Chapter 9: Suspicion

When we came to the dry well, it was already evening.

Xiao Xia poked her head down, and a deep and quiet aura came to her face, in which there was no imagined cold feeling, nor was there a damp musty smell, a dusty feeling of dead leaves or dust, just like the feeling that Ah Bai gave people - gentle, quiet, kind and depressed.

Observing the dark place from the bright place, Xiao Xia couldn't see anything for a while, but she didn't make a sound, and she didn't know if Ah Bai had 'gotten up', because according to the spirit's schedule, it was still early in the morning.

"Natsu-chan!" But when she was about to leave the well and wanted to sit outside and wait for it to get completely dark, Abai's voice came from the bottom of the well, "Why are you here?" ”

"Can't I come and see you? You said you wanted to go and see me, but you didn't. That voice made Xiao Xia extremely happy, never knowing that his best friend was not a real person, but a soul. In film and television dramas, there are many people and ghosts, but there are very few friendships between people and ghosts.

"I'm sorry, Natsu-chan." Ah Bai was as gentle as ever, "So-you can come down first, okay?" I can't go up. ”

Xiao Xia had already prepared the rope and tied it to the tree well, and when he heard Ah Bai's invitation at this moment, he climbed down the rope. The wall of the well was dry and rough, and although she had not done well in sports since she was a child, she still went down smoothly into the well.

Looking at Ah Bai's haggard and calm face, for a moment, Xiao Xia almost burst into tears. She stepped forward to hug Ah Bai, but hugged the void.

"I'm sorry, I don't have a body."

"Fool, I forgot about your situation, what are you sorry for!" Xiao Xia shrugged his shoulders lightly and looked around at the square inch. I saw that the bottom of the well was spotless and empty, and even her dry bones were buried, and the whole bottom of the well was like a zazen room, without the slightest earthly intrusion.

"Why don't you live in the Octagonal Tower, there is no one there anyway." Ah Bai's loneliness made Xiao Xia sad, and she felt how lucky she was compared to her. At least, Ruan Zhan has always helped her, never harmed her, and she has never given her life for him.

Ah Baimei smiled and said softly, "Although there is no one living there, there are often people who go, I have left this world, so don't trouble and harass others." I'm buried here, and this is my home. ”

"But the environment is better there than here, and there is no need for wind and rain."

"Xiao Xia, you know, I have little mana left, and I can't deal with the dangers in the mountains and forests. In the past, he locked me up here for a big reason to protect me. The barrier trapped me, but nothing else could get in, so as soon as I got back here, I reactivated the barrier from below. Moreover, I have been re-cultivating these days, and although the Heavenly Divine Divine can not recover, I still have a little more mana. You see, wouldn't it be nice if I could set up a simple barrier to keep the wind and rain out of the well, as if I had a roof? ”

Xiao Xia was surprised and hurriedly looked up. She knew that there was a formation on the wall of the well, and later asked Ruan Zhan to move one of them and save Ah Bai, but she didn't expect Ah Bai to push back the moving place from below. No wonder, she just said she couldn't go up.

"But in this way, it's not free!"

"Where he is, my freedom is." Ah Bai said, with a determined look on his beautiful face.

Looking at this infatuated woman, Xiao Xia didn't know what to say. How can a woman love a man so without regrets? But only a pure and kind person like Ah Bai can make the demon-like Sima Nan retain the last bit of conscience and love!

Looking around, no remains of Sima Nan were found. Ah Bai seemed to understand what Xiao Xia meant, and pointed to his head. Xiao Xia saw that on her cloud-like black hair, there was a white ribbon-like thing, tightly wrapped around a strand of Ah Bai's hair. The ribbon seemed to be alive, and it was windless and automatic in Ah Bai's hair, like a ray of light through the darkness, making Ah Bai's entire face bright.

"Sima Nan?"

"It's not him, it's just a part of him." Ah Bai was a little sad, but then he smiled with relief, stretched out his finger and stroked the white ribbon. As if there was a feeling, the white ribbon also wrapped around her fingers naturally and affectionately, "This is enough for me, even if only one of his hair accompanies me, I am not lonely." ”

Xiao Xia once again had nothing to say, but as a woman, she understood Ah Bai's heart.

