Chapter Ninety-Eight: I can't bear it
Do you know that when I face her, I always think of you, your merciless betrayal of me; It was you who left without a message.
I can't control myself not to think about you, and I can't control myself not to hate you.
The medicine that can relieve the pain of missing you in my heart is to torture her who looks like you.
When I saw her sad, my heart was happy; When I saw her in pain, I wanted to open champagne to celebrate.
Sometimes, I suspect that I am a pervert and have a personality defect, and I even talk to the most authoritative psychology expert friends.
My friend said that my psychological problems are not big and that I can control myself, but I don't want to control myself.
Was it really you who made the transatlantic call that night? Why don't you speak? But it doesn't matter, in a few days, Lan will fly over there to investigate, and I'm sure I'll find the answer I'm looking for.
"I've taught you more than ten times, why can't I remember it?" Xue Zhen's tone was not very heavy, but it was enough to make the people around him shiver.
"I'm sorry, Coach Xue." Li Xiaowan was taught a lesson, she was not born stupid, is she really not the material for driving.
"Xiaowan, I don't want to criticize you for anything, think about it, planning to get a driver's license in a month is a difficult thing in itself, and according to your current state, not to mention that it is not bad to get a driver's license in a month or a year." Xue Zhen didn't mean to look down on Li Xiaowan, she just wanted to let Li Xiaowan successfully get her driver's license within a month through her patient teaching.
"Coach Xue, I know that you are for my good, you go and rest for a while, and I will practice by myself." Coach Xue was next to him, and the psychological pressure was too great.
"I can understand the psychology of the students, you are the first day of training today, and I don't blame you, it is already very good to be able to barely run laps, let's rest! There is no hurry. Xue Zhen got out of the car.
Coach Xue is very reasonable, and it will backfire if you rush too much.
Some students next to them looked at Li Xiaowan who walked down from Xue Zhen's car, they were both timid and envious.
You must know that it is not an easy task to get the words and deeds of the 'female devil', and there are only a handful of them looking back.
At noon, Li Xiaowan didn't even go to eat, she excused herself that she was not hungry, but in fact she went to the small supermarket next to her, bought some biscuits and other things, put them in her carry-on bag, and then ran to a corner where no one was there to eat secretly.
Even if something doesn't go well again, you can't grieve your stomach.
When she was in her hometown, she clearly saw Qi Xin'er's father, who kept rolling in bed every time he had a stomach attack, and she didn't want to force herself to look like Qi Xin'er's father.
When practicing car, a day is short and fulfilling for Li Xiaowan.
At six o'clock in the afternoon, Xue Zhen sent someone to send Li Xiaowan back to Fengjia Manor, and when she left, she continued to encourage her and tell her some experience in learning to drive.
In Li Xiaowan's eyes, Xue Zhen is a hard-mouthed and soft-hearted person, she does not have the frame of an official wife or a rich person, on the contrary, she is very easy-going, and she is a sister worthy of friendship.
When I stepped into the villa, I saw Feng Lingzheng sitting on the sofa, meticulously looking at the newspaper in his hand.
Li Xiaowan didn't want to disturb or face him, so she thought about going upstairs directly.
"Don't have the most basic courtesy?" Feng Lingzheng saw that Li Xiaowan didn't mean to greet him with the corner of his eye, and the nameless fire in his heart was about to come out.
"Feng Dong, you came back early today." Because she was wearing a mask, Li Xiaowan was not used to it, and her speech was slightly slurred.
"Can't even speak?" How many people are crowded to the point of bleeding, just to say a word to me, just to see my true face, but you don't care at all, it's good!
"No, Feng Dong, it's because I'm wearing a mask." Doesn't it please me to look at it like that? Is it that hard to serve? Can't you just let me live?
"Get out!" Feng Lingzheng listened to what he said, but his mouth did not loosen at all.
Fortunately, there is a little cleverness, and she didn't show her embarrassed face directly, otherwise she would have been punished doubly.
"Miss Xiaowan, dinner is ready, Master Ling Zheng is waiting for you to go downstairs to eat." Steward Mo knocked on the door.
"Sister Fen, I'm not hungry yet." Feng Lingzheng did it on purpose, did he want to see with his own eyes what he looked like after being tortured by him, or did he want to show off how attractive he was in front of others, or let others see how cheap he was?
Don't blame yourself for thinking too much, Feng Lingzheng is that kind of person.
"Miss Xiaowan, it's not that you don't understand Young Master Lingzheng's temper." Steward Mo can guess a little bit, her kind reminder is for Li Xiaowan's good.
"Sister Fen, thank you for reminding me, I'll go down later." obviously can't get used to himself, and insists on appearing in front of him by himself, that's not a masochistic tendency.
After a long time, Li Xiaowan slowly went downstairs, she thought that Feng Lingzheng would eat alone because she couldn't wait, but she didn't expect to see Fengling Kite sitting at the dining table at the corner of the stairs.
Li Xiaowan thought to herself that this was over, with the strange temper of the wind listening to the kite, she had to take off the shell without being peeled off.
