Chapter 5 The End of the World
At night, the grassland is quiet and beautiful, and the mountains and forests shrouded in moonlight seem to be covered with a layer of silver, exuding an intoxicating atmosphere.
The misty hot springs are surrounded by mist, like a dreamlike fairyland, and occasionally a little hare jumps and runs over, at first glance I thought it was Chang'e's Moon Palace. Tu Qitang put Liu Ye on the edge of the hot spring pool, and through the moonlight, he wanted to see every subtle expression on her face, and wanted to know how much weight he occupied in her heart.
Tu Qitang's slender fingers gently caressed her cheeks, along her eyebrows, outlining her beautiful outline. God knows how long he wanted to do this, but he didn't dare to blaspheme her, lest she would despise him and never be with him again.
So, he could only wait patiently, waiting for her heart to admit his existence, waiting for her to forget the past, waiting for her to accept him without scruples. But he almost couldn't wait any longer, he thought that as long as he kept giving, he would get her love, he dropped everything and followed her to Wusun, ready to work hard for her. However, until now, she is still thinking about the person who turned her back, Wusun Zuoxian Wang Weng Guimi.
She wants him to hand over Weng Guimi, and she wants to marry Weng Guimi and become the mother of the country, so what about him? And where will he be in it? Do you want him to give the woman he loves the most to other men with his own hands, and watch her become someone else's wife, and send blessings calmly?
No, he can't do it, he can't do it anyway! He loved her, and even if he couldn't fully own her, he couldn't allow her to be with another man!
At the thought of this, Tu Qitang couldn't help but get excited, put one hand around her slender waist, the other hand pressed the back of her head, and got close to her with courage, covering her trembling hot lips on her lips, continuing what they had left unfinished last time.
Liu Ye did not refuse, closed his eyes slightly, and endured his enthusiasm. His kiss was hot and domineering, tossing and sucking roughly, as if he couldn't wait to confirm her intentions, his breath thinning out, and he persistently took possession of the last breath between her lips and teeth. Sensing Liu Ye's gentle response, Tu Qitang's eager heart suddenly eased, originally he had made up his mind that whether she accepted it or not, he would get her kiss, but instead of resisting, she connived at his presumptuousness.
Tu Qitang was reluctant to hurt her, and the resentment in his heart disappeared with her gentleness, and he slowed down his movements and lingered tenderly with her. He was sure that she loved him, at least, that she had a place in his heart.
It feels so good to be cared for, Tu Qitang thought with relief, he longed for her warmth, and she didn't hesitate to give it to him. He cherished every minute and second with her, and if time could be frozen in this moment forever, he would be willing to die immediately.
I don't know how long it took, Liu Ye was almost out of breath, she tried to push Tu Qitang away, and moaned softly: "I can't breathe......"
Tu Qitang smiled knowingly, reluctantly let go of her, rubbing his thumb against her wet lips, looking at her crimson cheeks, and the primal impulse rushed wantonly in his body. She is like the most beautiful poppy, which makes people sink into her tenderness and do not want to be sober. He had always prided himself on his control, but at this moment, he wanted to throw off all restraints and indulge completely.
He thought that having her kiss was enough, but now he obviously longed for more, he loved her, loved her person, not her body, but why did he crave her body so much.
Tu Qitang was afraid that he would not be able to control himself and make a move that would hurt her, but he held her tightly in his arms, his hot breath brushed Liu Ye's ears, and he noticed his forbearance, and a trace of warmth flowed in her heart.
Thinking about it calmly, they are indeed not suitable for a more intimate development, perhaps, she still has to marry Weng Guimi and become his wife. If you want to become the mother of the country, this is the only feasible way. And Tu Qitang will also start his life again, he is the leader of the Xiling Sect, the prince of the Sabbath Dynasty, and they should not continue to be entangled.
"Tu Qitang, thank you for everything you have done for me, if I can't respond to your feelings, I hope you don't forgive me. I don't know if there will be an afterlife, but I hope I still have a chance to make amends......"
Liu Ye stretched out her arms around his waist, wanting to absorb more of the warmth on his body, and when she said this, her eyes were already wet, and she didn't know why, at the thought of being about to separate from him, her heart hurt like a tear open, dripping blood.
clearly warned herself not to be emotional to anyone anymore, she is a princess of anxiety, and her feelings do not belong to her. However, she was still moved without warning and accepted Tu Qitang from the bottom of her heart. If she was destined to marry Weng Guimi, why should she be emotionally attracted to him? There is no way to have this record in the history books, if she can, she really wants to ask the real princess of Anxiety, who is she in love with her heart?
Tu Qitang's heartstrings tensed instantly, it turned out that her response did not represent her choice, the person she recognized was Weng Guimi, because she had already made a decision. She would rather give up love to become the mother of the country of Wusun, and she will not change her decision for anyone, even him.
