15 This time I really left
No wonder he's in a trance these days......
No wonder he always returns late and ...... these days.
What love. What to like. What life and death do not swerving. It's all fake. Fake ......
The sky is full of snowflakes. She let the wind and snow blow unscrupulously on her face. My heart hurts. Splitting headaches. Staggering through the snow. But feel the world. It's completely dark. Ling Dong's dancing feet were soft. Slumped on the ground. Completely overwhelmed by this terrible fact.
Xiao Haotian. He did this to her.
She hugged her head tightly. I almost fainted. Hate yourself. Hates Xiao Haotian. Hate the world.
It was as if I had been humiliated.
". Empress. "In the snowstorm. Fang Jing ran towards her. ". How are you. It's cold outside. Something. Let's go back to the palace. ”
Ling Dongwu was really tired at this time. Look straight at the endless wind and snow. There was irrepressible fatigue in his voice: "Fangjing." I am tired. It's true. Exhausted. Let's go back. ”
Fang Jing and Hui Niang and the others saw Ling Dongwu come back so dejected. A person is locked in a room. They could even hear the occasional howling and crying coming from inside the house.
The queen mother was so weeping.
Everyone quietly stood outside. Panic on his face. There is no idea what is going on. There's no way to know. The queen is on top. The crown favors the six houses. Why did it turn upside down overnight? Anxiously waiting for Xiao Haotian to come back soon.
Ling Dongwu felt that his whole person was like a raging flame. It's as if you're going to set yourself on fire. Pain that cannot be relieved. Unforgivable deception.
That is thoughtful and considerate. The gentle and caring man is gone. The love that is as gorgeous as a flower is extinguished. The best thing in life. In an instant, it all came to naught.
Xiao Haotian. How can you hurt me so mercilessly.
Love. Trust. Peaceful life...... All. Suddenly it was blown away by a strong wind. On top of an endless beach. Empty. Like a wild ocean. You can only see the overwhelming sea water rushing up. Drown yourself.
Drowned.
I can't float anymore.
It's like an ostrich. When danger comes. And he buried his head in the sand.
But. Forget about being exposed. Someone stabbed him. And he was cut in the heart
Ling Dongwu was extremely angry and aggrieved in his heart. She wanted to have a good talk with Xiao Haotian. She sat on the bed with her face strained. He sat and waited like a prisoner in the court. Wait, wait......
It's a pity that she waited until the third watch. There was still no sign of him. I think he is going to live with Xiao Yingyue tonight. In the end, she couldn't hold on. Lay in bed and fell asleep.
This evening. Xiao Haotian came back late as usual. When he returned. Ling Dongwu was already asleep. Her breathing was light and shallow. It has a familiar and indifferent aroma. Xiao Haotian kissed her lightly on the cheek. He knew that he was a little cold to her these days. But there was no way. Wait until everything is taken care of. I'm making it up to her.
The snow finally stopped. The sun, which had not been seen for many days, also showed its face. Ling Dongwu wore the cloak of a silver fox. Stand in the garden. This time. Frozen. The Imperial Garden has been covered in snow. Those that used to bloom the most rippling flowers. Prosperous and prosperous. But no flower can bloom undefeated.
The "spring" days that belong to you have passed. Her flowering season. It's been quietly closed.
Lonely and cold palace. The courtyard is deep. There is no one I know well. I will live in this pigeon cage from now on. Time goes by like water.
Suddenly I want to be unscrupulous. Suddenly, I really wanted to have wine today and get drunk today. But. It's been this day. Tomorrow. The day after tomorrow. It's your own home. How to survive this frightening day after day in the future.
At this time, she is. The heart is like a knife. It's as if life has become completely hopeless. It was the fear and despair of the last trace of love and pity in another world.
No amount of fear can compare to the fear of loneliness and despair. She just felt too tired, tired like never before.
The psychological defenses of people are very strange. Stand up. It can be like a series of mountains. Unyielding; It's going to break down. It can also be as thin as a cicada's wings. Vulnerable.
At this time, Ling Dongwu was completely defeated. She's just an ordinary woman. can't stand such a thousand twists and turns of love. Toss and turn several times. She just loves Xiao Haotian again. He can't just like him. He has nothing to fear.
Love. It turns out that it can't stand the wear.
I didn't find a solution to the problem. So. All beautiful colors. Day by day it completely faded. I was helpless.
I rely on it. It's just a feeling of love that comes from such a strong belief in it. It never occurred to me that this love would be defeated by something else.
It turned out. Love alone is not enough. It is also necessary to have the courage and wisdom to maintain love.
And themselves. All lack "wisdom". So. I had to watch love slowly die.
She couldn't help but let go. No matter how much reluctance there is. I also had to let go.
Xiao Haotian is the emperor. What do you want to do. It's all freewheeling. And she's a woman. Especially here. A woman's life cannot be changed once it is decided. Take that step. There was no turning back for her.
She is now married to Xiao Haotian. It is impossible to want to openly say that it is impossible to leave. He is not the gentle Mu Zicheng. He was cold and tough. One day I want her. Even if it was to put a wooden chain around her neck. With a drag. With a pulled. He will also force her to follow him for the rest of her life.
