If the past can be rewritten so that the pain of the past no longer exists, there will not be so much sorrow in the world, and no one will be immersed in the pain for a long time and cannot extricate themselves.

Whenever Qingling closed her eyes, there would be a scene of humiliation in front of her, she was afraid of being alone, and she didn't dare to close her eyes when she slept at night, and often stayed up until dawn while crying and sighing. In less than two days, Qingling looked much haggard, the black halo under her eyes could not be dissolved, and the medicine gourd and poisonous scorpion thought she was sick and was very nervous.

"Ling'er, how are you doing these days, you eat so little, and you don't talk much, are you uncomfortable?" The medicine gourd is just like what the Holy Maiden of Mingyue said, it usually looks rough and leafy, but what he cares about most is this granddaughter.

"No, no, I don't feel uncomfortable...... Qing Ling mechanically sent the flatbread into his mouth, and he didn't look up at the medicine gourd.

"No, you girl is not so quiet on weekdays, shouldn't she be about to get married, learn to dress as a little jasper!" The poisonous scorpion raised his chopsticks and laughed, turned his head to Shizhong and said, "This girl is about to become a daughter-in-law, how can she suddenly change a person, what a woman has changed eighteen times......

Shizhong also noticed Qing Ling's abnormality, but he couldn't find a suitable opportunity to talk to her, Qing Ling has always deliberately avoided him recently, as if he had something on his mind. However, Liu Ye comforted him not to think too much, women are always prone to become extremely sensitive before they get married, and their hearts will be very chaotic, so at this time, she should let herself be quiet, sort out her emotions, and wait for the arrival of a new life.

Shizhong accepted this explanation, he didn't know much about the woman's family, and maybe he really had this kind of panic disorder before marriage. In any case, as long as Qingling is not feeling unwell or other conditions, he can wait patiently for her to adapt.

The poisonous scorpion teased, and the division relieved Qingling and said: "Don't say it's Ling'er, I also feel more and more nervous, fidgeting every day, and I don't know what to do!" ”

"Yo ho, even you are like this, no wonder the crazy girl has become honest, you are really a pair made in heaven, if you don't become a husband and wife, you can only say that God doesn't open your eyes." The poisonous scorpion pointed to the top of his head with his chopsticks, and laughed again.

"Don't always find trouble with God, don't make yourself unhappy, my granddaughter and Master Shi were originally a pair made in heaven, and it is natural for them to get married, isn't it just a matter of waiting for a few more days, what are you yelling about!" The medicine gourd can always find a reason to dislike the poisonous scorpion, even if the poisonous scorpion said something without malicious intent, he feels very disagreeable.

"I said crooked gourd, now we are about to have a happy event here, I don't want to quarrel with you like before, for the sake of the children, let's just stop fighting! Do you think so? After the poisonous scorpion was warned by the Holy Maiden of the Bright Moon, Xuexue learned that he had advanced and retreated, and did not take the provocation of the medicine gourd to heart, but begged to take a step back and open the sky.

The medicine gourd was surprised by the performance of the poisonous scorpion, but if he bit the scorpion tightly and quarreled with others, he would be asking for trouble, and flattened his mouth: "Okay, you old guy finally knows how to be a man, for the sake of your learning and understanding, I am not in a hurry not to teach you, I hope you can behave yourself, and you will clamp your tail and be a good person in the future." ”

The poisonous scorpion was so angry that his teeth were itching, but for the sake of the face of the Bright Moon Holy Maiden, he could only swallow this evil breath raw. I don't know why, in the past few days, the Holy Maiden of Mingyue and Liu Ye have come to him, Liu Ye's attitude is relatively gentle, and he begged him not to quarrel with the medicine gourd again, especially in front of Qingling, while the Holy Maiden of the Bright Moon is more direct, warning him that if he dares to quarrel with the medicine gourd again, she will take everyone away and never get along with each other from now on.

This warning was too deterrent, the poisonous scorpion had to obey obediently, he couldn't watch the Bright Moon Holy Maiden leave his world again, even if he was to make compromises and show weakness to the unruly medicine gourd, he couldn't let this kind of thing happen.

