I was born in the autumn of the last year of the Great Cause, at the end of the Sui Dynasty. Father and mother are the descendants of wealthy families,

Supporting the Li family in Taiyuan seized the country.

Mother once said, when I caught the week of the full moon, the table full of playthings, only picked a ruler to catch, except for my grandmother, the family is very happy, thinking that I will grow up upright, I got the name "straight" mother gave me a nickname, called me "Zhi'er" right as the hope of the elders, hoping that I can grow up smart.

Compared to my second brother, who is one year younger than me, I am completely the model that adults want, and I am the heir of my father and elders, and the eldest son and grandson who are most suitable to inherit the family business.

Everyone, the memories of this life start when I was a child, and when did my memories begin?

Think about it, it's not my father's generous palm, nor my mother's warm embrace, but two women.

In the words of the next person, they are my father's concubines, in the broken language of the maids, they are fox spirits, when I was a child, I often heard my grandfather tell stories about mountain monsters, fox spirits are monsters that can harm people, I remembered the words of the girl, and for a long time after that, I paid attention to the every move of the two monsters, which really made me see a lot of interesting places.

The monster will make up nonsense about my father, and then my father will reprimand my mother, and the monster will cry to my father, and then my father will hold her and coax her, and the monster will give me snacks to eat, and then coax me to call her aunt, if I don't scream, but throw the snacks in her face, my father will always happen to pass by, and then the one who will be scolded will always be me......

One night after that, when my father pointed a sword at the young me, my mother knelt on the ground and begged for mercy, the distinguished guest stood aside with a smile, and in countless pairs of cold eyes, I seemed to understand whether I understood or not, and it was not only monsters that would harm people, but also many others.

Later, my mother escaped from the mansion with my second brother, and after several turnovers, I changed my surname, lost my name, picked up the nickname that my mother gave me, and had a new name.

Actually, I prefer the word "wisdom" to "straight", I want to be smart, very smart, and the last thing a smart person needs is to be upright.

Settled in a small mountain village, the rice is very hard to eat, the night is very cold, there is no dim sum, and of course there is no night pot, but these troubles are all after the mother gave birth to her little sister. becomes insignificant.

Since I was a child, I have been looking forward to having a younger sister, who is quiet and quiet, who can read books with me, paint with me, and accompany me alone, instead of being like a second brother, climbing trees and climbing over walls like a wild monkey, I don't hate my second brother, but I prefer my little sister.

I like to lie on her stomach and watch her sleep, hoping that one day she will wake up and suddenly she will speak, and then I can teach her to read and write, and take her to herd cattle.

Spring, summer, autumn and winter, this is four years, and when I was as tall as my mother's big broom, she still couldn't speak, only grinned and smirked, and drooled at the people who fed her.

People in the village say that the little sister is a fool, the mother will secretly hold the little sister and cry, the second brother often fights with the children in the village, I know, they all believe that the younger sister is a fool, only I don't believe it.

Xiaomei is not a fool, she just hasn't grown up yet.

The book says that sincerity is spirituality, so I silently make a wish every day before going to bed, hoping that my sister can grow up as soon as possible.

Then, suddenly, one day, my little sister was able to speak, and I taught her to read and write, as I had hoped since I was a child, and I never tired of it.

My little sister is getting better, and my mother and second brother are very happy, but I think the one who is the happiest should be me. Because many years later, many things happened, and the one I remember most clearly was still young

My sister called me "brother" for the first time, and that was probably the happiest thing in my chaotic childhood.

Life gradually got better, our three brothers and sisters grew up day by day, and the smiles on my mother's face became more and more, and I made a decision, "Mother, I want to enter Beijing." ”

My mother said that she wanted me to stay, not to go to Beijing to catch the exam, the county exam has passed, and I will run a sī school in the village and town in the future with the identity of a township tribute, and I can live a stable life.

I knew she was worried about something, but I had made up my mind, and my mother couldn't persuade me, so she only told me to be careful in everything, after all, I still have some debts on my back.

Saying goodbye to my mother and little sister, I took my second brother and went to the capital, this road without turning back.

One day many years later, I regretted that if I had stayed and An An had been a teacher, maybe there would not have been so many story students later, and Xiaomei would not have met the person who changed her life.

I have some chances, with some means, so that when the dynasty Du Xiang took a fancy to me, recommended me to study in Guozijian, that is the highest school in the Tang Dynasty, the holy land that everyone in the world yearns for, I didn't expect to be able to study here, and even among them, but it can't be seen.