Abai would rather stay at the bottom of this dark well for a hundred years and thousands of years, lonely, boring, or even hopeless, than to be reincarnated, because then he would forget this unforgettable love. How could she not be like this, how precious is that memory, how can she give it up?!

The sea is rotten, the sky is barren and the earth is old, it is difficult to do for the body and soul, people will die, the soul will also be destroyed, but only memory will not be destroyed, that moment has happened, loved, paid, no matter what kind of vicissitudes of life, it can't be changed! If she can't find her love, all she wants is a good memory of that moment. And how could Ruan Zhan be so cruel and take it away at will without her knowledge?! Whether it's pain, regret, resentment, or turning against each other, that's the only thing she has after all, how can she be so ruthlessly ruined?!

She hated him and couldn't face him, and that's just because of that!

"When are you leaving?" Ah Bai asked suddenly.

Xiao Xia came back to her senses and tried to hide her thoughts, "I just came, just bomb me away?" It's still a friend, don't even talk about entertaining me for a few days, do you just want to be a world for two? ”

Ah Bai blushed, "It's not that I can't tolerate you, Xiao Xia, I can not eat or drink, you still have to live!" Sleeping in a well is not good for your body either. Besides, you are human after all, and it is not okay to be with spirits all the time. ”

"But I want to stay with you for a while." Xiao Xia said without a trace, "That's fine, you can only restore the barrier that sealed here, but I have a physical body, so I can open it again." You and I, as well as Sima Nan, will go out of the well and live in the Octagonal Tower for a while, and then when I leave, you will come back to live here. As for the people in the village, I'll make a name for myself. Xiao Xia patted his backpack, "I brought a little money, not much, just tens of thousands of yuan, I plan to donate it to the village, it is not enough to repair the road, but we can see if we can let the people in the village use it as capital and find some ways to get rich." ”

"I'm afraid that there is danger in the mountains and forests, and I can't protect you." Ah Bai hesitated. She was happy to meet her friends. Although yin and yang are separated, some people are not afraid of her, and they don't regard her as a high-ranking forbidden, and it is also a rare blessing for her to talk about the secret words in the boudoir.

"Don't be afraid." Xiao Xia raised his chin proudly, "I'm not the original Yue Xiaoxia anymore, now I have a senior brother and taught me a little spell." With this spell, you and I join forces, and all ghosts are invincible! She boasted as she pulled out the half-remaining charm from her backpack and told Ah Bai about the Five Elements Forbidden Method.

Ah Bai smiled softly and took a step back, "Don't get so close to me, although this spell hasn't been cast yet, but it is full of spiritual power, I will be afraid!" ”

Xiao Xia didn't expect this, she was startled when she heard this, and hurriedly retreated, but she forgot that the bottom of the well was narrow, and she hit the wall of the well, and she inhaled in pain.

"Be careful!" Ah Bai was a little sorry for Xiao Xia's reaction, and hurriedly stepped forward to help her, but as soon as she got close, Xiao Xia's amulet emitted light and stopped her from stepping forward.

"This talisman is so powerful!" Ah Bai said in admiration, staring carefully, "When I stayed with you before, it seemed to get used to me and wouldn't have reflexes. But now, even if there is no malice, it can't be approached, it must be Ah Zhan who keeps blessing spiritual power on it. He's—"

Ah Bai wanted to say that Ruan Zhan was very harmful to himself like this, but seeing Xiao Xia's unnatural expression, his heart suddenly moved, and he understood Xiao Xia's intentions a little. She saw that Xiao Xia's brows and eyes were locked with a faint sadness, and she didn't say anything at the moment, and obediently lived in the bamboo building with Xiao Xia.

For a week, they lived a calm, peaceful and comfortable life in the mountains, and in order to cooperate with Ah Bai, Xiao Xia also changed to a routine of day and night. In their spare time, the two of them had endless words, but Xiao Xia never mentioned Ruan Zhan, even Wanli and Bao Datong didn't want to, for fear of pulling the wound in her heart, these were all in Ah Bai's eyes, until the evening of the seventh day, she couldn't help but ask.

Xiao Xia cried, first shed tears, and finally cried, and told Ah Bai everything intermittently, as if the river that had been trapped in his heart was all cathartic at this moment.

"He's really gone too far this time." Ah Bai was silent for a while, reached out and stroked Xiao Xia's head, for the first time felt that there was no physical distress, if there was a body, she could hug and comfort her, but at the moment she couldn't do anything, "But, he's a man." A man has a man's thoughts, and if he knew that the memory was extremely important to you, he wouldn't do that. ”

"He hates me!"

