Chapter 42 This is really self-inflicted.

Lu Zhiyuan knew that he shouldn't, but he couldn't take his eyes off Xiong Xiaobai.

Seeing Xiong Xiaobai again today really surprised him, but he didn't expect her appearance to be exactly the same as in his memory, without the slightest change. The only difference is that she is more temperamental and charming than before.

It wasn't until today that he realized that perhaps, he was the right choice to marry Xu Feifei in the first place. Although he once felt that it was a pity, there was a grievance of retreating. But now, he is sure that he is not worthy of Xiong Xiaobai at all.

My feelings for her used to be love, but in fact, it was just a longing. You can't live with the person you want.

Moreover, after he and Xu Feifei got married, although the two of them would quarrel from time to time, in their hearts, their lives were really happy.

Except, for an occasional moment, he always felt that there was still a little regret in his heart. just didn't confess his feelings back then to Xiong Xiaobai. Even if the final result is rejection, at least let her know that she has been moved by her.

After five years, he finally had the opportunity to meet the woman he had a crush on, but suddenly found that maybe it was right not to confess back then, because he didn't have to feel embarrassed and could talk and laugh with her freely.

Today's Xu Feifei behaved a little abnormally, and Lu Zhiyuan knew that it was because she was eating his and Xiong Xiaobai's vinegar. And it is precisely because she loves him so much that as her husband, it is necessary for him to maintain his wife's image.

Lu Zhiyuan smiled, made a round for Xu Feifei's unfriendliness, and said: "Hehe, we are busy on weekdays, but since it is a novel written by an old classmate, I really want to have the opportunity to read it." Don't be too modest, just tell us the title of your novel. ”

Lu Zhiyuan's thoughtfulness, but Xu Feifei didn't understand. She thought that everything her husband did was to favor his first love.

"This ......" Xiong Xiaobai hesitated a little, although she was very confident in the work she had written, but ...... Is she really going to tell all the novels she has written?

"What? Is it hard to speak? Could it be that it's all something unsightly......" Xu Feifei gloated, and wanted to continue to ridicule Xiong Xiaobai for a few more words, but when she saw Lu Zhiyuan's gaze on her, she seemed to be a little disappointed.

Although Xu Feifei was angry that her husband blamed herself for other women, she also kept her mouth shut, because she always had to take care of her husband's face and her own image.

Today, for this Xiong Xiaobai, she has done too many unreasonable things. If it continues like this, the image she has maintained will be completely ruined, and it is more likely to affect the relationship between her and Lu Zhiyuan.

Xiong Xiaobai will never allow others to insult her works, how can the works she writes be something unsightly.

In her novels, there are very few descriptions of the sexes, and even when the love is deep, she only focuses on the feelings between two people, and avoids some naked flesh. To describe.

Actually, let's not say that Xiong Xiaobai herself is unwilling to write H's scene, even if she is willing, she can't write it. How could she have written about such a thrilling experience that she had never experienced first-hand?

Looking at Xu Feifei calmly, Xiong Xiaobai shook his head and said softly: "No, I just don't know which one to say, because I didn't just write one novel, I have written seventeen novels before and after all these years." I don't think you might remember the title of each book even if I name it. ”

"You ——!" Xu Feifei was about to scold, but considering Lu Zhiyuan, she still swallowed her words. She felt that Xiong Xiaobai was deliberately showing off to her. This Xiong Xiaobai really has the ability to anger others, even if it is disgusting, there must be a limit.

"Ah...... That...... That's really ...... It's amazing. Bai Ling didn't expect that what Xiong Xiaobai said was just a novel written by someone who had nothing to do, and it was already this number. And looking at her appearance, she seems to be very confident in every novel. Xiong Xiaobai, she is still not to be underestimated as she was back then.

"You're really amazing, it really makes me sigh to myself." Lu Zhiyuan praised sincerely, he felt that this woman was indeed worthy of his own appreciation.

Xiong Xiaobai shook his head. But he couldn't get rid of Xu Feifei's hostile gaze. should stay away from these talents, whether it is Lu Zhiyuan or Bai Ling, especially this Mrs. Lu Xu Feifei. Ever since she saw her, she had been drinking dry vinegar there, but ah, Xiong Xiaobai didn't have the heart to play such a boring game with her.

"If you really want to read the novels I wrote, then you might as well search for my pen name, it's easy to remember, White Bear." After speaking, Xiong Xiaobai looked around with a smile, pointed to the distance and said, "I'll go get something to eat, you guys talk first." See you later. ”

Everyone smiled and nodded, watching her leave. Bai Ling naturally didn't want to let Xiong Xiaobai leave so easily, but Xu Feifei didn't care about the eyes of others at all, and grabbed her arm, so that she couldn't forcibly detain Xiong Xiaobai anymore.

