobei's eyes were red, and he couldn't help but step forward and grabbed Lian Jun's arm, and with it, he just threw a punch!

"What's that thing you call that!"

The action is coherent and done in one go!

It's a pity that I still didn't see Lian Jun's face clearly, he was knocked down by Luo Luobei too quickly, lying on the ground and not standing up for a long time.

"Jun'er!!"

Grandma Lian's exclamation rose, and she stepped forward to help Lian Jun up, "Are you okay Mr. Jun'er Luo, aren't you a good friend of your daughter, how can you beat people casually?" ”

"It's because I'm Jingwei's friend that I'm going to hit him!!"

Luo Luobei pointed at Lian Jun with angry eyes, "What kind of nonsense is hes!" ”

"Mr. Luo, if something happens to you, can you take responsibility, think about your father's processing factory!"

Kun Cheng accused loudly, the sound was chaotic, and in just ten seconds, five or six security guards rushed up from the third floor, and they framed Luo Luobei entirely, bending down to help Lian Jun on the ground-

And me!

It's like watching a pure 3D surround stereoscopic movie, on the screen, you can see clearly what is happening in the study, and in your ears, you can hear the noisy voices in the corridor, as well as Kun Cheng's voice, "Take Mr. Luo away immediately!" ”

I didn't know how I was reacting, Mu Mu raised his feet, step by step, and walked out of the door.

Turning his face, at the end of the corridor, Luo Luobei was being escorted out by the security guards of the Lian family, and the posture of being escorted was exactly the same as the last time I was dragged back and tied up by my nephew.

Even the words that Luo Luobei shouted in his mouth were the same as I did at the time, 'Let go of me'

What a powerless three words!

"Sister Zhu?"

When Kun Cheng saw me, he looked like he had a headache and anxiety from afar, "I'll send you away now, and you and Mr. Luo will go together." ”

I didn't move.

Looking directly at a pair of eyes more than ten meters away, unfamiliar security, familiar Luo Luobei and Kun Cheng

The corridor is really long, the house is so big, the murals are so beautiful, and the lights are very dreamy, but no matter what, they all smell unreal!

Lian Jun, why don't you come out?

After a few seconds of confrontation, I straightened my clothes with a blank face, lifted my feet, and slowly approached them.

"Sister Zhu"

Kun Cheng was still a little flustered when he saw me like this, and hurriedly greeted him, "Don't you see it all clearly, hear it clearly, what else do you have to do?" ”

"What do I know?"

I gently pushed Kun Cheng away, "Uncle Cheng, since Grandma Lian has let me see the truth, then I need to ask Lian Jun for clarity in person."

Listening to it with my own ears, seeing it with my own eyes, and feeling it with my own eyes, this is what Lian Jun told me early in the morning.

I remember.

"You're it"

Kun Cheng was dumbfounded, leaving only a sigh behind me, "Forget it." ”

"Jingwei!!"

Seeing me approaching, Luo Luobei struggled to speak to me, "Don't"

"I'm fine."

I looked at Luo Luobei calmly, how chaotic this situation is, but I am glad that I can still control my emotions, and glanced at the security guard next to Luo Luobei, "You let him go." ”

It's strange where all the familiar black suits have gone.

Look at Brother Li, who is deeply in love and rainy?

The security guard didn't reply, his eyes naturally jumped behind me, and asked Kun Cheng's opinion, I turned around, and Kun Cheng waved his arm helplessly, "Let go." ”

Luo Luobei was immediately let go, and looked at me with a painful sound, "Jingwei"

"You wait for me a moment."

I lowered my bass and even tugged at the corners of my lips, "When I ask clearly, please send me home." ”

“”

Luo Luobei didn't answer, his eyes glanced at the study with some obscurity, and nodded.

The air was suddenly quiet—

I exhaled silently, my legs were very heavy, I raised my hand, gently pushed open the door of the hidden room, and when I entered, I saw Lian Jun's back-

He stood in front of the desk, his hands supporting him from side to side, as if he had been hit very hard by Luo Luobei, and he was relieving.

