"I didn't dare to tell her."

Some things are just to make the family worry in vain, Ji Ninghao would rather be on the side, enduring the danger that he may die at any time, and the fear of losing his relatives at any time.

Since he was a child, the special reasons of the family have made him have to support this family, he is already very tired, but he does not dare to say it, if he wants to say it, he is afraid that he will really not be able to persevere.

Ji Ninghao lied to himself, deceiving himself over and over again that he was "capable", just like his father told him before he died: "Ning Hao is so capable, he will definitely take good care of his younger brother." ”

That's what his mother told him before he committed suicide, and he promised them that "he will take care of his brother" without knowing anything, but he never thought about who would take care of him.

He was just a kid at that time.

Gu Bei held his mobile phone and hesitated for a long time, not knowing whether to tell Heng Yan or not, he was very happy now, so why bother him again.

Everyone has someone in their hearts who wants to protect, Ji Ninghao wants to protect Ji Mingyu, and Gu Bei wants to protect Hengyan.

When Ji Mingyu woke up, he couldn't help but laugh self-deprecatingly when he saw Gu Bei's stinky face: "In the end, I was saved by you." ”

Although Gu Bei has a big temper, he is also measured, and he knows that it is immoral for him to quarrel with a patient who may die at any time, so he tried his best to ease his voice and said, "You...... Are you okay? ”

Ji Mingyu sat up with difficulty and said, "What can I do." ”

Yu Yang next to him had enough tears, and said in a slightly hoarse voice: "You have a good rest." ”

"Coming back?"

That's it, Yu Yang doesn't take the initiative to go to Ji Mingyu, and it is always difficult for Ji Mingyu to discover his existence.

"Hmm." Yu Yang's voice was a little choked, his swollen eyes were a little sour and painful, and he stepped forward and pulled Ji Mingyu's quilt up.

"Did you have a good time? The scenery abroad is very good. ”

"It's no different from here." Yu Yang rubbed his eyes vigorously and looked at Ji Mingyu with a calm look and said, "You get better quickly, I found a shop, the old couple has been open for more than forty years, and I heard that the taste has not changed." ”

"Hmm." The illness had almost worn down the aura on Ji Mingyu's body, and his whole person looked much softer under the light of the ward, as if a little old child could bully him.

"I'm going to the bathroom." Yu Yang turned around and hurriedly went out, he was afraid that if he stayed any longer, he was about to faint with pain.

"Please." Ji Mingyu looked at Gu Bei and said, "Please, don't tell Hengyan." ”

Gu Bei didn't know how to face Ji Mingyu's pleading gaze, such a man full of anger suddenly became docile like a cat, he was a little overwhelmed, and responded to Ji Mingyu in a panic, Gu Bei also ran out, but when he pushed open the door of the ward, he saw Yu Yang squatting on the ground and crying with his knees.

Doesn't it mean that if you cry too much, you can't cry anymore?

But why can't these tears stop like the faucet that opens the valve?

Yu Yang didn't know how to face Ji Mingyu, he fantasized about growing old with him, but why did God make such a joke?

At the time of the surgery, the doctor said that "the probability of living for 10 years is 1 percent", and at that time, he thought that living for 10 years was too short, and now the doctor tells him that he can only live for 1 month, and he thinks that it would be better if he could live for 10 years.

Those doctors are like the Grim Reaper with a long scythe, who can decide a person's life and death with a single word.

Yu Yang didn't want Ji Mingyu to die.

"When I gave him the kidney, I thought about dying together, and dying on the operating table together." Yu Yang said to himself in a low voice, as if he was talking to Gu Bei, who had just gone out, and as if he was talking to himself.

Gu Bei leaned against the wall and looked at this person quietly, in fact, he felt quite pitiful when he looked at it like this. I was afraid that Wen Han would catch a cold here, so I let Wen Han go back first, if he hadn't let him go back, maybe Wen Han would have been able to understand Yu Yang's feelings better here.

The feeling of loving someone but not you.

"I, Yu Yang, am not afraid of death, I am afraid of Ji Mingyu's death." Yu Yang wiped his tears, but the tears fell more, "I have been with him for many years, he takes care of me like a big brother, but he has never given his heart to me, I have always understood, I just pretended not to know." ”

"Then Hengyan appeared." Yu Yang looked at Gu Bei with an ugly face and said, "Your Hengyan appeared, he took away the person I had loved for so many years." ”

"Ji Mingyu doesn't love you, how can you say that Hengyan took away Ji Mingyu?" Gu Bei looked at Yu Yang's miserable appearance, although he didn't have a good feeling, but after all, he couldn't get rid of those vicious words like before.

"He took Hengyan to see Ji Ninghao, he took Hengyan home, and his mouth was the same as chanting the scriptures." Yu Yang shouted with red eyes, "I like him so much, I've been with him for so many years, doesn't it mean that there is a principle of first come and come first?" Ji Mingyu should like me, not Hengyan. ”

Yu Yang's words reminded Gu Bei of what Wen Han told him before, but love is such a thing, where to talk about what order, it itself is a vicious and beautiful existence.