"Come on, Xiao Xia, don't be angry with yourself. Even if you don't know if he loves you, at least you understand that he doesn't hate you. ”

Xiao Xia sobbed, and her heart was much more comfortable. This matter has been pressing on her heart, and she didn't talk to anyone, but she told Ah Bai at the moment, as if she had unloaded all the burdens and could look at herself from an objective point of view.

Thinking about Ruan Zhan's usual kindness to her, she suddenly felt that she was a bit of a bully. However, she still couldn't stand the fact that he wanted to erase her memory, because it meant that he regretted having a relationship with her, and it meant that he wanted to give up.

However, if he wanted to give up, why did the once-lost spiritual call start again three days ago? Guilt? Or sympathy? The call came so suddenly that she almost responded to him. The fact that she almost 'missed' made her understand how much she missed him, how much she loved him, and it wasn't any lesser because she hated what he did. This also made her begin to truly understand Ah Bai, when a woman falls in love with someone from the heart, whether it is worth it or not, whether he hurts himself or not, or keeps loving, it will not change in the slightest.

Does he love her or just like her? His usual behavior confused her and made her uncertain. Sometimes his eyes made her feel like he loved her, but sometimes he was so distant. He was like a mirage to her, visible, but unpredictable.

"Perhaps, he has a hard time." Ah Bai thought of Sima Nan and sighed faintly, "When you fall in love with a complicated man, you have to think more, for yourself and for him." ”

Difficulties?

Maybe Xiao Xia never thought about it, she was like a fire, she kept burning when she fell in love, trying to melt him and warm him, never thinking about the reason why he refused to melt.

"What's the problem? In my opinion, the things that interfere with love are those things - the resistance of parents, the pressure of reality, the intervention of a third party - he has no parents for a long time-" Speaking of this, Xiao Xia suddenly remembered Ruan's father's situation, but then shook his head, knowing that Ruan Zhan and his father had such a bad relationship, he would never reject him because of his father's opposition, and besides, he forcibly erased his memory when Hongqing Town, when Ruan's father had not yet appeared.

"The pressure of reality, we don't have at all. He has a bar, I have a job, I don't ask for fine food and clothing, and there is no problem financially at all. The third person, it seems, doesn't seem to have -- does he already have a wife? Natsu was taken aback by her guess.

"How is that possible?" A Bai smiled, "With someone like him as a husband, all women will keep an eye on it, how can other women have the opportunity to interfere, what's more, you have been together for so long, have you seen his wife appear?" ”

"Maybe he's in a similar situation to Mr. Rochester." Xiao Xia's super imagination came into play, remembering the plot in "Jane Eyre", imagining that Ruan Zhan might have a crazy wife locked in the attic or hidden in the countryside!

The more she thought about it, the more she felt believable, and she couldn't help but feel sad. It turned out that he was already married!

"Xiao Xia, don't be cranky. Believe me, Ah Zhan never has a wife. Bai interrupted Natsu's imagination, and although she didn't know who Mr. Rochester was, she also knew that Natsu's thoughts had turned to the wrong path 108,000 miles away.

"So what's the problem? Unless he doesn't love me, or he can't love me! Xiao Xia paused, shocked by the second thought.

She couldn't be sure if Ruan Zhan loved her, but she could be sure that he cared about her, if not, he would have the same attitude towards her as he did with other women who chased and pestered him, and it was impossible for him to be frightened by his tantrum self. What kind of man he was, and he hadn't changed color in the face of great danger, but that day—or maybe he really loved her, there was just something that hindered him.

Can she, think so?

Could it be that he was seriously ill and was about to die? However, he has always been so healthy, and he will recover quickly if he is injured, how can he get sick? Even if he was sick, he knew it before Hongqing Town, what kind of disease could be born for so long, and he couldn't see it at all?

Veto! This answer is no!

But the word 'bitterness' opened up a thought in Xiao Xia's mind, and began to make her consider other possibilities, the possibilities that made Ruan Zhan flicker.

"Let's go back and see! I think you're thinking too hard. Ah Bai said softly, "But don't show your suspicions, otherwise, a man like him who keeps everything in his heart may hide again!" ”