When I understood, my mother was gone. Less than two years after his father. She understood that her mother wanted to say sorry and leave her alone, and her mother wanted to say that she was sorry for her and didn't let her live better.

Actually, what are these? These hardships are not bitter in Chunxi's heart. Can you complain about the suffering of a mother and a father? Linlin, who has nothing left, is alive, why can't she Chunxi?

But her mother didn't wait for Chunxi to tell her.

In the yard near the doorway is a small warehouse. In the past, there was a mother's car, which was connected to the little yellow dog's nest. On the third day of my mother's departure, the little yellow dog also left, walking quietly. Chunxi got up in the morning to feed it, and it just fell asleep quietly like that and never got up again. Chunxi thought that her family, whether it was a human or an animal, must have done good deeds in the previous life, and she didn't suffer much when she died. It's just that its nest is still there.

At that time, the warehouse was made into a rainproof shelter, and sometimes my mother put some vegetables in it. Chunxi opened the curtain and went in, and the things that could be sold were sold at that time, and the elders who had a little kinship with her said that they couldn't keep it, and it would bring her bad luck if they kept it. Chunxi watched the car being towed away, whether it was sold, it would rust and rot if it was left here for a long time. It's okay to sell it for a few bucks. The floor tile marks pressed by the trolley were still there, Chunxi stepped on it, the warehouse was very dim, she saw a little yellowing something, reached over and pulled it out, it was a bundle of yellow burnt paper. The corners look like they've been gnawed by rats.

Chunxi left it to dry on the concrete floor.

Linlin said, go and see them, you don't usually come back.

Chunxi said, I didn't prepare anything. Linlin said, no, just cry twice.

Linlin has lived at home for a long time, and it is quite reasonable.

Chunxi went to the grave with yellow burnt paper. She doesn't want her parents to bless her, ordinary people always say that there is knowledge under the spring, if she knows, can she rest in peace? Since you can let her go, you must want to rest in peace and never disturb. She doesn't hate them. She loves them. Love them brings her life.

The burning paper didn't dry much, and when it burned, it had to be lifted one by one, and the smoke was very big, and Linlin said that you cry twice, so that they can come out and get the money. Chunxi couldn't cry. When the bundle of paper was burned, she rubbed her eyes and choked on the smoke, and vaguely saw in the distance that someone from an unknown family was also coming to the grave. There was no crying either. There is a row of small forests in the cemetery, Chunxi used to come here to pick mushrooms when he was a child, and he didn't know to be afraid at that time, only that as long as it rained in this forest, a lot of white mushrooms would emerge. The white mushrooms are tender and delicious, stir-fried slippery, or put some leeks to make soup.

Chunxi's eyesight is not very good, and he is not interested in seeing the things that block the grave. She knelt down and kowtowed.

She wanted to take a few pictures, but her phone looked dead, and she didn't have a charger. There are few young people in the village, and they are all old, weak, sick and disabled at home. The cherry blossom trees on both sides of the road are growing well. Chun-hee patted Linlin's window and told her that she would cook tomorrow morning and let Linlin wait.

When I returned to the old house, it was starting to get dark, and when I walked to the village, I bought two packs of biscuits at the commissary, and just now I gave Linlin a pack through the window. There is still tap water, but I don't dare to drink it. Chunxi brought a bottle of water, ate a few biscuits, drank a few sips of water, rinsed vigorously, and was too lazy to brush his teeth, so he fell directly on the bed. The houses in the village are built very well-built, warm in winter and cool in summer. Chunxi stared at the pink PVC ceiling, after a long time, plus the sun, the ceiling has been discolored, but the pattern Chunxi knows at a glance. I remember that year, my father was rated advanced and gave a little bonus, and they moved from the ancestral adobe house to the red brick house for several years, and before the ceiling was suspended, my mother told my father that it would be better to hang the ceiling before the year, so that it would look better and be warm. My father never objected to my mother's words. The next day, the construction team came, and brought a lot of wooden frames and pieces of colored PVC boards. Chunxi wiped all the colorful boards with flowers. After finishing the work two days later, Chunxi suddenly entered the palace and felt that the house could be so good-looking. In the New Year, the task of wiping the ceiling became Chunxi's, she lay on the tripod, took a wet rag and wiped it one by one, and the smoked place near the kitchen was blackened early, so she used half a pack of laundry detergent, and finally restored some color.

Later, the freshness came over, and it was changed to a big rag to fool around a few times. Now there are a few cobwebs woven in the corner of the wall, Chunxi got up, turned out a large plastic basin, didn't find a good rag, found a pair of her former autumn pants, she didn't look at it, tore it into pieces twice, and threw it into the basin. Start wiping the small balcony window in the bedroom first, wipe it twice, and your hands will be dark. There are spiders in the spider webs, and she doesn't care, she closes her eyes and wipes them off, and tosses like this until midnight. When she came out to pour water, she saw that Linlin's courtyard light was always on.

There is a large photo frame hanging in her parents' house, which contains photos of her family's life. Chunxi took it off, wiped the glass clean, took out all the photos inside, put them on the countertop one by one, found an envelope to put it in, and took them all tomorrow. When she hung up the frame again, she felt that it was empty and only her own face was reflected, so she picked out a family photo from the photo and put it back. There's always something to be with here. That's the happiness of the family.

