chapter80 That's not love
Chen Meihua's request was not excessive, and this matter was obviously something that Yang Jinyao and Lu Haoyan could do, so Yang Jinyao hit it off with her.
The reason why Chen Meihua asked Yang Jinyao to help was because she knew that William understood that she had betrayed her, so it was impossible for William to take the initiative to contact her, and then what Yang Jinyao wanted, it was only possible to get it through her, and Yang Jinyao himself knew it.
And apparently the alliance front of these two people is not known to William, after William returned to China, because he returned empty-handed, so he was scolded by the government officials of his own country, and they were rushed back to China by plane without rest.
When Liu Yuyuan died, he would bring back the floating life, even if it was a scattered part, this was the instruction they accepted this time.
William sat by the window, looking out the window, and somehow suddenly remembered Liu Yuyuan, remembering what Liu Yuyuan said when he was alive, "William, I don't want to be that kind of person", it echoed in William's mind from time to time, like a hammer in his heart one by one.
Liu Yuyuan, you don't want to be a person like me, so escaping has become your way, right? So you let me watch you die before my eyes, is that what you call a countermeasure?
William's flaming fist slammed into the window, startling Warren, who was sitting next to him.
"Warren, you've been talking about it for so many years, what the hell are we doing? Or even to dirty their hands to kill innocent lives one by one? ”
Warren looked at his white and slender hands, who could have imagined that this was once a pair of hands stained with blood holding guns, but he had no choice, they had to carry out the orders given by the above, they were like high-level killing machines configured by the state, controlled by the high-ranking officials and magnates behind them, but this was the path they chose, in fact, they had no choice, and God only had this path in front of them.
"William, why don't we go and flee to a place where they can't find us." Warren held his head and said bitterly, "I've had enough days like this, and I don't want to watch this kind of thing anymore." ”
What kind of country is it that can treat people as adults, call those who serve them as slaves, hold those rich people who are powerful and rich in the palm of their hands, and applaud the people who are splashed with blood, what a cold-blooded and ruthless country it must be.
Warren stayed there because of William, in the country that eats human flesh and drinks human blood, but now, but now Warren's spiritual pillar has also begun to waver, and his spiritual pillar is also confused whether it is right or wrong to go on like this, whether it is time to go, Warren wants to take him away, wants to take him to a place to live an ordinary life.
In the past, Warren didn't understand why Liu Yuyuan refused to work for the government, the government would give him a lot of money, the government would give him supreme honor, the government would give him the benefits he deserved, the government just asked him to help with research, and did not put a gun in his hand to let him kill people, why did he resist so much, why did he refuse this kind of opportunity that others wanted but did not have the opportunity to run around.
But now, Warren understands a little, he will sympathize with Liu Yuyuan from time to time, sympathize with him that he was not destined to be an ordinary person by birth, sympathize with him who obviously didn't commit anything wrong but hid everywhere like a fugitive, and now he finally understands Liu Yuyuan's feelings, but that person is now dead, forced to death by that mediocre government.
"Where can we go?" William looked at Warren's pained look, reached out and covered Warren's heart and said, "Aren't we all installed with chips here?" We can't escape, Warren, Liu knows that he can't escape, he knows that, that's why he chose to commit suicide, we may be abandoned by the country one day, we will end up with Liu one day, useless chess pieces will be thrown away, what should we do then? ”
William's words silenced everyone else in the cabin, they looked out the window, at the blue sky, at the city as small as ants, they weren't saviors, they couldn't save anyone, they couldn't even save themselves, they were as small as dust, they opened their mouths wide but no one wanted to listen to them.
"I still have a wife." A man in a suit hid his face and cried, "I married her until now, and we haven't even seen each other three times." ”
"I also have twin children, and when the government asked me to do this, they promised us that they would protect our home." The sadness spread like influenza in an instant, and the other man also cried, "But now my home has become the control of the government, and they know that we dare not do anything, because they hold my whole home in their hands, it is really sad, I want to protect my home, but I have pushed them into the abyss." ”
"What's the point of us living like this......"
