Chapter 136: Tangled
Su Qianai suddenly felt that the word trust was really ridiculous, if she hadn't asked Jiang Xinyao about everything, Jiang Xinyao would have killed and would not admit that she had deceived herself. If it weren't for Yu Beibei personally admitting that she smashed her beloved notebook, Cheng Yining would have insisted that her mother accidentally broke it.
When they trusted them, they trampled their trust under their feet, and now that they know everything, is there any point in trusting?
Su Qianai turned away with a cold face and no longer looked at Cheng Yining.
For a moment, even the air in the room condensed, except for the breathing of two people, and the sound of the previous grandfather clock moving for seconds, which was frighteningly quiet.
Cheng Yining stood in front of Su Qianai, his eyes always fell on her cheeks, but only Su Qianai's face fell into his eyes, and there seemed to be no room for maneuver, after looking at it for a long time, he finally had nothing to say, and with a sense of indignation, he threw his hand away.
When the gust of wind that blew when she opened the door hit Su Qianai's body, she couldn't help but shiver.
In fact, the temperature in this room is quite high, but she doesn't know why this cold war has started inexplicably.
The door was quickly closed again, and another breeze struck, Su Qianai turned her face and looked at the empty room that had fallen silent, it seemed that there was still a faint smell of Cheng Yining's body in the air, but she knew that he had really left.
She also knew that Cheng Yining would not come to the Su family again if she left this time, and suddenly she felt that her heart was empty, and the emptiness made her uncomfortable.
Moving his eyes to the place where Cheng Yining was standing before, he found that there were two shallow footprints on the carpet, and after a closer look, he found that the two footprints were so obvious, because the color was darker, it should be that Cheng Yining's shoes were stained with snow when he came in before, and they melted after coming in.
Su Qianai hurriedly ran to the front, gently removed the corner of the curtain, looked into the yard, and just saw Cheng Yining walking towards the courtyard. His steps were very big, step by step, Su Qianai knew that he must be very angry in his heart, so he walked in such a hurry.
The courtyard is snow-white, only there is a row of footprints on the road leading to the gate, plus what Cheng Yining has left now, there are two rows of footprints.
Every footprint was very deep, and it didn't go past Cheng Yining's shoes, maybe there was a lot of snow in his shoes. Could it be that there would have been water stains in the place where he had just stood, maybe the snow in his shoes had melted, and his socks might have been wet.
Guessing like this, Su Qianai couldn't help but feel a little distressed, he braved such a heavy snow to come to him, just to explain to himself.
But who made his explanation so pale? If you cheat, you cheat, why can't you have the courage to admit it?
You must know that she hates others to deceive her the most, and she also looks down on the kind of man who has no responsibility!
No, if you don't have responsibility, you don't deserve to be called a man at all!
If you admit your mistakes and be more sincere, maybe I will forgive you if I can't bear it.
Su Qianai sighed, she didn't realize how decisive she was in front of Cheng Yining before, she just didn't want to see Cheng Yining's look of confidently denying his deception to her.
If he connived at him to deceive himself now, he would definitely deceive himself even more in the future.
Either let him leave his life completely, or let him never dare to lie to himself in the slightest.
Su Qianai, who was entangled in her heart, once again looked at Cheng Yining's back, but she couldn't help covering her mouth and snorting softly, and her hand holding the curtain couldn't help but increase her strength.
It turned out that when Cheng Yining was about to walk to the gate of the courtyard, his feet suddenly slipped, but fortunately, he reacted quickly, controlled the balance of his body, and after a slight pause, he walked outside quickly.
He is gone, he should be allowed to go back and reflect on himself, don't always treat me as a fool, Su Qianai thought in her heart, and her eyes went to chase Cheng Yining's black Land Rover, but she found that she didn't see the familiar car inside or outside the courtyard.
Looking at the thick snow, she secretly guessed in her heart that maybe it was because the snow was too big and the cleaners didn't have time to clear the snow, so the security guard didn't let Cheng Yining's car in? The snow is so thick here, can you walk on the road outside? Even if you can go, is it safe?
You must know that even people can fall when they walk, so is the car even more dangerous?
Thinking about Su Qianai's heart hanging again, she turned around and ran to the bed to pick up her mobile phone, but found that her mobile phone had not been turned on for a few days after it was automatically turned off. Hurriedly went to get the charger, but just plugged it in, and her hand was withdrawn again.
Didn't you just fall out with Cheng Yining? What's the point of making this call?
As soon as she took off her thick pajamas, Su Qianai shrank into the quilt again, covering her whole body in the quilt.