"Daughter?"

Even grandma was by Lian Jun's side, as if she was comforting me softly, and when she saw me, her eyes were sad and helpless, "How are you?"

"Grandma, I just want to have a few words with Lian Jun."

I spoke softly, looking at Lian Jun's back stiff, and my heart was bitter for some reason, "Can you avoid it for a few minutes, I just want to talk to him alone"

A few words are enough!

"This"

Even Grandma was a little entangled, and she stalemate for five or six seconds, then she nodded and patted Lian Jun's shoulder, "Jun'er, since my daughter's side knows it, grandma can't watch you continue to hurt people, you and your daughter talk clearly, don't hurt the girl."

Lian Jun didn't move, didn't speak, and maintained, still holding the table with his hands.

I was really looking hard, through the beautiful lines of his back, I wanted to see his heart, and in that heart, there were no three words Zhu Jingwei.

Why did this person suddenly make me a little unrecognizable?

"Daughter, grandma is out waiting for you."

Even my grandmother walked up to me and sighed, "I'm sorry." ”

“”

I didn't look at Grandma Lian, for no reason, my eyes were sour!

The door was closed tightly, and the air pressure in the room was so low that it seemed to be able to hear his own heartbeat.

Lian Jun didn't look back, and I didn't rush up to question, just looked at him, and in my mind, I recalled that midsummer over and over again

He came up from afar, grabbed me by the wrist, and asked me if I had seen it anywhere.

You dreamed, kissed me, untied the spell on me, I became a princess in an instant, and then, we lived happily and happily together.

It is a fate that you met, and in the future, it is a great fate to become a family.

I remember every word you say, but that person is not like the 'you' in front of me.

"Lian Jun?"

In the end, it was me who broke the silence, "What's wrong with you?" ”

In his voice, there was a cry for no reason.

I swear, I don't want to, I always believe that he is acting, and in the next second, he will resolve all this with a tacit understanding that only the two of us understand, so that I can rest assured!

It's not like this, I've been silent all the time, I don't explain, I don't hide it, I don't be surprised to see me, and I don't fight back when I am beaten by Luo Luobei!

"Lian Jun?"

Lian Jun didn't move, and his body was still cool and cold.

I couldn't bear it, but I stepped forward, yesterday, wasn't it still on the phone, wasn't he still fine!

"What's wrong with you?"

Walking to his side, this can be regarded as seeing his side face clearly, Luo Luobei's punch was indeed heavy, and his eyes were red, "Does it hurt?" ”

I raised my hand tremblingly and touched the corner of his eye, "What are you saying." ”

"What."

Lian Jun's air pressure was low, his deep eyes finally flowed, and his gaze slowly fell on my face, "Didn't you hear it all?" ”

I opened my mouth, "What do I hear?" ”

"Prescription."

Lian Jun finally stood up straight, and the whole person looked at me a little condescendingly, "Fingers, do you want to give it to me." ”

The corners of my lips twitched weirdly, "You know, there's a camera in this room."

I grabbed his hand and wanted to write on his palm, to communicate in a different way, just give me a little, a little hint is enough!

Who knows, Lian Jun shook my hand empty, and his eyes clearly showed disgust, "As long as you want it now, you won't give it to me." ”

“”

I was stunned, looking at my hand that was thrown away and lost my mind for two seconds, "Lian Jun, I just want to know why you have passed, the prescription is nonsense, let me believe you, isn't it?"

"Hehehehehe"

Lian Jun actually smiled, a very amazing smile, leaning slightly, and his lips came to my ear, "Yes, only you believe it, otherwise, why do you think my aunt wants a prescription so much?" ”

My body froze, trying to maintain the last shred of sanity, "I believe in your words because my dreams will not deceive people, you are good to me, and sincerely, I can feel that you have not bullied me, you have been, you have to wait for me"

"I can continue to be nice to you."

