Tuo Lifeng is guilty of Yang Ji. Although he can excuse himself with a thousand reasons. At that time, he was just frightened, so he didn't stand up.

He was too young and he was scared. He simply had no power to protect her.

But what's the use of saying more? He chose to be silent when she was so helpless, what a brave and upright person he usually looked, but he didn't dare to stand up and admit his mistakes, and she had to bear everything.

Tuo Lifeng didn't dare to recall that scene after many years, she was weak and small, no matter how much P beat and scolded, she still stared at her cold eyes and said: I didn't.

For a whole week after that, she didn't cry or make a fuss, just looked out the window in a daze, and the whole person was like a plant that had been drained of water, without the slightest hope.

Then she transferred to Class 6, and there was a gap between them, and he almost forgot that they had also gotten along with each other like "years of quiet time".

He felt very sorry for her after knowing that she had such a pungent mother, whether she accepted his distress or not, he felt that he should stand up and help her.

There is no shortage of money at home, and the subsidy is his pocket money every time, so he took the initiative to stand up and give her the place.

Yang Ji's mother said with a flattering smile while arranging her messy hair: Thank you for this classmate, Yang Ji, don't thank your classmate yet.

Yang Ji bit her lower lip tightly, tears rolled in her eyes, and then bowed deeply to him and said thank you!

He couldn't remember how many people were there, and he didn't have the pride and aura of being a benefactor. But she didn't believe him, he believed in others, and he saw him as so hypocritical.

Years later, he realized that the way he loved was wrong, so he hurt himself completely.

Yang Ji knew that Tuo Lifeng was secretly learning to play basketball, and in order to repay his favor, she pulled Liu Kui to get up an hour earlier to accompany him to practice.

That time was almost the happiest time for Tuo Feng.

Although Liu Kui is a girl, as a combination of a sports committee member and a female man, she is not to be outdone when she plays basketball. Sure enough, as Yang Ji said, playing basketball is a group activity, and it is not enough for you to train alone.

He was simply abused by Liu Kui at the beginning, and Yang Ji took his clothes to encourage and cheer him on, so that he would not be miserable in the mind of being abused by girls.

Slowly, he was on par with Liu Kui step by step, until he could completely reverse and mistreat Liu Kui.

He was full of energy every day for a month, and he slept with a basketball in his arms at night, hoping to wake up early and go to training.

In those days, he also changed his coat very diligently, and he was always afraid that Yang Ji would smell his sweat when he held his coat and hated himself.

His mother was a little strange when she was doing the laundry: "Son, have you changed your coat again?" This should be able to be worn again. ”

"No, it doesn't smell at all, Mom remember to add more laundry detergent." After he finished speaking, he happily took the basketball out of the house.

Zhao Yizhi had never seen his son so happy, and he was suddenly a little happy in his heart, and habitually instructed him to "study hard" and put the clothes in the washing machine. The son has grown up and knows that love is clean.

They practiced secretly like this for a month, and Liu Kui said that this was a secret training camp they gave him, but Tuo Lifeng felt that it was a secret between him and her.

That day, he beat Liu Kui 11-3, Liu Kui wiped his sweat and said angrily: If you don't fight, you can leave the school. Yang Ji, give me saliva to drink.

"Shh~" Tuo Lifeng looked at Zhang Yangji, who was already asleep squatting on the ground, and motioned for Liu Kui to be quiet, and then he walked in silently, and saw that she was still frowning when she fell asleep, the breeze was blowing, and the morning light hit her white face, which looked so good.

At that moment, he suddenly felt the urge to go up and hug her.

Liu Kui ran up from behind and shouted, "Zhang Yangji, it's time for class, you're going to be late!" ”

Then, she was so frightened that she sat on the ground, and the saliva in her mouth ran down his coat.

Hahaha! Liu Kui burst into laughter again.

He asked her, "Why are you still frowning when you're asleep?"

He reached out to pull her. She wiped her saliva with her hand in embarrassment and stood up on her own: "Yes, I'm sorry, I'll wash your coat and return it to you." ”

He snatched his coat away: "No, I have a washing machine at home." ”

After that, he kept the coat in his closet and never washed it again. And that night, he dreamed that he kissed Yang Ji, who was sleeping soundly, gently, softly, and that feeling was incomparably beautiful.

