All day long, Lin Xiaoxiao had an abnormal smile on her face, if she didn't usually have a few intimate girlfriends, she would definitely be seen today.

When Su Qingyu held her hand, when Su Qingyu smiled at her, when Su Qingyu rode with her......

Such happiness, if it weren't for that strange illness, would be perfect.

The perfect two little guesses, the perfect childhood sweetheart...... If there is not the strange disease.

After spending a whole day of stupidity, Lin Xiaoxiao finally regained her former calm, of course, calm is relative, when the two of them are alone, whether it is the sugar content in her voice or the shyness that she carries out intentionally or unintentionally, she is a little far from usual.

In the evening, after washing up, a familiar sound came from the balcony.

Su Qingyu pushed the door in, no different from usual, but at this time, Lin Xiaoxiao's heartbeat was significantly faster.

In the past, when the two of them were occasionally in the same room, there were two small reasons for no guessing, and the layer of unpierced window paper to cover up, but now, ...... The two are already lovers.

Even if you can't do anything now, you can't do anything, that layer of ambiguity in your heart still exists.

"What's wrong? Not going to sleep? Su Qingyu looked at her a little playfully, with a wicked smile on the corner of his mouth.

"Nope." Lin Xiaoxiao pretended to be calm, and his brain was running rapidly.

His illness ...... Yes, his illness......

From yesterday to today, the two of them have kept silent about this, but this matter is indeed the most important thing at present.

Suddenly, Lin Xiaoxiao remembered that when he asked him what he wanted to do in the future, his answer was - alive.

Yes, alive.

Although it seems that he has accepted the reality and does not intend to rebel against fate, he still minds in his heart after all.

can complete the life completely, who would choose to quit halfway?

"I ......"

"You can say whatever you want, you can ask whatever you want, but shall we lie down and talk?" Su Qingyu patted the bed beside him, bent down and whispered to her, "Don't worry, I won't do anything bad." ”

Reaching out and giving him a punch, Lin Xiaoxiao finally regained his old mentality.

"Your father...... What exactly is being done? "Yes, Lin Xiaoxiao is very strange, she learned from the contents of that diary that Su Xing has been running around for Su Qingyu and Su Qingyu's mother's strange illness, so his early white hair and tired look ...... There is a plausible explanation for all of them.

Sighing softly, Su Qingyu said in a low voice: "You have read that diary of my mother, you should know that I, like my mother, have had memories since I was born.

"Three days after I was born, my mother died, and the photo in my diary was taken the day after I was born. Although I didn't understand anything at the time, those things were clearly imprinted in my mind.

"When my mother was pregnant with me, in fact, her physique was no longer good, although it is said that people of our clan can live to be thirty years old at most, but there are very few people who actually live to be thirty years old. When I was twenty-six years old, my mother became pregnant with me, and she miraculously supported me for ten more months in order to give birth to me.

"All I remember about my mother is her smile and her cold embrace, so I love being alone outside in the winter...... It feels very similar to my mother's embrace.

"After my mother died, my father held me and sat in front of my mother's grave for three days, after which he returned to Hong Kong and started to work hard. Working day and night, non-stop, just to accumulate funds. Then I went to all over the world to explore all kinds of mysterious medical and witchcraft at a high price, just to cure me.

"Most of the money he earned, most of it was used to collect all kinds of precious medicinal materials, according to his words, maybe these things are not used, but it is better than when he finds a way to heal, and then he finds that he has no medicinal materials in his hands, right? So, almost all of our savings were spent by him on this.

"As I said before, my rebellious period should have been around three years old. Although it is a bit exaggerated, when I was three years old, because I didn't want to follow my father around anymore, I wanted to have friends and communicate with people, so I didn't talk to my father for three months.

"Later, I sneaked out, you think, how far can a three-year-old child who can't even walk steadily?

"I ran to the door of the house, there was an open space where a couple of teenage kids were playing baseball, and they saw me, and two of them were talking to me and communicating, and I was very happy because I rarely communicated with anyone other than my father, but then one of the kids took me by the hand and tried to teach me how to play baseball...... They found out my secret.

At first they thought it was because of the cold weather, but when the boy said it, the other children came around me as if they had discovered a new world. After that, some people said that my hands were like dead people's hands, like corpses, but in fact, they had not touched the corpse at all.

"Later, they threw me with things, kicked me, tried to drive me away. At this time...... When my father found out that I was not at home, he chased me out and carried me back. ”

Su Qingyu sighed, lowered his head and smiled bitterly at Lin Xiao: "Before that, although I saw the words that my mother wrote to me, I couldn't really experience that kind of situation at all. Since then, I have understood what my mother left me, and I also understood that my father really loved me and wanted to protect me and save me. So, I followed him and accompanied him to all kinds of places, looking for all kinds of strange healing techniques, although I didn't believe that those things could save my life. But these are my father's lifelong obsessions, and I can't persuade him to give up until he really gets better. ”

“…… Are you afraid of death? Lin Xiaoxiao pressed her head against his chest and asked softly.

"I'm not afraid, I'm just afraid that I'm going to lose, to lose what I cherish, to lose what I cherish." Su Qingyu closed his eyes quietly, "Xiaoxiao, I'm very selfish...... Right? ”

Lin Xiaoxiao shook her head gently: "No, I said, whether you lied to me, whether you are selfish or not, this is my judgment, not yours." "If I hadn't met him, maybe ...... Even if you have money in this life, and you have everything you wanted to have in your previous life but couldn't have it, I'm afraid you may not be able to have true love, right?

In fact, she is just very lonely and wants someone who loves herself and someone she loves, but their future is shorter than others......

"Why are you coming to N City? I guess that wasn't your father's idea, right? "Yes, this should be Su Qingyu's own idea, but he didn't explain the reason completely at that time.

"I want to live the life of an ordinary person, in the place where my father lived. And ......" Su Qingyu lowered his head again and kissed her lightly on the top of her head, "I always feel ...... If it were you, even if you found out the secret of my hand, you wouldn't dislike my ......."

Lin Xiaoxiao laughed softly: "Of course I won't dislike it, this is a natural cooler." ”

As he spoke, he touched his hand along his arm, and the wrist was already the same as his palm, cold and cold, before knowing this, although Lin Xiaoxiao also felt that his body temperature was gradually expanding to his arm, but because it was not very obvious, he thought it was his own illusion.

"Actually, my expansion speed is already slow, my mother's whole little arm was cold when I was my age, I might live a few years longer than her." A smile rose at the corner of his mouth, how many more years to live...... It's good to live a few more years, as long as I can stay with her for a few more years.

The question of life and death befell the teenager prematurely. If he is as ignorant as an ordinary child, then maybe his life will be happier. However, he has a wisdom and mind that ordinary people can't imagine, and even remembers everything after he was born, everything he has seen and heard, which has to be said to be a kind of sadness.

So, it's happier to be stupid......

"Xiaoxiao, I'm very selfish, so I just hope you can be by my side, not like my father's persistence, his appearance...... It pains me. In fact, what about life? What about death? At least...... I've lived. ”

What about life? What about death? Oh, yes......

Lin Xiaoxiao closed her eyes, and the words life and death kept circling in her mind.

Suddenly, she sat up suddenly.