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That year, the winter in Jiangcheng was extremely cold. Heavy snow covered all the high-rise buildings, forests and lakes, except for the Yangtze River, which slowly descended and was cold on both banks.

Lin Mochen's car was parked under an old residential building. Two accompanying assistants were waiting next to the car. Only Lin Mochen, wearing a black coat and dark scarf, followed He Jing upstairs.

He Jing was a little cramped and a little humble, since Lin Moche and Mu Hanxia first met in Jiangcheng many years ago, she had actually been a little afraid of this man. Now, he is a well-known entrepreneur in the country, and she feels even more embarrassed. But fortunately, Lin Mochen basically didn't speak all the way, just quietly followed her upstairs.

"Asha writes me a few letters every year." He Jing said, "Most of them are talking about her life over there. You're also mentioned occasionally. ”

"Really? What do you mention about me? ”

He Jing paused for a moment and said, "When she first went, she was still very reluctant to you. It's pathetic. ”

Lin Mochen was silent.

When he arrived at the door, He Jing took out the key to open the door, and asked tentatively, "You said you wanted to see those letters...... You're so good now, ...... between you and her"

"Between me and her, it's not over yet."

He Jing was stunned, remembering what he had heard Mu Hanxia say, and the two of them were all about each other, and suddenly felt a little sad. She originally accepted a sum of money from Lin Mochen, and promised him to pick up all the things related to Mu Hanxia, but she was still guilty in her heart. But now I suddenly feel that I may have helped these two people by doing this?

"It's all here." He Jing handed him a small cardboard box. Lin Mochen took it with both hands, there were not many things inside, more than 20 letters, a few postcards, and a few gadgets, Lin Mochen looked at the words on the postcard, it belonged to her.

"Thank you." Without saying a word, he took the box and turned to leave.

He Jing stood upstairs and watched him go downstairs, the assistant next to him wanted to take the box, but he avoided it with his hand and got into the car. The car drove away, and the twilight was falling little by little. He Jing returned to the house, took out the brown paper bag given by Lin Mochen, and looked at the thick stacks of banknotes inside, a little stunned.

After a while, she suddenly reacted and rushed to the window, only to see a vast snowfall.

Oh no, the letter that Mu Hanxia sent recently was also inside.

——

It was dark, Lin Mochen sat on the bed in the suite on the top floor of the hotel, took off his coat and threw it aside. Letters were scattered all over the bed.

In fact, everything has been smooth for him recently, and Fengchen's development has also been particularly smooth, and his annual profits have continued to break through. He has just stood in his thirties, and he can be regarded as full of ambition, high spirits, and in a really good mood. Thinking of going to the United States to find Mu Hanxia after the New Year, I am also a little sure in my heart.

He poured a glass of red wine, picked up the first letter, and read it carefully. The letterhead was a little yellowed, and it was sent to He Jing in October 2009, when she just went abroad.

“…… Everything finally went smoothly and I was in the hospital for more than a week. In fact, it's not a particularly serious illness, it's just that I'm sick urgently, why do I feel that my vitality is greatly damaged, as if I am seriously ill.

My landlord's name is Zhang Zi, he is a very good person, and he also has the love of his life, but he died. He was all about her, and then every day he was studying technology. Sometimes I see him suddenly think that he is lucky.

At least the person I love is still alive on the other side of the world. He's such a smart and powerful person, I know he's going to get better and better.

It's just that he doesn't belong to me anymore. ”

……

The second letter he saw was a year later, when Mu Hanxia was busy with his studies and began to work outside.

"Everything was fine. You said you got married, and I'm really happy. The gift money has been remitted, so be sure to accept it. I'm not polite to you, if you have a child in the future, I will be the child's godmother. I'm really sorry I didn't come back to watch the ceremony. Later, when I have established myself here, I will come back to see you. Wait for me......

I was on my way to work at a café yesterday when I saw a guy who looked a lot like him. I didn't look much at it. I think I'm stupid enough to think of him. But now, I'm much calmer. Whether he is good or bad now has nothing to do with me. Jing, I think that's right. My decision to leave him was the right one. will have my current smooth life.

