"Why are you obsessed with your career, really, are you destined to fight against the military?" After listening to Yu Fei's words, Jiang Tong said extremely depressed.

But no matter how depressed Jiang Tong was, he was not depressed, he said: "Probably there is no other way, you know, if someone else is okay, reporter Su ...... After all, their family went through that kind of thing, and it was very difficult to get them to accept my profession. This is also understandable. ”

Stopping Yu Fei's frowning brows, Jiang Tong sighed and asked, "Then what are you going to do?" Jobs? Or ......"

"I don't plan to give up my love with Reporter Su." Without waiting for Jiang Tong to finish asking, Yu Fei replied firmly.

"Are you planning to change jobs? So I took this out today to fill it in? Jiang Tong raised the application form in his hand and asked.

Yu Fei looked at Jiang Tong for a while and said, "I don't know. If you were me, what would you choose? ”

"Don't ask me how I choose, after all, I'm not you, and I'm not in the same situation as you, what I choose may not be suitable for you, so don't ask me, you decide for yourself." Jiang Tong said that he was right.

Although he didn't want Yu Fei to change jobs, he also knew Yu Fei's feelings for Su Li, as a friend, he hoped that Yu Fei could choose a decision that suited him and would not regret it in the future. So in this case, Jiang Tong would not say anything that would affect Yu Fei's judgment.

"It doesn't matter if you really can't decide, it's still a long time before the end of sending troops, maybe there will be some new changes, there's no need to use that potential threat to affect your and Su's happiness now, take advantage of the present." Jiang Tong added.

Yu smiled gratefully and said, "You're right." After speaking, he took the application form from Jiang Tong's hand and put it in the drawer.

Jiang Tong saw that he was in a much better state, and asked again: "Reporter Su should come back after going to the city for so long, aren't you going to pick her up?"

"She said she had some things to do and told me not to pick her up." Yu Fei replied.

An Yanzhe's villa area has not been visited for a long time, showing a bleak feeling. Although the climate in South Sudan is still in the hot summer, and the vegetation is also very vigorous, there is always a sense of sadness when walking on the road of the villa area. The plane trees on both sides of the road are tall and dense, casting patches of cool shade and obscuring the sun's blazing rays.

Su Li walked along the road lined with plane trees, and kept walking, the road seemed to be very long, and it was indeed very long. There was no one else but her on the whole road. Looking from the back, it looks a little lonely and lonely.

It was the first time she had walked this road, and she had come by car before. It was also the first time she had observed her surroundings in such detail, and when she came here before, she had never observed them well for various reasons. Maybe at that time, I didn't want to observe it well, but now I am walking this road so carefully, just recalling the memories of the past, but it is just a kind of remembrance of the old people.

How much she likes An Yanzhe now to be able to accompany her to walk around here, if he is still alive, she makes such a request, he will definitely agree.

"You're coming, I know you're coming." As she walked, Su Li suddenly felt a voice coming from her right side.

She turned her head to see that An Yanzhe was on her right, still wearing a straight suit, neatly cut, clean and tidy. There was still a charming smile on his angular face.

"Well, here we are." Su Li replied.

"How lonely it is to walk alone, I'll go with you." An Yanzhe said.

"Okay." Su Li said with a smile, and then the two walked together on Wutong Road, and they walked like this for a long, long time, and walked a long, long way.

"Do you regret it?"

"Regret what?"

"Regret falling in love with me?"

"How so? No regrets at all. ”

"Why not regret it? If it weren't for falling in love with me, it wouldn't be ...... You'll be alive, won't you? ”

"I don't regret that, if I hadn't fallen in love with you, my life would have been so boring."

"It's not interesting at all."

"There's a so-called, there's a so-called for me."

The two of them walked and talked, the shadows dragged behind, and the road behind them became longer and longer.

Su Li sometimes turned her head to look at An Yanzhe to make sure he was still there, and this time when she turned her head to look at An Yanzhe, An Yanzhe suddenly looked at her with a smile and said, "I love you."

After saying this "I love you", Su Li seemed to feel that he was no longer on the road of An Yanzhe's villa, but back to the helicopter over the White Nile, back to that day. An Yanzhe was the same, smiled and said "I love you", and then let go of Su Li's hand and fell from the plane.

The two "I love you" kept ringing in Su Li's ears, and then they converged into a sentence, these three words, like needles, pierced Su Li's heart little by little, getting deeper and deeper. Thinking of that sentence again, when she was in that scene, Su Li clearly felt a burst of pain in her heart, and this sudden pain made her unable to support her body, holding her chest and slowly squatting.

