In Su Yiluo's memory, the afternoon of the spring banquet in April of the seventh year of Yuanqing was the brightest in the first half of her life, the sky was blue like a wash, the sun was shining, her skirt was fluttering in the flowers and leaves, and the pace of running towards happiness was so hurried.

But it was from that day that the banquet that brightly faded, and the memory of the second half of her life suddenly turned white like her face reflected in the bronze mirror when the end came.

Transformation and end are the moving eyes of the man on the couch, from the confusion and charm of the previous moment, to the gloomy and cold irony of the next moment.

His warm snort and the color of his lips like a spring cherry blossom were once close to her.

It is also the distance of the end of the world.

Everything is a mirror, her wishful thinking.

But she was ......

Seeing that the jade face in front of him was far away, the corners of his lips were still smiling.

Between her slender fingers, Zhu Luo was entwined like a stream of red, and her palm gently clenched the ice fat butterfly that was taken from her waist.

He still had the wine on his body, and his eyes were already merciless, he tiptoed up, bent down with his beautiful waist, and picked up the brocade she had faded from.

She watched him sit leisurely on the chair in a daze, patting her coat and waist on the rosewood tea table, her eyes drooping, and she could see the sun shining in outside the window, the embroidery on the dyed robe, and the embarrassment of a soup stain.

Immersed in delusional thinking and unable to extricate herself, she didn't have time to panic.

"Ning."

With the cold tone, it was Concubine Ning's panicked kneeling, and Su Yiluo realized that her clothes were not neat, and her skirt and waist were scattered.

The funny thing is that at that time, she was still glad that she took advantage of her wish, and her deliberate plan was finally carried out step by step.

And then? She sat with her eyes down with joy in secret, listening to his cold questioning, Concubine Ning's panicked confession and explanation, kneeling forward and pulling the corner of his robe and choking sadly, and then Mama Yang outside finally noticed the strangeness, and when she entered, her face turned pale instantly.

"Please come to the prince and the princess, I think Mama should understand that this matter cannot be publicized."

Jalo later reflected on more than one occasion, regretting why she hadn't paid attention to the man's look when he said this.

What was she thinking?

Her long-cherished wish was fulfilled, and things were as she expected, without publicity, and without the bad results she had prepared for, resulting in scandalous things scattered and her reputation ruined. This is the spring banquet of the Chu Palace, it is the Guan Sui Yuan where Su Yijing lives, this man will not ignore the dignity of the palace, he will defend her, and he will protect himself...... Su Yijing is a person who understands, by now, she should know how to protect the family's reputation, maybe she will be angry, and afterwards she will be scolded for her frivolity in front of her grandmother and father, or she will be scolded for debauchery.

So what? She will finally marry the man she has promised and tie her hair with him.

Because the family will not allow the reputation to be damaged and the scandal to be exposed, and the power and prestige of the Patriotic Mansion are not to be lost by that man and the prince and queen behind him.

She is not Wei Mingyu, she is not allowed to be humiliated in public, she is the daughter of the Su family, so he will have some scruples.

Time is still long, she has the confidence that one day, she will wash away the unwillingness and disgust in his heart, she has given up the reputation of a woman, and she wants to grow old with him with white hair.

She has enough time in her life to make him understand that she is the one who loves him the most, whether it is Yichen or Yijing, she is not half as good as her.

Yu Haoxi, do you know what I have done for you? Since then, I have no way back, in order to get to you......

She straightened her clothes and straightened her back to wait for her fifth sister.

Fight for my happiness, you have no way out, only you can convince this man that he is willing to risk his life for you......

At that time, she even remembered the dispute between her and Yijing about the concubine many years ago, and how much she hated this insurmountable difference at that time, but Mama Song was right, what is the importance of the concubine? Glad that punishment made her meet him, so as to change her fate and life, and no longer be jealous of the fifth sister, you have your happiness, why can't I strive for my happiness?

And then what......

The fifth sister finally came, standing beside her beloved, looking at herself coldly.

Yiluo remembers that she smiled, and for the first time from the heart, she responded with a smile to the person who had made her jealous.

