This surprise is no small feat. Before Ruyi could pass this sentence in her heart, she felt a muffled thunder explode in her brain and fainted completely.

After a long time, I don't know how long it took, she woke up slowly, opened her eyes and looked at the cold starlight outside the window, the star's slightly white cold light, so cold that it penetrated to the bottom of her heart.

Her father died like this?

Xin Xin was beside her bed, sobbing and saying, "Little master, when the master died, the house was already very embarrassed. The little lord knows, and the grace of honoring the queen's mother's family has been passed down over the years, and it has come up to us with all the inner bags. And because of the matter of Queen Jingren Palace, in fact, many relatives have stopped coming, and the harvest on the grange is intermittently not as good as a year. still relies on the position of the little master in the palace, and the days are still about to pass. Now...... Now that the little master has been in for the past two years, the big family in the house doesn't know how sad they are. Now that the tree is falling and scattered, I heard that when the old man was dying, there were only three left in front of the bed: the lady, the little master, and the second lady. ”

There was a tingling sensation in the hot tears flowing through her skin, and her soul had already flown to the old boudoir, only listening to her own voice and asking emptily: "The Ulanala clan has so many relatives, are they all dead?" ”

With tears in his eyes, he said in a low voice: "Doesn't the little master know? The so-called relatives are all lively when cooking oil on the cake. When it really came to the time of difficulty, one by one escaped farther than eight poles. Now there is only a false name left in the house, and the old man died and only rewarded two hundred taels of silver in the palace, and he couldn't even get a funeral inside and out, or the little lord of Hailan tried his best to send five hundred taels of silver out, which was barely done like this. ”

The Wulanala Mansion of the Zhumen Embroidered Household, the wealthy family with successive generations of concubines, turned out to be vigorous, but it was just a withered people, the family wealth was scattered, and a high-rise building collapsed.

Her younger brother was only ten years old, and her younger sister was even younger, eight years old. My mother is already old, in her forties, and she has been suffering from constant illness for many years, so she needs to be treated for medicine. When the family is in a good situation, there are often doctors who come and go to greet them, which is not only a good medical skill, but also a symbol of glory.

If you have to be relatives of the emperor, you can't do this.

And now? Now I'm afraid that I can't even ask an ordinary doctor to take medicine, right? Although she knew that her father's body was getting worse day by day and gradually declining, but now that he left suddenly, it was not because the cold state of the world stimulated his increasingly old and weak heart.

Ruyi opened her eyes and let her eyes be blindfolded by tears: "What is Amma's disease?" Will you go so fast? ”

He said in his heart: "I heard from the person who reported that it has not been good since last autumn, and there is blood in the phlegm intermittently, and a mouthful of phlegm gushed up and blocked the throat this morning, and it was too late to ask the imperial doctor, so it passed." Before I heard this, I also begged my grandfather to tell my grandmother to invite many doctors, but either I couldn't get the money to hire a good doctor, or people looked down on us and refused to come. Therefore, the master's illness is dragged out. ”

Ruyi struggled to get up, threw herself out of the door, and cried: "Heart, I want to see my Amma, see my Ama for the last time!" ”

He hurriedly grabbed her and said, "Little master, little master, don't be sad." We can't get out, we can't get out for the rest of our lives! ”

Tears welled up, as if they were about to pierce the eyes. She was trapped here, like a nightingale that had lost its cry, and a bird that had broken its wings, and was trapped here for life.

Even when she was most embarrassed and painful, she never hated it like this, hated that she was in a cold palace and could not be free for life.

She cried exhausted, and fell down by the door, the cold moss under the wall almost against her face, wet and cold, melting her tears: "That's how his old man went, I ...... I couldn't even see him for the last time, and I couldn't even kowtow to him. ”

Ruyi knelt on the ground and kowtowed in the direction of Nan Nian's home: "Before my Ama leaves, do you have any words left?" ”

I wanted to speak and stopped: "The master only has one sentence, and he only swallowed his breath after saying this, and the house said that it must fall into your ears." ”

"What?"

Yi Xin frowned, and said in embarrassment: "The last words of the master are - Qing Ying, you are useless!" ”

The forehead was cold and hard to the ground, and the thump was dizzy. Scold! It's really useless! dragged himself down, dragged down his family, dragged him down until his father was dying, and he couldn't swallow this resentment. Ruyi's heart trembled, her body leaned back, and she almost wanted to faint.

Xin Xin hurriedly supported her, hugged her body and said, "Little master, little master, you have to take care." If you hurt your body again, there is really no hope in our house. ”

Ruyi's head was pressed against the cold mud to cool her mind. "Hope?" She laughed self-deprecatingly and wept, "Is there any hope?" ”

From the day she entered the cold palace, she knew that there was no hope. One breath is still alive, trying to survive, but I just don't want to die in vain. In the winter without charcoal, I can only take a bed quilt and cover myself thickly, and I can't wait to hibernate like a snake and a mouse. But I could only wake up, gritting my teeth to resist the cold, swallowing cold and unpalatable food, and lingering for a long time. When the pain of rheumatism spreads in the limbs, it is as if the limbs are no longer their own, as if they are watching someone cut their bones and grind little by little. She endured them all.

