005 Now I know the taste of sorrow
When it was late, Qing Sakura went back to her temple to rest, only to feel exhausted, and she didn't even have the strength to raise her hand to drink tea.
Xinxin commanded, and immediately a little palace maid came up, beating her shoulders and pinching her back. Ah Zhen prepared hot water and was about to hot her hands for Qing Ying, but she quietly shook her head and said in a low voice, "Let's change the ice water." ”
Ah Zhen immediately changed the water, and Xin Xin had already found a cool plaster from the silver lock drawer of Huanghuali, waited for Qing Yinghuan to take his hand, carefully picked out some ointment with a silver skewer, and carefully smeared it on Qing Ying's ten fingers.
Ah Ji saw that Qingying's ten fingers had crimson marks, and knew that they were hot, but he didn't feel that his willow eyebrows were upside down, and he said: "I am sorry, you went out with the little master, why are the little master's hands so hot?" How do you serve! ”
His face was flushed with anxiety, and he hurriedly whispered: "Sister Aji, this matter is a long story......
"It's a long story......," Ah Ji snorted lightly, "It's just that I'm lazy and careless, and I dare to talk back this time!" In the end, it's not a family girl who follows the little master, I don't know how sorry the little master is! ”
Ah Ji is Qingying's companion, and he has always been the most facely, so he thinks he is Qingying's mother's family, and he is very good at talking and doing things. The heart is the one who used to follow and serve the Fujin Gege in the house, all of them are from the heart, although they are also decent maids, but after all, they are not as good as Ah Zhen, so Ah Zhen spoke, and she didn't dare to argue too much.
Qing Ying was upset when she heard this, and only said coldly: "I didn't serve the Queen Mother well, I hurt myself, and I have already taken some medicine in the afternoon." Ah Zhen was taken aback, and immediately closed his mouth and did not dare to say more, and he was much lighter in his actions.
Qing Ying finished applying the plaster, drank a cup of tea with her hearty hand, eased her expression, and Ah Zhen came up and smiled: "Today is the last day to mourn." Ming'er is the day when the emperor officially ascends the throne, and it is time for the little lord to change his festive colors. ”
Seeing Qing Ying nodding, Ah Ji laughed even more, "The slave maid heard that the emperor's year name was Qianlong, which is really a prosperous and prosperous year. The slaves and maids were also overjoyed, waiting for the day when the emperor canonized the little master. ”
Qing Sakura silently took a sip of tea, "So what?" ”
Ah Zhen happily asked for a peace, "The slave maid is waiting for the good day of the concubine canonization, and other little masters have come to visit you in the past two days, and the slaves around them have also said so." ”
Qing Ying seemed to be smiling, only holding the teacup and concentrating: "You see that I have such a good fortune." So Ah Zhen, what do you think if I am only made a promise, or I am kicked out of the palace? ”
Ah Zhen was shocked and opened his mouth to stammer: "This ...... How could this be? ”
Qing Sakura said with a smile: "How could it not? With you like you to bring trouble for me, and dare to say such rights and wrongs to others, how can I not be implicated by you. Who does the emperor want to canonize and depose whom, that's all the emperor's will, you are vain in your holy will, let me ask you, how many lives do you have? ”
Ah Zhen was so frightened that he knelt down, "Little master, the slave and maid have lost their words, and the slave and maid also care about the little master." ”
Qing Ying said coldly: "Heart, take her out." If Ah Jiu's words and deeds are wrong, he is no longer allowed to serve in the temple. ”
Ah Ji panicked, hurriedly hugged Qing Ying's leg and said: "Little master, little master, the slave and maid are your maids in marriage, and they have served you since they were children, and please take care of the face of the slaves and maids, don't drive the slaves to serve outside." ”
Qing Ying shook her head and said, "You have lost your words three and five times, and when you come to the emperor of Japan, can I also defend you?" ”
Ah Zhen cried: "The slave and maid serve the little master, and they have never dared to be careless. The little master likes hot water and strong tea, and the minions keep it firmly in their hearts and dare not forget it for a moment. Please forgive the minions this time. ”
Qing Sakura knew that she was used to being proud in the hidden mansion, and the people around her would inevitably follow suit, but now the situation has changed greatly, and it is not as good as usual, and only she knows the embarrassment and bitterness in her heart. It's just that Ah Zhen is his own dowry maid, and she is used to having no eyebrows and low eyes, and she has the heart to make a raft with her, but she can't be ruthless.
In the middle of the night, Qing Sakura saw that Ah Jiu was so frightened that she fell to the ground and trembled, begging desperately, and she had never been wronged, and immediately shouted: "Don't go out yet!" If you speak like this again, you will have no sense of proportion, and you will immediately have someone drag them out and be reprimanded with a rod, and it will not be too much to beat them to death. ”
When Ah Ji heard the sound, his face turned white with fright, and he kowtowed desperately, but he was still clever, helped Ah Ji up, and quickly thanked her for letting her retreat.
