Chapter 162: The love of children grows into death
A concubine is a concubine, he treats her so well, he will definitely give her a lot of freedom, he will not force her to do what she doesn't like, and he will give her the paradise-like life she wants. And she doesn't love him, and she doesn't have to worry about getting caught up in endless family battles in the future in order to compete with other wives and concubines for husbands. Even if he slept with other wives and concubines every day for 365 days a year, she would not feel sad, because she did not love him.
And Meng Xuan must not have had any affection for her, otherwise he wouldn't have stopped coming to see her for three years.
How good it is that two people who have a close relationship but no love between men and women go together for the rest of their lives, and he gives her a safe haven and a free life; She added fragrance to his red sleeves and helped him a little at the right time. He "died" in the early years of Jianwen, so he didn't know that Emperor Hui and King Yan, a pair of uncles and nephews, would fight each other in the future and start a battle for the throne, and she could help him avoid evil and rise step by step according to the historical facts she knew.
What about amorous? Amorous is always ruthlessly annoyed, she is affectionate to Zhu Quan, but in the end it turned out to be just a joke, she has never understood Zhu Quan at all, what does she like about Zhu Quan?
Therefore, the best partner is still both ruthless...... She and Meng Xuan will definitely cooperate tacitly and become a pair of think tank partners that everyone envies, just like she and Qing'er...... Qing'er often said that if she was a man, she would definitely marry her, and only marry her...... The more she thought about it, the more she thought about it, the more she felt that it was a brilliant idea, which would allow her and him to be mutually beneficial, and each to have what he wanted.
When she almost couldn't help but ask, was he willing to accept her as a concubine, Meng Xuan suddenly spoke one step ahead of her, and her mouth was a menacing tone, almost shouting at her from the bamboo tip to the bamboo root, and then shouting more than ten zhang underground as if she didn't understand her hatred.
He almost stunned her, where was her breezy and gentle little master?
Meng Xuan asked her why she didn't tell her that she had saved him, why she acted mysteriously, why she was an unknown prophet, why she had eyes that didn't belong to her age, and he asked her who she was. He asked her why she kept turning her head elsewhere when he showed her a heart!
She looked at Meng Xuan in disbelief, who was warming her feet, he was not at all like the Meng Xuan she knew, he was simply a Duan Xiaolou wearing Meng Xuan's skin!
He was manic, anxious, and angry, and his eyes were full of intense emotions after being stabbed. He said that he "gave his heart" to her, and that she could not understand it...... Does he like himself a little? She timidly confided to him that she didn't know he had feelings for her. The thought was, did he really like himself? Don't deny it, don't deny it......
Not only did he not deny this, but he also angrily said that he couldn't exchange his love for all kinds of efforts, blaming her for not abiding by the law of thousands of gold, and not sharing the embroidery in the boudoir, but she provoked Bai Yangbai, Duan Xiaolou, Peng Yan, Gao Jue, and him! He complained that she was merciful everywhere, and he repeatedly mentioned the name of that nightmarish Zhu Quan! It turned out that at that time three years ago, in addition to teaching her martial arts, he also followed her part-time and secretly found out which men she had been in contact with! Oh my God, this is the gentle young man she thought she could save herself from the sea of misery.
She thought that she had a natural tacit understanding with him, so even though she was not familiar with him, she could understand his heart and temperament, wasn't he a humble gentleman who followed everything with fate? When did it become Duan Xiaolou's second?
He is like this, Duan Xiaolou is also like this, complaining that she is an iceman who can't cover her heat, is it really that she is too cold, or are they too inch-when did they become like this? When Duan Xiaolou first met on the mountain road, he smiled as if he didn't know the sorrow of the world, looked at her and shouted "interesting", why can't he and her always be a pair of "interesting" friends? Since when did Duan Xiaolou always frown every time he saw her? At first, he begged to marry her, but when his mother set a threshold for him, he turned to ask to marry her as a concubine, and even designed to trap her in a predicament, just to let her open her mouth and ask him for help.
Is Meng Xuan and Duan Xiaolou so arrogant and domineering by nature, or has she changed them?
What did she do wrong, why did these two people look like two wounded leopards, eager to bite her to the point of blood. Even if she provoked Duan Xiaolou and told him that she could consider his proposal, but she had never been involved in a relationship with Meng Xuan, and when it came to marriage, all she wanted to find was a lifebuoy, hasn't he always been happy to play such a role, why did he change to another role.
Looking at Meng Xuan, who was so aberrated in front of her, while she was apologetic and sad, she still silently hypnotized herself and said that any man is a thousand times better than Zhu Quan, and when it comes to the critical moment of last resort, she can marry any man except Zhu Quan. Since it's not Duan Xiaolou, that's him, since he likes her so much that he wants to bite her to death, then she always has a way to make him stop liking her, just like he did to Duan Xiaolou.
