Chapter 31: Self-blame
In the past, Fengyu was an ordinary mortal who did not have any power, and her simple and happy life taught her to be free, to do whatever she wanted, and to do whatever she wanted, without thinking too much about the consequences, because no matter what she did, it would not have any impact on others.
If you don't cut wood, you can't boil water, and if you don't boil water, you'll be punished... All this will only affect herself slightly, and it has nothing to do with others, so who cares? Since she was a child, she had no father or mother, no one taught her what to do and what not to do, and no one told her the right and wrong of things, everything was only based on her own preferences, so she naturally developed her unrestrained personality and did not need to be responsible for any consequences.
Stepping into the world of cultivating immortals, she originally thought that there would be no more difference except that her life was longer than that of ordinary people and her strength was stronger, so she still maintained a casual style and lived a life that was loyal to herself. But she never thought that she, who had not become much stronger, would inadvertently cause so many fresh lives to fall today.
Feng Yu walked up to the white-bearded old man, looked at his godless and terrified eyes, that figure, still maintained the state of cultivation, as if he had not had time to clarify the reality that he was about to die, and died with a sense of surprise and resentment. Feng Yu's heart hurt like a knife when he thought of this.
With tears in her eyes, she quietly looked at the dead strange old man in front of her, feeling extremely ashamed. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I released Chiyou and hurt you! You blame me! Blame me! ”
A primordial infant monk, and his own master, a pure-hearted fairy-like cultivator, exists among the few strong people in the human world. He should have gone through countless battles and endured endless years of painstaking cultivation to have today's achievements! The arduous struggle failed to take his life, and the long and boring cultivation did not break his will. But today, he sadly died in his own home?!
"I caused all this! I killed every single one of them, they don't deserve to die, it should be me, it's me! Feng Yu said with tears on his face and with difficulty.
Why is it that others are suffering serious consequences for their own mistakes, while they are staying out of it? It's better if you die, at least you don't have to see today's situation, you don't have to be responsible for today's mistakes, maybe at the same time, that man-eating demon is eating away at other people's souls! At that time, how will I face them? How will you deal with your guilt?
If she could, she would be willing to exchange her life for someone else's, so that at least her heart could be a little better. But it's too late, the dead can't live anymore, but the living still have to face the consequences of the cruel reality... From today on, the reckless and innocent Fengyu who used to be happy for herself is dead, and she will no longer care about the consequences in the future, what she wants to do, today's incident has become a wound that she will never forget. Someone died for her fault!
"Everyone has a life, and this may be the end for them! No one is to blame. Xuantian comforted her.
Through Xuantian's observation of Fengyu, he found that this girl was an unworldly and kind-hearted girl. How could such a newcomer to the Cultivation Realm, who didn't know that this realm was sinister, face the reality that she had indirectly killed countless living beings for a while? Because she is the inheritance of his mentor, he also attaches great importance to Fengyu.
"It's not that everyone has a life, they don't do anything at all. It was only because I released the monster that they were killed. Feng Yu stubbornly said.
"Hey! Surviving in the cultivation realm is already full of dangers, because you have to be on guard at all times, and people who are stronger than yourself will be disadvantageous to you. So if you want not to be killed by others, you can only work hard to make yourself stronger in order to ensure that your life is worry-free, but invincibility is impossible. If you have been out there for a long time, there will naturally be opponents who are stronger than you, and if you are lucky, you can save your life; If you are not lucky, you can only be the cornerstone of success for others! Xuantian said indifferently.
Xuan Tian has experienced too many such life and death things in his life, his words sound extremely cruel, but they are very reasonable, in this place where everything speaks with strength, all the laws are set by the strong, if you want to be strong, you can call the wind and rain, vertical and horizontal; If you are not as skilled as others, you can only face a tragic fate. This is the way to survive, this is the greatest heavenly principle!
"If your skills are inferior to others and you are killed by your opponent, then there is nothing to blame, you can only blame yourself for your poor strength. However, many of them were still children who had just entered the cultivation realm, and before they could face their enemies, they were killed for no reason, which was simply too innocent! None of them have seen me, so how do they know that I am the culprit who killed them? Fengyu was still immersed in self-blame and pain. All of a sudden, it was as if he was crazy, and he was even more sad to the extreme.
The master was injured by Chi You, and Feng Yu already hated himself to death, why was the only gentle master in this world who was good to him, like a mother, seriously injured because of his mistakes. The more she didn't blame herself, the more Feng Yu felt sorry for her master. This scene at this time made Fengyu's sense of guilt even heavier, and the tragic deaths of countless strangers made Fengyu almost collapse!
Feng Yu's mind was full of bloody corpses, wailing and asking himself why he had harmed them. What did they do wrong? It's her who is wrong! Damn it, she should be right!
Feng Yu's heart was entangled in the abyss of pain again and again, and she was almost suffocated when she was stirred! She really wanted to kill that Chiyou with her own hands, avenge the countless dead people, and she wouldn't let him go out to harm people again. But she knew her strength, not only could she not kill Chiyou, but she also had to cause trouble to others, and even be easily killed herself. Her heart wanted to become stronger, and at this time it became even stronger. The flame of hatred that had never been there burned in her body.