Leaving the crowd, Xiong Xiaobai breathed a sigh of relief. I'm so tired, more tired than cleaning up the "abandoned dog" at home.

I knew I was so tired, maybe I really shouldn't have come.

I only made up 20,000 words last night, and I went to bed early at one o'clock in the morning because I was thinking that I would have to get my hair done today. Now that I think about it, it's really not worth it.

Knowing that he is among his college classmates, he can really be described as "out of place", and he is an unpopular existence, so why bother to come to a commemorative cocktail party with his own feelings, and now he is being ridiculed, this is really self-inflicted.

Xiong Xiaobai picked out a few foods that suited his appetite and put them on the plate. As soon as she saw the food, she naturally thought of An Weichen.

Before going out, she also prepared dinner for the "abandoned dog", although the rice was made like rice porridge, but at least it was cooked. This is already an improvement from yesterday.

When the "abandoned dog" returns home, he only needs to heat up the toppings of the rice bowl and eat it.

Because he was afraid that he would use the wrong heating tool and blow up the microwave oven, Xiong Xiaobai was also very understanding and put the toppings in a special box and put them in the microwave oven. All he had to do was press a few buttons when he got back. And the specific operation steps, she also wrote them very clearly on the note and pasted them on the door of the microwave oven.

I just don't know, will he still go home for dinner today?

Yesterday, because she put the rice raw and brought it out in a bowl, she made the "abandoned dog" lose her appetite at all, and finally drank a glass of goat's milk in anger and fell asleep pitifully, not even eating the instant noodles she recooked later.

Unconsciously, Xiong Xiaobai sighed again, knowing that this was the case, she might as well stay at home and train the "abandoned dog".

The "abandoned dog" very obediently sorted out the food and daily necessities that had been thrown at the door since he bought them from the supermarket a few days ago last night.

It was precisely because of this that she felt a little guilty because she was hungry for him.

"I'm sorry......" Lu Zhiyuan's voice came from behind him, interrupting Xiong Xiaobai's thoughts.

Xiong Xiaobai came back to his senses, turned around, and looked at Lu Zhiyuan. She was clear about the reason why he came to apologize.

Shaking his head indifferently, Xiong Xiaobai looked at Lu Zhiyuan's eyes frankly, and said with a smile: "No matter who you apologize or why you apologize, there is no need. Because I didn't take it to heart, you don't have to worry about it. ”

Lu Zhiyuan carefully observed Xiong Xiaobai's expression, as she said, she really didn't mind at all. However, he was a little uneasy in his heart, and after a pause, he still decided to explain to Xu Feifei.

Coughing lightly, Lu Zhiyuan said embarrassedly: "Actually, she is not usually like this...... Just now, I'm really sorry. ”

"It's okay, I really didn't take it to heart." Xiong Xiaobai hurriedly waved his hand, not wanting him to dwell on this issue any longer.

Lu Zhiyuan nodded vigorously, paused, with a little nostalgia and admiration, and said with a smile: "You are still the same as before, you don't care about anything, and you go alone." ”

"Really? I don't think so. Xiong Xiaobai chuckled, although he didn't agree in his heart, he didn't want to explain more.

Actually, she is not a person who likes to be alone, and she gets along very well with her classmates in high school, junior high school, and even elementary school. As long as it's not an extraordinary time to rush the manuscript, she will occasionally go out with them to sit and chat. It was only after she went to college that she was isolated and ostracized.

Originally, Xiong Xiaobai didn't know what the reason was, but today she finally understood. If the only benefit of coming to this graduation five-year commemorative cocktail party today is to solve the doubts that have plagued her for many years.

The reason why she didn't make a good same-sex friend in college was entirely because of the man in front of her, because he used to like her. For the sake of such a man, he has been a lonely person for four whole years, which is really ...... It's not worth it.

"Actually...... Fei Fei is good at everything, but she likes to be jealous. However, it is also because she loves me so much. Lu Zhiyuan suddenly smiled and said something surprising, but his smile looked very happy.

"Looks like you're having a good time, that's great." Xiong Xiaobai had a blessed expression on his face.

She's never been interested in me, has she? Although he was asking a question, Lu Zhiyuan already had an answer in his heart. I don't know why, he suddenly felt that he had let go of all his feelings for Xiong Xiaobai in an instant, his secret love five years ago, and his concern for five years...... It's great to see her again today, so that I can make a break with my previous relationship.

Nodding, Lu Zhiyuan said with a sincere smile: "Well, yes, that's it...... It's really good. ”

"Hmm......" Xiong Xiaobai replied softly. Looking at Lu Zhiyuan's expression at this time, it seems that Xu Feifei will no longer have to be jealous because of her in the future.

Lu Zhiyuan, a man, will completely belong to Xu Feifei from now on.