Then, she tested Meng Xuan's attitude, saying that she had already made a marriage, and sure enough, in a hurry, he said the answer she was most looking forward to at the moment, he said that he would let his father propose. She breathed a sigh of relief in her heart, she had been looking forward to this sentence for a year, and with such a guarantee, she could eat two more bowls of rice tonight.
When she went to confirm further—well, she suddenly became greedy, and wanted to ask him if he could marry her, and if his father would agree to this family affair, and Meng Xuan was visibly stunned for a moment, for a long moment, so that she could clearly hear the bird behind her being caught by a goshawk, and its wings fluttering.
Well, it was her delusion, it turned out that he said that he would let his father come to "propose", but he was really just talking. Just like Duan Xiaolou, he obviously had no right to decide who his wife was, but he wanted to promise her that position, and when he learned that he was stuffed with a noble girl as his wife, he didn't even have a surprised expression, as if he had already understood in his heart that such a thing would meet him unexpectedly one day. He just blindly grabbed her and poured out his affection, saying that no matter who became his wife, he would give her his best love.
At that time, she knew that Duan Xiaolou might not have planned to marry her at all, or that he had long accepted the reality that she would never be his wife, but he still held a sweet bait called "wife", lured her closer, and then pulled the rope to lock her in the cage.
Duan Xiaolou confessed herself incoherently, but she was as ruthless as a handful of snow on Changbai Mountain, and her gentle voice was like a knife, I'm sorry Duan Xiaolou, I don't like you at all, so your "best love" is worthless to me, before you said that I should be a wife, I barely coped with you a few times at a moment's notice, hehe, you know that with an identity like me, there are not many opportunities to be a wife, since this matter has failed, then let's come and go, the business is not benevolent, Lord Duan, you go back to the capital, Isn't your official business in Yangzhou long over?
Duan Xiaolou walked away with the bloody wound, and before leaving, he came to her, saying that if she had any trouble in the future, as long as Hongyan asked for a book, no matter where he was, he would rush to help her. What a good person, why did he treat her so well, she was just a shady person who always stood in the shadows, peeping at them who walked in the sun. Duan Xiaolou rode away in Luoxia, she shook off this piece of sticky maltose and shed tears happily.
Originally, originally, Meng Xuan was crazy for a while, yelling and shaking her, as if how much he liked her, which made her a little moved, and even couldn't help but think, that day he swore in the water business view that he wanted to find a husband who raised his eyebrows and grew old together, would he be the most suitable candidate? However, however, he did not like it to the point where he could marry her categorically, and he would not marry another woman except her in the future.
Meng Xuan, in fact, I'm just asking, why shouldn't you say a word and lie to me. Actually, I'm also lying to you, when I heard that you didn't have the right to choose a wife, I wanted to have a "business is not benevolent" with you like I did to Duan Xiaolou, but in order for you to help me get rid of Zhu Quan's covetousness, I still have to pretend to be intimate with you casually, pretending that I am also deeply in love with you and reluctant.
Anyway, she should have been glad that he didn't like her to the point where he wanted to marry her, before she began to like him a little.
So very good, anyway, he is just a chess piece that she picks and chooses and finds the most suitable to help her get out of this predicament, and now he says that he also likes her a little, so she must take the opportunity to get on him, and before he leaves Yangzhou, he will get a place of "General Meng's concubine".
Since he didn't like her to be too close to Bai Yangbai, she had to rely on him. He asked Bai Yangbai to "guard the great defense of men and women", is it also implying that she does not abide by women's morals, then she will have to pretend to be very polite and well-behaved in front of him in the future, so that he has no doubts about her chastity, and give her a place as a concubine, so that she can block the wind and rain on the sea.
The night covered the land, and when the north wind blew, every grass and tree in the whole valley shook, and only the three sitting people were motionless.
Meng Xuan frowned and looked at He Angelica, his heart was full of doubts, he blamed Bai Yangbai like this, in fact, he wanted her to say a few more words with herself, since she had just finished the quarrel, she didn't talk to herself. He remembered that three years ago, every time he squeezed Bai Yangbai like this, she always had to speak out for Bai Yangbai, why didn't she say anything today, or did she still be angry with him and didn't want to say a word to him anymore?