"When I first knew that Ji Mingyu was going to have a kidney replaced, I was even a little selfishly happy, because I could save him, but Hengyan couldn't." Yu Yang buried his head in his knees and buried it deeper.

"I tied Ji Mingyu to me for this shameful reason, and after the operation, I said that no matter what happened, he must stand with me, Ji Mingyu agreed, I thought I got him."

Yu Yang's low sentence "I thought I got him" was particularly pitiful.

"He secretly went to the south to see him, he went behind my back several times, I thought he was still in contact with Hengyan, so I followed him, I secretly followed him to the south, but I saw Hengyan with others, talking and laughing, Ji Mingyu hid there and looked at him secretly, but never stepped forward to say hello, that heartless eye obviously liked him so much."

"So I think why, why can Hengyan get along with someone else after breaking up, while he and I are being tortured on the sidelines, and the torture is going crazy!"

Gu Bei leaned against the wall and looked at Yu Yang like this, love makes people blind, it turned out to be true.

"But you can't hurt Hengyan because of this." Gu Bei would not erase the wrong things he did because he took pity on Yu Yang, and Yu Yang had never seen Hengyan's scarred appearance, so he was not qualified to criticize Hengyan at will.

If anything, it can only be said that they are all victims of this failed relationship.

"You know what?" Yu Yang tried hard to hold back his tears, albeit in vain, "When Ji Mingyu first met Hengyan, he had a different look in his eyes when he was eating with me, he said that he met an interesting person, and the appreciation in his eyes at that time made me jealous, the first time I saw Ji Mingyu like this." ”

"You say it's funny or not, being together is a matter of two people, and it only takes one person to break up. Ji Mingyu told me that he couldn't be with me that night, and he said that he had found someone he liked, so he couldn't play love games with me. Yu Yang smiled bitterly with red eyes, "In his eyes, the two of us are just playing games." ”

Gu Bei sighed, stretched out his hand and wanted to pull up Yu Yang, who was sitting on the ground: "If you don't love it, you can't force it." ”

"Can't what I did for him touch his heart at all?"

Yu Yang broke free of Gu Bei's hand and sat on the ground with self-abandonment, like a foolish child.

"I lost, I threw in the towel." Yu Yang said in frustration what he had not dared to say for so many years, this relationship, he lost too completely.

Ji Ninghao pushed open the door and looked at the two people at the door and asked, "Why are you staying here?" ”

After listening to Yu Yang's complaints, Gu Bei waved his hand at Ji Ninghao with a headache and said, "It's late, I have to go home, there is still a scene to shoot tomorrow." ”

Ji Ninghao looked at Yu Yang who was sitting on the ground, and he couldn't say the feeling in his heart, the traditional emotional outlook in his heart had been broken on the day he married Zou Xi, he really felt that everything was not a matter for him now, and it was his business who Ji Mingyu wanted to be with, maybe it should have been like Ji Mingyu said before——————

He's grown up and can already let go.

He had always felt that he had tried to be a good brother, but lately he had been thinking that maybe his brother was not so competent.

"Let's go inside." Ji Ninghao's voice was full of tiredness, he looked at Yu Yang and said softly, "I'm going back too, so I'll trouble you to take care of him." ”

Yu Yang was silent for a long time before he let out a low "um".

Ji Ninghao left, Gu Bei also left, the whole ward seemed empty, Yu Yang stood at the door and wiped away his tears before pushing the door in.

"I'm sorry."

Sorry sounded in unison in the ward, Ji Mingyu was stunned, suddenly laughed, and said first: "I'm sorry, I quarreled with you last time." ”

"I should have said I'm sorry, if it weren't for my willfulness, I wouldn't have made you angry." Yu Yang sat on the edge of Ji Mingyu's bed, looked down at his folded hands and said softly.

"Are people from abroad good-looking?" Ji Mingyu looked at him and asked with a smile.

Yu Yang's nose was a little sour, and his eyes were red again: "Well, it's good-looking." ”

"Does it look good with me?"

"Much better looking than you."

Yu Yang smiled, and tears fell down.

Ji Mingyu pretended not to see Yu Yang's tears and said: "If there is something good-looking, just follow it, after so many years, it's very tiring to live." ”

"Tired of what." Yu Yang snorted, it's good that you're by your side, I'll be tired when you're not there, "It's not that I don't want it, Ji Mingyu, don't think that I can't find a partner other than you." ”

"Wipe your eyes when you look for a partner in the future, don't look for a bastard, I can't even beat him for you."

Ji Mingyu's words pierced Yu Yang's heart like a needle: It's you who has always been a bastard, why are you embarrassed to let me not find a bastard.

"You have to get better quickly, help me check the gates, I don't have a good eye, otherwise I wouldn't have taken a fancy to you in the first place."

"Well, it's definitely going to get better."

Yu Yangqiang looked at Ji Mingyu with tears in his eyes and said, "You sleep for a while, I'll go buy you some dinner." ”

Why did I like you in the first place?

As a result, I am the one who is in such pain now.

Ji Mingyu, I want to lie on the hospital bed more that I am not you, maybe you can feel more guilty in this way, instead of being so at ease as you are now.