She nervously walked to the table and sat down furthest from the wind kite.
buried her head and carefully took off the mask, Li Xiaowan didn't dare to use force in the process of taking off the mask, she was afraid that if there was blood oozing out of her lips, it would stick to the mask, and if she pulled hard, it would lead to an injury that would be difficult to heal.
There were too many similar experiences when she was a child, and Li Xiaowan didn't dare to be careless.
After taking off the mask, Li Xiaowan lowered her head and quietly waited for Feng Lingzheng to speak or be angry with her, no matter what she wanted to do to herself, Li Xiaowan kept telling herself: Bear with it! Bear with me! Keep endure!
"Let's eat!" Li Xiaowan's every small and slight movement did not escape the eagle eye of Feng Lingkite, and the blood stains on her lips may be the reason why they have not completely scarred, so Li Xiaowan did not dare to wipe them off or tear them off.
Seeing her embarrassed and painful appearance, shouldn't he be gloating and excited? Why does I feel a sense of guilt? Why is there a subtle heartache in my heart?
Wind Listening Kite, no longer pondering, yes! That's a delusion.
After a meal, the two did not have any verbal communication.
For Li Xiaowan, it is a happy thing, she was trembling the whole time, for fear that Feng Lingzheng would torture her again and put her in an embarrassing situation.
Li Xiaowan picked up the tissue on the table and wiped the corners of her mouth, and when she was about to continue to put the mask on, she found that the inner layer of the mask was covered with dots of blood.
After thinking about it, let's put it on first, so as not to be seen by Steward Mo, Steward Mo is okay, if it is heard by other 'starlings', the entire Feng family will spread jokes related to themselves.
Even if you don't care about gossip, you can be talked about all day long, and it is unbearable for anyone to be chattered in your ear.
"I'll go out, you don't have to wait for me to come back tonight, I'll wash my clothes tomorrow." Feng Lingzheng didn't wait for Li Xiaowan to react, and left.
What's wrong with him, is he being kind to himself? Li Xiaowan was relieved.
Touching the scar at the corner of her mouth, Li Xiaowan let out a wry smile.
In the past few days, I didn't dare to go to Xin'er, if she saw that she was not human, ghost, and ghost, she really didn't know how to confess to her, or not to add trouble to her.
After practicing for two or three hours, fatigue invaded and fell asleep.
A good night's dream, accompanied by the ringing of the alarm clock, Li Xiaowan got dressed, looked at herself in the mirror, and was refreshed.
Wait, what is this? Is it a mask? Li Xiaowan took a closer look curiously, it was really a mask, and there was more than one, to be precise, a bag.
And there is a blank piece of paper next to the mask, on which is written a line of words: The mask is changed every day, if I find out that you did not follow the requirements, what is the result, you slowly understand.
Can Feng Lingzheng treat himself so kindly? Li Xiaowan didn't dare to believe it, but instead a fear came from the top of her head.
He is not ready to continue to treat himself in the last torture method in the future, right, buy himself a mask first, is he prepared?
The kite is the nightmare of his life, more hideous than the demons and monsters in the nightmare.
Thinking about it, Li Xiaowan can only change into a new mask as required, after all, the current training is more important to herself, and that is the key to deciding when she can leave the Feng family.
Feng Lingzheng hurriedly went out last night, in fact, to buy a mask for Li Xiaowan.
Think of yourself as a cleanliness addict! Seeing the bloodstained mask in Li Xiaowan's hand, she almost didn't gag on the spot.
I couldn't stand it, so I came up with the idea of buying a mask.
At about twelve o'clock, Feng Lingzheng returned to the villa, and after entering the room, he heard Li Xiaowan's steady breathing, and he must have slept soundly and steadily.
It turned out that when she was away, she could sleep peacefully.
I usually look at the fear in my eyes, I don't care about it, but so what, if you want to blame her background, blame God's tricks.
Feng Lingzheng stood quietly in front of Li Xiaowan's floor, looking at her fluttering eyelashes and soothing eyebrows, her gaze gradually moved down, her cheeks were crimson, her red lips were slightly curled, and the only deficiency was that there were coagulated ink-colored blood scars on it.
Feng Lingzheng felt nervous in his heart, and suddenly felt unbearable, he turned his head away, as if he saw someone's figure through Li Xiaowan.
"Blue, have you slept? I'm coming for you. Wind Kite's breathing became short, and he didn't want to be in a room that was almost suffocating him.
"Not yet, come here, stay safe while driving." Yu Feilan was ringing by the phone next to his pillow, looking at the incoming call on the screen, he immediately cheered up.
In Fei Lan's impression, Feng Lingzheng will only call in the middle of the night when he encounters a headache or is in a bad mood.
Feng Lingzheng drove there, and the two drank nearly a bottle of red wine and talked all night.
They talked about the past, about the present, about ideals, about love, encouraging each other and warming each other.
Early the next morning, Yu Feilan arranged for his secretary Li Lingling to book two air tickets to a certain country on the same day.
Without leaving a word, the kite disappeared for seven days.