Over the years, I have often had a dream, and the dream kept flashing bits and pieces, like a slender rope around the neck, although it felt very thin, but it was a pain in the heart.

The children of poor families are like a label firmly attached to their backs. I've been wearing shortened magnification pants since elementary school, and even if my mother's hands are particularly skillful, it can't change the fact that the pants are the school uniforms that others once wore. That inferiority complex keeps pestering and throwing off itself.

"Gu Heng, help me pour a glass of water."

"Gu Heng, help me copy my homework."

"Gu Heng helped me ask for leave."

"Gu Heng help me..."

Even if everyone is good-natured, it's still ......

Did the honest man in your class help with copying homework today?

Of course copy it, if you don't copy it, I'll beat him, stupid boy.

Their family is quite poor.

Wow, look at his tattered clothes, even his personality is so wretched.

I heard that his dad was a bicycle repairer.

There are fathers and sons, all of whom are wreckless.

I heard it, every word was like a whip on my body, and every time I clenched my fist, I finally slowly opened it again, Gu Heng didn't know at that time, these were all seen little by little by a transfer student who had just transferred.

In the distance, the wind blew through the boy's white shirt, like a dove fluttering its wings, burrowing out of the cuffs and trousers, and the concerned eyes gently swept over the boy with his head down, and gradually walked away.

The first time I saw Yang Jinyao was at the end of summer, and I still tirelessly chirped in the book, and at noon when the sun covered half of the classroom, Yang Jinyao appeared at the door.

The indifferent boy was in the backlight, pointed to the seat next to Gu Heng to the teacher and said, "Just sit here." ”

For half a semester, the boy almost didn't talk to anyone, he would lie on the desk and sleep with headphones in class, Gu Heng often lay on the table and face to face with him, looking at the boy's fluttering eyelashes when he took a nap.

In fact, I've always wanted to talk, but I've never had the courage.

What if, what if it's ignored?

At that time, I was in the third grade, and I didn't know anything. Old-fashioned fans creak in the classroom, and there is a danger of falling from time to time. At that time, the children's relationship was also crumbling like an electric fan, and they would be crushed if they were not careful. It was also at that time that Yang Jinyao fought the first vigorous fight in his life, and Gu Heng faced the biggest turning point in his life.

At the age of Yang Jinyao and Gu Heng at the age of 9, whoever bought a 4.5 yuan pen would be envied by everyone, and they would gather a complete set of cards full of Digimon, and they would buy a small cup of shaved ice for 2.5 yuan at the school gate, a pack of spicy strips for 5 cents, and 2 cola candies for 1 cent, and a lollipop was like a baby at that time.

But Gu Heng has never touched these things, even if he looks at it, he feels that it is a luxury, this pitiful posture was finally maintained until the third grade was broken, and an extra bag of chocolate bagged milk began to appear on his desk, and students often order this kind of bagged milk in the school, but because it was too expensive Gu Heng had never drunk it, he carefully held it for fear of falling to the ground and breaking it and he couldn't afford to pay for it, so he asked one by one, but no one nodded or shook his head, until he asked Yang Jinyao, Yang Jinyao said coldly: " If it's not someone else's, you drink it yourself, and people like you must not have drunk this kind of thing, so why don't you keep it for yourself. ”

Gu Heng bit his lip and said cautiously: "This is very expensive, if others want me to pay for it at that time." ”

Yang Jinyao took out a pack of identical chocolate milk from the desk and threw it into his arms and said, "I never drink this kind of thing, if you don't dare to drink that, drink this, and it's a waste if you throw it away." ”

Gu Heng stared at Yang Jinyao gratefully, Yang Jinyao turned his head and fell asleep on the table and ignored Gu Heng again.

After Gu Heng said "thank you" softly, he obediently returned to his seat and gently bit a small opening with his teeth, and drank it with great cherishment, this is a taste that he will never forget in his life, the light fragrance of chocolate slowly rolls from his throat to his stomach, and continues to amplify and amplify.

From that time on, every morning there would be an extra packet of milk on the table, sometimes a loaf of bread, sometimes a can of cola candy, sometimes a notebook, sometimes a small keychain with a little mouse on it.

But what has not changed is that Yang Jinyao will throw a packet of milk on his desk every day, and then walk out of the classroom door with his hands in his pockets.

Gu Heng only drank the milk thrown by Yang Jinyao every day, and he would ask carefully about other things that he didn't know where they came from, but he never knew who the owner of the things was, and it wasn't until later that everyone was bored and asked him to leave directly, so he decided to carefully stuff those things into the table and never touch them, because although he didn't have money at home, his mother often taught him that he didn't know whose things were not allowed to take.

But it was precisely because of this that I finally talked to Yang Jinyao.

That day, as a reward for Yang Jinyao giving him milk every day, Gu Heng said to Yang Jinyao who was packing his schoolbag after school: "Yang Jinyao, you go home, I will help you do your duty tonight." ”

Yang Jinyao glanced at Gu Heng strangely and said "oh" before leaving with his schoolbag, in fact, it didn't matter if he didn't have to do it for himself, he never cleaned up anyway.

