Chapter 47: Leave Love
Back at the altar, Shengyin's mood was difficult to calm down for a long time, he knew that the rest of the royal family was more powerful than he imagined, but he didn't expect that he would have such magical powers and find out his details in such a short period of time. It is predictable that his marriage with Princess Qili will be obstructed, and the royal family is not just anyone who can enter, let alone the princess's husband.
It's just that after Princess Qili learned his true identity, she actually began to hesitate, and even wanted to persuade him to break away from the Xiling Sect and live only as a colt from now on. Jokes, Shengyin never thought about attaching herself to a woman to live, even if that woman was a princess on top. The reason why he has done so many things is nothing more than for the sake of the Xiling Sect, and only the Xiling Sect is the whole of his life.
Since the destruction of her family, Shengyin, who has survived through so many hardships and hardships, knows that her fate must be in her own hands. Except for himself, no one can be trusted, no one can be attached to, he held this idea through the ups and downs, personally avenged the blood and the sea of blood, and founded the Xiling Sect. How could it be possible to change his faith for a woman now, and he would no longer be in love, and should he beg the princess for mercy? No, he can't do it, not even death!
Shengyin's character determines his choice, and he would rather give up Qili than dismiss the Xiling Sect that he created single-handedly. handed over the restaurant to his subordinates to take care of, and he left without looking back, no matter how many times the Qilito people gave him, he pretended to turn a deaf ear. If Kiri didn't even have the guts to stand up to King Rest, what hope could he have for her! If Qili thinks that his status as a killer is not qualified to become a member of the royal family, the Xiling Sect will not want to get her support in the future!
In this case, there is no need for him to entangle with a woman he doesn't love, and if he has that energy, he might as well focus on the teaching affairs of the Xiling Sect. Anyway, in the past, those men and women were all in love with you, how could the dignified and beautiful princess be embarrassed to let others know their relationship, their identities are very different, isn't it an insult to the dignity of the royal family!
Shengyin was angry, too lazy to take care of Qili, and at the same time he was also very frustrated, because he saw the reality clearly, it was really difficult for a third-rate killer to be among the top of the powerful. He has tried and fought for it, but there is no hope, and even Princess Qili, who is fascinated by him, hesitated at the critical moment, which shows that no matter what means he uses, it is impossible to become a powerful fantasy.
You can't have both, and if you want to get the status that the world desires, you have to give up your original insistence. If you want to keep your faith, stop dreaming unrealistically. Even if the Xiling Sect can't become a holy sect that dominates the Western Regions? At least he can still call the wind and rain in the dark world, and he doesn't have to look at anyone's face to live!
Sheng Yin knew that he couldn't give up the Xiling Sect no matter what, he wouldn't live that kind of life under the fence, and he would no longer covet the ethereal aura. He is him, the leader of the Xiling Sect, he only lives for himself, only for the Xiling Sect, no one wants to stop him from moving forward, and no one can damage the Xiling Sect in the slightest.
After being disappointed in Qili, Shengyin's longing for the bright moon became stronger and stronger, and every grass and tree on the altar had the breath of the bright moon. Since then, she has become an indispensable part of his life, perhaps from the day they were enslaved and comforted each other, or perhaps they fought side by side for the Tomb Sect.
No matter what time it was, Shengyin really couldn't ignore the importance of Mingyue, remembering that when he was just brought back by the killer leader, the first thing he saw was her, a pair of gray-eyed girls who could see through people's hearts. Mingyue works hard every day, washing clothes, cooking, cleaning the room and other trivial tasks are all done by her, even the heavy work of carrying food and cleaning weapons falls on her.
Even so, Shengyin never saw her frown, nor did she cry out that she was tired, she was busy from early morning to midnight, and only when she was very hungry could she get two pieces of bread, and she usually ate it with cold water, wiped her mouth and continued to work after eating.
Shengyin didn't know that she was a killer in the organization, but when she was a homeless and abducted slave, she thought that if her sister was still alive, she should be as old as her, so she couldn't help but feel sympathy, and from time to time she brought her something to eat and help her do some heavy work. Mingyue still didn't say anything about this, she didn't even have an expression of gratitude, she just silently ate what he sent, and quietly watched him carry bags of food and wipe a bloody sword.
Later, Shengyin was also sent out on a mission, and the first time I killed someone felt like a nightmare, I jumped into the river and washed and washed, and I still had that pungent smell of blood on my body. Shengyin thought that he had experienced the disaster of annihilation, and he was used to this kind of blood, and he still had to slash the enemy, how could he be afraid of such a thing as murder. With his current martial arts, he is not capable of killing the enemy, but if he doesn't even dare to kill someone, who will teach him powerful martial arts!
Shengyin desperately wanted to cut himself off, but he couldn't let go of the blood feud that was deep in the marrow of his bones, and returned to the thief camp in despair, feeling that he was a good-for-nothing thief, and had no choice but to die. If he can't take revenge if he goes on like this, he might as well die purely, so as not to be stained with the blood of so many innocent people, and he will not have the face to see his parents in Huangquan in the future.
He didn't eat, drink, or sleep, he really planned to just wait for death, he didn't expect someone to comfort him, but she came. Mingyue brought the meal that had been heated a few times, pulled him up from the bed, and said lightly, "Let's eat." Sheng Yin had always thought she was mute, and looked at her in surprise, then turned her back again.
