Hearing this, a look of surprise clearly flashed in Zhan Jiong's eyes, and then he looked at Shen Yuechen carefully for a long time, as if she felt that she had something hidden in her heart, and said with a sigh in her tone: "Do you remember what your master said before he died?" ”

Shen Yuechen didn't expect him to mention this suddenly, he lowered his head slightly, a rich bitterness that could not be dissolved welled up in his eyes, and he muttered, "I remember." ”

Before the master died, he kept muttering a low sentence in his mouth: "Go home...... ...... home."

She was arrogant all her life, and in order to disobey the marriage contract made by her family, she did not hesitate to shave her hair to become a nun.

Although she is a person who has already lived for a lifetime, Shen Yuechen still has to be full of respect for the master from the bottom of her heart, after all, as a woman who really grew up in ancient times, there are definitely very few people who dare to stand up and fight against feudal etiquette and family alone.

When she was in Jingyuean, the master rarely mentioned herself to anyone, but after she became seriously ill, she seemed to become sentimental all of a sudden, and she also talked a lot about the past.

A person who was once so strong, a person who was once so daring, at the last moment of her life, what she hoped most was to return to the home that had forced her to a corner.

Shen Yuechen can understand the sadness and reluctance in the master's heart, more than ten years of hard practice, only in exchange for a weak and haggard body, no relatives, no reason, no support......

It is very clear that Shen Yuechen cares about and misses Master Jingyun in his heart, and the reason why he mentioned her is not to make her sad, but to hope that she can think about it before making a decision.

Looking at her, he continued, "I'll give you the box, it's what was originally yours. After saying this, he suddenly felt a panache in his chest, panting unsmoothly, coughing non-stop, Shen Yuechen hurriedly poured tea for her, and gently patted him on the back, and said with concern: "You cough so badly, please ask a doctor to come and take a look?" ”

He shook his head slightly and said, "It's just an old problem that doesn't matter, it's okay, it's okay." ”

Shen Yuechen couldn't help frowning when he heard this, only to feel that if he continued to endure like this, he would definitely delay his serious illness.

When he was twenty-three years old, he followed Master Jingyun to shave his hair, and then became an ascetic, traveling all over the world, sleeping in the open air, and his body was already full of holes, and in addition, the master died of illness last year, which hit him a lot.

Seeing that she looked at herself worriedly, she smiled faintly: "Today is your mother's death day, go over and give her a pillar of incense." ”

Lin's tablet is enshrined in front of the ever-bright lamp in the meditation room, Wu Ma is leading Cuixin to burn the scriptures one by one, she lowered her head, looked at the bright fire in the basin, and sighed: "Madam, the slave wants to tell you a good thing, our eldest lady can win the favor of the old lady in the house now, and the old lady treats the young lady well...... Miss, she has finally come with a hard time, and Madame can finally feel at ease in the spirit of heaven......"

As she spoke, Wu's mother's voice suddenly choked up, and she hurriedly lowered her head and rubbed her eyes.

Cui Xin knelt beside her, and her eyes were red, and she inadvertently turned around to see Shen Yuechen standing by the door, her eyes were calm and her face was sad.

Shen Yuechen knelt on her knees in front of Lin's tablet, kowtowed to her three times in a dignified manner, and called softly: "Mother, my daughter has come to see you." ”

Although the two of them are not blessed to be real mother and daughter, Shen Yuechen has heard a lot about her from Wu's mother, and the more she has heard, the more she knows about her, and she only feels that if she is still alive, she will definitely be a kind and gentle mother.

If she had lived, everything would have been different today.

In her previous life, she was the only daughter in the family, she was cared for by her parents all the way, she was safe and secure since she was a child, she likes to read, she just needs to be a good child who studies hard and makes progress every day, and she doesn't need to worry about other things. But in this life, she knew how difficult it was to live, a motherless child, really like a song singing, like a fragile grass or duckweed on the water, trembling every day, not knowing where the future fate will go, and what kind of situation it will go.

In order to integrate into this world and live a stable life, in the past fifteen years, she has made countless efforts and been cautious in everything, so that she has not shown her feet. However, she tried her best to adapt to everything in this world, but she couldn't accept that men had three wives and four concubines, and women could only become their appendages...... Whether this life is glory or disgrace, disaster or blessing, it all depends on creation. Once you get married, you can't turn back, and it feels like you're gambling with your life......

After burning a stick of incense, Shen Yuechen also silently sorted out her thoughts, no matter what, she had already made the worst plan in her heart, instead of continuing to worry here, it was better to make some preparations as soon as possible after going back.

Before leaving, Shen Yuechen left all the silver that the old lady gave her to Master Ran, and told him that after he went down the mountain, he would invite a doctor to come up and take a good look at him.

Returning to Shen's house from Ciyun Temple, it was already sunset, Shen Yuechen went over to ask the old lady for peace with a full stomach, and as soon as she entered the courtyard, she saw Chun Ming and the maid coming out of the room, and when she looked up and saw her coming back, she hurriedly ran over, and said with a smile: "The eldest lady is back, and the old lady is still talking about you!" Miss, go inside, the lord has sent a letter back today. ”

Shen Yuechen nodded with a smile, followed her into the house, and when she saw the old lady sitting on the Luohan bed, she smiled silently, and curtstoyed: "Grandmother is fine, Yuechen is back." ”

"Oh." The old lady smiled and said, "You have worked hard, come and sit down." Your father's letter has just arrived. ”

In this life, every time he heard the word "father", Shen Yuechen would follow the tightness in his heart. Although she hadn't seen her for more than ten years, she still clearly remembered how Shen Zhijian, who had scarlet eyes and an angry face when the two first met, was so excited that he almost threw her into the bathtub and drowned......

After more than ten years of ignorance and indifference, it is better to be a father and daughter like this, as well as a stranger who meets by chance outside.

The old lady picked up her son's letter and read it carefully again, before she looked at Shen Yuechen and said, "The new house in Laizhou has been packed up, and your father has written to urge us to go over and live for a while." ”

Hearing the old lady use the word "we", Shen Yuechen was in a trance for a while, so she pretended to be surprised and asked, "Is grandmother going to Laizhou?" ”

The old lady nodded and took a sip of tea slowly, "Naturally, I want to go over and have a look." Come with me this time, your father mentioned you in his letter, and it seems that he misses you in his heart. ”

When Shen Yuechen heard this, the smile on her face suddenly stiffened.