Chapter 31: Not Love, It's Gratitude

Su Chenghu stopped talking, and he continued to walk forward. Su Ruo raised his head and looked at Su Chenghu's side. Under the street lamp, his deep face was a little blurred, and his eyes were looking ahead, not knowing what he was thinking.

Su Ruo suddenly said, "I'm tired, let's sit down!" Su Chenghu thought for a moment, and then nodded.

The two of them came to a building and sat down on the steps ahead. The lights here are a little dim, if it were Su Ruo alone, she would definitely not dare to stop for even a second, but now that Su Chenghu is beside her, she feels very down-to-earth.

Su Ruo rested her head on Su Chenghu's shoulder, and at the same time, she felt Su Chenghu's body stiffen suddenly. However, she still looked up at the night sky casually, and said with emotion: "Alas, it's a pity that there are no stars tonight, I remember when I was a child, I used to look at the stars with a big brother in the neighborhood, and make up stories for those stars that are connected into shapes." ”

As she spoke, Su Ruo sang: "I know, the stars will sing in the middle of the night, and when you are homesick...... she sang this song in her soft voice, which was very beautiful. And Su Chenghu slowly relaxed in the singing.

Su Ruo continued to sing a few love songs, lingering infatuation, which made people's hearts quite intoxicated. After singing, Su Ruo whispered: "It would be great if time could stand still at this moment!" ”

Suddenly, a flash of lightning streaked across the sky, followed by a rumbling thunder. Su Chenghu said to Su Ruo with some hesitation: "It's going to rain, I'll send you back." ”

Su Ruo raised his head and looked at Su Chenghu, and Su Chenghu also looked at her. In the dim light, he suddenly saw that Su Ruo's eyes were shining with tears.

Su Chenghu panicked and hurriedly asked her, "Why are you crying?" Su Ruo sniffed, her eyes widened, she looked at the sky, and muttered, "What should I do if I can't see you in the future?" Su Chenghu looked at her, and he didn't know how to answer for a while.

Su Ruo continued to whisper, as if muttering, "You are here, I feel very relieved, and I am not afraid of anything." However, the thought that when I see you again in the future, it may be far away, makes my heart ache. ”

Su Ruo was very sad when he said these words, and even felt a little painful. In fact, she is indeed in such a state of mind at this time, and she does not need emotional brewing.

Su Chenghu was also a little moved, and he said to Su Ruo very seriously: "If you have the opportunity to go to Shenzhen in the future, we can still meet." I should also have the opportunity to come to Guangzhou on a business trip and come to see you then. ”

Su Ruo suddenly hugged one of Su Chenghu's arms, she pillowed her head on it, and said, "I don't want to have a chance to see you, I can see you when I want to think of you." ”

Su Chenghu suddenly became at a loss, and he said, "Su Ruo, I'm ...... Probably can't do it, I ...... Can't do it. ”

Su Ruo suddenly raised his head, stared at Su Chenghu and asked, "Do I have to?" ”

Su Chenghu looked over a little hard and said, "Su Ruo, we can't be together, you will have a better person by your side." ”

"But I want you to stay with me." Su Ruo said a little willfully, and at the same time, one of her arms wrapped around Su Chenghu's neck, her eyes stared at Su Chenghu tightly, and her expression looked a little nervous.

Su Chenghu was silent. Seeing this, Su Ruo gently wrapped his other arm around Su Chenghu's neck and whispered, "It's good to have you." Su Chenghu had to use his own hand to support Su Ruo's leaning body.

It rained a little, two, and then it fell, and then more raindrops came down in a dense and rapid manner.

Su Chenghu hurriedly pulled Su Ruo to stand up and hid in a place where the rain couldn't get caught inside. Su Chenghu As soon as Su Ruo stood against the wall, she stretched out her arm to wrap around Su Chenghu's lean waist. She rested her head on Su Chenghu's chest, listening to his heartbeat, feeling the warm masculine aura on his body, and she closed her eyes in relief.

Su Chenghu's two hands were hanging down, and he looked down at Su Ruo who was leaning on his arms, embarrassed and didn't know what to do. After a long time, Su Chenghu whispered: "Su Ruo, I can't, I really can't." I have a girlfriend who goes to college in our hometown and we've been together for almost four years. ”

After Su Ruo heard this, he hugged Su Chenghu tightly like a koala, and said stubbornly: "I like you, don't you like me?" ”

Su Chenghu did not push Su Ruo away. He looked at the pouring rain in front of him, the world was already confused, and his eyes gradually deepened.

After a while, Su Chenghu sighed lightly and said, "Su Ruo, my girlfriend and I are not like ordinary lovers. We've been through a lot, and our feelings for each other are more than just liking. ”

Su Ruo raised her head and looked at Su Chenghu, who was so serious and deep, she couldn't help but feel a little flustered, she felt that he seemed to be about to leave her. So, she reached out and touched Su Chenghu's face, shook her head and said, "I don't want to listen, I just want you." Su Ruo reached out and took her hand and took it from his face.

He was silent for a moment, and then talked about the past with some bitterness: "In my junior year of high school, my dad died of terminal lung cancer, and my mom couldn't bear the pain of losing my dad and couldn't afford to get sick. I thought the sky was going to fall. I am the only child in my family, and I don't need to worry about anything at home, I have my parents for everything.