Then the temple was much quieter. The people who serve Qingying are all accustomed to seeing Ah Jiu's identity and favor, and when they see this, they can't help but silence everyone. Qing Ying raised her face, and immediately understood, opened the door of the palace, Qing Ying slowly took a sip of tea, and said unhurriedly: "Now that you are in the palace, it is no better than in the hidden mansion because you are willful, talking nonsense, and opening your mouth." But whenever I hear a word that dares to talk about my master behind my back, I will immediately send it to the Prudential Criminal Division to be killed, and I will not show mercy. ”
Although she didn't mean anything at all, everyone heard it in a cold sweat, and they all responded in unison, not daring to cause more trouble.
As soon as Qing Sakura raised her face, everyone understood, and immediately retreated. Seeing that there was no one in the hall, Fang waited for Qingying to remove her makeup and freshen up. Qing Sakura was fiddled with by her, and she only sat in front of the dressing table, looking at herself in the mirror. The face in the mirror is very familiar, she is only nineteen years old, from the mother family of the first emperor and queen, the journey is smooth, and if she is sheltered, she will inevitably be more delicate. This walk cannot but be said to be stable, but if there is really a deficiency in everything, it is also the same old incident a few years ago.
Born noble, Qing Ying knows her identity, no matter how high or low she is in this life, even if she is not drafted into the palace as a concubine, she will marry a relative of the emperor. The best way out, of course, is to become the prince of Fujin, preside over the affairs of the government, and continue the glory of the Wulanala clan.
The adult sons of the first emperor are only the third elder brother Hongshi, the fourth elder brother Hongli, and the fifth elder brother Hongday. At that time, she was going to be married, and it was the third elder brother Hongshi. However, Hongshi is partial to belong and does not recognize himself as his blessing. In desperation, it happened that the queen mother, who was Concubine Xi at the time, asked for the fourth elder brother to marry, so she escaped the embarrassment of being pointed at as if she had been amnesty, and became the side blessing of the fourth elder brother.
After marrying into the fourth elder brother's mansion, life was quite smooth. Although the first emperor was with him, the fourth elder brother has never been the most favored prince, and she also settled down and accompanied him to live a seemingly peaceful but carefully planned life every day. Fortunately, the family is still peaceful, and there is only one person in the house who has a higher status than her, and she only thinks about opening up branches and leaves for the fourth elder brother, consolidating her status, and rarely arguing with her. Although the fourth elder brother has accepted a few concubines over the years, he treats her kindly. Although she was pampered by her family before she got married, and she was favored by her husband, she was inevitably arrogant. But in the last few years of the first emperor, his aunt Empress Ulanala fell out of favor, and she didn't dare not restrain a little. Now that the first emperor has passed away, and her husband has ascended to the position of the Ninth Five-Year Emperor, she is naturally overjoyed in her heart and proud of him. But the life in the palace has been walking on thin ice in just a few days, the overriding of the moon, the cold eyes of the queen, and the beating of the queen mother all alerted her, and the happy years of ignorance and unconsciousness in the past are gone forever.
Aozakura sat quietly, looking at herself alone in the mirror. For the death of the first emperor, although everything in the palace is simple, let them temporarily live in the side hall, but the palace is still a palace in the end, magnificent, gold and jade, everything is like a flower arch splendor, all of them are gorgeous and dazzling. Only her, she is alone, she is alone in front of the mirror, and the shadow falls on the ground or does not form a pair, like a lone stamen in the brocade.
Qing Sakura stretched out her hand and held it into an empty circle, only to realize that she couldn't grasp anything. In her life, there has never been a day when she is so confused and helpless today, as if all her confidence has been drained at once.
In her confusion, there was a sudden commotion outside, and there seemed to be a commotion, which broke her lonely self-reflection. Qing Ying frowned, and before she could ask, Ah Zhen, who was guarding outside, had already pushed the door in, and said in a panic: "Little master, Su Gege seems to be crazy, he ran to us with tears on his face, and he must make trouble to see the little master." It's so late......"
Before Ah Jiu's words fell, he saw that Su Luyun had already run in. She thought she was ready to rest, wearing only a homely jade-colored thin silk gown skirt, covered with a shallow water green and silver heavy lotus veil, and her sideburns were scattered. In such a cold autumn night, she actually ran with sweat on her face, mixed with tears on her face, and completely lost her former demure and cowardice.
