In the stereo, Charlie Clayderman's "Autumn Whispers" was playing, and the dim light was just enough to see the surroundings, and Qing Ci and Su Bo chose a corner to sit down.

Qing Ci took a look at this café, the partition wall made of quaint vines is hung with exquisite trinkets, there is a row of bookshelves next to it, on which all kinds of books and ornaments are placed, and there is a small table lamp on the table, which is also entwined with rattan, and the whole decoration is very natural and simple.

Sitting on the sofa and lying back, I fell into a piece of softness, and my stiff body was finally relaxed.

The waiter quickly brought the rose tea and mousse they ordered, and the tea in the cup was steaming, and Qingci and Su Bo sat face to face, and no one moved.

"Autumn Whispers" is over, and Bandari's "Snow Dreams" resounds in the café, and Subo finally asks, "Do you work around here?" ”

"Nope." Qingci shook his head, "I'm here to talk about the publication of novels. ”

Subo asked, "Is it the book "Live Hard, Love Hard"?" (Note: The title of this book is purely fictitious)

Qing Ci was a little surprised: "How do you know?" ”

Su Bo organized the language and said: "I saw it on the Internet by chance, and when I saw the author and your name, I clicked on it and looked at it, and when I read it, I found your shadow on the heroine's body, so I wondered if this book would be written by you." ”

Su Bo could read her figure from between the words, which made Qing Ci very pleased, and she responded with a smile: "I was too lazy to think about a pen name at that time." ”

That novel is all her wishes for life, and it reveals a lot of her own thoughts, and Qingci doesn't want to talk about it, so she takes the topic away: "By the way, shouldn't you be in Beijing?" Why did you come to S City? ”

Subo replied, "Come to a Sino-German academic exchange meeting. ”

Smiling slightly, Qing Ci echoed and said, "It seems that you have mixed well over the years." ”

Su Bo didn't say much about this, over the years, he has almost put all his energy into academic research, and he should have made small achievements, he sighed: "It's over, and the ticket back to Beijing the day after tomorrow." ”

Qing Ci asked, "Since it's over, why don't you leave until the day after tomorrow?" ”

Su Bo replied: "It's a few students who have been brought in X University before, they worked here after graduation, and when they heard me come to S City, they said that they wanted to get together, and it didn't matter if they went back anyway, so they agreed." ”

"Oh."

Seeing that Qingci was not interested and just bowed his head to eat the mousse, Su Bo said: "There is one who is the same as you, you should know each other, I haven't seen you for many years, it's better to have a party tomorrow, you can come too!" Give me my phone and I'll send you the address. ”

Looking at Su Bo's expectant eyes, Qing Ci nodded like a ghost: "Okay!" As he spoke, he took out his phone from his bag.

As soon as Qing Ci took it out, Su Bo took it, deposited his mobile phone number on her mobile phone, and then dialed his own phone again, and after the phone rang, Su Bo hung up the phone and returned the phone to Qing Ci.

Su Bo saved Qingci's phone number and said, "I'll send it to you after I set the address." ”

Qing Ci nodded: "Okay." ”

After ten years, on the day of the occasional reunion, Su Bo and Qingci sitting in the café didn't say much, as if they were afraid of the collapse of the line of defense in their hearts, but they couldn't help but be greedy.

That night, they sat until eleven o'clock, when they finally said goodbye.

When leaving, Su Bo offered to send Qing Ci back, but Qing Ci refused and took a taxi back to the hotel.

That night, Qing Ci sat on the bed in the hotel alone all night.

The phone quilt was still on the quilt, and the communication records were displayed on it, the most recent one was Su Bo.

Eight years ago, after graduating from university, I returned to my hometown of Y City, and found a job that had nothing to do with my major, working from 9 to 5 every day, and staying at home to watch writing and writing when I was resting.

After two years like this, almost all of her friends in her hometown got married, and her family began to worry about her marriage.

At the beginning, Qing Ci was reluctant to go on a blind date, so he quarreled with his family a few times, and finally under the persuasion of his friends, he obediently started the first blind date, and then it was a long blind date.

Relatives and friends can contact the age of Qingci have seen it all over again, but she hasn't met a person she likes, but there are a lot of people who like her, but whenever others show this meaning, Qingci either turns them into strangers or buddies.

