Chapter 179: Go and Find Him
Yin Sheng didn't know when the "immobilization technique" left on his body was unraveled, because he kept a movement all the time, and he didn't even blink his eyes.
Later, he was so tired that his body collapsed, and tears flowed from his dry eyes, and he felt that it was not sad, but just because his eyes had not rested for too long, and he was tired.
He thought about it all night, and he didn't feel that he had done anything wrong, and even if he did it wrong, he apologized in the end! But this stupid and arrogant fox, what right does he have not to forgive himself?!
The cobweb-like night finally dissipated, and the deep blue sky gradually revealed a glimmer of light, and a thought suddenly flashed through Yin Sheng's mind.
He was as arbitrary as he had been in his youth, and without hesitation at all, he put on his clothes and ran out, went to the queen's bedchamber, and hammered her door.
The queen only delayed for a short while, Ling'er came over and opened the door for Yin Sheng, Yin Sheng went in, without too much politeness, and went straight to the topic, and said to the queen, "The widow wants to choose a concubine!" ”
The queen was stunned unexpectedly, and looked at Yin Sheng for a while before quietly reaching out and touching his forehead, muttering to herself, "Your Majesty doesn't have a fever either." ”
"How?" Yin Sheng dodged the queen's hand a little awkwardly, "As a generation of kings, is it wrong to choose a concubine?" And you, as the queen of the widow, are obliged to do these things for the widow! ”
The queen couldn't help laughing, and the person who came over patted Yin Sheng's shoulder and asked, "Quarrel?" ”
Yin Sheng looked at her, and then lowered his head again, looking a little pitiful, like a big dog that had been abandoned, but the next moment, he was replaced by the majesty of the Ninety-Five, and said, "No, the widow abandoned him!" I'm tired of playing! ”
"But Your Majesty has waited for ten years, and this is only a few days...... Don't cherish it again? ”
"Who said...... Who said that the widow was waiting for him......" Yin Sheng's tone was so weak that even he doubted it, "Anyway, it's over, there's no more." He never had a chance again! ”
The queen took him by the hand and sat down, poured him a cup of freshly served chrysanthemum tea, Yin Sheng held it in the palm of his hand, and the steaming mist moistened his eyes.
"Your Majesty, do you know, the way you look reminds me of when I first met you ten years ago," the queen smiled gently, with a strong warmth, "At that time, you were still a fifteen-year-old boy, and I became a victim of my father's pursuit of fame and fortune, I thought that my life was over, and I was destined to be unable to be with the person I loved in this life, and I was destined to be with this deserted harem for the rest of my life." But Your Majesty, you ...... You're just so unexpected! You are such a daring young man, you grew up in the deep palace but still have a kind heart, you can't bear to delay the good years of these girls in the harem and let them out of the palace...... Then why, now you have to choose a concubine again? Aren't you afraid of delaying people's years? ”
"How can a widow be so good......"
Yin Sheng fell into a long silence, he knew that he was not what he was before, to be precise, before he met the fox.
He is not qualified to be a fifteen-year-old boy, he has to learn to use and win over since he was a child, for the throne and to live, he has not paid his sincerity to anyone, everything in this world is only divided into two categories in his eyes: "useful value" and "no use value".
What kind of mentality did you have when you approached the fox at first?
It seems that he is the one who suspects that he is Yin Jixuan, and wants to put him by his side to reassure Yin Xixuan, but later found out that it is not, Yin Xixuan is also full of curiosity about the mysterious flying lightning, until later, he fell into the emotion of this fox earlier than him and couldn't extricate himself.
Yes, Yin Jihui was earlier than him, and when Yin Jixuan was already sincerely in love with Feidian, Yin Sheng still got along with Feidian with the idea of "this is Yin Jixuan's handle".
Fortunately, he took care of his heart later, did not miss this relationship, and did not live up to him and himself.
Later, to be more precise, it was the stupid fox who was cold on the surface, enthusiastic on the inside, smart on the surface, but stupid to death and didn't know anything. dug out a teenager who was hurt by ugliness and intrigue from the quagmire, gave him sun-like care, and made Yin Sheng become, a true self that he didn't even know.
He cared about him, made him feel warm, and he treated him like a normal child...... He felt sorry for him, and he felt that a child should not bear so many things. Although he is not qualified not to bear these.
But he had been lying to the fox, from the beginning to the end, he had not told a few words of truth, but he knew that his heart was true, so he waited like a fool for ten years after he left, even if he knew that such a wait might never be answered.
After all, he is Yin Sheng, he is Yin Sheng who will not do anything wrong, and naturally he will not believe that the incident that finally led to their parting ten years ago was his own judgment that went wrong.
Then his love for Flying Lightning overcomes his suspicions and he intends to leave everything behind and start over.
