After being brought back to the palace by Zhan Rin, Yu Zi had already completely lost his mind to Ji Zheqian, and seeing that Ji Zheqian had such a big son, it only made him understand better where the impossibility between them had reached, and he would never force it again.

Once loved, Yu Zi really loved Ji Zheqian, so he has been in pain, because of Ji Zheqian and resisted Zhan Rin's good, he has no regrets about loving Ji Zheqian, never, it was the most indelible years of his life.

But no matter how much they love, they can't do it, Yu Zi has long understood this, he said that he will never disturb Ji Zheqian's happiness, and he will not tolerate anyone to disturb Ji Zheqian's life, this is Yu Zi's greatest insistence on the love he once had, even if he can't love anymore, but he once loved.

"Doctor, ......" A small voice came from behind Zhan Rin, Zhan Rin was stunned, but he didn't expect Yu Zi to shout this affectionate title again, the flame called jealousy was scorching and burning, and this title carried a past that Zhan Rin couldn't set foot in.

Ji Zheqian was also stunned, because Yu Zi basically didn't call him like this after the reunion.

Watching Yu Zi slowly walk out from behind Zhan Rin with hope, the familiar face but with a strange feeling, Ji Zheqian's heart hurt, Yu Zi seems to have lost weight again, haven't you eaten well?

Yu Zi stared at Ji Zheqian seriously, this is the man he has loved for many years, and he is also the first man to enter his heart, Yu Zi tilted his head and gently showed a smile, just right, one more is more, and one less is less.

"I wish you happiness." Yu Zi looked at Ji Zheqian with the gentlest gaze, and silently repeated again, "I wish you happiness." ”

Ji Zheqian's pupils dilated suddenly, and his heart fell to the bottom of the valley with a "chuckle", what does Yu Zi mean by this?

I suddenly remembered a sentence that Yu Zi had said a long time ago - "Doctor, if one day you marry a wife and have children for various reasons, I may be very sad, but I will try to smile and say, 'I wish you happiness'......"

I didn't expect to be turned into a prophecy by Yu Zi!

Ji Zheqian's heart was like a knife, and his pale lips opened slightly, "Yu Zi, don't be like this, can you listen to my explanation first?" ”

Yu Zi finally glanced at the lovely child, maybe his fulfillment can be exchanged for a beautiful and warm family, people like him are indeed no longer worthy of Ji Zheqian's waiting.

"Let's go." The tone of the last sentence to Zhan Rin became cold, and after the words, Yu Zi took the lead in leaving.

"Yu Zi......" Ji Zheqian anxiously wanted to follow, but a soft and glutinous children's voice came into his ears, "Daddy! Are you going to leave again? ”

Seeing Memorial Qian's little face with fear and grievances in anticipation, and then at the back of Yu Zi's resolute departure, and the sentence "I wish you happiness" that seemed to be cut in his heart, Ji Zheqian fell on the high-end leather chair in despair.

"Aren't you going to chase it?" Ge Xin said lightly.

Ji Zheqian shook his head, "This time, he is very resolute, not to mention that man will not let me have a chance to get close to Yu Zi, if I catch up, he will only be more difficult." ”

"Daddy, I said at the same table that the amusement park is fun, I haven't been there yet, can you take me to play now?" Remembrance Qian carried the small schoolbag well, children are children, and after eating, they think about what to play.

Ji Zheqian felt sorry in his heart, no matter what, he owed Ge Xin and this child, it was impossible to refuse such a small request, Ji Zheqian nodded, "Okay, Dad will take you to the amusement park to play." ”

Ge Xin and Ji Zheqian stood outside the railing of the merry-go-round and looked at the memorial Qian who was dancing excitedly, at this moment, the backs of the two were extremely right, no one would think that they were not a loving couple, but unfortunately they were not.

Ge Xin said softly: "You're in a bad mood, let's go first." ”

Ji Zheqian blinked tiredly, "Let's play with Nian Qian for a while." ”

"No need, I'll just look at him, if he asks, I'll tell him that you are busy with work, children will soon forget, I've been playing with him for so long today, thank you very much." Ge Xin pulled out an ugly smile and said.

Ji Zheqian didn't refuse again, "Okay, I'll go first, you pay attention to safety, and besides, we don't need to say thank you to each other, he is also my son." ”

The man's back gradually faded away, and Ge Xin couldn't count how many times she watched Ji Zheqian walk out of her sight with blurred tears in her eyes, only to feel that her heart was numb, and the tears were just flowing habitually, and her heart was no longer painful......

Yu Zi was silent along the way, and Zhan Rin's mood was unexpectedly good, because Yu Zi's sentence of "I wish you happiness" already represented Yu Zi's acceptance of the fact that he and Ji Zheqian were no longer possible.

Because he was in a good mood, Zhan Rin made a concession.