Lian Jun suddenly seemed to be a different person, looking at me and smiling, very innocent and childish, "It's good that you are twenty years old, as long as you are willing, give me your finger as a medicine guide, then, you are still my girlfriend Zhu Jingwei, you, okay?" ”

"Serial, acting like this, it's not fun at all"

I didn't speak, looking at his face carefully, trying to find traces of his acting, "If you just want my fingers, then why are you so nice to me?" Have you forgotten Jianzhong soup? There is also warm palace soup, you help me take care of my body"

"Of course the body has to be nourished."

Lian Jun's voice was low and hoarse, and his eyes narrowed slightly, "If you are not in good health, your fingers will not be good, and the effect of the medicine will not be strong, you know, whether the prescription is successful or not depends entirely on the medicine lead, as long as you are by my side for a day, I will carefully regulate and take care of your body, including your spirit, emotion, your heart, everything about you, I will take care of it." ”

"Lian Jun, you do it again."

All of a sudden, I want to laugh!

I raised my hand, rushed to Lian Jun, and spread my thumb hard, "You mean, you're good to me and rush for this?" ”

Lian Jun raised his eyebrows, "Otherwise, who do you think you are, and why did you attract my attention?" ”

"Hahahaha"

My laughter was poked, and I couldn't control it all of a sudden, "So what now!" I know it all! I'll have to be twenty years old to give you my fingers! Now I know it all, I've lost all your efforts! What to do! Hahaha! You are unyielding, you have been good to me for a year! You've spent a lot of money! Silly! ”

"You can give it to me in advance."

Lian Jun suppressed the bass, and handed over a dagger from the side of the desk when he returned his hand, "Zhu Jingwei, if you love me, prove it to me, finger me, you can try the effect of the prescription first, after all, you have to experiment." ”

"Experiments?"

I laughed with a handful of snot and tears, "I still have to prove it to you?" ”

"That's right."

Lian Jun's eyes narrowed slightly, and the whole person changed greatly, "What do you like, you can mention it, money is not a problem, I only want your fingers." ”

"Haha! It's good to be rich! ”

I laughed dryly, took the dagger and playfully fiddled with it, gesturing at the finger of my right hand, "How to cut?" Is it a random section or a root-cut? ”

"I can help you."

Lian Jun's jaw was slightly raised, "I promise that soon, you won't be in pain, and you won't leave sequelae." ”

"Can you help me?"

I shuddered, and handed the dagger through the corner of my mouth, "Okay, here you know, I've always believed in you"

Seeing Lian Jun's expressionless answer, I turned the tip of the knife and stabbed it directly into his shoulder blade!

"Help me!"

Hello!

Lian Jun immediately snorted, took two steps back under his feet, frowned, and looked at me in surprise with his eyes, unable to believe it.

The red blood flowed directly along the knife edge, but fortunately he was wearing a black shirt, which was not obvious, visually, it was too unexciting!

"Here you go! Pluck it!! ”

I wiped my eyes vigorously, and to be honest, I relented!

Otherwise, sister, I would have to move the dagger down a few centimeters and pierce it directly into his heart!

"Lian Jun, you bastard!!"

"Jun'er!"

The moment Grandma Lian pushed the door in, I had already slapped Lian Jun's side face again!

I can't hold it as soon as it sounds!

"Lian Jun! I've seen so many people's faces! Why didn't I see you! If you just want a finger from me, you can tell me just about it! Why lie to me like that! You want it now! You can get it! I just cut it down and feed it to the pigs and dogs, and I won't give it to you!!! ”

How!

Play belly black with me!

"Jun'er! Come! Pull this Sister Zhu away!! ”

Grandma Lian was frightened, she was an old man who didn't dare to step forward to stop my successive attacks on Lian Jun, "Someone! ”

I admit it!

Sisters are crazy!

The whole brain and body were out of control, and from the moment I stabbed the dagger into Lian Jun's body, I felt that my heart was completely severed!

I thought!

Lian Jun is my biggest harvest here, the most beautiful sunshine in the middle of summer, and all my warm desires, but what about the facts!

The biggest liar!!