After two or three years in this way, Qing Ci became an older leftover girl in everyone's eyes, and some gossip began to appear in her ears.

A girl's family refuses to get married or fall in love, which is abnormal in the eyes of many people, and even Qingci's mother began to look at her with strange eyes.

Finally in the Spring Festival of 2014, the relatives at home gathered, and a large table of people talked about it and finally pulled it to Qing Ci's body, that day, she was drenched in the blood of her closest relatives at the dinner table, Qing Ci finally couldn't help but shoot the case: "Get married, get married, what's wrong with me not getting married?" What's in your way? It's my freedom to get married or not, and I can still live a good life if I don't get married, so why do I have to get married? What about running three? Should Ben San go to the street and marry a random man? ”

Seeing Qing Ci slapping the table in front of the elders, her mother was also angry: "What are you yelling at?" When a girl is older, she should find someone to marry, if she doesn't have a family, if she doesn't have a family, it's all abnormal, it's all neurosis! ”

"Okay, then I'm a psychopath, I just don't get married, let me find a random man to marry, I might as well die."

The mother was also annoyed, and her words were out of weight, so she said directly: "Then if you die, I will treat you as if I never gave birth to a girl." ”

At that moment, Qing Ci really felt that the so-called family affection was suffocating her, she held back her tears and said in despair: "Okay, I'll die." ”

Then Qing Ci left, stopped a taxi on the street and took it to the train station, bought a train ticket casually and left the house.

Since then, Qingci has never been back.

In order to block the strange eyes of others, Qing Ci began to pay attention to dressing up, and turned herself into an elegant and charming woman, she always appeared in front of everyone with a perfect image, as if this could prove that a person can live a good life.

A beautiful life that lives by oneself does not need another person to accompany you.

Maybe this kind of Qingci really deceived many people, but she couldn't deceive herself, especially during the New Year's holidays, Qingci felt extremely desolate, and the external "very good" and "beautiful" became a real irony.

Last year, during the Chinese New Year, she walked alone on the snowy streets of another country, and wanted to go home, so she dialed her mother's phone, she thought that she had not seen her for three years, and her mother would forgive her and understand her because she missed her, but no.

My mother only said on the other end of the phone: "Don't go home if you don't have a partner, I'm afraid of being embarrassed."

This sentence dispelled all Qing Ci's thoughts, and she squatted on the deserted street and cried bitterly.

In fact, Qingci is not that she doesn't want to fall in love or get married, she is envious of watching her friends enter the marriage hall one by one, and watching the circle of friends gradually become a holy place for babies.

But what's the use of envy?

Who is she married to?

The most important thing in this world is men and women, she knows many men and has been married many times, but what is the use? From the bottom of her heart, she couldn't accept those people, and Su Bo's name lingered like a shadow.

When writing a book on the Internet, Qing Ci met an online writer named Xiao Xiaoman, who was a psychological counselor in reality, and she had consulted her on this issue.

How Qingci wants to live hard, love hard, and then work hard towards happiness as she wrote in her novel, but she has no strength, she can't do it.

The mobile phone screen dimmed, Qingci lit it up, dimmed, lit it up again, in the dark night, and so on......

It seemed that there were snakes pinching each other in her head, and she couldn't sleep, so she picked up a box of cigarettes in the hotel room, opened it and smoked it.

She sat alone on the edge of the bed and smoked all night until dawn, when she finally lay down in a daze.

Qingci was woken up by the sound of text messages on her mobile phone, and she took out her mobile phone to see that it was a text message from Su Bo.

Then the phone rang again, there was a message on WeChat, she opened it and saw that it was a reminder of a friend application, sent by Su Bo, additional information: Add me, send you the location

Qing Ci hesitated for a moment while holding his mobile phone, and clicked to agree.

After adding WeChat friends, Su Bo didn't say anything else, and directly sent a location.

Seeing Su Bo so indifferent, Qing Ci stared at the phone and smiled bitterly, ten years later, maybe for Su Bo, everything has long passed, he left her phone and added her friend just to invite her to the party, and inviting her to the party is just because she is also one of his students, or rather, treating her as an old friend, anyway, there is no other meaning.

Qing Ci leaned back, fell back on the bed, stared at the ceiling and thought about it for a long time, but finally decided to get up, wash, change clothes, put on makeup, and go out.