Even when you don't want her anymore. He'd get somewhere to lock her up, too. and engraved his name on the door. Hang the key around your waist.
So she had no choice but to leave quietly.
In the past, lunch was served. Ling Dongwu got up late. Most of them will stay in their own palace to eat. But at noon on this day, she went to the 'Ming Zhao Palace'. Dine with Xiao Haotian.
When Xiao Haotian saw her. Obvious eyes lit up. Unexpectedly, I was overjoyed. I personally took the chopsticks and handed them to her.
Ling Dongwu saw his casual appearance. Sadness in my heart. Sure enough, from ancient times to the present. Men know how to deal with romantic affairs with cold treatment. But he completely ignored the pain of women.
She looked calm. Looking at him with a smile. Reached for the flask. Pour a glass of wine for Xiao Haotian. He said in a low voice: "Xianggong." Please. She just felt a heat in her eyes. Fog condensation. Then try to keep your eyes open. Blurry gaze into his face. A thousand times in my heart. In an instant, I don't know how many thoughts passed.
Xiao Haotian didn't expect her to call herself that. I was stunned. Only then did he slowly take the wine glass. I only felt that the orchid fragrance was fragrant and went straight to the tip of the nose. Silently clasped her hand.
Ling Dongwu stared at Xiao Haotian's handsome face. He looked at her with deep eyes. There was a hint of inquiry in his gaze. She only felt heartbroken and sad to the bone. It gushes out from the bottom of my heart. He did so much for her. Suffered so much. But there was no way for her to continue.
If only you could start all over again. She would rather never have met him. Just let him. Energetically continued his life in that world.
Ling Dongwu smiled reluctantly: "Lord Wang." I've been sleeping badly for the last two days. I heard that Dali Temple has been completed. I would like to go and stay for a few days. ”
"Okay." Xiao Haotian replied very dryly. After all that's said. He also felt that he had promised too much. It's rare to show an embarrassed smile. Explained: "It has just been completed. I've heard that it's very effective. You can stay for a few days. ”
Ling Dongwu stared at the man opposite him who kept saying that he loved him. A scheming person all his life. A person who has been in Taoguang all his life. How can you see through it yourself?
Her heart was like a sharp knife cutting through her. Xiao Haotian. Are you so eager for me to leave? All that she believes in. In the end, she lost everything. There was no way for her to hold on any longer. Good. I'm just as you want it to be.
"Lord Wang. I'll go to Dali Temple this afternoon. ”
Xiao Haotian was slightly startled. He didn't expect Ling Dong to suddenly call him the prince. I didn't expect Ling Dong to leave in such a hurry. He frowned slightly.
Ling Dongwu suddenly smiled at him. "I just want to go early and come back early."
Xiao Haotian listened. The brow slowly furrowed. A smile welled up on his lips.
Man. Once faked. It's really more fake than an eighty-year-old lady's dentures.
You never know if his mood was real.
Ling Dongwu sighed in his heart. Take a look up. Walked out slowly. There seemed to be an entangled gaze sticking to his feet. Every step you take. It felt like my heart was going to be heavy.
Walk out of the 'Ming Zhao Palace'. Tears began to fall from her eyes. From now on. She will leave him. How much she loved him. He will never know again.
At this time, she is. Apathy. In fact. If you had died on the battlefield. Or was killed by Prime Minister Song. Isn't it a hundred? It's even more enjoyable.
This taste of being killed by someone else and being killed by the person you love the most. It's completely different.
One is unconscious pain. Unconsciously. and vanished;
But. Latter. But it's heart-rending fear and anger. Abhor.
Three-foot white silk. A bottle of Crane Top Red. Or a pair of scissors. This is the traditional emperor. I like the most three-piece set to reward a woman who has fallen out of favor. Xiao Haotian. He might as well kill her by such means. That's faster. More thoroughly.
He also loves himself. Now so to yourself. It may not be his kindness.
Ling Dongwu stood in the main hall. Close your eyes slowly. Draw his facial features with his hands. She had to keep in mind what he looked like. Carved into my heart. Even if I never see him again. She would also remember everything about him clearly.
She knows. She knew what she was going to let go. But there was nothing she could do. In the blur of tears. I saw that the heavens and the earth were white and reckless.
This life. She couldn't give up. She could only watch and let go. Because. She couldn't afford it.
If love is gone. I had to let it go. Life goes on.
The queen travels. The guard of honor is naturally not trivial. The doors of the cars are connected. Mixed with large and small internal officials and imperial guards. It is more than ten miles away. Walk slowly down the main street. luxuriant
for spectacular.
Ling Dongwu sat in a gorgeous and comfortable carriage. Close your eyes slightly. Left. After all, I am a passer-by here. And he is finally leaving.
It's not that the heart is not despairing. It's like a death row inmate. Really after being sentenced to death. On the contrary, my heart is very relaxed now. After the dream was completely shattered. The world has not collapsed. The days go on. Because there is more to life than love.
Thinking about the future. A feeling of helplessness filled the bottom of my heart. I lost Xiao Haotian. The lover is gone. Friends are gone. Later. I'm alone again.