This guy of the medicine gourd is unforgiving, which is really angry and hateful, but compared to the Bright Moon Holy Maiden who can get along all day long, it is still worth suffering some grievances.

The flame lit the wet firewood, and it couldn't be burned, the poisonous scorpion took the initiative to back down, and the medicine gourd was also very "generous" and said that it would not be investigated. Even so, Qing Ling's mood was not much better, and he hurriedly got up and said goodbye to everyone: "I'm full, go back to my room." ”

Qing Lingtou didn't look back and ran straight away, and the division was a little relieved, so he got up and chased out. Qing Ling heard footsteps behind her, but she still didn't look back, she didn't want to see anyone now, especially Shizhong.

"Ling'er, wait a minute, shall we talk?" Shizhong couldn't let her go into the house for a day without seeing anyone, so he stepped forward and took her hand, hoping to persuade her to open up.

Qing Ling stopped, but his back was still to him, and there was not the slightest expression on his face. Shi Zhong walked up to her and put her slightly cool little hand in his palm to warm it: "I know you've been worried about our marriage recently, I'll tell you the truth, sometimes I think the same way, I'm used to being alone, I'm afraid I can't take care of you." ”

Qing Ling didn't respond, she looked down at his slender fingers, her hand was close to his palm, and it was extremely warm.

Shizhong did not force her to express her opinion, and continued: "Two people who originally didn't know each other became husband and wife, how incredible it is to think about it. Some people say that this is a kind of fate, I think this may be a kind of fate, fate is destined for you and I to know each other and come together, we should not resist the arrangement of fate, even if we just started, we still can't learn how to get along with husband and wife, but I believe that as long as we have the heart, we can understand each other more and more, and we can also become a loving couple that everyone envies. ”

Qing Ling's head was lowered, she didn't dare to let Shi Zhong see the tears in her eyes, how could she tell him what happened to her. She dreams of being his wife, even if she is not a competent wife, even if she makes a mess of their lives, but she will definitely redouble her efforts to be a good wife who will give everyone thumbs up.

It's just that all this has become an unattainable dream for her, and now she doesn't even have the qualifications to dream, she doesn't deserve to be happy, and she is not qualified to marry such a perfect husband. Her existence has become a kind of shame, if Shizhong marries her, he will regret it for the rest of his life, their life is destined to be shrouded in haze, where is the happiness and joy!

Qing Ling bit his lip hard, shook off his hand ruthlessly, and turned around and walked back to his room. Shi Zhong didn't expect her reaction to be so cold, his heart sank, he quickly caught up, and asked puzzledly: "Is there something wrong with me, you are disappointed in me, so you don't want to pay attention to me?" ”

Qing Ling was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly shook his head: "No, nothing." ”

Shi Zhong breathed a sigh of relief, and then said: "Then why can't we say a few words calmly now, Ling'er, I feel that you are running away, escaping from my approach." ”

"Why do you think like this...... Qing Ling's tone was a little flustered, she didn't want to make Shizhong sad because of herself, "I never felt that you were bad, Master, in my heart, you are perfect." ”

"No, I'm not perfect, Ling'er, I don't want to be the perfect person in your mind, I just want to be a good husband in your eyes." Shizhong finally made a confession to Qingling.

Qingling's body trembled, almost crying on the spot, she loved this man very much, without him, her life was incomplete, she wanted to throw herself into his arms, tell him how much she loved him, how glad she was to be his wife. But she couldn't do that, she hadn't recovered from the pain, she couldn't convince herself to pretend that nothing had happened and face him. She is a filthy woman, and she cannot brazenly continue to possess his love.

Qingling wept silently, and slowly closed the door, she was very touched by Shizhong to speak to her, and she was also grateful to him for comforting her at such a time. But she would rather bear all the pain alone than bring him the slightest harm, Shizhong, can he understand?

When Liu Ye saw this scene, he felt very sad and regretted that the lovers had suffered such a cruel test. Looking at the lonely back of Shizhong, she thought it was time for her to do something.