Lian Jun didn't say anything, let me beat it, didn't even move the dagger that was still on my body, when I attacked indiscriminately, my hands were also stained with his blood, it was hot, I couldn't believe it, how could such a person's blood be hot!

"Lian Jun! The hand is here! You can get it!! ”

I shouted at the top of my voice, grabbed his face with my hand indiscriminately, and shouted until my throat was about to break, and a security guard rushed up and pulled me like a madman in uniform, "Sister Zhu! You calm down! Old lady, do you want to send the police! ”

"No, no, Jun'er, it should be fine"

"Let go of me! Lian Jun! You can get it!! Take it!! ”

No matter how much I kicked my legs and jumped, I was still pulled out of the house!

"Jingwei!"

Luo Luobei was still waiting for me outside, looking at my eyes full of worry, "Are you okay, huh?" It's okay!! ”

"I'm fine!!"

I can still laugh and exaggeratedly crack the corners of my lips, "That bastard wants my fingers!" Hahaha! Why should I give it to him! Dream on! He dreams about him!! ”

"Send Sister Zhu away!!"

Kun Cheng was commanding loudly, while I, in the corridor, viciously shook off the two people beside me, "Send me away!" I'll go on my own! I'm not crazy yet!! ”

“”

The security guard was a little confused, and he had to watch Kun Cheng's instructions here.

I had snot and tears on my face, my chest was still snorting, I raised my arm and wiped it vigorously, then looked at Kun Cheng, and controlled it clearly, "Uncle Cheng, I'm fine, I'll go far away if I go by myself, you don't have to pull me Lian Jun, he can't die, from now on, he has nothing to do with me."

"Okay."

Kun Cheng nodded and looked around at the security guards, "Don't move Sister Zhu, let her leave by herself, Mr. Luo, please send it down." ”

I walked downstairs without looking back, and Luo Luobei didn't reply to Kuncheng, and followed me silently.

Walking to the second floor, in a blink of an eye, the girl in a wheelchair appeared in the hallway again.

I paused for two seconds, still didn't see her face clearly, and continued to go downstairs, the pace was very fast, several times I was close to stumbling, and the meaning of wanting to leave quickly was obvious!

Luo Luobei doesn't need to help me, all he can do is to get out of here right away!

One second!

I don't want to stay anymore!

"Savage!"

My body stiffened, and I stood next to Luo Luobei's car, and behind me, this familiar name actually sounded.

What else does he have to call me that!

Turning around in a daze, Lian Jun chased down, he covered the injury on his shoulder, under the light, his facial features were still handsome, but his brows were frowned, as if nothing had happened, "Barbaric, you"

"Roll !!"

I didn't even think about it, I shouted vigorously!

The blood rushed to the top of his head, and his eyes were dark, and he fainted!

The moment I lost consciousness, I felt good, at least, out of sight

The world, finally silent.

Until I woke up, in my mind, there was a picture of Lian Jun together, he looked at me in the car and smiled, the sun was very strong, the autumn cicadas were still in the last chirp, and the shade of the trees fell narrowly.

How long has it been?

One year, just the right year, and I'm like that?

When I opened my eyes, it was just me, I didn't move, I rolled my eyes and first looked around the environment, it was my father's house, my room.

I stretched out my hand, took out my phone, and the time showed that I slept for more than a week.

If I'm healthy, pack up, and in a few days, school will start.

In the call log, there are many phone calls and text messages, some answered, some missed

Gao Dazhuang, Luo Luobei, Teacher Qi, and some classmates in our class

In the text message, Wu Dan was still persistently asking me about the newspaper.

I tightened my eyebrows and didn't reply to her, how long has it been since the incident, and she still holds on?

I can't blame her, in addition to her, many classmates in the class asked me in text messages about the truth of the newspaper news.

Even Teacher Qi was in a text message, 'Good wishes, remember to call the teacher back, I'm worried about you.' ’

I wanted to type the words 'I'm fine', but after thinking about it, I forgot about it.

