Chapter 55: The Desire to Get Rid of the Loose
He Tianling has been listening carefully to the various interesting stories told by Shen Linxi, and often looks at her with a smile. Listening to that pleasant voice, he seemed to have entered her world, the enviable student life.
When Shen Linxi was talking excitedly, suddenly, her mobile phone rang, and she quickly took it out to see that it was Shang Yuchen calling.
She said to He Tianling: "I'm sorry, I'll answer the phone!" Then, she walked off and picked up her phone.
Shang Yuchen's voice sounded: "Linxi, where are you?" I would love to meet you. ”
"Uh......" Shen Linxi didn't know how to answer.
She thought that Shang Yuchen would call her in two days, but she didn't expect that he would call today. However, the current situation is special, He Tianling is rarely free to find her to accompany her, so she can't go and say to others, "I'm sorry, I have to meet a friend now." ”
Therefore, Shen Linxi felt very difficult. When she was silent, Shang Yuchen asked sensitively, "Is there something wrong with you?" ”
Shen Linxi was embarrassed and said: "I am accompanying a friend to visit our school, and it is not easy for him to come once, so I don't have time now." You see, how is it in the late afternoon? ”
Shang Yuchen was silent for a few seconds before he said, "Okay." Then when you're done there, call me. ”
"Okay." Shen Linxi hung up her phone and turned back to find Fan Lingzhi. I saw that He Tianling was not far away, his expression was calm, and his posture was calm and leisurely.
In fact, Shen Linxi didn't know that He Tianling's heart was extremely uncalm at the moment. Just now, when he looked at the back of Shen Linxi walking away, he suddenly felt that this sudden ringtone would take Shen Linxi away from the happy world of the two of them at once, and a restless mood surged out of his heart inexplicably.
He Tianling couldn't tell what was going on with him, he felt very unfamiliar with his unstable self now, and this feeling made him very confused.
Over the years, in addition to the feeling of powerlessness that poverty brought him confusion and hesitation and overwhelmed when he was young, he gritted his teeth and carried it through countless hardships in his work and entrepreneurship.
His family, it should be said, is also happy, his parents and brothers are proud of him, and the wife at home is also met when his parents asked him to go back to his hometown and go on a blind date. At first, he saw that she was also gentle and lovely, and he also had a faint liking in his heart. After getting married, both of them also respected each other like guests.
Later, his career grew bigger and bigger, his wealth increased, and his wife gave birth to a son and a daughter for him. Supposedly, he should be happier, but I don't know if it's because of money, or because of a pair of children, his wife began to love luxury and show off her wealth.
She always spent her days shopping and playing mahjong with a group of neighbors, but left her children to the nanny and his parents at home. He Tianling was a little helpless, but he didn't have the energy or mood to have a good talk with her, because he and his wife never seemed to have effective communication, and in fact, they had never reached a real heart-to-heart fit.
He Tianling thought, maybe he can't communicate with women, or maybe it's difficult for men and women to communicate with each other. In short, he felt helpless, so he just wanted to expand his career.
After coming to Guangzhou, the unfamiliar environment made him feel full of challenges, and he was constantly deploying new businesses all day long, which made his nerves tense all the time, and his body and mind were somewhat tired.
However, after meeting Shen Linxi, He Tianling felt that a wonderful change had occurred in his heart. In front of her, he felt unusually relaxed and comfortable. He couldn't help but talk to her about many things that he hadn't talked to anyone else in the past, and his smile had never been as much as he had in front of Shen Linxi.
He has always been calm and calm, but recently, his heart has often stirred up the impulse of a teenager. He is often stunned or apprehensive. He vaguely understood why he began to become impetuous, and the root cause was Shen Linxi.
There seemed to be an invisible magic in Shen Linxi's body that strongly attracted him, he just wanted to look at her beautiful smile like a flower and listen to her humorous words.
However, although he longed to see her in his heart, he could only secretly ask himself, "He Tianling, what do you want to do?" You are no longer qualified to pursue her, and you should keep your distance from her, otherwise, you may hurt her. ”
He forcibly used the reason he had always been proud of to barely restrain his desire to get rid of it again and again. After a few struggles, his heart was filled with a deep bitterness.
Yesterday, He Tianling invited a major customer who had already started to talk about project cooperation to play golf. When he saw the bright sunshine pouring on the carpet-like verdant hillside, he suddenly couldn't help but think of Shen Linxi.
Thinking of her smart beauty, her shallow smile, her intelligence and understanding, the longing buried in his heart suddenly gushed out. A powerful heartbeat came once, twice, clearly, and then, more and more rapidly, more and more violently, almost bursting his chest, and swelling him with pain. He placed his hand there, and it felt as if every cell in his body was stirring in waves, ready to rush out at any moment.
At that moment, He Tianling didn't want to obey the confinement of reason anymore, he let the painful thoughts spread to the corners of his body, like a strong wine soaking into his limbs, he quietly endured this kind of abuse, but he was unwilling to resist in the slightest.
