Du Lei stopped the car at a long distance. At that time, I was already crazy, I didn't hear any movement at all, when Du Lei arrived at the scene, I was still strangling Zhou Ling's neck with a rope, but Zhou Ling's body was motionless. As soon as Du Lei wanted to rush over, I stood up.

Du Lei stopped at a critical moment. He found that I was crying and laughing, but Zhou Ling didn't react at all. He knew that Zhou Ling was dead. Du Lei couldn't believe his eyes, he didn't expect that I would kill someone, and what he didn't expect was that what I killed was his biological father.

At that time, Du Lei's mind was also blank. He didn't know whether to rush over or just stand still. At that time, I seemed to vaguely notice something, I picked up the gun from the ground and rushed towards the grass around me, and Du Lei finally reacted.

He endured the sharp pain in his heart and hid. At that time, he had a gun in his hand, he had already pulled it out, and from his angle, he had aimed it at me. I am dead or alive, just in the blink of his mind. However, Du Lei did not shoot in the end.

Soon, I returned to Zhou Ling's body, and then, in a panic, I dropped my gun and drove away. Du Lei's head was completely stunned at the time, he stared at my car and left, but he didn't stop it at all. Du Lei said that at that time, he really felt that it was a nightmare.

After I left, Du Lei slowly walked towards Zhou Ling's corpse. He squatted down and repeatedly confirmed that Zhou Ling was really out of breath. For this person, he didn't know what his feelings were. He always thought that he had no feelings for Zhou Ling, but when Zhou Ling died by his side like that, his heart hurt as if it had been crushed.

At the beginning, Du Lei and Zhou Ling went up the mountain to kill Zhou Ling, but after so many years of getting along, it wasn't until Zhou Ling died that Du Lei knew that blood relatives could never be separated. He was sad because of Zhou Ling's death, but he was happy because of Zhou Ling's death, because Du was finally able to stay with Zhou Ling forever.

Zhou Ling is a figure who cannot be made public, and Du Lei cannot choose to call the police. In order not to be found by the police Zhou Ling's traces, Du Lei endured the pain in his heart on that rainy night and cleaned up the scene. The cleanup lasted several hours, there was no blood on the site, and it was easy to clean up.

However, it still took a long time for Du Lei.

"My body is like having no strength, Zhou Ling's death makes me happy and sad, you are a murderer, let me be surprised!" Du Lei's voice suddenly became excited. Under such complicated emotions, it took Du Lei a long time to finally carry Zhou Ling's body into the car.

While driving, Du Lei almost had a car accident several times, and he was already disrupted. Because, he didn't know why I suddenly appeared there, and why I suddenly attacked Zhou Ling and killed him. Du Lei thought about it, maybe Zhou Ling shot at me first.

However, there was a gun at the scene, which was Zhou Ling's. If Zhou Ling really wants to kill me, just shoot me. And if I killed Zhou Ling out of legitimate self-defense or justifiable reasons because the situation was urgent, I should have chosen to notify the police as soon as possible, rather than fleeing the scene in a panic.

All signs are that I really killed someone, committed intentional homicide.

Du Lei cremated Zhou Ling's body at the first time. When he returned to the police academy, he heard Xu Yi say, I locked myself in my room, didn't eat or drink, and was decadent and unhuman. Du Lei's heart at that time was cold and abnormal, and at that time, he still couldn't believe that I would intentionally kill someone.

But my reaction was clearly that I had broken down because I had killed someone. Criminals kill people, and their hearts are basically not touched, ordinary people will panic and be afraid when they kill people, and people like me, who have absolute faith in justice and law, once they commit crimes, their faith will collapse.

This is the hurdle I really can't overcome, my hands are covered with blood, which is more unacceptable than I have a brain tumor, more disabled than me, and more than all the people around me have left. I will only be a wasted person, completely wasted. That period of decadence is the biggest shadow of my life.

Du Lei didn't know why I killed someone.

But we all know that maybe I killed for a reason, but I still killed someone after all, and when I was conscious, I killed Zhou Ling. I also suddenly understood why everyone said that during that decadent time, only Xu Yi went to the unit to accompany me.

Du Lei, as my closest friend, was supposed to accompany me like Xu Yi during that time. However, Du Lei did not appear, because the person I killed was Du Lei's biological father. Du Lei's voice also trembled: "I'm wondering, if I want to kill you and avenge Zhou Ling." ”

It is absolutely impossible to call the police, once the police start an investigation, Zhou Ling's death may not be hidden, and Zhou Ling and his years of hard work may be in vain. Even, during that time, Du Lei was worried that I would go to the police station to turn myself in. He thought that if I were to go to the police station and turn myself in, he would just kill me.

However, I didn't turn myself in in the end. Du Lei's mood is conflicted, he wants to kill me, but he can't do it, he doesn't want the police to know and expose their secrets, but he despises me from the bottom of his heart because I didn't turn myself in. At that time, he knew that Professor Li, who had always been righteous, would also kill and kill people, and he didn't dare to let the police know.

My tears still kept rolling down, my heart trembled, and I couldn't accept this sudden memory. I suddenly looked up: "I remember, I've been there too." "I suddenly felt that I was so ugly, uglier than any criminal, and this ugliness was visceral and disgusting.

Yes, I vaguely remembered a little memory again.

During those days in the unit, I didn't eat or drink, and a lot of food was forced into my mouth by Xu Yi and my mother when I was exhausted and unconscious. It seems that a day or two after Zhou Ling's death, I dragged my tired body and rushed out of the room.

Xu Yi took care of me for many days, and my mother kept watch outside the door for many days, and they were all tired, and when I rushed out of the room, they didn't even have time to react. I stumbled out of the police academy, I got into a car, and panicked to the place where Zhou Ling died. However, when I got there, I found that the body was gone, and all traces were gone.

Once again, I returned home dejected, and Xu Yi and my mother had already made many people look for me. The first thing I did when I got back to the unit was to call Wen Ning.

Strangely, I remember this conversation very clearly.

"Have there been any homicides recently?"

"No, Professor Li, what have happened to you these days?"

"Wen Ning, I have something to say to you......"

"What's the matter?"

A dozen seconds of silence followed.

Ultimately.

"It's fine."

The phone was hung up.

I know, at that time, I thought about confessing everything to Wen Ning, but in the end, I didn't say anything.

Ugly, I actually called Wen Ning to test Wen Ning because of the disappearance of the corpse and traces of the crime. At that time, I must have thought that the police had found the body and dealt with it. Now I know that Du Lei cleaned up the body not long after Zhou Ling's death.

I still remember that I made another phone call after that, this time to Dr. Liu. After that, I can only remember a little, but I don't even need to think about it to know that I asked Dr. Liu to hypnotize me. Dr. Liu, in the past 20 years, has been playing the role of an insider, he is not a layout person, but he knows a lot of secrets, but he has never said it.

Even if I kill someone, Dr. Liu knows it. I didn't cross that hurdle, I asked Dr. Liu to hypnotize me, which made me even more ugly. In order not to let his faith collapse, in order to continue to live for himself.

But I did kill someone.