That night, Liu Ye moved to Qingling's room and lived with her, Tu Qitang also saw that there were some problems between Qingling and Shizhong, but he didn't know how to comfort him, so he only pulled Shizhong to drink and chat with him to relieve his boredom.

Qingling leaned on Liu Ye's shoulder, tears had already soaked through her clothes, Liu Ye gently patted her shoulder and comforted her softly: "Sleep, don't think so much, it'll be fine when you wake up." ”

Qing Ling nodded with tears, Mingyue Saintess and Liu Ye had already told her many truths, and she understood all these truths, but it was really difficult to get through this hurdle, so difficult that she couldn't imagine it, so difficult that it almost cost her life. Seeing that there were only a few days left in the marriage, she didn't even have the joy of being a wife, but was full of disgust with herself, and she hated to jump off the mountain and cut everything off.

The Holy Maiden of the Bright Moon is right, it takes more courage to live than to die, and she can choose to die to get permanent liberation of her body and mind. But her soul will certainly not be at peace, leaving behind the people she loves and cherishing, and selfishly using death to solve the problem, she may not feel the pain again, but it will make the people she cares about doubly painful.

Liu Ye patted her back, just like snuggling in her mother's arms when she was a child, Qingling closed her eyes, recalling the warm pictures of her childhood, she and her parents frolicked together, although their lives were hard but very happy, every day, her mother would make her her favorite dough, and every night, her father would hold her on his shoulders and pretend to be a big horse.

It turns out that happiness is so simple, she has had happiness, she is not a person who has nothing. Even when they left their homeland and their mother died, she and her father met their loving grandfather. In Chiya Castle, their family of three continued to live happily, and his grandfather was a very capable Han man, he could collect medicine and cure diseases, and he would also have very strong martial arts, although his temper was a little weird, but he was very good to their father and daughter.

His father opened a spice shop in Chigu Castle, firstly to make their lives more prosperous, and secondly, to make it easier for his grandfather to contact the secret envoys of the Han court. Since she was a child, she has met all kinds of Han people, including men and women, old and young, some have come several times, and some have never been heard from again. Gradually, she knew that her grandfather was not only a very capable Han person, but also a Qincha who served the Han court, which should be a big official, but she had never heard her grandfather mention it, no matter whether her grandfather was a Han or a native of the Western Regions, no matter how big an official he was, he was a grandfather who loved her and her father, which was really good!

I never thought that she fell in love with someone, this secret envoy who also came from the Great Han, he was called Shizhong. He said that he was the attendant of Princess Xie Wu and helped her fulfill the mission given to her by the imperial court in the Western Regions. He was very good-looking, no matter where he was, he was not as good-looking as he was, he looked shrewd, sometimes stupid, and he blushed without saying a few words to a woman, and that look was very funny.

However, he is such a stupid man, but he fell in love with the princess he served, knowing that the princess belonged to her, he was still worried about her, and was even willing to wait for her for the rest of his life. He always doesn't take his life seriously, and rushes to the front when he encounters danger, even if it is death. Yes, the princess is the person he loves the most, and it is willing to sacrifice even death for her!

I can't remember when it began, this stupid man took root in her heart, she became more and more like him, knowing that her beloved was concerned about others, but she was still unrepentant and desperately drilled the horns, putting life and death out of the way, as long as he could live well, no matter how much sacrifice was worth it.

Stupid is contagious. She loved him so stupidly, and when he turned back, she believed that as long as she persevered, she could always wait for him to see her, and sooner or later he would find out that the person who had been silently guarding him was her, Qingling.

Finally, her dream came true, and when she felt that she was about to lose her support, Shizhong looked back and saw her. His heart gradually tilted towards her, drawing closer to her, even if he couldn't adapt to this change and couldn't figure out his feelings, but she did feel his feelings.

She couldn't give him a chance to hesitate, she didn't care about the girl's reserve, and sent a passionate kiss to help him strengthen his heart. Fortunately, the division surrendered under her powerful offensive, otherwise she would really have no face. What's even happier is that the grandfather asked the princess for them as soon as possible, and the princess readily agreed and set a wedding date for them.