Not long after I entered the Guozijian, my mother and little sister followed, which is ridiculous, just when I was calculating revenge and collecting debts, my mother and sister were cornered by the mayor of a small town in a place and left their hometown.

At the beginning, it was not smooth, and dealing with those powerful children was even more difficult than I imagined, just because of my poor background, which made it difficult for me to move forward in this prosperous Chang'an City.

When did it start to change, I think it's because of that enigmatic woman.

I was rescued by her when I was in the most difficult time of my life, she took me in, healed me, and taught people to be sophisticated when I was in a daze, although I had never even seen her appearance, I still couldn't help falling in love with her, but I have always been very aware that it was not the love of men and women, what made me mí, just a sustenance in my imagination, a piece of driftwood firmly grasped when I was slapped by the powerful bō waves.

Guozijian is a place where learning is supreme, with her teaching, coupled with scheming and skill, if you want to get ahead, in fact, it is not difficult, I am very good at taking advantage of others' good impression of me, I have made a lot of friends, whether it is true or not, I don't care about using it, I will not be soft and I don't feel indebted, after all, when climbing up, who cares if the stairs under my feet will be stepped on?

The little sister will go to Guozijian to study, it is an accident for me, and it is reasonable, it is I who watch her grow day by day, how beautiful she is in and out, I know better than anyone else, I don't want her to step into Chang'an, there is too much dirt hidden under this bright land, but this is her life, I can't scare it.

So I watched her walk in, step by step into the whirlpool of power, and all I could do was protect her from harm and guide her growth.

I have never slackened my attachment to hatred, and with the continuous in-depth investigation, the mystical obstacles have been revealed layer by layer, and the truth of the old things has been laid out in front of me, and I have not hesitated to choose revenge.

The woman I fell in love with said that I am an extremely contradictory person, on the one hand is absolutely sanity, on the other hand is absolute madness, she is right, knowing that one step forward is an abyss, but I still haven't looked back.

When the dust settled, I looked at the man who had pushed our mother and son into the fire pit mercilessly, bowing his head before me, haggard, old, and gloomy, and I was extremely satisfied.

And after the satisfaction, there is a deep tiredness, because I know that all this is far from over.

The events of the afterlife caught everyone off guard, murders, killers, prisons, betrayals, and in that fire that had been arranged a long time ago, I became a dead man.

It's more brutal than real death, but Lou can't resist it, it's the price of revenge.

I don't want to say that it is my retribution, so that I am detained in the darkest corner under the prosperity, clearly knowing that the living are suffering for me, and I can only be a bystander, even if the heartache is incomparable, I can only look at the little sister who suffers the most from the distance on the paper.

Watching her follow the ambitious man.

watched her leave Chang'an and go to find her mother and second brother.

watched her return to the capital and marry into the royal family in style.

Looking at her, she was bound in the web that the man had painstakingly wove together.

Looking at her painstaking management, endure humiliation, for me, for him.

It wasn't until one day, when the prison door that had blocked me for ten years opened, and the little girl appeared in front of me as a fù person.

"Big brother." She looked at me and couldn't stop crying.

"Xiaoyu, you've grown up."

Everyone knows that the most important woman in my life is not the woman who once made me fall in love deeply, nor is it the mother who worked hard to raise me, but the little girl who I watched by her many years ago, hoping that she would grow up quickly.

And the most important person she is now is no longer me.

I hated the man named Li Tai, and even though I admired his sinisterity, coldness, and ruthlessness, I still hated him for stealing my sister.

I had already seen through that he had arranged everything, and borrowed the emperor's compromise to let the little sister come to see me in advance, in order to test his weight in her heart, in my opinion, this is a very unconfident performance, which makes me scoff, but I can see the unconfident side of the self-respecting and arrogant man, and I am very happy to fulfill him.

I didn't think I could convince my little sister to leave with me, bystander Qing, I am her eldest brother, how can I not know what she has in her heart, and only the foolish man who is also in the love network and can't extricate himself will think that she will really leave him and go with me.

On the day of separation, I successfully let my little sister come to the south of the city, got into my carriage, and sent me out of the city, but refused her to keep me, because even if she was not with me, I would go to that place for the sake of her, and for the little niece whom I had never met.

In the tears of the little sister, I changed the carriage and left, before leaving, "Ding instructed the coachman to continue walking away from the capital, until someone caught up with them."

I rode the horse in a good mood, ten years of seclusion, let me endlessly yearn for the breath of freedom, take the woman who has been willing to follow me for many years, slowly take the horse forward, far away, hear the sound of the horse's hooves behind me, and the roar of the man, I can't help laughing, laughing until tears welled up. @。