Meng Xuan felt a burst of chagrin in her heart, although it was wrong for her to quarrel-for-tat with her, but how could she let that Duan Xiaolou keep going over the wall to find her in Luofu, even if she believed in her ethics and would not do anything out of the ordinary with Duan Xiaolou, but Duan Xiaolou was not the case with her. The bystander was clear, and he clearly saw that Duan Xiaolou's eyes looking at her were becoming more and more intense day by day, and his behavior was becoming more and more excessive day by day, Duan Xiaolou would not be able to hold back sooner or later! Isn't this girl always the smartest and most vigilant, how could she let a leopard like Duan Xiaolou who is ready to attack frequently enter and leave her boudoir?
Three years ago, he accidentally revealed the secret of his two lives to her, thinking that she would say that he was bragging, but she immediately believed him. So, he first begged her to keep it secret for himself, and then told her all the experiences of his past and present lives in detail, just to let her understand that although he was not as old as Duan Xiaolou, he was much more mature and considerate than Duan Xiaolou. Although at that time, his skills, abilities, and power were not as good as Duan Xiaolou's, but in time, he would definitely become a more reliable man than Duan Xiaolou.
But the day after he revealed his secret, Duan Xiaolou hugged her again, and she didn't even mean to struggle. Why is she so docile? She let herself hold it because of the need to pass on the gong, and each other is a teenager's child's body; She let Duan Xiaolou hug each other, is it because she likes each other?
At that time, he was just watching from the sidelines, and he didn't step forward to pull the two away, or run to question her at night, because he was holding a child's body at that time, and he couldn't match Duan Xiaolou in many aspects. Thinking that the girl was also a child, he would never marry so early, so he chose to leave, wanting her to miss him after losing him, and also make herself stronger, and become a man who could protect her and go to Luofu to take her away.
He shed blood and sweat on the battlefield, spent his years in the sword, and expanded his power in the rivers and lakes and temples.
In the past three years, he never thought about her, at first he closed his mind and used various heart sutras and various spells to drive her out, and then he gradually really didn't want her, and later, when he tried to recall her appearance, he was also a face that he had never seen among the many delicate faces, in addition to beauty, in addition to the cold eyes like a well, in fact, she was not very special......
He hypnotized himself like this repeatedly, she was just a smart and beautiful little girl, there are many such women in the world, but he rarely touched women, so he was attracted to her, and then couldn't extricate himself. Now that he has withdrawn, why bother to worry about her again, when he meets a woman who is really suitable for him, he will find that the flower-like infatuation and poisonous weed-like jealousy in the past are all an illusory reflection in the water, his self-righteous unrequited love, which is far from true love...... It must be so, yes.
After hypnosis, he gradually lost his infatuation with her kind of woman like an ice cube, and when he returned to the capital every year, his mother would always find various reasons to let him see all kinds of daughters, some were gentle as water, some were as passionate as fire, and some had both. So he told himself again and again that these women were all very good, and it was time for him to choose a good wife among them, and that he had lived in his previous life, and that he was already in his thirties, and that it was time for him to marry and have children.
He would walk around Yangzhou when he passed, and his heart would not tremble a little when he walked around, so he told himself with relief, look, isn't this already done. Life is only a hundred years, there are so many things to do and things to see, why bother to be tied to a person, not to mention that person never looks at you squarely, only when you are a passerby.
He thought with relief that now that he had let go of his obsession, even if he passed by her window the next time, he would be able to walk through it step by step with the same face as usual. The next time he talks to her face to face, he can also insist on saying more than a dozen sentences, and his voice will not tremble a little, like greeting an old friend who has been reunited for a long time, he smiled and said hello, hey, girl, remember me, I am Meng Xuan, we used to play together when we were children, I didn't expect you to be here, what a coincidence.
Later, he actually saw her face to face.
He had forgotten her for a long time, and he didn't want to see her again, why did God let him see her.
He went to Yangzhou to participate in a martial arts event, and before leaving, he comforted himself that Yangzhou was so big that he might not meet her for ten days. Dean Bai invited him to go around Chengxu and admire a century-old sword, and he agreed to come down by a ghost...... Ancient swords are rare to see.
Back in the secret room of the other courtyard, he took out a strand of her black hair stained with "worry-free incense" from the sachet, this strand of black hair that was stolen after lighting her sleeping hole, he kissed her hair while telling himself, he went back quickly, he didn't go anywhere except Dean Bai's room, she often didn't go to school, he wouldn't meet her, maybe she had left Chengxu, maybe she had found a wishful husband and was waiting to be married at home.
He didn't like her for a long time, there are so many women like her in the world, and if you look slowly, you will always find another one.
He thought he didn't like her anymore...... Until the moment before he saw her face. Just one glance at her little face, which was colder than the crescent moon dripping with stream, the chest pain he had suffered from three years ago was suddenly cured without medicine, and the hollowed-out chunk of his chest was immediately filled.