Fingers pressed, my heart slowly cooled, there was no Lian Jun, no phone call, no text message, everything that happened that night, seriously, not a dream.

"Zhu Hao, did your dad's car drive back?"

Ye Hongxia's female voice came from the courtyard, "Is it tied to Hong?!" ”

"Tie it up!"

Zhu Hao replied directly, "Is my sister awake?" ”

"No, I haven't woken up in the morning, where is your dad, I'll go see the new car"

"He's at the mouth of the alley!"

I listened to this conversation incomprehensibly, and as soon as I sat up with my arms propped up, I saw Zhu Hao push the door in, and when he saw me, he was surprised, "Sister! Are you awake? Would you like to drink some water? ”

"No, you don't."

I shook my head and pointed to the yard, "What a car?" ”

"Nothing"

Zhu Hao's expression was suddenly a little embarrassed, and he sat next to me and poured me a glass of water, "You drink some water first, we were scared that night, Brother Luobei, you were stimulated by Brother Lian, and then the two of you broke up." ”

“”

I drank saliva to moisten my throat, no words, break up?

Have you officially been together?

"Zhu Hao, your mother and my dad aren't asking too much?"

"No, Brother Luobei is gone!"

Zhu Hao looked at me, "Brother Luobei, even the eldest brother is with you, there is a purpose, but the specific purpose is not, anyway, it is to use you, but even the eldest brother's grandmother can't stand it, so she let you know all this, so you fainted in a hurry"

I nodded, and that was well explained and reasonable.

He lowered his eyes and looked at his right hand holding the water glass, "Why is it hurt?" ”

The forked thumb is being bandaged with gauze at the moment, and the extra finger is still there, but I don't remember hurting myself when I beat Lian Jun!

"Your finger broke when you came back."

Zhu Hao responded, "Brother Luobei, you didn't hold it when you fell, and you were scratched, and the bandaging was the one he helped to wrap."

I didn't ask more questions after listening, just looked at my fingers in a daze, the most annoying redundant finger was now a sweet tooth!

Lian Jun chased down, and he wasn't in a hurry to ask for my finger?

Also, even grandma is here, since he has torn his face, how can he still ask for his fingers?

Headache!

I still can't figure it out, but it's just the two of us in the study.

I asked myself, even if he gave me a look, I could receive it, and I would cooperate with him to act, but he played really, every word, didn't he?

Perhaps, this year, only I was serious, and people didn't take it seriously at all.

"Sister, don't think about Brother Lian anymore."

Zhu Hao brewed to comfort me, "In the book, there is night in the person who can't be loved." ”

I tugged at the corners of my lips, but it was not as good as the poet's other poem, I was a wayward child, I wanted to paint away all misfortunes, I wanted to paint all the windows on the earth, so that all eyes accustomed to darkness were accustomed to light.

"Zhu Hao, what's the matter with you not having a car yet?"

Coming back to my senses, I looked at Zhu Hao and asked, "What kind of car was your mother in just now, why do you still have to hang red?" ”

"That's"

At the mention of this, Zhu Hao was speechless, cleared his throat and looked at me, "Dad bought a new car and rented it out, and in the future, our family will have our own car." ”

"New car?"

I frowned, "Where's the money?" ”

If the bank loan can't be repaid, how can I have spare money to buy a car?

"It's even given by the eldest brother's family"

"What!"

I was anxious, "You know, Lian Jun gave some money." ”

"Moral Injury Fee"

Zhu Hao lowered his eyes and pursed his lips, "The night you were sent back, you came with Luo Luobei, and there was also an uncle, called Kuncheng, he gave our dad 200,000 yuan, I am very sorry to let you be affected, this money is used to compensate for the loss of your reputation, and in the future, it will have nothing to do with the Lian family." ”

In my head, it's a 'buzz'!

"Dad used that money to buy a new car?"

"Hmm."

Zhu Hao picked his hands and didn't dare to look up at me, "Dad, they should give out the money, you are just implicated and now your reputation is bad, whether you can go to school in the future is two, our family, sister!" ”

I didn't care about my weak legs, so I pulled on a pair of slippers and ran to the yard, my father and Ye Hongxia happened to enter the door, and they were stunned when they saw me, "Okay, are you awake?" ”

"What's going on with the car?!"