Fengyu's consciousness became distracted, and she slowly sat down on the ground, sinking into a state of silence.
Xuantian looked at the girl in front of him, and muttered: "It's about to break through, it seems that this girl has been hit by a huge blow this time!" ”
Every time a cultivator experiences the ascension of a realm, he or she has to rely on his own diligent practice and various opportunities to complete it, some of which are sudden epiphany in the process of struggle, and some of which require time and experience to slowly comprehend. Like Feng Yu, it was completely due to a major change in psychology and the external environment that led to a breakthrough in the realm, although this time it was a complete blow to her.
The transformation of each realm is simply a huge improvement in strength, and it is still relatively small in the primary realm, but after the realm of the Yuan Infant Stage, the huge ascension is simply a qualitative leap of thousands of miles. For example, if there are so many Jindan stage masters, if they don't have any anti-heaven exercises, or the grip of the ancient treasures, even if they take out their strongest strength to attack, no matter what, they can't resist a monk who only has the realm of the early stage of the Yuan Infant, and the difference is not just a little. Because his powerful spiritual sense alone is beyond the reach of those lower-level realm cultivators, this is the powerful coercion of the higher-level realm cultivators.
Because of this, to verify the strength of a sect, it is not to look at the number of disciples there, but to compare the strength of those old monsters standing at the top, as long as you have a powerful old monster in your sect, it is simply effortless to easily eradicate a sect. Of course, there are rules for his survival in everything, and there is generally no deep hatred, and there is no old monster who has that leisure to care about the grievances of those juniors, which is a very humiliating thing.
Feng Yu has always been in the realm of the Spiritual Void Period among the Twelve Great Realms, which is already a good cultivation at her age, first, she has been specially taught by a wise master like Shiratori, and secondly, because of the adventure of having the immortal spiritual power of the "Sihe Immortal Source Notes". As a result, after not long of her practice, she has already reached a state that is not easy for her to achieve in the years she has been practicing.
Feng Yu closed her eyes tightly, her eyes kept turning in her sockets, and her beautiful face also showed an extremely painful and tangled look, presumably she was experiencing a battle between herself and the demons in her heart!
"I'm going to get stronger!" A voice came out of her head, as if it was about to tear her apart. An originally good self and an evil negative Fengyu are fighting repeatedly. Feng Yu, who has a positive mind, is saying, "Come back and restore that pure and kind true self!" Don't be swayed by everything in the outside world, don't fall into the devil's path because of momentary setbacks, it shouldn't be you..."
The negative Feng Yu appeared in Feng Yu's mind with an image that Feng Yu had never seen before: "You have already killed countless lives, don't care if they live or die, kill all those who want to stop you, only your own strongest can make you safe and free from any harm······"
Feng Yu was like in a dream, and he could no longer hear his inner voice, as if he had completely become a different person. Repeatedly torn apart by two forces. In the chaos, Feng Yu was like a helpless child, unable to make a sound, no matter how he broke free, he couldn't escape from this endless dream...
"Hey! I can only do my best to help you, but everything is up to you to get rid of your demons! Heart-heavy child. Xuantian stood aside, injecting a trace of pure immortal thoughts into Feng Yu's body, slowly but carefully purifying and nourishing the soul ocean in her heart.
Seeing Feng Yu's performance and experiencing countless tests of demons entering the body, as a person who came over, he knew that Feng Yu must be fighting with himself tenaciously at the moment, but he couldn't help her, everything was on her own.
Endless obscure runes flickered, and an incomparable spiritual aura poured into her entire body, constantly impacting her small universe. The content on the "Sihe Immortal Source Notes" has been closely linked to her like a part of her body after Feng Yu has been recited countless times. At this moment, she seemed to be closer to the true meaning of the contents, and the confusion of ignorance was much clearer, although there was still an infinite part of it was still very vague, but at least it was much clearer than before.
Feng Yu slowly opened her eyes, the original turbulent inner world slowly began to calm down, she was no longer as excited as she was at the beginning, and she was no longer haunted by the mistakes she had unintentionally made, after all, since things had happened, it was better to make herself live in self-blame and make up for her mistakes.
"Are you awake? Congratulations on taking another step, at this moment you have entered the early stage of Bigu before you have really crossed the preliminary stage of cultivating immortals, and are moving towards the next realm, this blow is just a small setback on your path of cultivation, and you may face more and more difficult tests in the future, I hope you can walk a little more steadily, and it will not be in vain the huge wealth left by my teacher and you! Xuantian said earnestly.
"Thank you for your advice! The disciple wrote it down! In the future, I will work hard to live up to the expectations of my predecessors. Feng Yu said proudly, and he also made up his mind to continue his cultivation bravely.
This time she took her choice seriously, she wanted to become stronger, she wanted to stand on the peak of the strong, look down on the people at her feet, and correct everything wrong! Solve all the mysteries of yourself one by one.
"The time has been delayed for too long, so you can continue to search for the whereabouts of the Chiyou Demon Soul with me!" Xuantian said quietly.
"Yes, Master!"