Qing Ying's face changed suddenly, and she said in shock: "Lu Yun, this is in the palace, what are you doing?" ”
Lu Yun's face was completely bloodless, pale as porcelain, and she seemed to have only the strength left to cry, and tears poured down like a spring. After a long time, she finally "pounced" and knelt down, fell in front of Qing Ying, and cried loudly, "Sister, sister, you save me!" The master Niangniang sent someone to take Yongzhang away! My Yongzhang, my third elder brother! He was only a few months old, and the master Niangniang sent someone to take him away! ”
Qing Ying immediately understood that the queen had foretold the queen mother and her biological second elder brother Yonglian had been raised by her elder brother, so as the third elder brother born to a little Gege, there was no reason to stay with her biological mother to raise her.
Lu Yun cried so much that her hair fell apart, and she was mixed with sweat and tears on her jade-white cheeks, as if she had been swept by a crosswind. She fell to the ground and cried: "Sister, I beg you, help me to beg the master Niangniang, let her return Yongzhang to me, give it back to me!" ”
Qing Ying hurriedly stretched out her hand to help her, but she didn't know that Lu Yun's strength was so great, she desperately knelt on the ground and kowtowed, "Sister, I am soft-spoken, and the master will ignore me!" But you're different, you're a noble-born side Fujin, when you were in the palace before, the master was only willing to listen to you a few words, you help me beg her, okay! ”
Before, how long was it before. That's a balance of each other's identities and status, not sincerity.
Qing Sakura made a look, and Ah Ji and Xin helped her up and sat down. She saw that Lu Yun was crying hoarsely, and her heart was also sour, so she had to persuade her, "Yongzhang was sent by the master to take Yongzhang away, but it is not the master who can take Yongzhang away, it is the ancestral rules to take Yongzhang away!" She paused, "The Queen Mother knows about this." ”
Lu Yun was stunned, his shoulders trembling, "Even if it is the rules of the ancestors, but Yongzhang is still so young......"
Qing Ying pressed her shoulder and said softly, "Yongzhang is still young. But if you give birth to Yongzhang in the palace, from the moment he leaves his mother's womb, he will be taken away, and you will only be allowed to look at it at most. She slowed down her voice and said in a low voice, "What's more, the master Niangniang told the Queen Mother that her biological second elder brother is already in the elder brother's office, and she doesn't dare to violate the family law." ”
Lu Yun's body shook and almost fainted, but Qing Sakura hurriedly supported her and pinched her fiercely. She had inch-long nails, but after pinching it, Lu Yun woke up a lot, and only shed tears in a daze. Ah Zhen hurriedly fed Lu Yun a sip of hot tea, "Don't be like this, little master, it's really going to frighten our little master!" ”
Qing Sakura held her down and said in a low voice, "You look like this, I'll forget it if you're scared." But if it scared the rest of the palace and was passed out one by one by their mouths, what did it become? You don't want to be decent, the third elder brother wants it too. She raised her face, motioned to Xinxin to take the jade comb from her dressing table, grated her hair little by little, and pulled up her bun, "As soon as we enter the palace, we can't help ourselves." I used to be chaotic, but today I understand. You're better than I am, and you have a son. It's not worse than me, it doesn't look bad from the outside, but there's nothing left. Your Yongzhang is raised in the elder brother's office, and there are eight grandmothers who take care of them carefully, and every fifteenth day of the new year, they will bring their children to meet you for an hour, for fear that the mother and son will be too close and their relatives will interfere in politics in the future. It's useless for you to beg anyone for this matter, you can only suffer it yourself. ”
Qing Sakura's hand touched Lu Yun's cheeks, the fat powder was wet, and the tears were scorching. Lu Yun's tears fell on her hands, and Qing Ying realized that her hands were cold, and there was no trace of temperature. These words, she persuaded Lu Yun, and also persuaded herself. When it comes to the end, it is useless to ask anyone, only to suffer by yourself, gritting your teeth and enduring.
She had read so many palace words, and she was lonely, and in the end, she only had this epiphany.