Staring at Yu Zi's silent side face, Zhan Rin said lightly: "Why don't you come out with you every month today, no matter what you do or where you go, okay?" ”

Yu Zi lowered his head, "I have to say, Zhan Rin, you really have the means, step by step, you are so accurate." ”

There is no sense of irony and disdain, Yu Zi just calmly told the facts, he was able to witness Ji Zheqian having a family, Yu Zi was only pleased for Ji Zheqian, the love that he had insisted on for so many years may have been exhausted for various reasons, and now Yu Zi only hopes that Ji Zheqian can be truly happy.

Zhan Rin raised Yu Zi's cheek, "I said that in order to get your heart, I will do whatever it takes to get your heart. ”

Yu Zi looked away, her eyelashes, which were as thin as cicada wings, trembled slightly, her lips opened slightly, and with uncertain doubts, a very light sentence floated out from between her cherry blossom-like seductive lips: "Zhan Rin, you ...... Do you really love me that much? ”

"Is it that unbelievable that I love you?!" The sonorous and powerful words roared in Yu Zi's mind like a firework explosion, and reason seemed to be about to be burned, and Yu Zi closed his eyes in pain.

The bright smile of the relatives before their death and the cold grave after death remind Yu Zi all the time that the man sitting next to him is one of the culprits!

Whether it is his younger brother Qianyu, whose life is forever fixed in the mood for love, or his brother who died tragically in the dark alley, or the mother who was stimulated to go crazy after witnessing the tragic death of his brother, or the father who lost his life to save his crazy mother......

Every face flashed in Yu Zi's mind one by one, pain and sadness were entangled, all of this, if none existed, or all were forgotten, maybe he could convince himself to slowly accept Zhan Rin from the bottom of his heart, accept this violent but gentle man who gave him.

It's just that those relatives who have dreamed of tragic death at midnight, how can they forget? It is impossible to forget, it was the heaviest pain of his life!

Between love and hate, hovering most painfully!

He hates Zhan Rin, why should he shake his determination to take revenge!

Why despicably use rings, arms keys, and love to bind and imprison his freedom! Why let him live so painfully!

But is there only hatred and no love?

No, it's not, it's love and hate, it's just hard to tell.

Nine years, nine years have passed, if Yu Zi only has a simple hatred for Zhan Rin, how can he be soft-hearted again and again, and even spend seven years alone and tormented after sending Zhan Rin to prison?

His heart has long been lost, even though he knows that Zhan Rin is his enemy, and he knows that Zhan Rin is a ruthless and cold villain, he still falls.

Even if he didn't want to admit it, he didn't want to admit defeat, when Zhan Rin carried everything and fell into a coma for him, his heart was as painful as being torn, and he finally had to admit a fact.

I don't want Zhan Rin to die, even if it's an enemy, I still don't want to, there have been many times, I want to accept Zhan Rin's love desperately, he is indeed cold, but he is not a dead man, he can feel how Zhan Rin is right.

It's just that once accepted, it means betraying those deceased relatives, betraying the oath he once made in front of the Thousand Imperial Tombs, betraying his mother's heartache of crying blood, and the rest of the days, even if they are with Zhan Rin, are only the appearance of happiness, just ask, who can live a happy life with the enemy?

A life full of guilt cannot have a sense of happiness at all!

However, for the current Yu Zi, it doesn't make any sense to accept it or not, because Zhan Rin won't let him go, right?

"You...... You'll never let me go, will you? The words spit out from Yu Zi's trembling lips seemed to be hopeful, and Yu Zi didn't know whether he wanted an answer of yes or no at the moment.

The answer to Yu Zi was an extraordinarily lingering kiss, with patience that exhausted all time, until the air in the chest cavity was squeezed to the bare to the brink, and the four lips slowly parted.

The male voice that became low and hoarse because of ** sounded in Yu Zi's ears, unswerving.

"Even if you want to, I won't let you go." What followed was a tight hug, and the two hearts that were tight to their chests seemed to fit together perfectly, tight enough to be able to listen to each other's hearts.

Yu Zi breathed a sigh of relief, at least staying by Zhan Rin's side was not out of his own volition, the guilt would not be so heavy, since Zhan Rin would not let him go, then let their love continue to suffer.

Love him with guilt, quietly, and carefully, and love this man who hugs him tightly in his unique way.

If one day, they can go to the end of their lives like this, maybe Yu Zi will leave all the guilt, turn her back on her dead relatives, and muster up the courage to say to Zhan Rin: I actually love you too.

It's just that now it can't, can't.

Yu Zi leaned on Zhan Rin's shoulder and closed his eyes to recuperate, he thought a lot alone, his thoughts and suffering, no one could understand, Zhan Rin's love for him was too heavy, and at the same time, there was no choice, whether he was with Zhan Rin or not, he didn't seem to be happy.

Who can understand these thoughts?

The outline of Zhan Rin slowly deepened in Yu Zi's mind, whether you fall in love with me or I fall in love with you, we are each other's calamities, since you don't let go, then I can only accompany you to continue......