But in those days, I had no one to rely on, I had to take care of my mother, I had a lot of schoolwork, and I was about to go to university. I felt like I was going to collapse. ”

"However, at that critical moment, my girlfriend came to help me. Her family is in the same building as mine, and she and I are in the same high school, in the same grade. Sometimes, when we go to and from school, we bump into each other and walk together. When she found out about my family's situation, she was very eager to help me. Actually, it's not so much about helping me, it's about doing it for me. Her mind is very delicate, and she has done many things for me that I can't think of.

Her family knew that she came to my house to take care of my mother and do housework for me, so they reprimanded her many times, and sometimes her eyes were red. However, she continued to help me despite the opposition of her family and my opposition. ”

Su Chenghu paused, sighed, and continued: "Those difficult days were not so heavy because of her company. My mother liked her very much, but because she had to take the college entrance examination at that time, she didn't say much else, but often said to me, 'Receive the grace of people's dripping water, and repay the spring.' ’”

"Later, I got into Kweis, but she only got into one of our local universities. In fact, her usual grades are also very good. Her family said that she could have gone to Kvis or Shanda, but it was because she focused all her energy on my family that she failed the exam.

I agree with this fact in my heart. If it weren't for her, not to mention being admitted to Kvis, I wouldn't even be able to say if I could survive that time. However, she was very happy that I was admitted to Kvis. She said she hoped I was doing well. ”

Su Chenghu paused, and Su Ruo's heart had fallen into a barren land at this time, and she suddenly felt that she was fluttering, and there was no place to settle down. She knew that behind such a story, there were too many things she couldn't fight.

She involuntarily grabbed Su Chenghu's clothes, as if she was afraid that Su Chenghu would disappear in the next moment. Su Seung-woo continued: "I asked her out, then kissed her and asked her to be my girlfriend. ”

Su Ruo's heart twitched, and she blurted out: "You are repaying the favor, you don't love her!" ”

Su Chenghu shook his head gently: "It's not all like that. I've always been emotionally wooden, and I'm not very good at getting along with girls, but she's a very good girl, kind, smart, enthusiastic, and beautiful and quiet, so I like her.

Also, my mom liked her very much, and she was very happy to know that I had been friends with her since we first became friends. She repeatedly told me to be good to my friends. This summer, my friend also graduated, and she went to work in Shenzhen with me. ”

Listening, listening, Su Ruo gradually had a feeling of despair. Since she started dating different boys, falling in love has been sweet and sweet. Every day is the sweet talk between lovers, kissing me and me, when I am angry, I quarrel, gamble, and let my boyfriend coax her, how wanton and free and easy, the clouds are light and light!

But now, after listening to Su Chenghu's account of his past, Su Ruo suddenly realized that love still has such a heavy burden and responsibility. She felt that what Su Chenghu's girlfriend did was far beyond her own commitment.

In her subconscious, she admires Su Chenghu's girlfriend, who is a very tenacious and persistent girl, and in this regard, she can't compare with it, she can only bow down.

At this moment, Su Ruo's heart was gnawed away by the solid experience of tribulation between Su Chenghu and his girlfriend, perhaps, she would never be able to defeat the loyalty that that experience brought Su Chenghu to his girlfriend, but Su Ruo was extremely unwilling, she was unwilling to give up.

She could feel that there was actually a fire in Su Chenghu's heart, a fire that could burn as long as there was fire. In other words, in fact, a man has a fire in his heart that can be ignited, but it depends on whether there is a woman who can ignite his flame.

Maybe after Su Chenghu and his girlfriend had such an experience of sharing hardships and hardships, they had more thickness in life, but less passion for love. Therefore, Su Ruo is sure that Su Chenghu's girlfriend can't give him a fiery passion, the kind of passion that can burn his heart and go crazy for love.

So, Su Ruo was so entangled, what was she going to do? If she fights for it without hesitation, Su Chenghu may be captured by her, but Su Chenghu is a responsible and responsible man, so even if she takes Su Chenghu over now, the experience between him and his girlfriend will not be erased, and there will always be a woman between her and Su Chenghu, and their love may be full of pain because of this.

However, when people fall into the path of emotion, where is there a place for reason to stand? Now, the more Su Ruo can't get Su Cheng's heart, the more she can't contain her desire to have him, and her heart is like a demon.

Su Ruo raised her head, stretched out her hand and hugged Su Chenghu's neck tightly, and said warmly: "You don't love her, you are grateful to her, a responsibility, this is not love, this is repaying gratitude." You like me, you just can't admit it. As she spoke, she pulled Su Chenghu's head close to her, while she stood on tiptoe and raised her face to meet Su Chenghu's face.

Su Chenghu gently shook Su Ruo's hand and stammered a little: "Su Ruo, you are very good, I ...... I can't hurt you, really, we can't be together. ”

In the dark, they tugged and entangled. Su Ruoling's body was close to Su Cheng's, and the seemingly elegant but rich smell of perfume from her body created a dizzying atmosphere at this time. In the tenderness and sweetness, the ambiguous factor spreads, and the sound of rain between heaven and earth seems to have blocked all things in the outside world.