I will study hard and work hard. I'll be back in a few years and wait for me. ”

……

Before he knew it, Lin Mochen had finished drinking a bottle of wine. He felt his brain swell a little, and some kind of soft and nostalgic emotion seemed to slowly cover his heart. But there seems to be a certain void that is constantly expanding in his heart. He is good at self-control, but the feelings at this time are contradictory and cannot be controlled. Alcohol exacerbates this feeling of disability. He vaguely knew that he should not look any further, because the more years he lost, the farther he would go. But he couldn't stop.

Then he saw the letter. The payment date is two months ago.

"Ah Jing:

See the words like meeting.

I was also worried when I saw you say in your letter that you did not get along with him well after marriage. I don't know how to say it, because after all, I haven't experienced married life either. But then I thought about it seriously, since I was married and had decided that each other was a person who had lived a lifetime, then as a woman, I would try my best to resolve the conflict and make each other get along better.

However, in marriage, you must protect yourself. This is primary. Don't let him really hurt you, or I won't let him go.

I've sent some more money over to meet your urgent needs. But if the two of you really can't get by, there is really something wrong with his character, and you want to divorce, I just want to say that I support all your decisions. I can't be by your side, please take care of yourself.

I'm sorry I didn't go back to see you.

……

Seeing you talk about your love, I think my experience doesn't give you much reference significance. But life in the world is not only about love.

A few months ago, I went to Costa Rica in South America. There's a small town there with a large area of rainforest. It's the best place I've been to in years. A few young people and I followed a local guide and joined a night tour, and we watched wild animals come out late at night to feed, poisonous snakes, lizards, ...... It was a bizarre experience I had never heard of before. In the middle of the night, you'll hear the sound of the wind blowing through the rainforest, and they call it 'Shutao', which is a very quiet and very powerful sound.

Later, I played a project called Canopy (which is the name), on a very high hill with a zipline strapped to my body, and then leaned over and slid down. I still remember how I felt. I skied for a few kilometers, and the stars seemed to be right next to me, and I could reach them. On the earth, the rainforest looks like little broccoli, so far away, so quiet. Some people are sitting and sliding down, some are lying down. Among the people who traveled with me, I was the only one who opened my arms, shouted all the way, and glided down. The coach even praised me for it. Actually, I was very scared, because it was so high that people seemed to fall from a great height. But it's also very exciting and very fun. It's as if the whole world is at my feet, and I'm so small and worthy of respect.

When I landed, my legs were all weak, and I had to be held on to stand firmly. But at that moment, I suddenly remembered Lin Mochen.

Actually, I haven't thought of him for a long time. But I remembered at that moment. Because I suddenly felt relieved. Life is so big, the world is so big. He's just a passer-by after all. Whether I was let down by him, or loved him deeply, it was just an experience in life. He helped me grow, he used to be a part of my life, I should be grateful, that's enough.

I've let him go completely. When I think of him, I don't feel anything in my heart anymore. ”

……

Lin Mochen put down the wine glass and picked it up again. The letter slipped from his fingers, and he looked up at the dark night outside the window, with no stars or the slightest sign of sunshine.

There were still a few bottles of wine in the wine cabinet in the room, and he took them out and drank a few more glasses, his face was cold, and his heart became colder and colder.

Since Mu Hanxia went abroad, he has hardly drunk a drop of alcohol, and no matter how important the occasion is, he will not make an exception. But he didn't know how much he drank that night. But the young man who had just returned to China, when he was drunk, was ignorant and arrogant. Now he is in a high position, rich and powerful, and he has drunk alcohol, but he is getting quieter and quieter.

Finally, he leaned on the floor beside the bed, surrounded by letters. He found the one, and his eyes fell on the last line. Tears instantly approached the man's eyes, and he crumpled the letter violently and threw it away.

But when he looked up, he didn't see the mess and the snow outside the window. What I saw was my own fate.

When he looked down on his fate, he suddenly understood that that woman was obviously the branch that was the most entangled. She meandered in the night, she wandered in dreams. She is entangled not only with his love, but also with her career, ideals, and soul desires.

If he can't get it, if he can't find it, this is the end of his life.