"I won't say much nonsense, it's the fault of the Ning family in this matter, but the Su family's Sanniang did such an ugly thing in order to seek the position of the prince and concubine...... Sister-in-law, the Weiguo Mansion will not approve of my daughter being carried into the Prince's Mansion by me in a small sedan chair and becoming a concubine with no name, but I will not allow Sister Ling to ruin my reputation in the future, saying that I have despised her without giving an explanation...... I don't want to be at odds with the Patriotic Mansion, and you don't want this to end up, do you? ”

"What does Your Highness really want?"

"It's still far away...... Sanniang, I can give it to my cousin-in-law to persuade me, and I believe that nothing embarrassing will happen in the future...... Please also ask the virtuous couple to remember today's events, and I will have to ask for a favor from me in the future. ”

"You and the third sister take the first step, and I will discuss the future with His Highness."

It was from that moment that her memory faded.

She sat there in a daze, until Yijing approached with a cold face and locked her arm.

"Third sister, follow me!" There is a cool tone that seems to be frozen by frost.

No! How so? If you want her to give up, it's impossible!

But her eyes could no longer reach the man's sight.

He sat there, smiling, still with the same touching face, not responding to her panicked gaze.

Suddenly, she lost the courage to question and the determination to plead.

He didn't want her...... Even if it comes to this...... A small sedan chair with no name...... Even so, she is willing, the Su family is unwilling, but she is willing!

It seems to be struggling, obviously victory is in sight, how can you give up halfway?

But why did you leave?

Yi Luo remembered that the words of the fifth sister were cold and unwarm.

"How do you want to? Su Xingsan's concubine died of illness, and the prince's mansion may have one more concubine who has seen the light, or maybe the maidservants will call you...... Aunt Cui? ”

A chill crept up from her fingertips and locked her heart tightly.

Only then did she know that she didn't expect this consequence, the consequences that she couldn't bear, she was rejected by him, abandoned by her family, and after making a desperate bet, she lost her life and even her life.

It's just that he doesn't want to face it, he doesn't want to face his own subtlety, he has never and will never be able to enter his life, give everything, and he can't face it squarely.

Aunt Cui...... Fifth sister, you are really vicious, and you hit it in one shot.

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Many years later, in Ci'an Palace, there was a cold season when the leaves fell in late autumn.

Yijing and Yichen sat by the window and drank tea, and there was a report handed over by the auxiliary king - the king of Xiliang destroyed the Zhaokang clan and captured the western capital.

After reading the report, Yijing put it on a few: "As soon as the Zhaokang clan was destroyed, the king of the north was also driven away by Dalong, and he was called a minister, and for at least a hundred years, the iron cavalry of the northern plains could no longer threaten the people of the border pass." ”

Suddenly, another chamberlain came with a bow and a quick follower, reporting that the Cai family had news that his wife was critically ill.

The sycamore leaves of Ci'an Palace are bleak yellow.

Yi Chen's eyes were red, and he asked tightly, "How can this be?" General Cai's bones were sent back to Jinyang, and the funeral was not over, and the third sister was ......"

Yijing was also sympathetic, and sighed: "The third sister has a deep knot in her heart and has been avoiding us...... It's inconvenient for my sister to go out of the palace, so I'll go for a trip, which can be regarded as a ride for the third sister. ”

The woman on the sickbed was not old, but she was already skinny.

"The fifth sister is here...... I thought you wouldn't come...... Needless to say, I know my own body, fifth sister, he is gone, I understand what I have lost, I thought that my heart died many years ago, but now, I know what it means to be heart death...... Take care of yourself? Fifth sister, others don't understand, don't you still understand? When the prince was seriously ill, how could you listen to these advices...... I really regret it...... I don't forget what never belonged to me, and I turn a blind eye to those who should really be cherished...... In my life, I have never left him a man and a woman, and if it weren't for him, I would have had a letter of resignation...... I found out when he was gone...... Fifth sister, I should thank you, but it's good that you're here. ”

Fingers are like dry bones, Sanniang clenched Yijing's palm: "I have forgotten many things, in the seventh year of Yuanqing, I have always remembered what you said to me." ”

I really remember it, but I've been obsessed with it.