She squatted for a long time, and didn't get up until she felt that there was no pain recently, and then looked, where was An Yanzhe's shadow.

"Is it another hallucination?" Su Li frowned and asked, in fact, it was indeed an illusion.

"It's really getting worse lately." After confirming that it was his hallucination, Su Li said to himself again.

"How's the situation with Reporter Su?" Cheng Shiyang asked Dr. Wen.

After finishing the conversation, Su Li went to An Yanzhe's villa area by himself, and Dr. Wen stayed to chat with Cheng Shiyang and Weng Hua about Su Li's situation.

"It looks like it's getting better." Dr. Wen said.

"What do you mean by what it seems?" Weng Hua asked, thinking that Dr. Wen should not use these words casually.

"It just looks like it's getting better, but it's actually not really changing." Dr. Moon replied, and then he explained: "From what you know, as well as what Su reported herself, it can be presumed that her condition has improved somewhat, such as the sleep you talked about, and things like nightmares, reactions to shootings and other violent incidents, and so on." In these aspects, there has indeed been some improvement. But the substantive issues have not been resolved. ”

"Substantive issues mean ......," Cheng Shiyang asked.

"The source of all her fears, which is the source of all her fears, has not been eliminated. So for the time being, she looks like she's getting better, but if she goes through a similar experience again, or gets some stimulation again, there will still be a certain risk. Dr. Moon replied.

"Can that be cured completely?" Weng Hua asked.

Dr. Wen thought for a while, and then said very objectively: "It depends on herself, like this kind of psychological problem, the intervention of external forces can only alleviate or inhibit her condition, but it depends on her own to solve it fundamentally."

"But ......," Dr. Moon added, but with some hesitation.

"But what?" Cheng Shiyang asked.

Dr. Wen said hesitantly: "I always feel that Reporter Su's condition is a little strange, but I can't say what is strange. There is still too little time for this conversation, and if we can contact each other for a long time, I think I can still find out the problem, but unfortunately I have to go back to China tonight. ”

Cheng Shiyang also felt very sorry, she said: "This time is really rushed, but thank you for being thin, you are so busy and deliberately came."

"yes, that's a big trouble for you. When Su Li returns to China, we will visit you. Weng Hua also said politely.

Su Li walked around the villa area for a long time, went to the villa that carried all the memories between her and An Yanzhe, and finally came to the place where An Yanyue's cemetery was located. The grass here has not been built for a long time, and it grows like crazy. It was completely different from what Su Li saw at the beginning. In the future, I am afraid that this place will become a barren mound.

From a distance, Su Li saw that there was a person standing in front of the cemetery, she recognized that person was Nie Zhenfeng, and she didn't call him, so she walked over.

"Why are you here?" Nie Zhenfeng asked after seeing Su Li.

"Where's my brother-in-law? Why come? Su Li didn't answer, but asked rhetorically.

After a while, Nie Zhenfeng said: "I'm leaving, let's take a last look at the old people, it may be the last time we will see each other." His tone sounded a little mournful, and with this bleak scenery, remembering the story that happened to them, this desolation was even stronger.

"Although I am not leaving now, I still come to see the old people." Su Li said.

"It's all old people, why do you want to come and see it, it only adds to your troubles." Nie Zhenfeng said.

"Don't you either." Su Li said.

"I'm different." Nie Zhenfeng said: "I am a sinner, a person who has committed a crime, but is still alive, those who have nothing wrong, but they are all dead because of me, only I am alive, these troubles are what I should suffer."

Su Li looked at Nie Zhenfeng, felt that his current thoughts were a little negative, and said: "You are not a sinner, and they did not die because of you, don't blame yourself for all the faults."

"That is, you are too kind to comfort me so much." Nie Zhenfeng looked at Su Li and said with a smile, and then his smile suddenly dimmed, and continued: "Brother and sister of the An family, Xin'er and Xiaofan both died because of me, if it weren't for me, they should be doing well now."

"My sister said she didn't regret it." Su Li said, her words attracted Nie Zhenfeng's attention, and he turned his head to look at her.

"After going through that difficult, painful situation, she said she didn't regret it, she didn't regret knowing you, she didn't regret marrying you, she didn't hurt you. Before she leaves, let me tell you at the end that she doesn't regret it. ”

"It's just that after so many years, I've been so immersed in fear that I don't dare to recall those things and forget this sentence. Lately, the things in my memory have become clearer, and that phrase has come up again and again, and I think I should tell you. ”

Su Li continued: "An Yanyue shouldn't blame you, she still loves you until she dies, how can she bear to be cruel to you?" As for An Yanzhe, it's not because of you. If he had to blame one person for his death, that person should be me. ”