Chunxi went to Linlin's house to wash her hands and face with soap, and Linlin also got up early and packed up her things. She also put in the cookies that Chunxi gave her yesterday. Chunxi said that the cookies are not very tasty, so throw them away. Linlin said, I haven't eaten it yet.

Chunxi first looked at Linlin's living reserves, the noodle bag has half a bag of noodles, and under the tap water is a small white plastic bucket, containing half a bucket of water, two bowls, and half tied noodles, Linlin followed up and said, get on the dumplings and get off the noodles, let's go to the village to eat wontons, wontons are similar to dumplings. Chunxi even saw a leak in the window pane between scooping water into the pot, and a yellow piece of adhesive tape was sticking to it. She sighed slightly and said, isn't it noodles to get on the car and dumplings to get off? We eat noodles. If you don't eat this side for a long time, you will have worms. Linlin lowered her head and said, listen to you, you have the final say.

Your dad never came back?

Not.

He was relieved.

The trustee brought the money back and said that he was not allowed to ask for leave on the construction site. Take a leave of absence and lose it.

To whom? Don't think about him. Chunxi brought the boiled noodles to Linlin. The two of them ate noodles in water.

No, didn't you give me your TV? I just watch TV when I'm fine. Linlin said.

The electric gate and the sluice gate are all closed, Chunxi said, and there is still a valuable full belt. Let's go.

Out of the village, walk Erli Road, wait for a small bus for one hour or two hours on the provincial road, take half an hour to the station, and then take the bus back to the city.

Linlin needs a wheelchair, and Chun-hee pushes her. The suitcase first rested at Linlin's feet, and Chunxi took two steps to take it down, pulling the box with one hand and pushing Linlin with the other.

Linlin wants to come by herself, but Chunxi refuses.

Your dad bought this wheelchair?

No, the village is relieved.

Who is the official in the village now?

You don't know. I went to find them. I also gave them an IOU and returned it when I don't use it in the future.

Oh, Chun-hee felt like she couldn't talk anymore.

The two walked slowly, admiring the crops in the fields by the roadside. The wheat harvest was almost over, and the door of the vegetable greenhouse was open, and the cucumbers on the cucumber racks could be seen.

I've eaten this before, Linlin said, pointing to the ears of wheat. Chunxi has also eaten, but now the ears of wheat can't be bitten, it is a few ears that are picked down when the green and yellow are handed over, and the grains are rubbed out and put in the mouth to chew, and the materials in the countryside are not so rich, and people will use their brains to find snacks on the plants around them. In the past few years, there have been more people who have eaten potatoes, and the ears of wheat have become memories.

Not only that, but the fried noodles are delicious. Chunxi said that in a few days it would be time to make fried noodles. Linlin looked up and looked at Chunxi's chin, don't put saliva on my face. Chun-hee smiled and slapped her.

They walked in the shade of the tree, and when they walked a little, Chunxi had to take turns, neither of them wore hats or glasses, and Linlin unscrewed the water bottle to give Chunxi water. Chun-hee looked at the bottle, which she had used to use when she was in school.

Nothing could stop her from moving forward, and she gritted her teeth secretly.

There is nothing to cover the provincial road, before Chunxi left, this road was full of old and thick trees, at that time, Chunxi went to school and passed through the favorite road, and the sun could not be exposed in summer. Now most of it has been cut down, and many factories have been built on both sides of the road, with blue glass tiles, like a still ocean. She pushed Linlin back to the side of the road with trees, and she stood on the provincial road waiting for the bus.

The sun was a little roasted, and Chunxi stretched his neck and had to shrink to the tree to cool down. Linlin said, you push me over, my eyes are good, I'll wait. Chunxi found two bricks to secure her wheelchair, and Linlin didn't have a way.

The scenery in front of them is familiar, and neither of them dares to say too much, for fear that they will poke each other's hearts without knowing which word. As a result, time feels extremely slow. Linlin didn't dare to drink water, afraid of going to the toilet. Chunxi didn't drink it either, leaving it to Linlin. Or Linlin said that I drink half of it, you drink half of it, otherwise it will sink with you. Chun-hee agreed. She said you want to go to the toilet and I'll carry you to the ditch, what are you afraid of, isn't it a tadpole to pee in this place? Nor does it take money. Linlin smiled, and when she smiled, she felt urinated. Chunxi really picked her up on his back and walked along the ditch of the factory that was expanding. She didn't forget to joke with Linlin and said, or I'll take you, I should have hugged you just now instead of carrying you. Linlin said, it's a shame to be dead. Chunxi said, wait for me to find you two bricks to cushion. After saying that, she went to pick up bricks, and Linlin was already half-prostrate.

After peeing, Chunxi changed to hugging her up, and she was going to hold her in the car for a while, now try the severity first, don't touch her when the time comes. Linlin is not heavy, eighty or ninety pounds, Chunxi should have no problem walking a hundred meters if he wants to.

But on this day, the car is like a ghost, which is extremely inaccurate and torturous. Chunxi went to solve an internal emergency. She stomped the urine on her feet while picking up stones, and said, "Come, let's play checkers."

A car is parked slowly in front of them, the driver wears sunglasses, probably to avoid them, drives ten meters and slowly reverses back, there is a radar sound on one side, reverse, please note, reverse, please note. Chunxi and Linlin both looked up.