I looked directly at the car keys in my father's hand, "Who told you to ask for money!" ”

"What are you?"

Dad glanced at the door tabooly, and pulled my arm to his big house, "Okay, is this the money I want, even the Jun family owes us, what has he done to you." ”

"Give me the 200,000."

I stretched out my hand, "Didn't you cheat me, bring the money!" ”

"What's there!"

Dad was speechless, "I bought a car, you don't know what the situation is in our family, if you have your own car in the future, you can hire someone to drive it in shifts, so that the famine owed will be paid back soon, you know something, okay!" ”

"Who is ignorant!"

In the mirror, I really looked like a madman, with a withered face and only bones left!

"Dad, since I have nothing to do with Lian Jun! That won't ask for his money either! You"

"I can't retreat!"

Dad waved his hand, "The agreement I signed with someone when I received the money, you can't contact Lian Jun in the future, and you won't know each other face-to-face!" ”

"You still signed the agreement?"

I looked at my dad tremblingly, the smell of gunpowder was heavy, "What do you think of me?" Lian Jun and I didn't have anything to do, what do you want his money for? ”

"Okay, that, you listen to your aunt"

Ye Hongxia looked at me with some unspeakable looks, "Auntie knows what you think, this, you have strong self-esteem, you want face, but our family is really short of money in this situation, your aunt's side, every month is a big expense, the hospital is also, she is in a stable situation now, don't get angry and drop things, in the future, maybe we have to take it back to serve, that's to raise a big living person, your father, don't make some plans."

"Then you can't ask for his money!"

I shook my body and leaned directly against the large wardrobe, without borrowing. I really can't stand it, "You guys exchange the money back, even if I beg you to do it, I will make money in the future, I will make a lot of money, you can return Lian Jun's money."

It's not productive!

Why did you cry again!

"Not yet!"

Dad's eyes were also red, "That's all spent!" Where to go! Hello! Nothing happened to you two! Now the whole city knows about it! You'll have a hard time finding a partner in the future! ”

"Big Mountain"

Ye Hongxia was still riveting and persuaded beside her, "It's not difficult, then Luo Du, he will take care of Hao'er in the future, he understands Hao'er and knows that Hao'er is innocent."

"That's not going to work out!"

Dad stomped his feet, "Okay, Dad isn't for your good!" You're going to have to change schools now! Can you still go to that school, I still have to change your name! When I save some money, we'd better have to move! Otherwise, I'm living in the spitting stars every day, what's wrong with everyone, my daughter is going to be a sugar daddy, but she didn't let someone kick it!! ”

I lowered my eyes and said nothing, leaning against the large closet, and slowly slid to the ground.

"Dashan, you don't want to."

Ye Hongxia wanted to help me up, "She also felt uncomfortable." ”

"What's the use of being uncomfortable! Crying now and rushing away?! ”

Dad's tone was strange, and he was about to cry, "Who doesn't want to be sublime, the key is that it can't be sublime!" Hello! Otherwise, it won't work! You wait for me to save money, and I will save 200,000 yuan and return it to the Lian family! Don't force me now, no!! ”

I cried and shook my head, but nothing came out, and suddenly I realized that I was so powerless, and this was already the case, what could I change?

I didn't eat dinner, I floated back to the house like a ghost, refused the comfort of my father Ye Hongxia and Zhu Hao, and sat on the edge of the bed in a daze for a long time.

In my ears, the voice of the eldest grandmother sounded inexplicably-

"Unless you're really disappointed in this place, and you feel like you're struggling and embattled, and you have to go back, then you remember, grandma is always at home waiting for you, waiting for you, which means you're going to officially step out of the road and leave everything behind, understand?"

"I see."

My trembling pronunciation, "Grandma, Jingwei wants to go home"

The Buddha said that self-grasping is the root of suffering.