So in the evening, He Tianling was apprehensive and called Shen Linxi. When he heard Shen Linxi say that she could accompany him to visit her school the next day, he couldn't help but be ecstatic, but even he himself was afraid of this kind of psychology.
Because, even when he was young, he had never been so excited, and after so many years of ups and downs and experiences, he looked at his emotions very lightly, however, now, he can't calm down.
After putting down the phone, He Tianling was in front of the mirror and began to carefully examine his face. It seemed to be the first time that he cared so much about his appearance. When he saw the white hair faintly flashing between the black hair in his ears, his brows couldn't help but furrow slightly, and his mood suddenly fell. He had the urge to go to the barber shop and dye his hair black, but an indescribable frustration overshadowed him.
He sat dumbfounded, his mood becoming contradictory and complicated, and with it, there was a melancholy and loneliness that could not be dissipated. He pressed his brow lightly with his hand, sighed, and shook his head.
There are too many insurmountable realities between himself and Shen Linxi, what does he want now? Since everything is destined to be a luxury, why should he still be tempted? Do you want to find a heart-warming love to make up for your emotional lack of regret? With lingering melancholy in his heart, He Tianling fell into sadness in the dark.
This morning, although He Tianling was still in a relaxed mood, he still put on his favorite clothes very carefully, and tried his best to cut off some of the white hair clearly visible on his sideburns in the mirror.
When he saw Shen Linxi appear in front of his eyes as if he was dressed in bright sunshine, He Tianling's heart passed a trace of obscurity. This beautiful, sunny, delicate and dusty girl, can't he find it after all? When Shen Linxi talked to him enthusiastically, He Tianling's heart was full of warmth.
He and Shen Linxi walked on the path covered with red leaves. The trail is like a gorgeous and long carpet, He Tianling couldn't help but fantasize in his heart, he really hoped to go on like this, accompanied by Shen Linxi's shadow, listening to her voice in his ears, he was really willing to go on like this all the time.
However, when her mobile phone rang, He Tianling's good dreams suddenly woke up. Seeing that Shen Linxi deliberately walked farther away to answer the phone, he sensitively thought, could it be her boyfriend? As soon as such a thought appeared, his heart fell into a low point again. Because it will make his already ethereal emotional fantasies more unattainable like a mirage.
When Shen Linxi finished the phone call and returned to He Tianling's side, he was trying his best to pretend to be calm to hide the depression in his heart. Shen Linxi didn't notice this, but just took him on and explained the school's culture to him.
But later, Shen Linxi found that He Tianling seemed to be a little absent-minded, so she thought that maybe he felt that most of the cultures in the school were like these, so he gradually lost interest. So she asked him if he was tired. Or that's all for today?
He Tianling didn't know how to answer for a while. His heart was extremely conflicted, how much he hoped that Shen Linxi could always be by his side, but the ruthless reality forced him to be reasonable. This painful feeling of powerlessness consumed his longing for her, and he just looked at her and didn't want to speak.
Shen Linxi looked at him, a little strange in his heart, why didn't he speak? However, she immediately said, "You don't want to work again, do you?" It doesn't matter, whenever you want to come here again, I'll accompany you! ”
Looking at Shen Linxi with a bright smile, He Tianling was very reluctant, but he had to squeeze out a smile, more precisely, a helpless and bitter smile.
He thanked Shen Linxi and said that next time he had time, he would invite Shen Linxi to go with him to some places of interest in Guangzhou. So, the two walked back to the east gate of the school, and when He Tianling came in the morning, he parked the car there.
He opened the car door, took out two gift bags from the back seat of the car, and handed them to Shen Linxi. He said: "Linxi, I won't buy anything for girls. This is what I went to the mall in the morning, and the sales lady recommended it, I hope you like it. ”
Shen Linxi looked at the two delicate large paper bags in front of her, her eyes widened and she was at a loss. She didn't expect He Tianling to buy herself a gift, and it was two big gift bags.
He Tianling looked at her cute expression and those wide-open eyes, and his originally dull mood suddenly improved. He smiled and took Shen Linxi's hand, put the handles of the two paper bags in her hand, and said, "I must accept my gift." ”
She glanced into the paper bag, but couldn't make out what the gift was. She returned the gift bag to He Tianling with a tangled face: "Thank you!" I appreciate your kindness. However, I really can't ask for a gift, you still ......"
However, without waiting for Shen Linxi to finish speaking, He Tianling put the gift bag in her hand again, and said without a beak: "Don't shirk again." I'll go first, and I'll call you later. After He Tianling finished speaking, he got into the car.
Shen Linxi frowned in frustration, but had to hurriedly wave goodbye to others. He Tianling looked at her embarrassed look and couldn't help but smile again. He waved at her, started the car, and quickly drove away.