(b)

I fought hard for seven years at the border.

The comrades-in-arms around me turned into dry bones in front of me one by one, but in the time, I was almost the only one who survived. Every time I go to battle, I am afraid of those swords and guns, and even though I have been through hundreds of battles, I am still afraid.

Right.

Afraid.

But I'm not just afraid of death, I ...... I'm afraid that after a hundred years, I will never be able to go back to my hometown to have a look. If you were lucky enough to be able to send the bones back to your hometown, and you knew that I would not come back, what would you do?

You're going to be so sad and sad that you can't stop crying.

That's what I'm most afraid of.

I'm afraid you'll cry, I'm afraid you'll be sad, I'm afraid you'll be sad...... I know you've been expecting me back. I can see you who have grown into a big girl, and then embrace you in my arms, just like saying goodbye to me back then, and gently say 'I'm back' in your ear

So I'm going to live.

Either way, I want to see the future with my own eyes.

Touching the marriage book in his arms, your appearance appeared in his mind again - the Xin Yi who had been waiting at the entrance of the village, tiptoeing, looking vigorously.

I don't know how many times, I've been seriously injured, I can't survive several times, and I've even walked to the ghost gate, but think about how much I still have a wish, think about that idiot and wait for someone, I can't bear to die. Stunned, he breathed a sigh of relief and crawled out of the pile of dead people.

But if a person does not die, he will have a blessing. His Royal Highness is like my nobleman, promoted all the way, and even achieved the position of general. Until the end, he finally put down the rebellion on the frontier and was able to return to his hometown.

Return...... I can see you.

When I returned to Jizhou, it was close to the end of the year, and it was the coldest time of the year. The snow in Jizhou is very thick, and when you walk on the road, the snow has not passed the horse's hooves. The eldest brother and I were walking on the way back to my hometown, the horse's hooves were slippery, and we could only move forward slowly, and he talked vigorously about the changes in the family in the past seven years. It's also the first time I've noticed that my eldest brother is so talkative.

"Brother, they ...... Do you know we'll be back today? ”

"Of course." The eldest brother replied, "I have already sent a letter to my family, and they naturally know this, and I guess I will see them welcome you to the entrance of the village to take you, the general, home." ”

"Really......"

I suddenly looked forward to the image that I had imagined countless times in my mind—you stood at the entrance of the village, looking at my return, with a look on your face that was a little joyful, a little shy, and so happy that you almost wanted to cry delicately.

I don't know if I haven't seen you in so many years...... Xin Yi, what do you look like? It must have become pretty, it must have become more beautiful than when it was a child, right?

Thinking of this, the corners of his mouth unintentionally curved, but then he was a little nervous.

No way.

It's so cold, what if you freeze to death? How can you be allowed to stand outside on such a cold day? If you don't wear warm clothes, won't you get a cold?

Thinking of this, I hurriedly shook the reins, clamped the horse's belly, and urged the horse to move quickly towards the haunting scene.

The closer I got, the more my heart pounds. At this time, they were already close to the village, and in the distance, it seemed that they saw some figures standing on the side of the path at the entrance of the village, looking at the return of themselves and their eldest brother.

Xinyi ......

The second brother is back......

Turning over and dismounting, running quickly in the direction of everyone, such a reunion is like fantasizing in countless dreams, you stand at the entrance of the village and look at my figure, and then I can finally take out the wedding book that I have kept, and hold a lively wedding banquet, so that everyone knows that you, Zhuo Xinyi, are my wife.

Thinking about this, thinking about it, I couldn't stop running a few steps, and then I got in front of everyone.

But.

My gaze swept over all of their faces, but I didn't see the one I had hoped for.

The smile on the corner of his mouth froze on his face, and his mind suddenly went blank.

"Second brother." The familiar salutation made me turn my head to look at the girl, who was so similar to the face I remembered, but ...... It's just similar. "Second brother, you're back."

“…… Well. He lowered his head, but didn't hide from her: "It's Perran." ”

She smiled shyly and said angrily, "I'm afraid that the second brother won't recognize me." ”

"How so." I said perfunctorily, but my heart seemed to be weighed on something, and I couldn't breathe: "What about Xinyi? ”

Pei Lan let out an unnatural 'ah', then lowered her eyes and wrung her fingers and replied, "Eldest sister, eldest sister...... She went to the capital with her master. ”

"Master? Where did she come from, Master!? ”

"That's, that's Uncle Chongxuan......"

At this time, my mother stepped forward with a gloomy face, pulled my sleeve and said: "You don't want to mention her again, saying that she followed the master, I obviously saw a son-in-law to take her away that day, and I have been gone for half a year, and I haven't come back yet." ”

Son-in-law? Who? Who is it!!

In an instant, the memory crumbled into fragments, and I looked at the familiar streets and the snow-covered mountains in the distance of Jizhou. After a moment of dating, it was unspeakable pain in my heart.

Why.

Xinyi ...... You said you were waiting for me to come back.

Isn't everything counted?

Perrin said, when you celebrate the New Year...... Probably will be back. I think maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Maybe it was really Uncle Chongxuan who took you away, but I don't know? Speaking of which, I've seen him anyway.

In that case, you'll still be back. When you see me, will you still be like this, throw yourself into my arms and call me 'second brother'?

But...... I was wrong.

There was another young man standing beside you, and when he saw me enter, he took you behind him. I can see what that means, and I can even guess how you relate.

Seeing you shrink behind him, looking at my familiar and unfamiliar eyes, I woke up, and it turned out that all my assumptions were just my own words.

Pei Lan said that after Aunt Zhuo died, you hit your head on the coffin and got amnesia.

Amnesia...... I can't remember anything. Including me, including all the memories between us, you can easily erase them. You don't admit it, and you can even deny that I am your husband. And his eyes were full of the figure of that person, paying attention to every subtle change on his face, and even deliberately trying to please him......

Why did it become like this.

My Xin Yi, the Xin Yi in my memory who only called his second brother and smiled at me, why did he shrink behind others and use the ...... What about the loving eyes that looked at me back then, looking at other men?

Stunned, shocked, followed by anger, unwillingness.

In the past seven years, which day has I not fallen asleep thinking about your smile, which day has ...... It's not like a year.

I want to see you...... I want to see you and I'm going crazy, but I never thought of you in my heart...... It's going to be like this now!

I really hope that you are lying to me, you are deliberately trying to make me angry, and then a grin flashed out from behind him, obediently stretched out his arms towards me, sank in my arms, and called 'second brother' sweetly.

But you don't.

But you kept looking at me with horror, as if I were to you...... Just a stranger.

…… No.

No, you're mine.

It has been since the beginning, and it hasn't changed today. You can only be mine...... It can only belong to me! No matter who it is...... I will remind you of all our previous past, and I will remind you of how attached you were to me.

Whatever the method.

…… Looking at the figure of you driving away, I silently made this decision.

Even if you say it's despicable, it's shameless...... Xin Yi, I won't let you go this time, never.