But she forgot, thinking that she could seek peace with each other, but she neglected to be abolished because of her fall from grace, and the already declining family was even more scattered.

It was she who forgot, it was her negligence. The honor and disgrace of the family are all tied to her, how can she continue to endure in the cold palace and have no future?

That night, she could barely sleep. In July, the rain is dashing, the wind is depressed, the rain is also depressed, and the originally hot weather is wrapped in the sudden cold wind and cold rain, blowing a burst of heat and coldness on her body, just like a heart that she is tumbling and cooking in boiling oil and ice chips. She listened to the night rain beating on the green tiles, and the cold and hard sound of fluttering, vast and long, as if it were countless low weepings, from the distant netherworld.

After two nights of tossing and turning like this, she felt very tired, but she couldn't sleep. The rain was pouring down endlessly, as if tears were falling for her. Finally, in the midst of her daze, she was so tired that she closed her eyes.

But it is still unstable, and the shadow of the past is in a trance. Ama is honest, but he is only a leader, but he loves this eldest daughter very much. Although E-Niang's temperament is more powerful, in the end, she is also a woman's family, and what she studies every day is how to cook a good meal and make the whole family happy and satisfied. The younger sister is naïve, the younger brother is gentle, and she, in addition to controlling her younger siblings, only knows how to embroider needles and embroidery, boudoir games. A harmonious family, the laughter and laughter have never dispersed in the ears. However, at dusk that day, it was my aunt who asked her to enter the palace, and my aunt at that time, graceful and luxurious, always had a faint smile that never faded, and insisted on her sign language to talk to her earnestly.

Although the Wulanala clan is out of her as the queen, the family road below has gradually faded.

The Ulanala clan no longer has a young daughter of the right age, only you, Qing Ying, are the right age, and you are the closest to your aunt.

If there is no female dependent to enter the palace, or to become a relative of the emperor, how can the glory of the Ulanala clan continue?

The men of the Ulanala clan are useless, only women, and only rely on women.

That year, she was still so ignorant, but her aunt held her hand so hard, she had no choice, because she was the daughter of the Ulanala clan.

Suddenly, my aunt's face turned infinitely sad, full of gorgeous hair, and the pearls in the bun only accentuated her aging and misery. She was dressed in the queen's clothes, but the clothes were very old.

The aunt was full of emotion and forced to look at her:

"Back then, the Empress Dowager Xiaogongren told me that the daughter of the Wulanala clan must be in the middle palace, and now I will tell you this sentence as well. Do you dare? ”

"Favorite concubine? What else is there besides having pampering? The biggest advantage of the favored concubine is just to be favored, a woman, after being favored, will fall out of favor, and she will only be worse than dead. How can we have a short-sighted person like you? ”

"When you are in the twilight of your face and your wit is exhausted, what else can you rely on to compete for favor? My aunt asked you, pampering is face, power is lining, which one do you want? ”

She was forced to say, "Qingying is greedy, so she naturally wants to get both." But if you can't, it's naturally the most important thing. Although this road is difficult, Qingying has no way to retreat, only to move forward. ”

My aunt was finally relieved: "Qing Sakura, you have to understand that when a person can give up everything, it is when she is truly fearless. ”

What else does she have to lose? Glory and power, her husband's trust, the future of the family, all have been lost, what else can she be afraid of?

There was a cold wind approaching layer by layer, and my aunt was dressed in black, with a cloak and hair, like a ghost, her eyes were red with anger, and she slapped herself vigorously. She only vaguely remembered that her aunt had died, and she had been dead for a long time without a name.

The aunt slapped her fiercely, and reprimanded sharply: "The Wulanala clan has already produced an abandoned woman, and there can be no second abandoned woman!" Why can you still be an abandoned woman in the cold palace? To be an abandoned woman who is ashamed to be the door? Why don't you remember, you are the daughter of the Ulanala clan? You live well, not for you alone, but for the honor and disgrace of the entire family! ”

Her aunt's slap was so hard and precise that it fell on her face violently one after another, and it also twitched her already ignorant heart. Behind my aunt is the old Amma, who is full of tears, helpless and weak.

If the family was forced to die early, then why wasn't he one of the culprits? Because she didn't have the ability to protect herself, she could only watch her family decline one by one, and there was nothing she could do.

Her cold sweat was dripping, and her aunt was right, how could she be the daughter of the Ulanala clan?

She was awakened from her stupor, sweating profusely, leaning against the wall where the powder was falling.

The feeling of being raw is so wonderful, even if the air in your mouth has a damp musty smell that makes you feel sick. But, after all, he is alive, and he has to live well.