Late at night.

On the forest path, Yang Qianqian helped Yu Luosheng to sit by the small lake.

Watch the leaves look beautiful in the faint moonlight, and watch the leaves slowly rip off......

"How's it going, are you comfortable?" Yang Qianqian asked with concern.

Yu Luosheng drank a little too much today, and he fell asleep when he was in the car just now.

The cool breeze blew, Yu Luosheng felt a lot more sober, and looked at Yang Qianqian, who was surrounded by birds, and felt a lot more comforted.

However, he was worried that the smell of alcohol on his body would smoke her, and although he wanted to hold her, he didn't do too much.

"Much better." Yu Luosheng nodded.

"Can you tell me about you? It's about you leaving home and not playing in the professional leagues. Yang Qianqian asked softly.

In the past few days, it can be said that Yang Qianqian's perception of Yu Luosheng has been completely subverted, she knows that he has played very well in competition, but she never thought that he would stand on the highest glory in the field of e-sports.

It's just that he doesn't go on for anything.

It can be seen that Lin Dong, Zhou Yan, Da Luo, and Xiaobei all have a love for e-sports that ordinary people can't understand and understand, and they must have laughed and shed tears countless times in the e-sports arena.

Yu Luosheng remained silent.

Yang Qianqian didn't ask much, just sat next to her and quietly accompanied her.

The lake is quiet and you can hear the sound of the water slowly being removed.

"I've been away from home for two years...... Gradually, Yu Luosheng's voice broke the silence, he looked at the lake and said, "That should be when I was just a freshman in high school......

"In the past two years, I haven't called home once. They don't know if I'm alive or dead, or where I am...

"In those two years, I was immersed in e-sports, and I only had that game in my eyes, and I didn't care about my family's feelings at all......"

"I don't know why I will become so insensitive, and I don't know why I only have a computer in my eyes, and I don't even want to communicate with others, I just want to use a keyboard and mouse to surpass and overcome."

"After losing that game, I was a lot more sober and all of a sudden I realized that I had nothing left. At that time, I didn't want to go anywhere, I just wanted to go home. ”

When he said this, Yu Luosheng stopped.

There was a feeling that was really hard to describe in words, and he clearly remembered that after getting off the plane, he felt as if he was dead, without any blood flow and heart beating.

He admits that he himself has become completely addicted to esports and cannot extricate himself.

Only through continuous victory and continuous transcendence can we satisfy our own heart, which is actually not fillable at all.

However, once it fails, it feels like the entire world has collapsed.

At that time, he regarded games as a belief and a spiritual pillar...... Bordering on a state of madness.

A few nights before the British event, Li Yun, my mother, who had not been in touch for two years, called.

Yu Luosheng didn't know where she found her contact information in the UK, and this call made him really cry.

He thought that he could support his life without family and affection, and he could face everything alone.

But when he said the last sentence to his mother Li Yun, he felt that the emotions that he had suppressed in his heart for two whole years were rushing out like a flood, and all the things in his mind were the appearance of his mother Li Yun, all of them were the appearance of his father, and the squeamishness of Yu Yu.

After being away from home for two years, but getting along with them for more than ten years, can this blood-dissolved feeling be completely dissipated and wiped out like that?

Mother Li Yun's story made Yu Luosheng's brain immersed in the electronic world completely sober.

A person who has a love and madness for esports and no other feelings is a walking corpse living in a virtual world

"During that time, I couldn't sleep, I had game hallucinations in my head, and I couldn't see anything when I took my eyes off the computer screen

When a person lives in the unreal, it is very, very scary.

"When I had a free medical check-up abroad, my spirit was abnormal...... Even, sometimes when I look at Da Luo and Lin Dong, I will have a very strange feeling. Yu Luosheng said bitterly.

"How so??" Yang Qianqian looked at Yu Luosheng in surprise.

"Addiction, it's as simple as that, just like a lot of young students will be addicted to a game. I sank into a deep, deep pit in the spiritual world that I had dug for myself, and I could never climb out again. ”

"So, you chose to go home?"

"And what about you now?"

"It's not much right now."

E-sports is also like a poison that eats away at the spirit.

At that time, Yu Luosheng was still very young and very young, and he had not formed a correct e-sports concept at all, with his extraordinary and super talent, he completely fell into it, relying on continuous wins and continuous wins to satisfy his meaningless heart.

"That'...... Will you lose that game in England because you want to go home? Yang Qianqian asked.

