Chapter Seventy-Six: A Life, a Dream
Shang Yuchen looked at Shen Linxi's resolute back blankly, and his mind was at a loss. He wanted to catch up and say something, but his legs weighed so much that he couldn't walk. He really felt that the source of happiness in his heart was draining little by little, and it was slowly drying up with the footsteps of Linxi.
The scenes of the past suddenly poured into his mind, and the pictures with Shen Linxi appeared in front of him one by one. Her smile is beautiful, her playful beauty, her intelligence and wisdom, and her tenderness is like water......
Everything about Shen Linxi still makes Qi Yang infatuated, but her person has disappeared. Suddenly, Shang Yuchen remembered what she said, just now because he was too angry, so he didn't think carefully about the content of the words.
"You're always imagining me as the female lawyer who broke into your house, right? In order to prove the heinous sin of the woman who brought you family harm, you cover your eyes and heart, but ignore the truth of the current matter.
Perhaps, the truth is not important to you at all, the important thing is that you have now successfully fought the bad woman in your memory, the woman who will do anything for money and tear apart other people's families. For this reason thou hast not hesitated to come and humiliate me, and thou hast no excuse for the sins you want to inflict on me. ”
Shang Yuchen couldn't help but ask himself, is his subconscious still full of hatred for the woman who destroyed his family back then? Is he really transferring his hatred for that woman to Linxi when he loses his mind?
"Shang Yuchen, I never knew that you were such a bastard. If I pedal two boats, there is no one more stupid than me. I would be so stupid today that I knew that you were waiting for me here, and I still happily accepted the flowers that others gave me, and I had to stage a scene of intimacy with others in front of you. ”
Shang Yuchen calmed down alone at the moment, and only then did he feel that he had made a very stupid mistake. As Shen Linxi said, if she is really half-hearted and inattentive, then how can she be as smart as she is stupid enough to make trouble for herself? Shen Linxi is so good, that Mr. He is attracted to her, which is also normal.
If Linxi agreed to his pursuit, then she and that Mr. He could go anywhere just now, how could they let themselves see it so unabashedly?
"Flower, you've thrown it away, people, you've scolded too, is there anything between us that hasn't been settled? Oh, and besides, I'll give you back all the gifts you gave me in the past, so we'll be settled between us. ”
When Shang Yuchen remembered these words, he was already at a loss for what to do. Looking at the messy roses in that place, he suddenly remembered that he also accused Shen Linxi of "chasing money, playing with feelings" and "being a junior"! Oh, my God! What the hell did he say! What did he do to Linxi!!
Shang Yuchen realized at this time that he was too impulsive just now, and he actually said those bastard words in a daze. Thinking of Shen Linxi's indifferent face, he couldn't help but slam his head with his fist. obviously decided that she was the love of his life, but why did he hurt her again and again, making her sad and disappointed?
Thinking of Shen Linxi saying that "there will be two clears between us", Shang Yuchen was so nervous that his heart was about to jump out. No! He must not lose Linxi! He had to find her right now and tell her that he was in a very low mood today because of his parents' divorce, so he had misunderstood her, and that he had made such a serious mistake and said those sad things to her.
Thinking of this, Shang Yuchen hurriedly took out his mobile phone and called Shen Linxi. Listening to the ringing of his mobile phone, he pleaded nervously in his heart, "Linxi, answer the phone, please answer my call!" You can scold me as much as you want, as long as you answer the phone. ”
The phone rings and rings in a painful way. Shang Yuchen's heart was in his throat, and his breathing was unconsciously light, as if he was afraid that he would disturb him to listen to Shen Linxi's voice on his mobile phone.
Then, there was no answer on the other end of the phone. After the ringtone hung up automatically, he immediately redialed it again, but what he didn't expect was that the phone came with "Sorry, the user you are calling has turned off." Shang Yuchen's brain was "boom" and there was an explosion.
Shen Linxi must have heard the mobile phone ringing just now, but she didn't answer it, and then she turned off her mobile phone. What does this mean? This shows that Linxi doesn't want to talk to him and don't listen to his explanations? Is she really going to leave him?
The fear in Shang Yuchen's heart spread all of a sudden, and he was afraid of this feeling of losing contact with Shen Linxi. He begged desperately in his heart: "Linxi, Linxi, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, please let me see you, I have to see you!" He quickly got into the car, and after starting, he drove directly to Shen Linxi's dormitory building.
He rushed upstairs in a few steps, banging on the door hard, but there was no sound inside. Could it be that Linxi hasn't come back yet? Thinking of this, Shang Yuchen hurriedly ran downstairs and drove around the school looking for Shen Linxi. However, what he didn't know was that after he left, Shen Linxi went back to the dormitory, she took her luggage, and left in a hurry.
Shang Yuchen was anxious to shuttle back and forth around the campus. During this period, he kept calling Shen Linxi, but her mobile phone was still turned off. Until now, Shang Yuchen has determined that this time, Shen Linxi is determined to fight him to the end.
Time flew by, and when Shang Yuchen inadvertently glanced at his watch, he realized that it was almost time to close the door, so he hurriedly returned to Shen Linxi's dormitory building.
When Shang Yuchen wanted to rush upstairs again, he was stopped by the janitor. He said that he had something urgent to find Shen Linxi, but the janitor told him that almost an hour ago, she saw Linxi already carrying her suitcase and going out of the building. Shang Yuchen couldn't help but be surprised, at this moment, he even suspected that Shen Linxi deliberately asked the janitor to deceive him, but reason told him that this was unlikely.