Is he at fault? Obviously, he has given up a lot, sacrificed a lot, and even questioned himself for that fox, but he still can't hold it.
That stupid fox......
Why didn't he know how to go down the stairs, but he had to splash water, sprinkle stones, and stumble down on the way, and he would be happy?
Perhaps, they are all stupid.
The queen looked at the tea, worried about burning Yin Sheng's hand, so she reached out and took it down, and Yin Sheng came back to his senses.
The Empress smiled at him and said, "Your Majesty, can you tell me what happened?" I don't dare to guarantee that I can point out the way for Your Majesty, but the so-called authorities are obsessed with bystanders, as an outsider to your relationship, don't you want to listen to my opinion? ”
Yin Sheng was stunned for a while and sighed, "It's not that I don't believe him, it's just that I don't allow myself to doubt myself...... But he ...... Isn't it good to start over? Isn't it best when nothing happens and we still love each other? ……”
He finally spoke, and told the whole thing in its entirety.
When the queen heard this, she also fell into deep thought, then smiled at Yin Sheng and said, "Your Majesty, I think you did something wrong. ”
"Am I wrong?" Yin Sheng frowned, "How could I be wrong?" ”
"To be exact...... Both of you are wrong," replied the queen carefully, "you are like two hedgehogs, hugging too tightly will stab each other, and your personalities have many similarities, and they are all the same conceit, which leads to the fact that once you have a conflict, no one takes the initiative to bow down, and the cracks that are torn are getting bigger and bigger, and finally they go their separate ways, and they don't get along with each other." His Majesty feels that he is not wrong, he must also feel that he is not wrong, and if Your Majesty waits for him to turn back, he may also be waiting for Your Majesty to turn back, waiting for you to apologize sincerely. ”
"Yes...... Is it like this? Yin Sheng was a little confused.
"I'm just a bystander," the queen smiled, and said, "I believe that those who are willing to come to you again in ten years will not back down and give up because of the slightest friction, you have gone through the test of time, and now, you have to transform each other and become people who are completely compatible with each other, so that you can go on for a long time." ”
"That'...... So what do I do? ”
"Soften yourself into a ball of cotton, let that hedgehog poke around on you, you don't feel pain or itch, you still warm him, and over time, his thorns will soften."
"Do you want this?" Yin Sheng raised his eyebrows, noncommittal.
The queen nodded, and said, "Aside from feelings, I have also heard of the great achievements of the military master ten years ago who attacked and besieged the city, cured the death spirit Gu, and governed the troops in Tuntian, etc., such a smart person, but now he suddenly left, and chose the way to deeply hurt His Majesty, doesn't Your Majesty suspect that there is any inside story?" ”
The inside story?
Yin Sheng's head suddenly sank, he thought that ten years ago, when he thought Fu Li was dead, he told himself that he felt that there was a person who was really hiding behind the scenes and watching everything manipulate the overall situation, this person was not Yin Jixuan, let alone Fu Li.
Who's that? Flying Lightning ...... Is it in this way to dissociate himself from himself, to deceive that person's trust, and to sneak into danger alone, just to remove the real threat for him?
Yin Sheng patted his head, he had already doubted him once, if he lost that ridiculous pride, think about it carefully, how could the fox at that time betray him.
So this time, he won't doubt him anymore no matter what.
He can't be wrong again.
"I've decided, I won't choose a concubine, I'm going to leave the palace." Yin Sheng stood up suddenly, with a little worry in his eyes, and said to the queen.
"Huh?" The queen was taken aback, "Your Majesty, don't mess around, even if you want to reconcile with him now, you can't ignore state affairs, if he knows, he will blame himself." ”
"No, I know what I'm going to do," Yin Sheng was full of confidence, and the corners of his mouth were raised, "The only hidden danger of turmoil is that the demon hiding behind all the light, stretched out its claws and fangs from ten years ago or more, waiting for me to stick its head over and eat me in one bite. ”
"Your Majesty......"
"I can't sit still any longer, I want to take the initiative and pull out that demon!"
More importantly, how could that stupid fox be left alone to face danger.
"But the country can't be without a king for a day, Your Majesty wants to leave the palace, what should the court do?"
"The obvious urgency is only the war with Shuguo, I believe that Chen Guan and Song Jia, plus my good daughter Hongyin, and Ye Cheng who abandoned the darkness and turned to the light, this battle does not need me to come forward at all." Yin Sheng cleared his thoughts, held his chin and said, "I issued an order saying that I am sick, and everything in the court and the central government is entrusted to Feng Ling and the end, well, it is decided!" ”
Yin Sheng looked at the queen excitedly, afraid that she would say something important about state affairs, but he didn't expect the queen to just smile and say, "Your Majesty, do you know that you are the one I really know now, you are an affectionate man, dare to act recklessly, burn this feeling vigorously, and never give in!" ”