In this way, Shizhong can't escape if he wants to, he is destined to not be able to escape from the palm of her hand in this life.

Happiness came so suddenly, she was in a trance, she couldn't believe it was the truth. Perhaps, God punished her for not being grateful, so he deprived her of happiness and made her live in pain and torment for the rest of her life.

The wind was beautiful that day, and the wind was warm on the face, and it was warm to the heart. She and Aya went up the mountain to pick herbs, Aya is the daughter of the old village chief, a kind and simple girl, two years older than her, and has not yet married. There are only a handful of villagers living in this remote village, and even fewer men of the same age, and Aya says that she wants to find a manly man to be her husband, and she must not be as submissive and unassertive as her eldest brother.

Aya's eldest brother does feel very unassertive, but this kind of man also has his advantages, that is, he is honest and honest. Maybe some women think that honest men are too wooden and don't know how to be gentle, but isn't the most simple expression also the most affectionate?

She is embarrassed to deny Aya's ideals, what girl doesn't love a manly man, she was also attracted by the heroism of the teacher at the beginning! Aya said that she would go out of the village in the future and see the outside world, but she could not rest assured that her father and mother were worried about her missing brother all day long, and if she left again, her father and mother would definitely not be able to withstand this blow.

I don't know when Aya will realize her dream and meet her ideal partner, but her brother is back, and the family is very happy, maybe, it won't be long before Aya can bravely ask her to go out for a walk, maybe she will soon find the other half of her heart.

She and Aya chatted about the good days ahead, and both of them were very happy, picking herbs and singing songs, and they were excited about the good hope. No one thought that the future waiting for them was not beautiful, but terrifying.

Aya's brother Doro appeared in front of them with an evil face, a weed in his mouth, his hands clasped in front of his chest, and his eyes staring at her without blinking, full of presumptuous and arrogant.

She felt uncomfortable all over, and she felt bored from the first sight of Doro, but he was Aya's younger brother after all, and she couldn't show it so obviously. She told Aya that she was going back, that these herbs would be enough for them to eat for a while, and that if Aya liked it, she would come back to pick them later.

Aya also sensed that something was wrong, and hurriedly said yes, pulling Doro down the mountain. Unexpectedly, Doro pushed Aya away, hugged her quickly, and dragged her into the woods. Like a wild beast, Doro couldn't break free from the brute force she had, she screamed loudly, desperately trying to break free, but she couldn't escape his clutches.

Aya didn't expect things to turn out like this, so she hurriedly stepped forward to stop her, scolded Doro hatefully, and demanded that he let go immediately. Instead of listening, Doro kicked her hard a few times, and Aya fell to the ground, gritting her teeth and crawling towards them. Doro tore her clothes in front of Aya, and she cried even louder, calling her lover's name, hoping that the teacher would hear her call and save her.

Doro's rough hands tugged back and forth on her, and he tore through layers of her clothes, reaching into her icy body, some of which she had never touched before. The physical pain was nothing, and the mental torture was about to drive her crazy.

Aya crawled to their side with difficulty, grabbed Doro's neck and bit it down, Doro shivered in pain, picked up a big rock and smashed her head, hitting Aya until she had to let go. Then, Doro continued to violently drag her numb body into the woods not far away, tore off the dirty cloth and gagged her mouth, brutally tore her body, used her as a tool to vent, and tortured her to death.

This nightmare seemed to have no end, she fainted and lost consciousness, and when she opened her eyes again, she saw the Holy Maiden of the Bright Moon and Liu Ye.

Fortunately, the person who came was not Shizhong, and at that time, she only had this kind of thought in her mind.

"Ahh......h

"Qingling, don't be afraid, I'm here!" Liu Ye was awakened by her, and hurriedly hugged her trembling body, and comforted her softly, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'm here ......"

"Princess......" Qingling cried loudly, "What should I do, what should I do, what is the point of me living like this......"

Liu Ye's eyes suddenly turned red, hugged her tightly, and he was choked up and speechless.