Qing'er followed me into the carriage, and our car swayed towards the outside of Jinling City, Qing'er was cautious and restrained with me, not as relaxed as before, and she didn't dare to talk to me along the way.

It's me, I'm very relaxed, looking at the clouds in the sky and the flowers on the ground from time to time, and sometimes I will say a few words to her, Qing'er replied cautiously.

It took almost four days for the carriage to arrive at Jinling, but after arriving there, I found that the soldiers guarding at the foot of the mountain had changed people, and they were two strange soldiers.

I glanced at them quietly, and I could sort out who had replaced them.

I found that not only these two soldiers were replaced, but there were also some additional people around, so I didn't speak, let alone ask more, but took Qing'er up the mountain.

After Qing'er arrived at the mountain and saw the harsh environment around her, she asked in disbelief: "Miss, have you and Aunt Lin lived here for four months?" ”

I opened the door and asked in a whisper, "What, don't believe me?" I thought about it for a moment and said, "Do you believe I can last so long in such an environment?" ”

Qing'er immediately shook her head and said, "I didn't mean that. ”

I saw that she was carrying a lot of things, so I said, "All right, let's take them into the house first." ”

Qing'er immediately carried something into the house, there was no charcoal fire in it, the wind blew inside, and the flying snow foam rushed in, Qing'er hurriedly closed the door, she shivered with cold.

There are only two people left on this mountain, me and Qing'er, so I don't do housework anymore, all of it falls on Qing'er, if it is in Jinling, this bit of housework is nothing to Qing'er, but now it is different, no matter what she eats, she must do it herself, and no one will help, so she has a lot of work every day.

She was sick for only a month, and she was very uncomfortable that day, seeing that there were still two people's clothes to be washed outside, her face was yellow, and she was coughing constantly, and she was standing in the well full of ice, and she was a little shaky even lifting water, and when she had wasted a lot of energy to lift the water, I walked over to her and asked, "Is it uncomfortable?" ”

It's only been a month, where does Qing'er still have the appearance of the water spirit before, the bad weather here has tortured her face full of chilblains, her lips are chapped and white, and her clothes are just some coarse cloth clothes, but I, since she came, I don't do everything myself, I have gained a lot of weight, and my hands are much better than before, compared with her, it is two worlds apart.

In response to my question, Qing'er immediately shook her head and said, "Maybe it's a little cold." ”

Her hands, due to being soaked in cold water for a long time, were a little bent and deformed, and no matter how much work was done on the Jinling City side, it couldn't be as big as this side.

I looked at her haggard appearance like this, and said with a smile: "I can't compare with Jinling here, but it's hard for you." ”

Qing'er immediately replied: "It's not hard, this is what Qing'er should do." ”

I said, "Okay, if you feel uncomfortable, you can take a break, but I'll have to wear these clothes in a few days, and I'd better wash them sooner." I walked a few steps, and then I remembered something, and threw some sheets, pillowcases, and other things from my hand into the mountain of wooden barrels, and said, "There are still some here, and I will wash them all today." ”

I was about to turn around to leave, when Qing'er whispered behind me and asked, "Miss, isn't this sheet unused?" ”

I stopped, looked at her and asked, "It's been a long time, it smells." I paused for a few seconds and asked, "What?" Don't want to wash? ”

Qing'er hesitated twice, and whispered two words: "No ......" Her eyes fell on those clothes again, and her eyes were full of difficulty and weakness.

I said, "If you really don't want to do it, you can get out of here, and I'll have no problem." ”

Qing'er explained: "Miss, I really didn't mean that, I just felt a little uncomfortable today, I-"

I smiled and said, "I'm also uncomfortable, do you think I'm very leisurely every day except for eating fasting and reciting Buddha?" I pray for my dead child in front of the Bodhisattva every day, and I'm much more uncomfortable than you, am I? ”

When Qing'er heard my words, her face changed slightly, but soon, she lowered her head silently.

Looking at her like this, I continued to chuckle and said, "Okay, if you really don't want to wash it, then you can wash it for me, and how about you go and pray for me in front of the Bodhisattva?" ”

Qing'er's face was faintly pale.

Seeing that she didn't speak, I smiled more and more happily, lifted her low face and said, "You choose one." ”

She took a step or two back, Qing'er seemed to realize this, she burst into tears, knelt in front of me and said, "Miss, I, I,"

She hadn't said any more, and she was stuck on me.