Yu Luosheng shook his head and said, "I'm fighting with all my might, that person is really strong." After losing, I left without telling them, because I didn't want them to know that my spiritual world was already a little confused about reality and virtuality, and I didn't want to tell them that if I continued to fight, it would only make me a madman. ”

"When I got home, I learned that my father was sick, and his liver disease was very serious, and it was in the past two years that he appeared." Yu Luosheng smiled miserably and said, "You are angry with me...... Originally, his liver was not good. He always had great expectations for me, the first time I got a perfect score in elementary school, the first time I won a trophy in the junior high school Olympiad, and I was admitted to high school with excellent grades. He urged me every day and asked me how I was studying every day...

From Yu Luosheng's description, Yang Qianqian can imagine the hope and sustenance of a father for his son......

It can be understood that when Yu Luosheng ran away from home for e-sports, how sad and angry his father would be.

"Forget it, forget it, don't talk about it......" Yu Luosheng shook his head, and the wine also sobered up a lot.

He didn't want to say too much.

He is not like Da Luo, Lin Dong, Zhou Yan, and Xiaobei, who do not have any fetters and concerns, and he does not have the kind of deep guilt that a conscientious father brings them after his father's love is like a mountain but he will take revenge.

Therefore, after losing that game, he told the Englishman that he would not touch T again, and when his father Yu actually forgave him, Yu Luosheng also promised this father that he would not touch professional e-sports again.

Because even Yu Luosheng himself knows that if he touches professional e-sports, he is a madman who will sink into the virtual world......

He needs this family, and even more so, a normal life to get himself out of the virtual shadow.

"Then when you can control yourself, will you fight again?" Yang Qianqian asked.

Yu Luosheng shook his head.

Even if he can control the spiritual world and be able to separate the virtual and the real well, he is likely to be holding a sharp knife and stabbing his father Yu Jing's liver directly with a sharp knife, which is no different from murdering his father.

I can't be so willful anymore, thinking about how hard he works every day, the pain when he is in the hospital bed.

Really, Yu Luosheng, who had already done something wrong, couldn't hurt him anymore.

Now he just wants to follow what Yu Jing said, finish college smoothly, find a stable job, and slowly take over the burden of the family from his mother Li Yun and father Yu Jing.

"They'll help me with what I'm not done, and that's okay." Yu Luosheng smiled slightly.

"Well, I just think you're so talented, it's a shame not to join the profession." Yang Qianqian said.

"It's a little bit, but so be it, I'll train with them and help them step into a higher realm." Yu Luosheng said.

"Well, too." Yang Qianqian nodded.

"Hehe, will you dislike me, a person who used to have nervous problems?" Yu Luosheng said jokingly.

"Then I can't blame you, it's still so young, there will always be some situations, today's children are not all kinds of rebellion, suicide, and loneliness, although you are immersed in the game and can't extricate yourself, but you have won a supreme glory in the honor of our country, which is actually really remarkable, I don't know if you are so powerful." Yang Qianqian said.

"Hey, that's good." Yu Luosheng laughed.

After chatting with Yang Qianqian for a while, Yu Luosheng was also in a much better mood.

In fact, Yu Luosheng only talked to Zhou Yan about the mental depression, and the second person to tell him was Yang Qianqian.

Yu Luosheng was very relieved that they could all understand themselves.

Although this sinking should have been slowly healed with the integration into life, considering the family, Yu Luosheng has no intention of entering the professional league.

He would silently watch the newly established LN team as they walked towards the real highest arena of the era of esports glory

Come on, Lin Dong, Xiaobei, Da Luo, Zhou Yan.

Without me, you can also step into the supreme hall of e-sports, and with your own regrets, win a world championship

There was a problem with the Y live broadcast, and this chapter was issued as an apology chapter, although Zhilu Dao couldn't make up for the time everyone spent on YY, but Uncle Chao still had to apologize to everyone. ）

(I promised you that there would be two more chapters, but I'm really tired and tired today, so I can only write one chapter, and staying up late to write it is estimated that it will be a perfunctory chapter, and I haven't eaten dinner yet, and my stomach really can't support it...... There's another chapter that I owe to you, and I'll make it up to you on Monday or Tuesday, okay? I hope you will continue to support our guild, the establishment of this LN guild has been prepared by our administrators countless overnight, from the l to the 9th, which is a bit hasty and immature. But it's like the LN team that Yu Luosheng just formed, it's still in the early stages, so I really hope you can give more encouragement, we will do better, I hope you settle in)