Tu Qitang sadly recognized this fact, but he couldn't bear to blame her, and she was no less painful than him in making this choice. He was willing to drop everything and go with her, and she couldn't, it was her choice.
"Ye'er, I said that I have the ability to let you subdue the Western Regions, the enemy that the Han wants to get rid of the most is the Xiongnu, as long as the Xiongnu are eliminated, then it will be done. Why are you obsessed with the position of the Mother of the Nation? Don't you believe what I say? Tu Qitang was unwilling, even if there was one percent hope, he had to persuade her to change her mind.
"I believe you can do it, but I don't want you to give up all your ...... for me" Liu Ye took a deep breath, raised his eyes to look at him, and tried to squeeze out a smile, "Tu Qitang, you should think about yourself, without me, your future will be bright." There are too many barriers between us, and they are not as simple as you and I think, and they are not something that can be let go if you want to. The meaning of my life is for the sake of the Han, and it will not change from beginning to end, I have accepted my fate, no matter how much it costs, it doesn't matter. And you are going to return to the Xiling Sect in the end, whether you are reluctant or not, you have to face the reality in the end, and besides, you are the prince of peace, you have to think about your country, how can you decide everything rashly? The Han Dynasty failed to get rid of the Xiongnu with all his national strength, do you know how much sacrifice you will have in doing so? ”
"I don't care, I don't want to go back to the Xiling Sect, and I don't want to be a prince, I just want you to ......" Tu Qitang shook his head excitedly, with pleading in his tone, "Ye'er, give me a little time, give me a chance, I will fulfill your wish at all costs, as long as we are together, I don't care about anything, is this not okay?" ”
Liu Ye looked at him movingly, she knew that if she nodded, Tu Qitang would really do something immeasurable regardless of everything. But is this really for his good? Let him give up his great future and become an enemy of the entire Western Regions, will he really be happy? Not to mention how difficult and dangerous the difficulties encountered during this period were, a Bright Moon Holy Maiden alone would not allow him to come so nonsense! With his passion gone, will he regret his decision today?
Liu Ye didn't dare to gamble on the future, and she didn't want to destroy Tu Qitang with her own hands, they were originally on two parallel lines that did not intersect, and now it was time to return to their original positions.
"I don't have the confidence to look to the future, all I can grasp is the present. Tu Qitang, I hope you can understand. Liu Ye sighed lightly and said what was in his heart.
Tu Qitang looked at her incomprehensibly, pondered for a moment, and struggled to say the truth he didn't want to believe: "You still love him?" Do you still love the man who abandoned you, Zuo Xianwang Weng Guimi? You don't want to go with me, not only to become the mother of the country of Wusun, you want to marry him and be his wife, right? ”
Liu Ye knew that he would find it difficult to accept this fact, but she could not deny that she was ready to marry Weng Guimi, even if the love between them no longer existed.
Liu Ye's hesitation made Tu Qitang more sure of his inference, he grabbed her shoulders out of control, and asked repeatedly, "Do you love him?" Do you love him more than me? You rejected me just to stay with him? If you don't love him anymore and want to be with him, I don't think I can accept your words. ”
"Yes, I still love him......" Liu Ye was ruthless and said something that made him desperate, "Because I can't forget him, I still have to marry him and be his wife." ”
Tu Qitang looked at her in a daze, slowly let go of his hands, and muttered: "Impossible, this is impossible, you obviously ...... me"
In order to make him die, Liu Ye continued: "I am grateful for everything you have done for me, but that is not love, the person I love is Weng Guimi, not you, Tu Qitang!" Is a woman like me worthy of your affection? Is it worth it for you to drop it all? If you are still obsessed, you will regret it in the future......"
"Don't say it, don't say it......" Tu Qitang held his head in his hands and retreated again and again, he couldn't stand this blow, a second ago, he was still the happiest man in the world, and in the blink of an eye, the woman he loved the most was about to leave him, in the most ruthless way.
Liu Ye couldn't bear to see him so sad, but he didn't want to continue to entangle, the long pain was better than the short pain, so let her end their hopeless relationship!
"Tu Qitang, it's good if you hate me, it's good to hate me, in short, don't forgive me." Liu Ye broke free from his embrace, lowered his eyes, covered the mist in his eyes, and hurriedly walked down the mountain.
Tu Qitang suddenly felt a cold in his chest, I don't know if it was because she left, or because of the heartache and numbness.
"If Weng Guimi is gone, you can't be the mother of the country of Wusun, will you go with me?" Tu Qitang asked faintly.
Liu Ye's heart sank, I didn't know if he was serious, he bit his lip, and said without looking back: "No." ”
Tu Qitang smiled bitterly and didn't say anything more, Liu Ye wanted to leave, and he didn't stay anymore. He has understood since he was sensible that what does not belong to him cannot be retained, and those who are destined to leave will leave sooner or later.
is close at hand, her heart is at the end of the world, and what she left him was only a moment of warmth.