Chapter 248: I don't know how to regret it until I lose it
In order to develop the antidote, Luo Feng can be said to have been experimenting day and night, waiting for the results, failing and starting again, again and again, not bothering, bent on developing the antidote successfully, so that it is no longer so painful.
But it backfired, and many experiments ended in failure each time.
"Luo Feng, you better rest first, you haven't had a good rest in the past few days, and some things can't be rushed." Li Manni persuaded.
Seeing Luo Feng so crazy, she was really distressed, she had been accompanying him and helping him in the past few days, but every time she failed, it was like a stab in their hearts.
Luo Feng shook his head, looked at the potion prepared in the test tube, and responded in a hoarse voice: "I don't have time to rest at all, compared to the way I am now, do you think I can rest at ease?" ”
For others, there is not only guilt and self-blame, but also distress and love.
Luo Feng's thoughts, how could Li Manni not know, sighed silently, shook her head helplessly, turned around and walked out, the whole atmosphere of the current mafia is very depressing, when will all this end.
"Mannie!"
"Su Linger!" Li Mani was surprised for a moment.
Su Ling'er looked at the door of the laboratory and asked, "How is it?" ”
Li Manni shook her head in frustration: "Still no result." ”
"I'll go in and have a look."
Li Manni nodded: "You persuade Luo Feng, some things can't be rushed, he is like this day and night, and when the antidote is not developed, he will fall, so what should I do?" ”
"Hmm!" Su Linger bowed slightly.
When Su Ling'er pushed open the door and came in, Luo Feng still maintained the posture just now, staring closely at the potion in the test tube, hoping for a miracle discovery, but the potion in the test tube did not change at all, he looked at the time, more than an hour had passed, and the disappointment was written all over his face, he failed again.
He started to try N times again, and now he is like a robot, dispensing medicine, then experimenting, then waiting for the results, and finally failing, and another round begins.
Su Ling'er stepped forward to hold his hand and stopped: "Take a rest, your body will not be able to bear it if you go on like this." ”
Luo Feng shook his head and whispered, "What qualifications do I have to rest now." ”
"What should she think if she sees it? You can also see that she has been avoiding you now in order not to let you see her like this, and you will only make her feel that you are pitying her. Su Linger comforted.
They know very well what has happened recently.
Luo Feng closed his eyes in pain, swallowed back the tears that welled up, opened his eyes again, and muttered: "Everything is my fault, why do you say that everyone will, and I don't regret it until I lose it?" I used to laugh at others, but I didn't expect me to have such a day. ”
All along, he thought that his feelings with him were limited to friends, and he was in love with Ling'er, and now he found out that everything was just his self-esteem, in fact, he had fallen in love with him unconsciously, but that attachment blinded his heart, so that he could not see the existence of his heart, and now, he regretted it, but it was too late, could they go back to the past?
"Luo Feng, as long as you understand, it's not too late, it just takes time, instead of spending six years to love you, then you can also use six years to redeem it, right?" Su Linger comforted.
After going through so many things, the only truth she understands is that as long as people live, then it will never be too late, and what is more cherished than living.
Luo Feng looked at Su Ling'er in a daze, he felt that he didn't know her anymore, he never thought that these words would come out of Su Ling'er's mouth, and he felt that all of a sudden, everyone was changing.
"Take a break, if you're tired, then instead of feeling guilty and blaming yourself, do you still want her to be sad and sad for you?" Su Ling'er patted Luo Feng on the shoulder, turned around and walked out, if she said too much, she didn't want to say too much, there were some things, she still had to rely on Luo Feng to figure it out.
During this time, Leng Hanyi has been by his side, and the reason why he is like this, in his opinion, is all his fault, if he had stopped going with him at that time, then this would not have happened today, he feels that he will regret it forever, it was like this in the summer before, and it is like this with him now.
Sitting in a wheelchair, she now looks a lot haggard, and she is already thin, but now she is even thinner, which looks very distressing.
Leng Han pushed her, felt the warmth of the sun, looked at the flowers in the yard, and hoped that her mood would be better.
On an early summer day, the sun was a little hot, but it was very comfortable for her, and she liked the feeling of warmth all over her body.
"Hanichi, thank you for being with me all this time." Instead of being very grateful, if there is no Leng Hanyi, she doesn't know if she can persevere, every time she can't control her emotions, she wants to stop here, so that it will be a hundred, and everyone will not be sad because of her, but every time Leng Hanyi will be by her side, patiently comfort her, tell her some interesting things, and let her emotions slowly calm down.
