Chapter 150: Waiting for Love
The sky is empty and blue overhead, the green grass and wild flowers are under your feet, there are no crowded vehicles, no noisy crowds, just fresh air and undisturbed tranquility.
"Wow! It's so beautiful here! Nan, how did you discover this great place? As soon as Fang Zhiqi's feet landed, he jumped up happily.
Shangguan Nan smiled at the corner of his mouth, looked at the girl dancing in front of him, and felt that it was worth putting down his work and letting go of everything.
"Come, I'll take you to a good place!" Shangguan Nan stretched out a hand towards Fang Zhiqi.
Fang Zhiqi put his small hand into his big hand.
She loved the feeling of her little hands being wrapped in his big hands, and the feeling of holding hands with him and walking around freely.
Although it was not the first time to hold hands, every time the temperature came from the palm, her mood couldn't help but tremble.
When holding hands with Lao Qi, her heart was as calm as water, as if she was holding the hands of her family, she just felt at ease, but it didn't beat extraordinarily.
She knows that this is the difference between love and affection.
Shangguan Nan led Fang Zhiqi along the tree-lined path, twisting and turning, and came to a green garden that was thousands of miles long.
"What are these?" Looking at the herbaceous plants that looked the same, Fang Zhiqi asked suspiciously.
"It's lavender, and this is Lavender Manor. In three months, they will bloom and they will be even more beautiful then! ”
Fang Zhiqi squatted down and carefully studied these inconspicuous lavenders, "Wow! It turns out that lavender looks like this! But it doesn't bloom, so it's not very pretty. ”
Shangguan Nan looked at the green in front of him, recalling the scene when his mother brought him here when he was nine years old.
It was also this season, and the new leaves were blooming, and the appearance was not eye-catching, and he was tasteless about these inconspicuous lavenders at that time, but his mother was very interested.
He vaguely remembered his mother asking him, do you know what the flower language of lavender is?
He was only nine years old at the time and shook his head.
Mom said that the flower language of lavender is waiting for love. They are not beautiful until they bloom, and it is only in that season that they will bloom brilliantly. If you want to see their beauty, you can't be in a hurry, you must wait slowly, just like love, you can't be in a hurry. So there is this flower language called waiting for love.
He brought Fang Zhiqi here today, in fact, he also wanted to tell her that he wanted her to wait for him, and wanted to probe her heart.
"Yes! So at this time, no one comes to see it, and in July and August, tourists come from all over the world, and many couples come here to take wedding photos! Shangguan Nan's face was immersed in memories.
When I was nine years old, I wanted to see the lavender bloom with my mother again, but that wish never came true. In June, my mother left in a car accident.
Twenty-two years have passed, and every July or August, he does not dare to come here, afraid to recall the past.
However, today he brought Fang Zhiqi here, but he was more looking forward to the fact that in July and August, Fang Zhiqi could also come here with him to enjoy the blooming of lavender and harvest their love.
"That must be beautiful! When I was a child, I always wanted to see the lavender bloom, and it seemed that I would have to come back in three months. Smelling the faint fragrance of grass leaves, Fang Zhiqi looked forward to it.
"Okay, let's come back in three months!" Shangguan Nan nodded, "Qi, do you know the flower language of lavender?" ”
Fang Zhiqi stood up, raised his head slightly, and looked at the man in front of him, surprised in his heart.
The president of Rili Wanji also understands the language of flowers?
Without waiting for Fang Zhiqi to answer, Shangguan Nan said it.
"Its flower language is waiting for love! Ki, do you think I can wait for your love? Some time ago, you secretly went to see Xu Tingsheng again. I know he's been in your heart for years, and it's impossible to erase it for a while, but I just want to know, Ki, do you love me? I want your heart, your true love, not just your body! Ki, do you love me? ”
In the end, he repeated it again, and after speaking, he stared at Fang Zhiqi with burning eyes.
Fang Zhiqi looked at Shangguan Nan in a daze, if she hadn't heard these words with her own ears, she wouldn't have known that Shangguan Nan wanted her heart and love, not just her body.
At this time, a small voice in his heart was saying: Tell him, don't wait, she loves him, and her heart has long belonged to him.
But just as she was about to speak, Gu Panpan's face popped out of her head again, Fang Zhiqi immediately stopped.