I didn't understand why she suddenly knelt down for me, so I immediately squatted down and helped her up from the ground and said, "Okay, why are you kneeling down at me?" Get up, hurry up, have something to say. ”

Qing'er didn't get up, but continued to kneel on the ground and cry and said, "Miss, you forgive Qing'er, I'm sorry for you, I beg you." ”

She cried so loudly that no matter how I helped her up, she knelt on the ground and did not move, and I simply stopped helping her, but squatted with her, looked at her, and asked quietly, "Forgive you for anything, have you done anything to be sorry for me?" ”

Qing'er couldn't say a word, just cried, and those tears filled her entire face.

Seeing that she didn't speak, I smiled and asked, "Can't you say it, can you?" Since I can't say it, that's it. I slowly got up again, looked at her condescendingly, and when I turned around and was about to walk towards the house, Qing'er, who was kneeling on the ground, suddenly crawled towards me in a panic, hugged my legs, and cried and said: "The child is ordered by the husband, Miss, you should know that we who are maids have no choice, if I choose again, I will never do such a thing to you, you forgive me, please forgive me, Miss." ”

I stood there and didn't move, I didn't speak, Qing'er cried even more sadly, she said: "At that time, I didn't know that thing was the medicine that caused you to slip the tire, if I knew that it would cause you to do this, I wouldn't do it anyway, miss, I know that you must know about this matter, that's why your attitude towards me has changed so much during this time, I beg you, hit me and scold me, don't treat me with such an attitude." ”

I only felt that my hands and feet were cold and numb, and the blood was seeping to the top of my head, as if it was about to erupt, and I subconsciously muttered: "What Wang Zhizhi said is really true." ”

Qing'er cried when she heard Wang Zhizhi's three words, and she looked up at me.

I stood there and laughed twice, and then I chuckled lowly, holding my waist until I couldn't breathe, and for a long time, I glanced at Qing'er, and I didn't want to say anything, so I kicked her away from my feet, and turned around to walk in.

Qing'er shouted behind her: "Miss-"

I ignored her and went straight into the house, slamming the door hard.

Inexplicably, I felt very hot all over my body, I was a little restless, I walked around there, walked for a long time, I still felt that I was choked up and couldn't get out there. Later, I kept taking a deep breath, and when I pressed down for a long time, I rushed out again, grabbed Qing'er's shirt and gritted my teeth and asked, "Why, why do you all treat me like this?" In this world, I thought that the people who were most unlikely to betray me were you and Biyu, when the child was miscarried, I didn't think about you, I thought it was an accident, I really thought it was an accident, Wang Zhizhi told me all this, I didn't believe it. ”

I shook her body and said, "You know what? I don't believe it, I don't believe a word, I hope that all this you just told me is false, but I didn't expect that the person I trusted the most turned out to be the murderer of my child, how stupid am I, even at the last moment, I am still exculpating you, now I think about it is ridiculous, ridiculous! ”

Qing'er cried so much that she almost lost her breath.

I let her go again, stood up and took a few steps back, chuckling and said, "Yes, you are a maid, what choice can you have, isn't it all what he commands?" What's the use of killing you now? Will my child be able to come back? ”

I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and sneered, "Go back, from now on, we will never be friends again, and we will not have the slightest master-servant relationship." ”

I didn't pay any attention to Qing'er kneeling outside, and turned around and went into the house.

I rushed to the table to pour myself a glass of cold water, but before I could put the cold water in my mouth, I fell on the table and cried, my hands on my stomach.

It turns out that all this is true, it is all true, Wang Zhizhi did not lie to me without me.

I didn't expect that my child would die at the hands of my biological father, and it would be at his hands.

I don't know how long it took me to digest this, Qing'er didn't leave, she kept kneeling outside, kneeling all night, kneeling from night to dawn the next day.

When I opened the door and the frost and snow outside, I said to her, "Let's go down the mountain." ”

She knelt there and didn't move, her whole body was covered with snow, her lips were chapped, and her body was a little shaky.

At this moment, I didn't even have hatred, except for exhaustion or exhaustion, I leaned against the door and looked at her for a long time and said: "No matter how long you kneel there, we can't go back to the beginning, I have come to this point just to blame myself, even if I cut you a thousand times now, my child will not come back, I only hope that from now on, I will never see you again, and forever, you go back and tell him, I will never forgive him, including this child who was killed by his own hands." ”