"I really don't want to kill people anymore, every time I see their frightened eyes, I almost go crazy......"
"They are just innocent people, why should they suffer this harm?"
The stewardess didn't know what was going on here, and when she heard the movement in the stateroom and rushed over, the strong men were crying one by one.
Liu Yuyuan, have you seen it, it's not you alone who has that ridiculous sense of justice.
We have it, but we can't do anything about it, and we want to change this sad situation, but how can we change it?
William looked at Warren with a calm face and said, "Warren, if one day I die, what will happen to you?" ”
"I'll die with you."
Liu Yuyuan told William that Warren liked him, but what was the extent of this liking, William didn't understand, and he didn't want to understand, he had always treated Warren as a brother, in Warren's vague feelings, William chose to treat himself as a blind man, and let Warren wait for year after year, he thought that time would wear out Warren's patience, but this tall man's heart was always standing like his strong body.
"Warren, what do I have to like about you?"
William leaned back in his chair and looked at the engagement ring on his hand for a long time.
"You are my pillar, the pillar of my life." Warren picked up the goblet and took a sip of the red wine inside, "If it weren't for you, I would have been buried in the pile of corpses." ”
William didn't know what Warren was referring to, and when he was about to say something with a smile, Warren interrupted his train of thought with a wry smile: "William, don't you remember, the time I was shot the deepest, right here in my heart, at that time they said that I couldn't live, and even I myself had given up hope of living, but you just picked me up like this, and you said, 'Warren, You are not allowed to die', you said let me persevere, you said you would definitely save me, at that time the whole world abandoned me, you didn't, even if they pointed a gun and told you to put me down, you still didn't let go. ”
"William, I really thought I'd just die." Warren raised his glass and poured the remaining red wine deep into his throat, "But because of you, I kept telling myself that I had to live." ”
"William, you may not understand how important you are to me, you are the light, the light that shines in my most desperate moments."
William sighed and whispered, "That's just my job, Warren, that's not love. ”
"I understand." Warren bit his lip and took a deep breath and continued, "But I love you, I love you William, I don't know when I can only tolerate you alone in my eyes." ”
William's happy look, William's sad face, William's angry look, William's sad look, Warren only needs to see William, he knows how he was feeling that day, whether it was good or bad, he could tell it.
William reached out and touched Warren's chestnut hair, looking at the loneliness in his blue pupils, he held Warren's head and let him lean into his arms and said, "Warren, you just haven't met the right person yet." ”
"Will you love me?" Warren wanted to ask William this question a long time ago.
Will you like me?
Will you love me?
Will you stay with me for the rest of your life?
Would you like to marry me?
……
There are too many things I want to ask, but I find that I only turn to this one question in circles.
"Will you love me? Love me as I love you? ”
"I don't know." William sighed, watching the plane get closer and closer to the ground, William lightly imprinted a faint kiss on Warren's forehead and said, "Clean up, get off the plane later." ”
Once again, Warren was a little disappointed that he didn't get an answer from William, but he still sat up straight and said, "Okay." ”
It doesn't matter, I've been waiting so long and don't care about waiting a few more years.
William After they got off the plane, William looked at this strange and familiar city, and the restlessness flowing in the air made him frown.
After many years of crawling and rolling on the battlefield, that keen sense of danger made him can't help but subconsciously pull Warren behind him when he got off the plane.
"William?"
Warren looked at the hand that William had held his wrist and wondered what had happened to him.
"It's okay, it just doesn't feel right."
William frowned and looked around, always feeling as if something was wrong.
Warren patted William on the back and whispered, "You're just too nervous, it might be better to take it easy." ”
William also hoped that things would be as simple as Volren said, but it turned out that William's keen sense was never wrong, and when a group of soldiers in body armor surrounded them with guns, William finally knew that it was not his delusion.