Now she doesn't dare to see anyone, first, she doesn't want them to see her so embarrassed now, second, she doesn't want them to worry about her, now even Leng Hanxuan, she avoids it, she is lonely, and Leng Hanyi is accompanying her.
"Thank you or not, we're friends, aren't we?" Leng Han said softly, this is still after the summer, and he is so gentle with the second woman.
Instead of smiling slightly.
"Rather than ......., everybody cares about you." After a few days of hesitation, Leng Hanyi still said what was in his heart, he didn't want to close himself like this, he hoped that she would still integrate into this big family as before.
At the mention of everyone, instead of smiling, he froze on his face, lowered his eyes slightly, and whispered: "I know, but I don't want them to see what I am now, and I don't want them to worry about me." ”
Leng Hanyi didn't understand, instead of being a strong girl, how could she tolerate the person she cared about the most, seeing her so embarrassed now.
"Luo Feng, he ......." Leng Han glanced at him, for fear of arousing her emotions.
Instead of lowering his head, he raised it again and smiled: "As early as when I went to Nameless Island, I was already dead to him. ”
"Instead, I just want to remind you not to do things that you regret." Leng Hanyi didn't say anything more, how could he not understand his heart and have been silently in love for six years, how could he say that if he doesn't love, he won't love.
Instead of not speaking, looking at the yard, the flower field like a sea of flowers, lost her mind, no one knew what she was thinking, and the indifference in her eyes was very distressing.
Luo Feng, who was standing not far away, looked at the familiar figure not far away, he didn't even have the courage to go up and say hello, he knew that she didn't want to see her at all now, and he couldn't help laughing at himself in his heart, he ignored her existence before, but now he was humble and just wanted to beg her for a look.
Leng Hanyi, who turned around, found Luo Feng who was standing not far away, he glanced at him, quietly retreated, and came to Luo Feng's side: "Go and accompany her, I think she needs you."
Luo Feng was stunned for a moment, and looked at Leng Hanyi with some incredulity.
Leng Han patted Luo Feng's shoulder, glanced at him, and strode away.
In his opinion, the most important thing to treat now is heartache, even if an antidote is developed, the wound in her heart cannot be cured, and she will not heal completely, and the heart disease that can cure her is Luo Feng.
Luo Feng, who hesitated, didn't dare to step forward, not that he didn't want to see him, in addition to experiments in the past few days, what he wanted to do most was to be by his side, but he knew that he was the one who was least qualified to be by her side now.
He also knew that instead of not wanting to see him at all now, he was afraid that her appearance would make his emotions uncontrollable, and he had been suppressing himself for the past few days.
The rose symbolizes love, and its flower language is, love, love and beauty, bravery.
Looking at the roses blooming in front of her, instead of outlining a smile, she loves roses, not only because they symbolize love, but also because of their beauty, and among many flowers, it is the most distinctive.
Instead of reaching out to pick one, I found that the distance was too far and some could not reach it.
Suddenly, a pair of large slender hands plucked the roses they had wanted to pick and handed them to her.
Instead of looking at the person in front of her, she was slightly stunned, and did not pick up the rose in Luo Feng's hand, and now the person she wants to see the last thing she wants to see is Luo Feng.
"The flowers are beautiful." Gentle speech, a little hoarseness, this is probably the reason why I have been experimenting and not speaking.
Instead of turning the wheelchair and wanting to leave, she didn't want to see him at all, and the uneasiness in her heart wanted her to escape even more.
"Don't you want to see me so much now?" Luo Feng asked in a choked voice.
Instead of not speaking, now she just wanted to leave, and she didn't want him to see her so embarrassed.
A touch of loss flashed in Luo Feng's eyes, he reached out and grabbed the handle of the wheelchair, put the rose in his hand in his hand, and whispered, "I'll call you Leng Hanyi." ”
After speaking, he turned around and strode away, his clenched fists were a little white, and his fingertips sank into the flesh, but he didn't feel any pain at all.
Looking at the roses in his hand, at this time, with his already calm heart, there were ripples again, tears came out of his eyes, blurring his vision, and he couldn't see clearly, that familiar back.
Tears fell on the roses, which embellished its delicacy even more.
Leng Han strode over, and when he saw such a painful one, he regretted it again, maybe it was not the time to let him meet with Luo Feng, he thought that Luo Feng's appearance would make him happier, but now it seems that he was wrong, so strong, how could he bear Luo Feng to see her so embarrassed.
Feeling guilty, he stepped forward and hugged him tightly, hoping to make her feel better.
Leaning on Leng Hanyi's arms, she couldn't cry anymore, and she was still holding the roses that Luo Feng had just picked for her in her hands.