However, where will Shen Linxi go? She was still holding her suitcase, could it be that she wanted to go home because she didn't want to see him? Thinking of this, Shang Yuchen was both surprised and sad, did Linxi choose such a way to avoid him?
However, the situation did not allow Shang Yuchen to think too much, and he drove to Guangzhou Station, because he knew that if Shen Linxi went home, he would have to take the train from here. He hurried to the train station. After checking the train schedule, he bought a platform ticket and ran into the platform, only to be disappointed to learn that the train to City A had just departed.
However, Shang Yuchen did not give up, because it was very likely that Shen Linxi did not get on the train, and she might still be in the train station. So, Shang Yuchen was in the waiting hall, looking for her back and forth in the crowd, but in the end he found nothing.
Looking at the bustling and endless stream of travelers, Shang Yuchen went from anxious to panicked, then to scared, and finally became desperate little by little. Linxi is really gone, she never wants to see him again! He leaned against a wall in a daze, his eyes glued to the ticket gate in the distance, still with the last bit of hope in his heart, expecting Shen Linxi to suddenly appear there.
Shang Yuchen kept staring, and gradually, his vision blurred a little, and his mind began to sink. He glanced up at the clock in the waiting hall, and it was already four in the morning.
His hands and feet were numb. He took out his mobile phone, desperately concentrated his already wandering thoughts, and sent a text message to Shen Linxi: "Linxi, forgive me again!" I'm a real jerk and ridiculous. I miss you day and night, and I can see you but hurt you!
How can I not trust my loved ones? It's all my fault that I'm blinded by jealousy just because I love you so much, and let madness rob me of my reason. Linxi, come back! I really miss you!! ”
Looking at her photo on her phone, Shang Yuchen had mixed feelings and was at a loss. He knew that although Shen Linxi was kind and gentle, she was calm and persistent. Even when it comes to emotional matters, she often analyzes them rationally, and once she makes up her mind about something, she will carry it out to the end without compromise or perseverance.
This time, she walked so resolutely, so thoroughly, maybe she really won't forgive him again......
When Shang Yuchen dragged his stiff body back to his house in a groggy state, the sky was already dark. He drank a glass of cold water, held his mobile phone, leaned back on the sofa, closed his eyes, and hoped that Shen Linxi could send him a text message or call. Later, slowly, he fell asleep.
I don't know how long later, he saw Linxi in the crowd in a trance, and he felt a burst of ecstasy in his heart, and he pulled his legs and ran towards her. Suddenly, he kicked his leg, and the person woke up, and at the same time shouted "Linxi-"
Shang Yuchen opened his eyes suddenly, and his heart was still pounding. He looked around, but saw that it was empty, and only he was alone. His heart sank, and he closed his eyes again, it turned out to be a dream......
It took a long time for him to slowly open his eyes. On the mobile phone, Shen Linxi did not give him any reply, and her mobile phone was still turned off. She's gone, she's really gone, and she really doesn't want to come back......
Shang Yuchen's brain was chaotic and unconscious, and in his tearful blurred vision, everything around him was blurred in a mist. Shang Yuchen suddenly remembered that last autumn, he often played her favorite piano song "Autumn Whispers" to Shen Linxi. At that time, the two of them often rubbed their ears on the piano bench, and in the beautiful music, the happy time was rippling sweetly.
Thinking, thinking, Shang Yuchen got up unconsciously. He walked to the piano in the distance, sat down, and together he held hands, and a string of notes slowly flowed out. In an instant, his heart felt as if it had been struck by electricity, and the lingering melody struck his heart one by one.
He closed his eyes, and in the sound of music, he seemed to see Shen Linxi sitting side by side with him, her head resting gently on his shoulder, her dreamlike face with an intoxicating lightness, and her slightly curved lips with a smile......
In the next few days, Shen Linxi seemed to have evaporated from the world, and Shang Yuchen couldn't contact her. Because school hadn't started yet, he couldn't contact her from Shen Linxi's classmates. Eventually, he became disheartened and had to return to the U.S. on time to continue his project work.
Shen Linxi was really heartbroken this time. Valentine's Day night often comes to her mind. She asked herself countless times, would such a rough Shang Yuchen be her future lover? And every time, her answer was no, because she was afraid of Shang Yuchen like that, and she couldn't tolerate his behavior like that.
However, when Shen Linxi saw the text message that Shang Yuchen sent her asking for her forgiveness, her heart hesitated. After all, how could the beautiful past between her and Shang Yuchen be easily erased? In those days, there was the romance and warmth of dancing and flying, and there was the blazing and crazy of the summer sun. Shang Yuchen's meticulousness and thoughtfulness towards her, as well as her infatuation and affection, made her difficult to give up.
However, Shen Linxi has always been rational and calm. In love, what she wants is the affection of two people and treating each other sincerely, rather than the patience and caution of one party. Shang Yuchen's almost violent behavior that night had broken through the bottom line of what she could tolerate, and she must not let her love wander on the edge of danger.
Therefore, in the confrontation between emotion and reason, Shen Linxi's soft girl's heart was originally immersed in sweet love, and Shang Yuchen's figure was still deeply engraved there, but now it was being pushed bluntly to the face of sober reason again and again, and a voice was coldly announcing "You must defend your personality and dignity!" ”