The next day, the alarm clock didn't wake him up, and he woke up drippingly, and there was a liquid on his panties that made him ashamed.

He blushed and threw the panties in the trash, and hurried to school.

That was the first time he was late, and the first time he was so nervous that he was suffocated when he saw Zhang Yangji's face.

His efforts and sweat were not in vain, and soon the school ushered in the basketball league, he won Zou Jun as the captain during the selection, and led the 4th class to win the third place, and the scenery was unlimited for a while.

Basketball became something he loved and sometimes he had to slap twice against the wall during recess.

Just scrupled and beat indiscriminately, and finally something happened.

At breakfast time, there was no one in the classroom, and he showed his restless side over and over again with a basketball slap to the blackboard.

He doesn't like to be locked up in this classroom every day, and he doesn't like to listen to these teachers beating and scolding students every day. He usually pretends to be deaf, but he can't change the status quo.

He also wants to roar, he also wants to scream, he also wants to sleep in class, read comics and play games, but these behaviors seem so conflicting compared to the future future, and he doesn't have the courage to go crazy in his bones.

The more he thought about it, the more irritated he became, and then the ball came out of his hand and jumped onto the podium. There was a cracking sound of "popping". The textbook next to it was wet.

Yang Ji knew that the head teacher P hated herself, but she didn't expect that she would hate herself to such an extent. She didn't know who got the broken cups and the wet textbooks on the podium, but she was on duty today, so she counted everything on her head.

P said sarcastically: "Don't do it, don't dare to admit it, today is your duty, and you will definitely be the last one to stay." Because you were vain before, I had a fight with your mother, and you held a grudge, right, so you just retaliated against me like this, you kid is scheming enough. ”

"Hmph, I'm not as ruthless as you, teacher." Yang Ji tilted her head and looked directly at her.

Okay, you, p saw that she dared to talk back, so he slapped him,

"You used to be just vain, and now you're lying and contradicting the teacher, it seems that I have to teach you a good lesson."

Once, twice, three times, Yang Ji silently counted the slaps she gave herself, a full eight slaps, there were blood stains on the corners of her mouth, P stopped, but her mouth still didn't spare her: "You still don't admit it?" Do you pay for my cup and book? You selfish little bunny. ”

"I didn't." Yang Ji still looked at her with a red and swollen face, not crying or making trouble, but her expression was silent: "It's not what I did, why should I admit it." ”

There were more than 40 students in the class watching this farce, and no one spoke, and everyone was used to being the most loyal audience.

"He knew in his own heart who did it. P teacher, you hate me, I also know, I will not compensate you for books and cups, you can fire me. Yang Ji used her last bit of courage to say, no matter how much she would be scolded by her mother when she went back, she would admit it, she really couldn't stay here.

Mom always said that she had to endure it, she had to study hard, so that she could have a chance to fight for her in the future, and to escape from the environment of these people, but when she suffered so much humiliation and still couldn't see the slightest hope, she really wanted to die.

"Teacher, it's really not Yang Ji's doing, she's always been with me." Liu Kui clenched his fists and stood up and said, "It's a big deal, I'll compensate you." ”

"Teacher, let's use the class fee to buy it for you." Hu Xiaoling also stood up, before the figure in front of her left was about to stand up: "I went to eat at that time, maybe it was done by other classmates." ”

Zhang Yangjiao didn't understand why Hu Xiaoling spoke for herself, she had always been unaccustomed to and didn't care about anyone except Tuo Feng, but after school, Yang Xiaoxi immediately knew the answer.

One morning was almost spent in a trance, and Liu Kui asked her: Do you hate p?

Yang Ji shook her head and said: She is not worthy.

Not a word has been said since.

When school was over, Zou Jun suddenly ran over and said, you wait and then leave, I have something to tell you.

Yang Ji was not in the mood to eat, so she sat on the desk and watched Zou Jun silently close the door, and only she was left in the classroom, Hu Xiaoling, Tuo Lifeng and Zou Jun.