Lu Yun's tears fell on the placket of her clothes and disappeared in an instant. Her eyes were full of sorrow, and she was sad and sad, "Then in the future, in the future, I can only do this." As long as I have a child, that child has to leave me, right? ”
Qing Sakura put her hair in a bun and took a silver beaded flower with blue dots and emeralds, which perfectly set off her usual suppleness and gentleness. Qing Ying raised her face, motioned for Xin Xin to twist a hot handkerchief over, and groomed Lu Yun's face again. She sat down sideways and said softly, "Lu Yun, it doesn't matter how many children you have in the future." Only with these children can you rise to prominence and find a stable position in this palace. If you're really sad, you remember someone. Kangxi's concubine, the first emperor's biological mother, Empress Xiaogongren, when she gave birth to the first emperor, her status was low, and she could only hand over the first emperor to Tong Guifei at that time to raise. But later, she gave birth to many children, and the fourteen princes born in the end stayed by her side. Now that you have just been in the palace, everyone has also entered the palace together, and it is not appropriate to be raised by anyone, and it is the best to send it to the elder brother. In the future, everything will be safe and smooth for you, and you will be able to raise your own children. Do you understand? ”
Lu Yun sat in a daze, and the palace maids put on good makeup for her, barely hiding her swollen and red eyes from crying, and said with tears in her eyes: "Sister, then what should I do?" ”
Qing Sakura took the silk and wiped her tears. "Bear with it. endure until you have the ability to raise your own children. So, now you can't make a mistake, you can't make a little mistake. She took Lu Yun's hand and got up, "You are dressed up now, go to the queen's palace, thank her, thank her for letting the elder brother take care of the third elder brother for you." You cried just now, and ran to my palace just now, because you were too sad and fainted for a while. Now you understand that this is grace and you have received it. ”
Lu Yun bit her lip and shook her head sadly, "Sister, I can't tell." I'm afraid I'll cry when I say it. ”
Qing Ying comforted her thin shoulder, "Don't cry, think about your future, the future of the third elder brother, you still have other children." Tears are shed for their sake; Endure not crying, also for them. ”
Holding back tears, Lu Yun nodded, and walked out. The moonlight in the courtyard is dim, the shadows of the trees are thin and messy on the green brick floor, and there is a sound of branches touching in the silence, the sound is thin and dense, as if countless tiny insects are gnawing on something, and it is also a pain in the eardrum. Qing Sakura watched the shadow of the green cloud drag on the ground, so thin that it seemed that when she was a child, she followed the grandmothers to watch a novel shadow puppet show, and the paper pieces on it were danced happily with their hands and feet, no one knows, every move, no one can help it.
What is the difference between her and Luyun today?
This night, Langhua didn't sleep deeply, the side hall where she temporarily lived was not a stable old bed that she was used to, and there was no Yonglian's familiar cry in her ears, so she couldn't sleep well. The ground turned over, and the maid Ru Xin, who slept underground at night, heard it, got up and lit a candle, poured a soothing soup and handed it to Langhua, and said thoughtfully: "It's all three watches, why is Niangniang still restless?" ”
Langhua didn't feel sleepy, so he stood up, "The second elder brother is not around, and my heart is always unstable. ”
Ru Xin stuffed a goose feather soft pillow on her waist, and gently persuaded: "Niang Niang is at ease." The slave maid has already asked, the three elder brothers are all in the elder brother's office, and those slaves are the most dedicated to our second elder brother, for fear that they will not be able to take care of it at all. Those nursing mothers are well and sufficiently raised, and they take turns to feed the second elder brother, and the grandmothers also serve them carefully, and they dare not neglect them at all. ”
Langhua sighed and said gloomily: "The ancestral rules are there, I can't go to see them often, you must do your best for me." ”
Ru Xin hurriedly said: "That's natural. Our second elder brother is noble and noble, and the other elder brothers are not even worthy of the mud on his toes, and no one at the bottom dares not to do his best. She chuckled, "Today, the third elder brother was also sent away from Su Gege's side, and the slave maid was happy." Why does the mother abide by the ancestral family law, she prefers the mother and son together, and the slave and maid just can't look past it. ”
Langhua slowly sipped the dark red soothing soup with Ru Xin's hand, and said casually: "That's it, she is also pitiful, she is obviously sad to become like that, and she still endures to come to me to thank you." Hearing that she ran to the Wulanala clan crying, she didn't dare to accompany her, so she hurriedly sent the Su clan out. ”
Ru Xin said happily: "That's it! Qingfujin can help her, but the slave doesn't believe it. She herself is a mud bodhisattva crossing the river, and it is difficult to protect herself, and the queen mother gave her a big shame at lunch today. ”
Langhua smiled slightly, "Originally, the Wulanala clan was the side Fujin that the Queen Mother asked for the emperor to marry, and she was the niece of the Empress Jingren Palace, so how could I give her three points." Now that the Queen Mother has given such a look, there are even more people in the palace. ”
Ru Xin raised the corners of her lips, very happy, "In the palace, except for the queen mother, Niangniang is the only master. Whatever you want them to do, they can only do whatever they want, just like the shadow puppet on the stage, it must be in your hands. ”
Langhua stroked the handful of scattered green silk on his chest, and said for a moment: "It's all in my hands." So Ru Xin, you will go to what Brother Ah told you to do tomorrow, and you must treat the third brother well, better and more refined than my Yonglian. Eating is not allowed to be restrained by eating, you must pay attention to the warmth and coldness, you must take good care of the third elder brother, and play with him as much as possible in swaddling clothes. Our royal children can't endure hardship, just spoil them for a lifetime. ”
Although Ru Xin didn't understand what she meant, she listened to Langhua's solemn instructions, hurriedly agreed, took the soothing soup she drank in her hand, and lowered the Zhuluo tent again.