What a fool.

Gu Heng carried the bucket and mop to the corridor, and looked up to see the fiery sunset gradually sinking, the fiery clouds spread half of the sky, the pale red light of the sunset spread on half of Gu Heng's body, Gu Heng closed his eyes, and the warmth seemed to slowly slide down from the top of his head.

"Hey." An unfamiliar voice sounded from behind.

"Huh?" Gu Heng squinted his eyes slightly, he hadn't reacted before he could be carried up, the crowd at the school had already dispersed, even if he called for help, it was impossible for a few people to pay attention, it wouldn't be a human trafficker, wouldn't it be a human trafficker, wouldn't it be not?

By the time he reacted, he was already in the corner of the teaching building, and the boy in front of him was tall, with a pair of bright eyes hidden in his broken oblique bangs, but it was just ......

The boy pinched Gu Hengyuan's face and looked at it carefully and said, "Be my girlfriend." ”

Gu Heng didn't react in a daze, he was forcibly kissed, the boy's tongue was a little sick to his stomach when he stuck it into his mouth, and he wanted to push him away, but his strength was surprisingly great, Gu Heng sat down on the ground, and was pushed tightly against the wall by the boy, Gu Heng didn't even have a slight advantage.

After this reluctant kiss ended, the boy confessed loudly: "I like you, my name is Lu Haoyan." You can be my girlfriend! ”

Gu Heng was stunned for 2 minutes before he said slowly, "I'm a man." ”

In the end, Lu Haoyan stared blankly at Gu Heng's naturally fat face, and then ran away in fright.

It can be described as a dark memory, the first confession in his life, although he was brave enough to go to confess to the junior girl in the lower grades after reading a romance novel, but Gu Heng was only 9 years old at that time, how to look at the 12-year-old Lu Haoyan It was like robbing a good family wife and man, although he didn't know that Gu Heng was a man.

Gu Heng was obviously calmer than he imagined, at that time he didn't understand what the concept of the first kiss was, let alone what it meant to like, of course he was also very happy that someone was finally willing to take care of him, and the person who was willing to take care of him also said that he liked him, maybe it meant that he had friends.

This is all the thoughts in the heart of the 9-year-old Gu Heng, he calmly mopped the ground and then walked out of the school gate with his schoolbag, when he saw Yang Jinyao leaning next to the school gate, he called Yang Jinyao's name in surprise, Yang Jinyao looked back and saw Gu Heng's lips were red and swollen, thinking that he was being bullied again, every time Gu Heng was bullied, he bit his lip and endured it without speaking, so Gu Heng's lips were often bitten through the skin.

Yang Jinyao stood up straight and said, "I'm waiting for my dad, he hasn't come to pick me up yet, why don't you go together." ”

Gu Heng nodded heavily and said, "En." ”

The two of them walked side by side, the dim yellow light of the street lamp swayed the shadow, Gu Heng lowered his head and walked sullenly, he was afraid of Yang Jinyao, standing beside him he felt so inferior, a short road suddenly felt very long.

The embarrassing atmosphere was finally broken by Yang Jinyao.

"I said, you, can you lift your head and straighten up? It's because you're so cringe-inducing that others often bully you. Yang Jinyao frowned and said.

"Huh? En...... "Gu Heng shrunk and didn't know how to answer him.

Yang Jinyao sighed and said, "Were you bullied just now?" ”

"I didn't ...... No......"

"Then why are your lips swollen?"

"Huh? Oh...... It's not bullying......" Gu Heng touched his head and said with a simple smile, "A man in the 6th grade just now seems to be called Lu or something, he looks very good, he wants to be friends with me, he said he likes me, I thought that no one like me wanted to get close to me." ”

Yang Jinyao's heart suddenly tightened, and he suddenly grabbed his shoulder and said, "Who wants to get close to you like you." Dirty poor ghost, stupid and stupid, fools like you. ”

Suddenly finding that his emotions were a little out of control, he suddenly let go of his hand and turned around and walked forward by himself, leaving Gu Heng to stand alone.

Gu Heng said softly: "Yes, no one wants to get close to me, but that person really kissed me and said to me that I like you, like a mother." ”

The sound was not light or heavy, but it was like thunder hitting Yang Jinyao's ears, and this time it was Yang Jinyao's turn to stay in place.

Kissed him? Hehe? Kissed him?

What am I angry about, Yang Jinyao, you stupid.

After Yang Jinyao scolded himself, he turned around and walked in the direction of Gu Heng with his schoolbag on his back, glanced at Gu Heng angrily and said, "I just found out that I went in the wrong direction." ”

After saying that, I passed him and left in the opposite direction of the original direction.

These memories became Gu Heng's dreams over and over, but they were the only card that Yang Jin had thought of thousands of possibilities but missed.

Thousands of foreshadowings, just for a first meeting.

At first, it was just pitiful, pitiful for this person, curious about the forbearance that he clenched his fists but didn't hit, but for this reason, he specially emphasized transferring to their class and being at the same table with him.

But when I got along, I found that I was getting deeper and deeper, and I couldn't extricate myself.

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