After coming back to her senses, she suddenly realized that she was deviating more and more from the principles in her heart, and she didn't say that as long as Gu Panpan found the happiness that other men brought her, she would agree to Shangguan Nan.
But last time Shangguan Nan disappeared for a few days, Gu Panpan was so anxious that he didn't know what to do, and that kind of love that went deep into the bone marrow would not dissipate half of it because of other men.
Now he is still Gu Panpan's husband, and she should draw a dividing line with Shangguan Nan, no matter how good he is, no matter how good he is, it is not something she can imagine.
A family man, even if he loves him again, he can only press it in the depths of his heart, and he can only say to the stars in the sky when he dreams back at midnight, 'Shangguan Nan, I love you!' But no matter what, you can't express your love so blatantly, let alone promise him.
During this time, the word 'morality' reminded her like an alarm bell, monitoring her, and making her tighten her emotions from time to time to avoid unscrupulous spread.
Therefore, for Fang Zhiqi, she is painful, and the contradiction of wanting to love but not being able to love is rampant in her heart, disturbing her uneasy.
"Did you bring me here to see these unopened lavenders?" Fang Zhiqi didn't dare to look at Shangguan Nan's fiery eyes anymore, so he quickly looked away and changed the topic.
Shangguan Nan's expectant face suddenly drooped, and every time he talked about this topic, Fang Zhiqi always avoided it, or changed the topic. At first, he thought that in Fang Zhiqi's heart, there was no place for him.
But sometimes when he saw her eyes with love and heard those words of concern, he believed that Fang Zhiqi loved him.
However, today, seeing Fang Zhiqi's silence again, Shangguan Nan's heart stabbed fiercely.
It turns out that she doesn't love him, and the person she loves is still Xu Tingsheng! It turned out that it was all his self-righteousness before, and even if he was doing the most intimate things with her, he still couldn't replace the person she loved the most.
Fang Zhiqi didn't know that her silence had brought a misunderstanding to Shangguan Nan, if she really knew that a simple 'I love you' could solve his later worries and the conflict between the two, then she would never be silent at this moment.
The man beside him didn't say anything for a long time, Fang Zhiqi turned his head suspiciously, and saw him looking ahead in a daze, his eyes were far away, Fang Zhiqi coughed twice.
Shangguan Nan suddenly woke up, settled down, glanced at Fang Zhiqi, and looked sad, "Let's go eat something!" ”
With that, he turned around and walked towards another path.
Fang Zhiqi hummed lightly, followed Shangguan Nan's footsteps, and walked out of the lavender manor.
The intense sunlight poured down on the human body with a hint of scorching heat.
After a while, a low Western-style house came into view, with yellow exterior walls, red tiles, and several large locust trees around the house, which would surely be shady even in the middle of summer in July.
Fang Zhiqi followed Shangguan Nan into the house, and the feeling of coolness instantly hit his body, followed by a smell of barbecue.
A young beauty greeted her warmly, "Hello! Welcome! The sharp eyes looked Shangguan Nan's dress up and down, and then, the smile suddenly bloomed like fireworks in the sky, "Sir, there is a private room inside!" Need special service? ”
After speaking, the soft body came up.
Shangguan Nan took a step back, successfully dodged the woman's embrace, fanned the turbid air in front of his nose, his face was cold, he glanced at Fang Zhiqi, who was blocked by the woman, and stretched out his hand.
Fang Zhiqi fell into Shangguan Nan's arms.
Seeing this, the woman left with a sense of humor.
Seeing that Fang Zhiqi's face was calm, without any abnormality, Shangguan Nan felt a sullen feeling in his heart.
"What are you doing so far away from me? Do you like to see other women stick to me? ”
Fang Zhiqi rolled his eyes, this is really a trick for no reason! I wanted to say that she hated that woman very much, but when the words came to her lips, she swallowed again. Say it or not, what's the point. A man who doesn't belong to him in the first place, why should he make a jealous look.
"What does it matter to me that you attract bees and butterflies?"
She was inconsistent, but after Shangguan Nan heard this, her sullenness turned into anger.
"Good! Since it's none of your business, that's good! Shangguan Nan said coldly.
As if to vent his anger and be unwilling, after Shangguan Nan walked into the private room, he immediately called the service lady.