Mingyue didn't let him go, and Shengyin impatiently pushed her away, telling her not to meddle. Suddenly, Mingyue slapped him twice in the face, making him dizzy. Shengyin was stunned, looked at her blankly, Mingyue smiled bitterly, and told him that she also wanted to seek death when she killed someone for the first time, but she later figured out that death could not solve the problem, she had to live well, live to those who looked down on her, as long as she could live, she was willing to do the hard and tiring work.
Mingyue turned out to be a killer too, Shengyin was surprised, but he believed what she said, and believed that she did it all to survive. Sometimes, it's harder to live than to die, but if you do, you'll never have a chance to fulfill your wish again.
The Holy Voice reinvigorated himself, and in order to take revenge, he allowed himself to be completely degraded and reduced to a killing machine. But only in this way, he also felt that life was meaningful, and after a few years, with his extraordinary talent and unremitting perseverance, he finally became the number one killer on the rivers and lakes and successfully avenged his family.
However, revenge could not extinguish the hatred in his heart, he hated everything in this world, hated the thieves who turned him into a killer. He killed all the killers who had taught him martial arts, took possession of the killer organization known as invincible in the world, and led his subordinates who were willing to follow him to create the Xiling Sect.
Shengyin called Xiling Sect a holy religion, eradicating all the sources of inequality in the world, and he established himself as the head of the sect and trained a group of henchmen to form an altar. Mingyue, who is the East Holy Maiden, has never expressed an opinion, no matter what Shengyin wants her to do, she will do it, even if it is to kill people for him.
Mingyue, Mingyue, her intentions, Shengyin has always understood, but he can't respond, the Xiling Sect needs her, and he can't afford to lose such a capable subordinate. If their relationship changes, they will never go back to the past, and he will have to start from scratch to find a subordinate who can be compared to Mingyue, but he clearly understands that there will be no second person like Mingyue who is both wise and brave and desperate for him.
Declined Mingyue's show of love, he also had to do it, compared to women, what he needed more was the East Saintess, and he did not hesitate to set up rules to let Mingyue know the difficulty and retreat. Fortunately, Mingyue didn't ask for much, as long as she could be by his side, she was willing to be his Eastern Saintess.
However, he didn't abide by the rules set by Shengyin, and although the news that he was with Princess Qili was a secret, many people in the sect knew about it and told Mingyue.
Mingyue rushed back to the altar all the way, but the Shengyin she had been thinking about for a long time was mixed with other women, Mingyue angrily found Shengyin and asked him face-to-face why he did this.
Facing the bright moon in anger, Shengyin had already prepared, he never thought of concealing it, and said calmly: "Yes, I got along with Princess Qili, and I almost got married, but these are not enough things, I hope you don't take it to heart." ”
"Why? You know what I want, but you do the same thing as other women, have you forgotten the rules you set for yourself? Mingyue suddenly understood a lot, shook her head with difficulty, and slowly retreated with tears in her eyes, "Ah, I see, your so-called canon is just coming at me." Shengyin, I love you, I have always loved you, no matter what you do, I support you, in fact, if you don't love me, you can directly refuse, there is no need to beat around the bush to perfunctory me, Shengyin, you are too cruel, how can you treat me like this......"
This is the first time that Mingyue has personally admitted that she loves him, and Shengyin was greatly moved when she heard it, and it turned out that the person she liked in her heart confessed to herself, and it felt very different.
Sheng Yin's heart began to waver, but he refused to admit his mistake for the sake of face: "I am the sect leader of the Xiling Sect, do I have to report to you in advance what I do?" Yes, I have made a rule that you cannot marry, but I do it for the sake of the future of the Holy Church. Qili is the princess of the Sabbath Dynasty, if she wants, it is no longer a dream for the Holy Sect to dominate the Western Regions, Mingyue, don't you want to see this day come as soon as possible? ”
"No, I don't want to, Shengyin, let me tell you, the Xiling Sect is nothing in my eyes, I only have you in my heart, and without you, I won't stay. I don't care if the Xiling Sect can dominate the Western Regions, I just want you to be by my side, if you insist on going to that woman, okay, I'll go! ”
Mingyue looked at Shengyin's embarrassed appearance, and her heart was bitter and unbearable, it turned out that in his heart, she was really nothing. Xilingjiao, Princess Anxi are much more important than her, is everything she has paid for him worth it? Is it worth it for her to be an executioner for him?
"Shengyin, I won't force you anymore......" Mingyue's heart is like frost, he doesn't love her, why should she embarrass him, the sadness and pain are only blamed on her for being too affectionate, but all this is her own doing, and she has nothing to do with others.
Mingyue turned around and left, staring at her slender back, Shengyin's heart turned upside down, he hadn't completely given up on Qili, and even thought that Qili was willing to fulfill his wish for him. But at this moment, he fully understood how important Mingyue was to him, not for the Xiling Sect, but for him, he absolutely couldn't afford to lose her.
Shengyin rushed forward and hugged her into his arms, and kissed her eyebrows and lips tremblingly: "Mingyue, don't go, don't leave me, please, don't go, I can't live without you......"
Mingyue burst into tears in an instant, she couldn't believe that Shengyin actually loved her, she thought he just wanted to keep herself, but his kiss made her feel what it was like to be loved. How could she be willing to leave him, without him she would wither and die? Mingyue responded to his kiss and confessed to him that she loved him and loved him for the rest of her life.