If Cheng Yining was here before, she was angry in her heart, and when she watched Cheng Yining leave, she was entangled in her heart, and now she is lying in the bed, and her heart is full of pain.
In just such a moment, I lost my friendship and love.
In the days when it was hard and difficult, with Xinyao by her side, she didn't feel really bitter and sad, and Cheng Yining was in pain, and she didn't feel wronged.
But the best friend has deceived himself again and again, and the person he loves the most has also deceived himself again and again, and now in this world, in addition to his brother and mother, is there anyone worthy of his trust?
She really wanted to dig out the so-called truths she knew from her brain, but the more she tried to forget them, the more she remembered them.
Open her eyes, close her eyes, as soon as her mind is free, the word deception will uncontrollably occupy her entire thought space.
So in the past few days, she tried to immerse herself in the story of the novel every day, and kept typing on the notebook every day, without stopping, until she couldn't stay up anymore and could fall asleep with her eyes closed, and then she would fall into bed and fall asleep without thinking about anything.
Every day my mother would come to see her several times and cook her something delicious, but she really couldn't eat anything.
Jiang Xinyao and Cheng Yining have also been here a few times before, and their mother will definitely ask them, maybe Cheng Yining won't say anything, but Jiang Xinyao is honest, she will definitely tell her mother many things, and she must also hope that her mother can help comfort herself.
Xinyao actually cares about me. Su Qianai thought of this again in her heart.
But no matter what, she shouldn't lie to herself, and she still cheated so many times, so many times that she can't be forgiven.
Maybe my mother is right, a girl with a family background like Xinyao, she will definitely be mercenary, Leng Xiaoyu is so rich and rich, others can't climb high, it's rare that Leng Xiaoyu has a heart for her, and Xinyao pleases him, which is understandable. Or Cheng Yining promised Xiaoli, and she compromised.
Who called herself in a state of despair at that time, unable to satisfy any of her vanity?
Or maybe Jiang Xinyao felt that it was difficult for her to return to the Su family, and she felt that she was blessed to be able to marry into the Cheng family, and she could let Jiang Xinyao get the benefits she wanted, maybe it would kill two birds with one stone?
Alas, the society is complex, and there is something that can be there. Although covered in the quilt, Su Qianai's sigh still echoed in this spacious room.
Maybe what my mother said is really reasonable: if the conditions are too good, it will become a constraint on the pursuit of happiness.
If he didn't have the so-called fifty percent of the shares, just an ordinary girl like Xin Yao, would Cheng Yining still work so hard to pursue himself?
Probably...... No way!
There must be no fewer women around him, but a girl like Lou Yumo who is beautiful, gentle and understanding, and who loves him with all her heart, doesn't he also see it in his eyes and remember it in his heart?
Lou Yumo has many more advantages than herself, she just doesn't have a family background like herself, if she also has it, maybe she is the one who is favored by Cheng Yining.
Why do you have to see it so thoroughly? Why should you be so serious! How nice it would be to be silly!
Su Qianai pounded the bed hard in the quilt, and tears also joined in the fun.
It hasn't snowed so much in N City for many years, but when his love hung a white flag, he went down ruthlessly, is God mourning this sudden love for himself?
"Xiao Ai, we can't control other people's thoughts and behaviors, the only thing we can do is to let ourselves live every day happily, don't be influenced by others, and we can't punish ourselves for other people's mistakes." Mother Ying Ruomin's words once again drifted into Su Qianai's ears.
Yes, being angry and sad is to punish yourself for the mistakes made by others, and the body is your own, why be so stupid?
If others care about your body, they won't make you angry and sad.
If others don't care about your body, no matter how angry and sad you are, others won't feel the slightest bit distressed.
Su Qianai lifted the quilt, slowly got up, took two pillows and put them on her waist, and sat very decadently.
After sitting for a while, she brought her favorite notebook over again, and saw that there was an avatar in the lower right corner of QQ that was constantly flashing.
Click on it and take a look, it's an offline message from a reader named Kiki who recently added her.
In fact, her QQ has always rarely added people, and she has not published the QQ number on the Internet, she doesn't know how this reader found her contact method, but when she saw this reader's screen name Qiqi, she thought of her former self, and couldn't help but feel very kind, so she added her.
As soon as it opened, several messages popped up in a row:
"Feng'er, I like to read your books because the tone of your books is always cheerful, and it always makes me feel that life is full of sunshine."
"Feng'er, the content you updated in the past few days has abused the heroine to death, this is not like your style, did you encounter something unhappy?"
"Feng'er, you have to be happier, so that you can write more and more relaxed intentions for us to appreciate, and your mood will also affect our mood."