Zou Jun pulled Tuo Lifeng down from the back row of the desk: "Tu Lufeng, if you don't want people to know unless you don't do it, you yourself tell Yang Ji whether you did it, why didn't you stand up at that time?" If Hu Xiaoling hadn't kept pulling me and not letting me say it, I would have tore your hypocritical face apart in front of the whole class today. ”

"What does my business have to do with you?" Tuo Feng broke free from his restraints: "If you have the ability, go tell the teacher now." ”

He was very cowardly and guilty, but it was not Zou Jun's turn to intervene, he thought about confessing everything to her, but he needed time and a better way. He never expected that when he fled the scene with a basketball, Hu Xiaoling and Zou Jun entered the classroom one step behind.

"Okay, do you really think I dare not say it? I'm going to go to the company right now and tell those teachers that you, a good student, are secretly playing basketball in the classroom and don't admit to doing bad things. ”

"Zou Jun, you forgot what you promised me, if you dare to tell the teacher, I will ignore you in the future." Hu Xiaoling stood aside and finally spoke.

"He's done this kind of thing, why do you still want to help him?" Zou Jun rubbed his head angrily, he always wanted to make this provincial girl happy, because she was different from other girls, she was born with a kind of eldest lady temperament, and she was very disdainful of them.

But she was different from that hypocrite of Tuo Feng, which made him very unwilling.

"You don't really want justice, do you, you just can't get used to seeing Tuo Feng being better than you, so you want him to make a fool of yourself. But he's just better than you, that's a fact. Hu Xiaoling said lightly.

"Who said I was jealous that he was better than me? He's just a hypocrite, he just behaves in front of the teacher every day, I haven't thought about justice, but Yang Ji is also my friend, I can't get used to you bullying her like this. Zou Jun said and looked at Yang Ji, wanting her to stand on his side.

"Forget it." Yang Ji said indifferently, none of these people wanted to help her at all, if she really couldn't get used to seeing her being bullied, why didn't anyone stand up when she was beaten.

What were they doing when she was so helpless?

"Does it make sense to say that now?"

"Yang Jie, I..." As soon as he wanted to explain, Yang Ji waved his hand and said, "From now on, I don't owe you anything." ”

Since then, Yang Ji has often had nightmares. There is also more and more time spent in a daze. I even tremble with fear when I see P.

Because of excessive nervousness and depression, her hives recurred, and her whole body would be red and swollen, painful and itchy in the middle of the night. She didn't want to tell anyone, not even her mother. She didn't dare to rinse under the faucet again, she didn't want to encounter the wind again.

Except for Liu Kui, who would chat with her until midnight every time to relieve the pain, she couldn't feel any warmth in this world.

She thought about dying more than once, but when she actually faced it, she was afraid. She bought a sharp pencil sharpener and slashed it across her arm, the pain waking her up. The gushing blood proved her weakness, and she lay on the table crying, she couldn't understand why she had to endure so much at such a young age.

Why hasn't Dad come back yet? Why does mom only scold herself? Why do teachers hate themselves so much?

What the hell did she have to do to keep her life from being so embarrassed.

When I went home from the National Day holiday, Yang Ji developed a high fever and fell seriously ill. During that time, she was drinking Chinese medicine to treat urticaria while taking hanging needles, and she was dizzy, and she didn't know how to get over.

She only remembered that she was supposed to be hospitalized for a month, and her mother insisted that the hospital should be discharged within a week.

The people in the hospital were unwilling, and her mother pushed her out of the hospital bed to her.

Also, staying in the hospital for one more day will cost more than 100 yuan in debt, and her mother was also forced out of poverty.

There was a lot of uproar in the hospital that day, all the patients and doctors came to see the excitement, and the doctors in charge of Yang Ji blocked the corridor and quarreled with her mother.

The content of the noise was unbearable, and she lay on the bed, receiving the contempt, sarcasm, amusement or sympathy of countless people. She doesn't feel embarrassed anymore, she's used to it.

It's just that she thinks that she won't even dare to get sick from now on.

In the midst of many eyes, she saw him again—Tuo Lifeng. He stood in the crowd with his mother in his arms, as if a look of pity swept over her, and his mother said, "What a good and unqualified person." ”

Then he walked away quickly with his mother, a little deserted.

Yang Ji suddenly laughed, she couldn't bear to see enough, so she didn't even have the interest in appreciating it.

She was always so embarrassed in front of him, so she always didn't believe it later, or couldn't understand why he liked her, how could he possibly like her, so many years.