Time back to the spring of the seventh year of Yuanqing, when the spring flowers bloomed, there was a silence in Guan Sui Garden, Mama Yang was full of solemnity, and the four maids in spring, summer and autumn were also silent, standing in front of the main hall to strictly guard against letting people get closer.

The acacia trees in the backyard are smiling in the spring breeze.

Sanniang's heart-rending cry came from inside the house: "Fifth sister, I beg you, count me beg you!" Your Highness will definitely listen to your persuasion and let him marry me......"

"Third sister, wake up! Didn't you hear the man? A concubine without a name, that's the only thing he's willing to give you! ”

"Nope! I am the daughter of the Su family, he will not treat me like this, and my father will also make decisions for me...... Yes, if you don't help me, I still have my father, I will go and beg him to come forward and force His Highness to compromise...... If you don't want to, it's a big deal to fight for a bad reputation, and I'd rather die than become his person. Sanniang's eyes suddenly burst into fanaticism, and her red eyes were crazy.

Yijing grabbed Sanniang, who was about to take the door, and pressed her into the chair with all her strength: "Listen to me, the third prince will not marry you, no matter how you make trouble...... Third sister, that person is not a good match, you ......"

"Fifth sister, you gave up on him yourself, don't you even want to give it to me? Su Yijing, I can't compare to you, my background and talent are not as good as you, I shouldn't be jealous of you, this is my life, I only ask you, I only ask you this time...... If you help me, I will remember your kindness even if I die. Sanniang pushed hard, struggling to open Yijing's arms, but knelt in front of her on both knees.

"Third sister, if that person is willing to marry you, he will not take your belongings to negotiate with us, don't you understand? Your plan with Concubine Ning has long been known to him, if he takes care of the Weiguo Mansion, he will not pretend to be drunk and lure you into the urn today! If he wants to marry you, he won't say that, that person doesn't care about you making a fuss, do you know why? Because the Weiguo Mansion will never allow the family reputation to be corrupted by a daughter, although the father loves you, he will not have a quarrel with the heavenly family for you, so far, you are not sober? Is it really going to be a mess? Forcing your father to endure the pain and ...... you Why were you willing to leave with me just now, because you are still arrogant and unwilling to be humiliated, but the way you look now really makes me despise. ”

There was a sudden silence.

Yijing looked down at Sanniang from a high altitude and didn't help her up.

"Yes, he won't marry me." After a long time, Sanniang smiled sympathetically: "But he also said that as long as the Guogong Mansion is willing to make me a concubine......

"Third sister, why did you hate me in the past, and why did you hate Aunt Cui? You are not actually disgusted with her, but you are unwilling to live under others, you are deeply ashamed because your biological mother is a concubine, you are proud, and inferior, what you want is unlimited honor, so that others look up to you and be ashamed of yourself in front of you, but look at you now...... What have you become of a ruthless man? Father loves you, and grandmother is not a ruthless person, maybe she will let you 'die of illness' and be carried into the prince's mansion as a daughter who is not the daughter of the Su family, but think about the future...... You no longer have any basis for fighting, your status is not even as good as the original Aunt Cui, anyone can humiliate you, and you can no longer hold your head high, that person can only laugh at you, because people who are willing to be lowly will never get the love of others, believe my words, give up yourself for a moment of obsession, and the only thing you can gain is regret. ”

Yi Jing thought of Wei Mingyu in that life, as well as herself.

I really don't want to watch Sanniang repeat the same mistakes.

But Sanniang couldn't understand it.

Tears slid down her lips, she tasted sour and astringent, she sat weakly on the still cold green brick floor, shook her head, and shook her head again: "I also want to be honored, and I also want to live with dignity...... But I have no way back...... You never know what I've done to get to him...... I can't just give up, or my aunt will ...... Die with a grievance or everlasting regret...... I've long been unable to be upright, and I'm doomed to regret it...... But I had to catch him...... At the very least, I will feel that what I am doing is not meaningless, so that I can feel happy and forget my regrets. ”

When the wind rises, the flowers and leaves sway, leaking the sun to shine through the window screen, illuminating Sanniang's half of the sad face.

Yijing "boomed" in his head, and grabbed Sanniang's clothes.

"Su Yiluo, what the hell have you done! How did Aunt Cui die? ”